### 24.09.01

- Woke up at 7AM. Took a shower and ate breakfast that Jinjoo made for me. Spent time with Jinjoo. Worked at home waiting for Stanford library to open. Reviewed August. Planned September. Renewed car registration with California DMV. Posted Delgada Beach recordings on social media.
- At Stanford Library, had difficulty focusing on coding work. Focusing eyes on a near screen made me feel dizzy today for some reason. Decided to go on a long stroll: visited Starbucks at Tresidder Union, Cantor Arts Museum, then Nespresso at Stanford Shopping Center.
- Texted Jinjoo to ask for her opinion on my idea to bring the lunch to her from car to library. She and I ate lunch together while sitting in front of the library. Inside the library, we played MadLibs. Yesterday during our conversation, I realized she does not know MadLibs, so I wanted to play it with her, but I forgot yesterday. Today, we saw a MadLibs wall art in the library that invited us to play, so we did, then I asked ChatGPT to generate a MadLibs story for us, then played it with her.
- We studied more in the library. Then we visited Palo Alto Trader Joe’s to shop for grocery.
- At home, she cooked Sichuan noodle for me.

### 24.09.02

- Woke up feeling a bit tired. Called mom during a short stroll while drinking morning coffee. Washed dishes. Rested after telling Jinjoo that I want to rest alone a bit this morning.
- Went grocery shopping with Jinjoo for hot pot. She was planning to stay home and study today, but followed me to the grocery store and cooked hot pot at home for me.
- Monitors got delivered, so I set the two monitors up. I feel productive!

### 24.09.03

- During sleep, felt cold. But after sleep, felt nice that my nose was not stuffed with allergic reactions. I had been getting allergic reactions after she came back, and I asked her if she can try sleeping without a particular cosmetic product in case it is causing me allergic reactions. I think it is worth investigating whether I am allergic to the cosmetic products.
- Today, Jinjoo departed home in the morning to spend the day studying for CFA at the library. She biked to the library. We each got to spend daytime on our own. I felt happy and productive too. She has been pushing for this, and I have been clarifying to her that I also want this. We had an argument, because I wanted her to say the same idea just more lovingly, whereas she considered it unimportant how she says it (or considered it important that she herself does not feel stressed out by having to speak carefully to me) as long as she says what she wants to say accurately. I also got to take care of home such as cleaning bathroom, washing dishes, taking out trash. After a stroll, figured out which coolant to get for car. Also, called car service center to schedule a recall repair service.
- Worked on Centum at home. Finished developing a new linking method that supports any internal links including lists and posts as opposed to only topics. Ran for exercise. Called mom during the run.
- Jinjoo returned home at 8PM. Cooked malatang for dinner for us.

### 24.09.04

- Spent time with Jinjoo in the morning and she suggested taking a lazy day. I suggested taking a lazy morning then going back to productivity in the afternoon. We drove out to buy grocery. I got car coolant. We shopped at Kings Seafood Center and Trader Joes. At home, we ate malatang then fell asleep. It was dinner time when we woke up from the nap.
- Went on a stroll at the park. Ate dinner with Jinjoo. Watched an episode of OEY Marriage Report. Spent time together. Fell asleep.
- Planned San Francisco date. I am planning to visit Valencia Street before the Chase Center event.

### 24.09.05

- Had bad sleep again over night. I need to fix my eating habits. Recently, I ate late at night and also ate a lot of desserts such as ice cream. On a positive note, I have not been suffering allergy in the past several days. Changes are asking her to try stop using cosmetic products and washing off laundry detergent residue extensively.
- Got tickets to an event happening in San Francisco on the day after the Acquired Podcast Live Show event. Jinjoo and I will visit San Francisco on Tuesday and on Wednesday. I guess I can consider visiting Hayes Valley or Fillmore Street on Wednesday. Called car service center and moved appointment to next Friday.
- Yesterday, I asked Jinjoo whether she wants to bike to the library on her own or whether she would like me to drive her there. Today, she asked me to drive her there, so I packed my computer and notebooks to work there as well. On the way to the library, we chatted about access to electricity as a factor to victory in the AI industry. Before driving, refilled car coolant.
- I think it will be cool to get autographs from Ben and David at the Acquired Podcast Live Show. I will purchase fabric markers and bring my Taylor Swift Denim Jacket. Purchased fabric markers.
- At the library, studied books related to advertising industry: The Curve by Nicholas Lovell, Seducing Strangers by Josh Weltman, 101 Things I Learned in Advertising School by Tracy Arrington and Matthew Frederick, Beyond Advertising by Yoram Wind and Catharine Findiesen Hays, The End of Advertising by Andrew Essex.
- After the library, shopped grocery at Target with Jinjoo. Ate malatang for dinner.

### 24.09.06

- Spent day at home. Watched OEY Marriage Report episodes with Jinjoo. Remarked how love is more endurable than her understanding. Jinjoo keeps predicting that partners will be hating each other due to bad traits of the other, then discovering that they still love each other and try to work things out even after all the shocking findings and severe problems.
- Worked on Centum coding work. Reached a milestone which is Generative Lists and Generative Posts. I think current version of Centum is pretty decent already. I will minimize remaining coding work, publish it, then spend the rest of this month writing documents, reviewing and planning. I will spend the season maximizing distribution and monetization before expanding features.
- In the evening, Jinjoo and I went on a stroll together around the neighborhood. Yesterday, I strolled alone at the park while she was taking a nap in the evening, then I sent her photos of the park filled with couples strolling together, telling her that I envy them. So today, I got to stroll together with her. We discussed my plans for Centum (“Live Like Them”).

### 24.09.07

- Today is D104C. I will plan for a new profile for me in the next 100 days and make the account on D105.
- Made erewhon accounts on social media sites.
- We drove to Hillsdale to meet Sylvia and Cindy for lunch. We ate dim sum at Palette Tea Garden while drinking the puerh tea she brought from home. Jinjoo gifted them some puerh tea leaves and Thai Nguyen “first buds” green tea leaves. After lunch, we got a cup of rose coffee at Philz, then drove to Half Moon Bay to hike with Sylvia and Cindy. We hiked along the coast through Ritz Carlton. There was a wedding ceremony today. Jinjoo has been saying she wants to have a romantic dinner with me at the Half Moon Bay Ritz Carlton one day, so I have been wanting to visit sometime. I got to do it today. We got dry ramen for dinner at San Mateo Kajiken.

### 24.09.08

- I fear Jinjoo has been feeling unwell, unable to rest well at home due to nose getting blocked probably due to allergic reaction to something. We have been cleaning home so diligently. She got sinus rinse. During nap, her body was hot. At night, she and I chatted for over an hour about her fear that she has low fertility due to ovarian cysts. I comforted her.
- Woke up at 8AM. During shower, felt sad that Jinjoo is having difficulty resting well at home due to allergy. I also realized that our home is getting messy partially due to the fact that she sleeps until later than I wake up, and I need morning hours for home cleaning tasks. Mom used to tell me she's not able to get morning chores done, because I sleep until too late. Living with Jinjoo makes me understand mom so much.
- Wrote a speech for dad to deliver at the upcoming event for Samsung executives. The speech gives credit to the Samsung firm hosting the event this year, then posits that AI economic impact becomes a reality only when it is applied to human work. I am positing application matters more than invention and that expertise in deploying to sites with many human workers matters greatly in order to position dad in a strong position.
- After stroll, at home, installed Herman Miller Jarvis Monitor Arm. Washed dishes.
- Jinjoo claimed that I insisted on coming over to her home for lunch the week we started dating. I showed her my diary record to prove that I asked her to eat lunch at the park and she invited me over to her home. Haha.
- I was able to successfully debug a problem for Centum that has been preventing Generative Lists feature from working in production.
- At midnight, Jinjoo and I chatted for over an hour on bed about her illness. She feels aching pain in her left lower belly as if she has a bruise inside. I searched online and it might be ovarian cyst. She told me about her fears regarding fertility. Likely, she is fertile, but she still fears the slim chance that she is not able to have a child, and that I might leave her if she cannot have a child. I told her I will indeed feel sad if I cannot have a child with her genes and my genes but that I will still stay with her to figure out best action whatever happens, such as having a baby with our genes outside of her body or raising a baby with my genes but while still living life together with her.
- Jinjoo told me I am the most loving person in her life.

### 24.09.09

- Over night, I regulated temperature and humidity and threw the blanket back over Jinjoo while she kept kicking it away and snoring. She got a good sleep and felt recovered. Drove Jinjoo to Santa Clara Square for her dentist appointment although she told me she can bike there alone. Visited Costco to fuel car.
- I made a decent progress on coding work already recently, publishing “3.0: Generative Lists” to production. I will spend this week on writing work and traveling San Francisco, then work on “3.1: Member Profiles” in the minimum scope possible.
- Watched Apple Event live stream: Apple Watch Series 10, Air Pods 3 series, and iPhone 16 series.
- Worked at Cupertino Library. Studied marketing books while planning distribution work for Centum FY3 S1. Did not have success in coming up with a satisfying plan.
- On way home, shopped grocery at Costco. Had a conflict with Jinjoo after she asked me whether I was engaging in road rage. She was trying to examine whether I was getting a migraine, but I got offended that she thinks I was acting aggressively for honking once to warn a driver who was driving very fast in the parking lot towards us.

### 24.09.10

- Jinjoo and I are still in conflict. I tried to make peace with her, yesterday night before dinner, then today during drive to the Caltrain station, but I felt like she was taking advantage of the fact that I'm trying to make peace with her. We did not go to Valencia Street during the day. We departed home just in time to go see the Acquired Podcast Live Show event at the San Francisco Chase Center.
- After the argument with Jinjoo in the car, I felt unwell at the Caltrain station: discomfort in breathing. We were not speaking to each other, but I told her after the situation did not get better, as in smart watch reported resting heart rate at over 105 and stress level at 100% no matter what I tried alone, after 15 minutes, in case the situation got worse. She suggested that we hug. We did, and I had an easier time breathing, stress level reported by the watch went down to around 80%, and heart rate got down to 90 bpm. We held hands and chatted and had a good time at the Acquired Podcast Live Show event. By time we were on our way back, I measured again and saw that my stress level was under 10% and heart rate was 60 bpm. She says she feels a grave duty for having such effect on me. We are also slightly worried since I am suspecting rapid drop in stress level as a suspected cause for migraine, so we are monitoring my health condition carefully.
- Jinjoo and I rode Caltrain on our way to San Francisco. We were on the new electric train, and she was excited to check out the train. We strolled around the train cars. I did not feel excited about any of the train features, but I was excited about Jinjoo’s excitement for the train’s features.
- Visited the San Francisco Chase Center for the Acquired Podcast Live Show event. The event featured Acquired Podcast hosts Ben Gilbert & David Rosenthal, Spotify CEO Daniel Ek, Journalist Emily Chang, Meta CEO Mark Zuckerberg. Remote guests are J. P. Morgan CEO Jamie Dimon and Nvidia CEO Jensen Huang.
- At the Acquired Podcast Live Show event, purchased a limited edition merchandise: a hoodie that says “Semiconductors & Luxury Goods & Discounted Retailers & Media Franchises & Fast Cars.” in reference to the businesses the business podcast discussed in past episodes. Jinjoo purchased a version with the visual graphic that the events team made for tonight’s event. Now that I think about it, I think this pair of hoodies might be our first couple apparel. The first concert event we visited as a couple is a business podcast live show with world-class business leaders as speakers, and the first couple apparel we got is listing great businesses. Haha.

### 24.09.11

- Woke up at 6:30 AM feeling pretty refreshed. Sat down at the desk with morning coffee, texted dad wishing him a comfortable flight to Saigon, and reviewed yesterday.
- Had a date with Jinjoo at the Valencia Street in San Francisco. We visited Ritual Coffee Roasters, Dog Eared Books, Paxton Gate, Dandelion Chocolates, Topdrawer, Self Edge, and Taylor Stitch.
- Visited Commonwealth Club to attend the Encore Meet Up event for Acquired Podcast fans to meet the Acquired Podcast hosts in person and mingle with other fans, hosted by J. P. Morgan, following yesterday’s Acquired Podcast Live Show event. I brought my Taylor Swift denim jacket and an orange fabric marker and asked Ben Gilbert and David Rosenthal to sign the jacket. They were amused and said it is the first jacket they have ever signed. Jinjoo and I enjoyed the rooftop scenery. We met many interesting people including bankers and founders.

### 24.09.12

- Called parents during morning stroll. Seems like mom is exercising diligently. Dad had a good day at the 제조혁신데이 event, but he is too tired today to chat for long.
- Valencia in 6 hours killed the amount of Centum that took an entire season to develop. I feel conflicted, but I decided to switch to Valencia. This is FY3.
- Played badminton with Jinjoo.

### 24.09.13

- Before taking car to service center, in preparation of not having a car for several days, visited Trader Joe’s for grocery. At the service center, we found out that the recall was just for a delivery of a small tool and a lesson on how to use the tool to check the brake pad, so we were able to drive the car away immediately. Jinjoo asked if we shall have lunch with her dad since we now have the car today. I responded why not, then we had lunch with her dad. Originally, her dad reached out to her this week informing her that he is in the US and suggesting that we have lunch together. During her call with her dad, she planned to take me to have lunch with him on Saturday morning, but when she told me the plan after her call, I told her that our car will be at the service center probably on Saturday. Today, I did ask Jinjoo whether we should have the unplanned lunch with her dad, because I was wearing casually, hoodie and jeans, because I was just planning to return home immediately after dropping off the car at the service center. Jinjoo said fashion is fine, but when I told my mom about this on the following morning, my mom told me I should have dressed up better for a better first impression.
- Had lunch with Jinjoo’s dad. I was curious and a little worried about meeting him, because Jinjoo had been describing her dad as a very bad character who is disrespectful and cruel. I was not worried about not getting along with him, because I am charismatic, talented, and lovable. People naturally end up respecting me, and I am skilled enough to defend me from disrespectful people. And in any case Jinjoo does not get along with her own father, so even if her father disapproves me, the disapproval will not break our relationship. But what I was worried about was whether he is a bad person whose traits may appear any day in Jinjoo or her descendants. In reality, her father was a reasonable person. He is not talkative but he is socially apt, has strong intelligence, and all in all just felt like a reasonable Asian old man like the many Asian old men I have met in my life. Jinjoo and her mom hate him for having too much interest in women, which may be true in his life, but he did not once make a vulgar joke or a comment that is insensitive in any way, and had a great conduct befitting a seasoned businessperson from Asia. He had broad shoulders and stayed away from alcohol, cigarette, and even caffeine. Jinjoo complained that he never pays, but he took out his credit card first after the meal, and did not let us pay even when I told him we can pay in appreciation of him making time for us. My suspicion is that Jinjoo has not been making him feel happy, because Jinjoo by personality does not try to please people. She acts rationally instead of acting or speaking in ways that cater to emotions such as giving people chances to boast or preventing people from feeling bad. In contrast, I am very skilled in speaking in ways that make people feel pleased, without lowering me, without speaking falsehood, so I think her dad was pleased during the conversation, especially to see that I indeed do not yield when he tests me by commenting that my description of the relationship between Korean capitalists and Vietnamese laborers is a mutually beneficial relationship is just a flowery talk by a capitalist. At the end of our lunch, Jinjoo’s dad told Jinjoo that he was worried but now feel relieved. Jinjoo asked why he would feel worried, and I responded that I understand him since I would feel worried too if one day I hear my daughter has a boyfriend, especially if the boyfriend is an entrepreneur. It went well. Jinjoo was super happy for the rest of the day until the minute we fell asleep. Originally, she told me she will pay for the meal and she just wants me to impress her dad. I told her not to sweat since I am impressive without having to do anything in particular. She must have felt even more relieved than how relieved I felt and how relieved her dad felt, because she was super happy for the rest of the day.
- Called dad. Told him about Valencia the Generative Interface. Valencia practically reinvents the technology industry. Told him about FiDi the Deposit Financing. He is as excited about it as I am. It is magical.

### 24.09.14

- Woke up at 7:30 AM, then strolled at the park without taking a shower to give Jinjoo more time to sleep in silence and to call parents. Told mom that I met Jinjoo’s dad yesterday. Today, I am planning to work on document work, possibly at Stanford.
- Ended up staying home all day. Took a nap in the afternoon and it helped me recover energy. Strolled with Jinjoo while discussing my plan for FiDi Enterprise Plan based on Deposit Financing.
- Finished writing Operations Guide FY2.

### 24.09.15

- Woke up, got ready for lunch with Jinjoo’s dad, and worked on wrapping up Version Log FY2 S4. Head feels heavy. Head has been feeling heavier everyday. I took a break starting 10AM last night, reading fun content instead of productive content. Also got to finish wrapping up the entire Season Execution FY2 S4 before departing home.
- Jinjoo says she fell asleep at 4AM last night. We had a conversation last night after she told me that seeing me chatting with her dad about my dad made her feel sad because it reminded her that she grew up without a dad. I was tired, but I got up to console her, telling her that whereas it is possible that she may have had a happier life (which she denied would have been the case given characteristics of her father) or at least a different life, she is who she is today because of all her experiences and I love her for who she is. She asked me why I chose to love her, and I reminded her I chose to love her because I assessed that she will be a great lover, a great homemaker, and a great wife. She told me she loves me and that I am the best, but I asked her to speak deeper loving words to me like I spoke to her, and she told me she loves me because she sees that I will be a great father to her children, because I feel dependable, because she feels like I will be able to provide. When we first started dating, she did not tell me she thinks I will be able to provide, because she did not want to burden me, but I told her I want to be depended on. Haha.
- Drove to San Jose to have lunch with Tran’s dad. We thought the lunch was going to be just for the 4 of us like the Friday lunch, but a bunch of Tran’s dad’s friends came to see me. Some came even from San Francisco. We met one who works in printing business, one who works at the consulate, one who worked in the white house, one who worked in tax office.
- Visited Stanford University. Got the Stanford University library card. Worked on FiDi Enterprise Plan. Called parents to discuss FiDi Enterprise Plan.
- Made JunwonBear social media accounts. Posted on social media introducing Generative Related Posts. Published social media posts about Acquired Podcast hosts signing my Taylor Swift denim jacket.

### 24.09.16

- Woke up before Jinjoo. Washed dishes and took a shower before she woke up. Got some books from Kindle store. AirPods tip broke, so I will have to purchase new ones next time I visit an Apple Store. Finished writing FY2 S4 Technology Documentation. Actually, I decided to skip writing it since we are changing technology so drastically in FY3 S1 and therefore the documentation will not help any developer other than possibly going back to study how we used to develop software in the past, but even that will be recorded in FY3 S1 Technology Documentation, so FY2 S4 Technology Documentation will not have had any impact.
- Took a nap. Ran for exercise. Made a big progress on writing FiDi Deposit Financing Enterprise Plan.

### 24.09.17

- During morning shower, saw pink mold stains in the bath tub, and planned to spend some time today disinfecting the bathroom. Spent some time on the couch reading Warren Buffet biography. After Jinjoo woke up, went on a stroll, then returned home to disinfect the bathroom.
- Spent time with Jinjoo in the afternoon.
- Worked on Valencia. Added human code for logo icon and search bar on the home page.

### 24.09.18

- Woke up at 6:30AM to drive to a nearby Trader Joe’s with Jinjoo to get the mini tote bags they started selling again for the first time since the bags became widely popular and sold out. We were surprised to see that a hundred people were in line before the store opened for the bag. They only sold 2 to each customer, so we got 1 set of all 4 colors, then entered again to get another set (because Jinjoo insisted that we gift a set to my mom). At home, we ate fried rice and hash browns we got at Trader Joe’s.
- Got a haircut at Esharp. Jinjoo enjoyed playing the arcade games there. We visited Walgreens and UPS to give them items for refund.
- Visited Stanford Shopping Center. Purchased Nespresso coffee capsules. Purchased AirPods Pro silicone tips.
- Drove to Palo Alto Downtown Library. Jinjoo suggested the plan for following reasons. We need to work in Palo Alto for several hours until her dinner appointment. Stanford parking is not free until 4PM and it was near 2PM when we were discussing where to go next. I did not say yes to Stanford Health Library (but the reason I did not say yes is not because I did not like the library but simply because I was not thinking about the fact that we will not be able to go to Stanford Library, so I needed time to think, and I did not have time to think when she asked me about Stanford Health Library while I was driving to Stanford Shopping Center). Anyways, it sounded like a pretty good plan since I wanted to make a Palo Alto Library membership card at some point too. However, parking was difficult, and I felt like I wanted to go to Rinconada Library, but I was pretty sure Jinjoo would be annoyed if I told her I want to drive her to Rinconada, then drive her back, instead of just going to that Downtown Library which was right in front of us. So I had to follow through with the plan, but I was tired and unhappy in the library. At the library, we were both distracted, and spent time looking for airplane tickets for our planned Winter trip to Vietnam. I did not like the library, because it was filled with multiple smelly homeless people. I gave up on checking out books on the shelves due to the smell. I will never go back to that library.
- Serendipitously ended up visiting Palo Alto Civic Center for an open house event. I had to move my car to the Civic Center parking lot, because I had run out of parking time on the streets. Jinjoo originally wanted me to just go move the car on my own, but she followed me to the car because I wanted her to follow me so that I would not feel lonely. After we parked, we could have just walked out of the parking lot, but we both wanted to use the restroom, so we visited the building for the restroom. Then we saw a banner advertising the open house event which was happening from 3PM to 5PM today. It was already past 4PM. We went upstairs, and we were not sure whether to participate or not in the event, but ended up just asking what the open house was about to the nearby staff. She gave us a booklet, telling us to go collect stamps to learn about various offices in the civic center and to collect a gift. Civic Center open house was actually pretty fun and informative. We visited utilities, revenue services, and the fire department. The police department was very inviting too. They showed us inside and we chatted with several people, not just officers but also a desk worker in charge of recruiting and training. I told them about how Officer Frank Perez found my backpack for me at the Stanford Shopping Center this year. We took photos at the city council chamber. The top floor was the office of civic attorney, and I learned that they mainly appear in courts as defendant rather than to sue. At the end of the open house tour, the civic center gave us very nice tote bags which were decorated with the map of Palo Alto on the front side.
- While Jinjoo was having dinner with Stanford alumni in the energy industry, I had dinner at Ramen Nagi. It’s been such a long time since I last ate here. Jinjoo and I were both very tired by time we returned home. I took a long bath. Jinjoo was already asleep on bed by time I finished taking bath. I was hungry, so I heated up the fried rice I was eating in the morning, and tried to cook a hash brown, but ended up burning a pan. Jinjoo woke up to the smell of the burnt pan, and teased me about it. Then she felt hungry, so she had dinner too. I went to bed immediately after that, but had trouble feeling peaceful and started reading technical documentations to assess what I can import to Valencia. Jinjoo suggested that I put down the phone and stop working, not just tonight but in general so that I would not feel stressed on bed at least when I need to sleep and rest.
- I have been debating internally whether or not to attend the Stanford Alumni Weekend (now officially called Stanford Reunion Homecoming because they love changing event names). I had many fears including not having any proud accomplishments to show friends and former teachers, and it costed me $160 for what felt like signing up to drive all the way to Stanford on a busy crowded day to be a fool who has not yet accomplished anything. I did not know how expensive it was to attend the event. But after days and days of debating internally, I registered for the event, not only to meet friends (I can meet them without registering for the event) but to encounter other alumni. It is a good practice to situate myself to be run into luck. Also, since Stanford invites alumni on a 5Y intervals, I will need to wait 5 years if I do not attend this year. If I feel ridiculed this year, then it will be a good motivation for the next 5 years anyway. So I will be going to the event this year.

### 24.09.19

- Over night, I felt very tired even during sleep. I woke up in middle of night due to pain in right wrist and right ankle. Jinjoo was not asleep yet, and she massaged them for me for a couple minutes. In middle of the night, I must have snored or made some sound due to stuffed nose stuffed due to allergy, because Jinjoo asked me in middle of night to buy and use sinus rinse. I felt annoyed, especially because I had already expressed my disinterest some other day. In the morning, I woke up late, at 11AM. I took a shower, then enjoyed a peaceful morning, reading about Bernard Arnualt and Warren Buffet, while drinking a cup of coffee, until Jinjoo woke up. I said hello to her, and she immediately brought up sinus rinse, breaking my peaceful morning. I stopped her, told her I want to listen to a podcast. I did not listen to any podcast or music, but I had to try many different efforts until I was able to feel relaxed again at least 3 hours after that. I tried plugging in earphones to create a peaceful silence, tried sitting outside in the backyard, tried eating alone apart from her, tried driving out to Valley Fair and Barnes and Noble. I feel like I am not able to rest well at home. I feel more restful outside than inside home. I plan to stop paying for the entire rent, and to instead ask her to chip in any amount she feels comfortable with, up to full 50% and as low as current status quo which is 0%. Sent her a text message, asking her what she thinks about chipping in for the rent, with a discussion of how I have been having difficulty feeling like I can rest at home lately.
- In San Jose, saw beggars holding sign asking for money to help a baby get a bone marrow transplant. I was surprised, because I saw the same sign yesterday in Palo Alto. They failed to catch my attention, but Jinjoo expressed she feels sorry for the woman holding the sign. I assume Jinjoo thought she was the baby’s mom. I searched online and found that Oregon police reported the exact same sign is a scam. Feeling sorry for beggars never go unpunished.
- As soon as I got home, I took out the trash since Jinjoo told me during the text conversation that the only remaining chore at home is taking out the cardboard boxes. I also took out the trash in the trash bin. Jinjoo entered bedroom and fell asleep while I was doing that. I ate dinner alone, ran for an exercise, took a shower. Rested in the living room, then Jinjoo woke up. I went to the bedroom, and fell asleep. I felt extra sensitive in terms of hearing and had difficulty falling asleep for about an hour. Then I remember I had a calm sleep during which I did not make sound or move a lot. I turned on heated electric blanket for the first time this fall. Jinjoo exited bedroom in the middle of the night. I should ask her why so that I can make the bedroom more comfortable for her. Note that I did not have any allergic reactions last night or the morning after. I used Pantene shampoo and Estee Lauder face cleanser during the shower before sleep, then Vietnamese shampoo and Sulwhasoo face cleanser during the shower after sleep, to test allergy. I am still suspecting that I am allergic to one of cosmetic products that Jinjoo uses (and possibly she is allergic to it too).

### 24.09.20

- Woke up at 5:30AM. Sat at desk with morning coffee. Checked schedule for Stanford Alumni Weekend. Booked a haircut on that week so that I can come to the event with nice hair. Published a social media post introducing Generative Lists. With this post, I am finishing FY2 Social Media efforts. Next post will be for FY3 Social Media.
- For House Meeting, reviewed personal finance. Checked Fidelity. Checked Chase checking account. Checked credit cards: Chase, Apple, Amex, Citi. Checked rent, utility, internet, electricity. Total Balance for joint living over the past 3 months is $12,281.96. Provided information to Jinjoo telling her that she needs to pay me $6,141 if splitting rent, $1,133 if not splitting rent. Updated renters insurance to include Jinjoo.
- Finished FY2 Finance.
- Jinjoo woke up. I drove to Costco. Fueled car. Purchased grocery. Jinjoo was asleep again when I got home. Ate lunch alone on the kitchen floor.
- Drove to Valley Fair. Checked out the new iPhones and the new Apple Watch at the Apple Store. Sat down on a couch and worked on paper notebook for an hour. Drove to Cupertino Library. I had sent Jinjoo two different dollar amounts for her to pay me: 1) if she wants to split rent, 2) if she does not. I saw that she sent me the amount that indicates she does not want to split rent. That’s fine. But I hope at least she got to see how painful it must be for me to be feeling like I am kicked out of my own home in search of comfort and restfulness after paying 10X the amount she did for the past 3 months.
- I tried to write Valencia Product Plan and FiDi Enterprise Plan, but I had difficulty focusing on work at the library, so I started driving home. I am planning to run for exercise, eat dinner, then spend the evening writing Seelog.
- Came home. Ran for exercise. Called parents during the run telling them I have been feeling tired and plan to spend some days off work to write Seelog. They acknowledged that I have no energy in my voice, despite me speaking pretty positively and normally I think. When I came home, Jinjoo had prepared a bowl of salad as dinner for me. I told her I plan to wash off sweat after dinner since I am too tired for now, and she responded, “I don't care”. Ouch. I was hoping that she would care after seeing I am paying 10X for our joint living expenses. It is difficult to be respected when it comes to her. She is so intent on never losing.
- Took a bath. Went to bed. Woke up again at 11PM. Jinjoo was stretching in the living room in darkness. I told her to let me know if I can do anything to make it more comfortable for her to sleep inside the bedroom. She came to the bedroom, but ironically I had a difficult time falling asleep so I came out to the living room to chill at the desk for an hour. Returned to bed. Hugged sleeping Jinjoo. Fell asleep.

### 24.09.21

- Got a nice 8H of sleep from 1AM to 9AM. When I was opening my eyes, I heard Jinjoo pack up and depart home to go to a library. Took a shower. Cleaned home. Ate lunch that Jinjoo had prepared in advance for me. Decided to spend today writing Seelog. Actually, I should spend the afternoon transcribing paper diary using voice since I have a private space today.
- Strolled while reviewing diary records for Seelog D104C GAIN. At home, transcribed paper diary. Finished transcribing the blue paper diary which was for Company diary records, and I threw away the paper notebook. Spent 3 hours transcribing red paper diary and embroidered paper diary, but I still need to manually check and fix transcription errors. Rested. Ate salad while watching OEY Marriage Report TV Show. Called mom during a stroll. Then returned home to keep diary transcription work (to start fixing transcription errors now).
- I departed home to go run at the park at sunset time. Texted Jinjoo inviting her to join me at Mitchell Park Library or Stanford Library tomorrow. Ran for 3.5KM then cooled down for 0.5KM.
- Returned home with a stormy heart feeling avoidant with respect to an ongoing passive conflict with Jinjoo. Jinjoo was home and eating dinner when I got home. I said “Welcome home” to her with a tired face, and she smiled to me. I am happy she smiled for me. She can appease me so easily with just a smile, and hurt me so easily by just saying “I don’t care” like she did yesterday. I am so sad. I took a long bath, scrubbing skin diligently as I have been doing every single day since she told me I smelled sweaty after a run several days ago. After bath, I cleaned bath tub with a clorox wipe, then sat at desk to keep fixing errors from diary transcription. Finished transcribing the red diary. Threw it away as well.
- Jinjoo and I texted in the evening although we were both at home. She texted me telling me that she plans to spend all day at Stanford. She told me that she will bike to Stanford, then come back late, after 9PM. I told her I can drive her. She warned me that it will be a long time since she wants to spend all day at Stanford from noon to 9PM. I told her that I prefer long waiting time over getting disregarded as a man who can protect her.
- I plan to spend all day at Stanford tomorrow writing Seelog. I also hope I will be able to make JunwonBear accounts and post on social media. I hope to share plans about FY3 without making insincere promises since I already swore against empty promises in past documents.
- Finished transcribing embroidered diary as well. I felt tired an hour ago and wanted to postpone the remaining work to tomorrow, but I pushed through, and now I feel very happy and accomplished that I got to finish the entire transcription work today.

### 24.09.22

- At midnight, I made JunwonBear profiles on social media sites, in celebration of FY3. In FY3, I am determined to invest heavily in distribution. I plan to focus social media efforts on Meta sites (Instagram, Threads, Facebook), but also distribute contents on YouTube and TikTok, and monitor Reddit. Deprecated JunwonPro profiles: Reddit, TikTok, YouTube. Converted JunwonPro profiles on Instagram and Threads into JunwonBear profiles. Here is the social media profile plan. Use JunwonApp minimally only for serious official posts like app version updates. Use JunwonBear maximally (and JunwonDotCom depending on the social media site) in order to engage with homebody consumers.
- At home, ate brunch with Jinjoo. We played with each other, trying to end the cold war. We hugged, then departed to Stanford.
- At Stanford, I asked Jinjoo to record a video of me strolling and delivering a short speech about plans for the new fiscal year. In the library, I posted it on the new JunwonBear social media accounts.
- Asked mom to order the Korean military edition of the Buddhist scripture for me. I want to keep it as a reminder that philosophy is a weapon.
- Left library to eat dinner. Visited Tresidder Union to eat Subway sandwich. Called mom during dinner. Mom says dad was surprised and looked uncomfortable when he heard through mom that Jinjoo wants to spend an entire month in our family home. Returned to the library to keep working while sitting next to her.
- Took a look at a CFA concept that Jinjoo was struggling with (fiduciary call and protective put generating similar risk-reward payoff) and was able to understand and explain to her. She asked me why I am so smart and thanked me. I am glad I was able to help. She is studying finance so diligently and she will soon surpass the range in which I can help her understand. Then I will be relying on her to explain to me. After I explained and she thanked me, I hugged her then returned to my seat to resume my work.
- At Stanford Library, finished checking all past diary records and also finished scoping Junwon Seelog D104C GAIN.
- We stayed at the library until 9PM closing time. In the car on our way home, we discussed concepts she learned today, and I helped her understand 1) how changes in interest rates will impact stock price and bond price (assuming all else to be constant) and 2) how fiduciary calls and protective puts would be equivalent. She exclaimed I think and understand so quickly and that I will be able to pass CFA so easily if I chose to study for it.
- At home, she brought up the conflict we have been having this week. She told me she felt like I was mean to her not because of her actions but because I was tired and she felt like I was charging her rent not for financial reasons but for emotional reasons. She even told me that the message charging her rent made her lose faith in our future because I might be using money to take away her baby from her when we divorce. When I asked her what would have been the ideal way for her, she told me she wants me to separate finance from emotive. I pulled up the text message I had sent and read it word for word with her and showed her that the text message dedicates sentences and paragraphs to explicitly state that 1) I will accept her answer without question even if she chooses to chip in 0%, 2) I bring rent up not because I am angry and in fact I am not angry at the moment and it is just because today is my personal finance day and in fact after we finish this matter I can get sinus rinse too (cause of conflict), 3) I am discussing splitting rent not because I’m angry but because now what was my home feels like our home, 4) and just to clarify one more time, I feel uncomfortable but current level is already manageable and I can in fact live like this indefinitely and I acknowledge she is probably feeling just as uncomfortable too in our home, 5) and yet again, seriously, feel free to choose 0% and I'll just take your answer. After seeing how carefully I actually worded the letter, she responded that despite careful wording, I timed it to be during our conflict and I sent a long document with numbers thereby making it impossible for her to say no. By the way, now that I check our chat record, I was only able to catch it now as I'm writing this diary record, but I see that I had not sent the calculations and receipts until the day after (and therefore after her response that she will chip in for the rent). As for timing, I suggested that we perform the mirroring exercise. She played the role of Junwon and I played the role of Jinjoo. From this exercise, she was able to see for herself that it would have been impossible for hypothetical Junwon to carry out the personal finance task any better. Jinjoo-Junwon (aka Jinjoo playing Junwon) tried consoling Junwon-Jinjoo, waiting until evening, then next day, then next week, and the timing was still wrong and the discussion played out still the same and Junwon-Jinjoo randomly escalated the rent conversation to baby-losing divorce scenario even after Jinjoo-Junwon had spent a week trying to cool down the other parts of the conflict first before discussing rent. It was a great exercise, because I think she got to see how difficult it is to be in relationship with Jinjoo. And how Junwon has been acting basically perfectly, or at least in a way that even Jinjoo herself is not able to find better ways to appease Jinjoo. After that, we tried an exercise in which we tried to be each other but in the ideal version. For example, Junwon-Jinjoo was Junwon playing the role of Jinjoo not the way Jinjoo is or seems to Junwon but in the way Junwon wants Jinjoo to be. Jinjoo-Junwon-ideal was the same as last practice since she was already asked to demonstrate what I should have done (and only ended up showing that there is nothing Junwon could have done if Jinjoo behaves the way she did in the conflict). Junwon-Jinjoo this time was basically Junwon and she saw that. Junwon-Jinjoo this time, when texted, thanked Junwon, apologized to Junwon, cared about his emotions, even if she is also including expression of her emotions, and finally invited him to come back so they can work it out. Jinjoo says that is too difficult for her and all she can do is to tell him “okay” and “let's spend today apart on our own” and I told her that is exactly why I have been getting hurt not only during our conflicts but all the time, knowing that I am getting hurt for now, but hoping that she will change that part too at some point as she has been becoming better for me (albeit not changing a lot or even willing to change at all whereas I have been actively trying to change to fit her and investing a lot of time and energy into doing so). Anyways, acting like Jinjoo not only hurts Junwon but even makes it impossible for Jinjoo herself to overcome, and acting like Junwon is the perfect way in both directions. I'm glad we did this exercise so that we could see this. I suspected this but got to see it in reality.
- After shower, I was relaxing in bed. Then Jinjoo got her hair stuck in the hair dryer. I saved her, and I saved as many strands of hair as possible, but we sacrificed 2 knots.

### 24.09.23

- Visited Palo Alto Mitchell Park Library. When I parked, I noticed that I have been here before, when I was a student at Stanford, for a design school class in which I designed play time activity for children. Visited Magical Bridge Playground with Jinjoo.
- Studied Acquired Podcast transcripts: Stratechery, Porsche.
- Searched for homebody contents on social media and commented using JunwonBear profile. On Instagram, Threads, TikTok, YouTube.
- Jinjoo told me today that she is craving pho. We departed library and headed to a pho restaurant near Mountain View Costco. When we entered the restaurant, we saw that the pho was more expensive than at Pho Hoa at Mercado, and she was not sure what to do, but I guided her out of the restaurant and drove her to Pho Hoa. She was very satisfied that I was able to guide her out of the restaurant so decisively. Pho Hoa was delicious. I got Bo Kho with bread and she got Beef Pho with noodles.

### 24.09.24

- Studied Acquired Podcast episode on LVMH. Studied yearly business reports from various corporations and liked the reports by Hermes and New York Times. Got inspiration for FY3 Enterprise Plan operating interface, story, and craft. J.P. Morgan and Berkshire Hathaway also wrote great reports.
- Called parents during evening stroll and told them about stories of Hermes and Porsche.

### 24.09.25

- Woke up with head feeling heavy and dizzy. I see Jinjoo left living room windows open and it is 58F outside. It was cold at night. I got a cup of coffee, but not for tranquility, more out of desperation to make head feel better especially to prevent migraine. I sat at desk writing down the new FY3 Enterprise Plan idea.
- During morning stroll at the park, called parents. Discussed company conglomeration strategies: lowering cost (like car company conglomerates), bundling distribution (like fashion conglomerates), and sharing financial risks (like holding company conglomerates). I noted how a technology company cannot be passed down generations. The best way I see is passing down a holding company and more importantly the wisdom it takes to make and maintain a holding company.
- Jinjoo woke up too late for us to go to the mall today. I was planning to try the Lavazza coffee at Eataly today, but I delayed the plan to another day. Instead, we visited Sunnyvale Downtown and I got Philz Coffee. During stroll, I explained to her my plan to make a conglomerating company.
- We shopped grocery at Kings Seafood Center then Costco. At Costco, we added her to my household.
- Her dad invited us to a dinner. We ate com tam. He paid for the meal again.

### 24.09.26

- Jinjoo left living room window open again. I woke up at 2AM caughing and sneezing and feeling weak. It felt difficult to stand and walk. I came outside to close the window, rested on the couch for a bit, then fell asleep on bed again after 30 minutes with heated blanket. Woke up in the morning feeling weak and sick. I think I caught cold virus.
- Spent time with Jinjoo in the morning then ate bo kho she cooked. She discovered that the breads were molded, and she felt depressed. She asked me to console her. For her, I maintained upbeat attitude, despite feeling sick today. We started eating at 11:30AM, and she was frowning and whiny still by 12:30 PM. We visited Kings Seafood Center to return the bread, and they gave us new ones without asking any questions.
- We visited Valley Fair mall. I tried Lavazza coffee at Eataly. We visited Apple Store, Cole Haan, Nike, Nordstrom, Banana Republic.
- Worked at Mountain View Library. Made a library membership card at Mountain View Library. Called parents. Dad is stressed about an interview he has to do with the city fire department in an hour.
- Worked on Centum Topics FY2 at the library, but I did not get to finish recording them before library closing time. Returned home. Ate bo kho. Took a shower. Then finished Centum Topics FY2 exactly by midnight.

### 24.09.27

- Woke up coughing. Sat at desk. Wrote diary. Got small tasks done such as ordering a wrist pad for keyboard and mouse. Jinjoo woke up. She sat next to me to ask about what I want for lunch, asked me to make her a cup of coffee, and found milk had spilled in the refrigerator. I felt like my morning work was abruptly disturbed. Felt a stinging pain in left front head. Decided to go on a stroll to get some ideation work done and to find peace again. Actually, did not get to depart home. Spent time with Jinjoo at home. Ate bo kho for lunch. Worked for an hour. Then departed home to go to Stanford.
- Visited Stanford to attend the Inauguration and the Investiture of Jonathan Levin the new President of Stanford.
- President Levin's Inauguration today was the first time Jinjoo entered Frost Amphitheater.
- Traveled Portola Valley on our way home.
- Finished writing FiDi Enterprise Plan FY3 S1.

### 24.09.28

- Last night, Jinjoo told me she will go to a library and spend all day there. I planned accordingly to stay home and get work done at home. Today morning, she told me she plans to stay home. I went on a stroll, ideating how I can be most productive today. I suggested to her that we eat salad since eating bo kho “only” for many days is making me feel unhealthy. But we lack prepared ingredients for salad. I told her I plan to go to a library. A far one if she is coming. A near one otherwise. At home, at 10:30AM, she told me she does not want to go to a public library that closes at 6PM, so the only library she will follow me to is Stanford Green Library where we can move to Old Union after library closing time. She also asked me to hand-wash some dishes so that we can eat lunch, because she had blocked me from running the dishwasher since two nights ago because she feels like the dishwasher is not filled enough. By the way, since she moved in, many of my bowls have broken, because she fills the dishwasher such that the bowls touch each other. I hate using broken bowls, but I did not complain or suggest that we buy new ones. Today, I added more dishes to the dishwasher, and I was not able to add more without making bowls touch each other, and she shouted (not to yell at me but she just speaks carelessly like that everyday then wonders why I get mad randomly). I told her to let me do my dishwashing chore and she left the kitchen. I am tired today. I will first lie down on bed and rest until I can feel energetic enough to do anything. Actually, she told me the breads are already heated up so we have to eat first, so I'll eat first and then rest. Ate lunch while listening to a podcast. Took a nap in the afternoon.
- After nap, ate dinner then watched 3 episodes of Culinary Class Wars with Jinjoo. Strolled. Called mom. Took a bath.

### 24.09.29

- Visited Stanford East Asia Library. Worked on writing Seelog.
- Wrote Seelog while strolling at Stanford campus. While sitting at White Plaza, a little boy came to me and gifted me a hat that says SF. Why do children like me so much? Haha.
- At home, tested Jinjoo on CFA ethics section. She did not study this section yet, and still she got basically all questions correct. She asked me about CFA section on digital assets aka bitcoin. I hate bitcoin like all the other wise investors, but I know all about it in order to hate it, so I explained it to her.

### 24.09.30

- I tried cleaning Nespresso machine with water, then it stopped working. I contacted Nespresso, and Nespresso will send me a new machine.
- She made a delicious lunch using salmon. I suggested that we go to San Mateo so that I can get a coffee dripper at Blue Bottle Coffee. I waited for her, feeling slightly anxious that I am feeling unwell and possibly this is a migraine coming due to lack of caffeine, but when we were ready to leave, she told me I could have cleaned the kitchen table thereby proactively helping the process of getting ready to leave home. I realized not only that she is correct but also that I am cognitively impaired right now, seeing that I was unable to notice the chores I could have been doing to help us leave sooner, that I was having difficulty verbally communicating even now, that, whereas we were brushing teeth, I was unable to remember whether the floss on the sink was mine and if so why I had not thrown it away after using it just a minute ago. All my cognitive abilities were slightly impaired. I was stressed a lot this morning due to coffee machine. I hugged her and told her that I think I am feeling cognitively impaired today and do not have confidence in my own ability to keep us safe outside, and asked her to study at home today. I pushed her out of bedroom and made the room dark and cool and rested on the bed alone.
- Had a conflict with Jinjoo. See Lover Orientation Conflict 24.09.30.
- Purchased airplane tickets to fly to Hanoi in Winter.
### 24.10.31

- Woke up. Showered. Washed dishes. Sat down at the desk with a cup of morning coffee. Wrote diary for yesterday. Started working on fixing a bug on Carmel for Android devices. Finished fixing it and also made several polishes. Pushed code to 3.2.2.
- I worked hard from 9AM to 6PM, then installed Carmel on Jinjoo’s iPhone. We visited Palo Alto to enjoy and film the Halloween street party hosted by Lauren Powell Jobs.
- Jinjoo and I posted Carmel videos on TikTok and Instagram and YouTube using our new accounts. We got hundreds of views.

### 24.10.30

- Woke up and found that Jinjoo has been awake and has finished washing dishes and cooking for lunch. I showered, then we ate together, then we started productive day work.
- For company work, I set out to enhance the camera quality. I tried many different solutions, and it seemed like each solution had disadvantages. I basically worked all day today on this problem except when I was eating or showering or exercising, and I finally reached a solution that makes no compromises. Woohoo.
- Called parents at 5PM during a stroll at the park. Dad is on a business trip to Korea, and he is visiting Nagwon to buy a 노래방 machine.
- Exercised at the fitness center with Jinjoo. I ran for about 30 minutes.
- Jinjoo was very loving today. She took care of many chores today, including washing dishes (because I was asleep in the morning), cooking, cleaning the floor, laundering beddings, and folding laundry. She also had a productive day finishing reviewing an entire section and getting exercise done. And she cheered me up throughout the day telling me she loves me, she is proud of me, she is grateful for me. Despite work stress, I had an excellent day thanks to Jinjoo.
- Jinjoo wants to pay for the past rents I have been paying, but I told her not to do so and to instead just chip in for 50% starting this month.

### 24.10.29

- Saved camera files in phones. Set up iPhone SE to take over important auth methods from iPhone 13 Pro Max before I switch the iPhone 13 PM for an iPhone 16.
- Went on a stroll while ideating Seelog D105C AGAIN and Company Story FY2. Will write Company Story FY2 this week.
- We visited Stanford. Worked at the art library, but departed early, because I did not carry a USB cable with me to connect phone with computer.
- We ate dinner, relaxed in bed, then took a nap.
- Worked on Carmel. Fixed bug for comments timestamp timezone. Fixed waitlist registration page.

### 24.10.28

- Visited Valley Fair with Jinjoo. Ate Ramen Nagi for lunch. Visited Eataly, Apple Store, recording Carmel videos. Visited Costco for grocery shopping, recording Carmel videos. Called parents while strolling in park. Told dad about Stanford Homecoming Reunion and Carmel. Jinjoo made delicious aglio e olio for dinner. Calculated then charged 24.10 living expenses to Jinjoo. Posted even more Carmel videos on social media sites. I'm considering getting a new iPhone 16 for Carmel social media efforts.

### 24.10.27

- Woke up at 6AM. Showered. Made a cup of coffee but found out that the milk expired a week ago. Kitchen smells terrible due to not having washed dishes over the past 2 days. Will fix problems today. Washed some dishes, but I will need to do another batch later. Planned day. Must do homekeep, record diary, record contacts, save camera files, post Carmel demo videos on social media. Called mom. Told her about Stanford Alumni Weekend and showed her Carmel videos I recorded on campus. Returned home, then took a nap until lunch time. For lunch, got pho at Mercado with Jinjoo. We visited Walmart to get some emergency grocery for today since we are too tired to go grocery shopping today. At home, posted Carmel videos on social media sites. Ate mapo tofu for dinner at home with Jinjoo. Went on a short stroll, then washed dishes at home. Bathed. Sat on sofa. Wrote diary and collected notes on Contacts.

### 24.10.26

- In the morning, visited Starbucks at Mercado to try the Matcha Foam Coffee Cold Brew drink that came out in celebration of Wicked. The drink was pretty bad. Recorded using Carmel.
- Drove to Stanford. Parked car at the Arboretum Lot. Strolled Palm Drive with Jinjoo. She remarked that the road is lovely. She wants to walk on it more often. A jogging couple complimented my jacket, because they saw the national park patches embroidered on my back. Recorded Carmel video.
- Visited SLE Reunion. Met Caroline, Christina, Eliane, Sarah, Alexa, Javarcia, Ruru.
- Visited Class Tailgate. Met Christina Pan and Gili Rusak.
- Visited Anderson Collection. Met Riley and Renee.
- Visited Farm Fest with Eliane. Met Eliane’s mom. We got a bunch of swags.
- Met friends from Computer Science department: Michelle, Daniel, Lucas, Kyu, Geraldine.
- After Farm Fest, felt hungry and wanted to go get dinner with friends. Jinjoo texted me asking me about dinner plans. Texted her back telling her to come to Alumni Center. Jinjoo and I joined Christina, Miguel, Caroline to get snacks at Green Library Coupa Cafe then at TAP, then we joined Eliane to eat pizza at Terun. After dinner, Jinjoo and I tried to sneak into my class party, but Jinjoo got caught, so we returned home. I was very tired anyway. Haha.
- Home was dirty and smelly, because we had abandoned it for 2 days, but I am too tired tonight, so I will sleep tonight, then take care of homekeep tasks tomorrow.
- Showed Carmel to most friends I met today.

### 24.10.25

- Woke up at noon. The class lunch event was happening from 12:00PM to 1:30PM, but I had missed the 9AM alarm and the 10AM alarm, because I had gone to bed at 6AM after working hard on Carmel. I jumped up, showered minimally, then rushed to Stanford.
- At Class Lunch, met Caroline, Eliane, Christina. Also met Roma, Ruru, Michelle (Park). Caroline, Eliane, Christina, and I headed over to Green Library Coupa Cafe to get coffee. While waiting for coffee, an undergrad girl asked me if I am Max her match on a dating app. We headed over to Main Quad, then headed to a lecture by Professor Marsh McCall on Greek philosophers: Socrates, Plato, Aristotle, Epicureans, Stoics. We visited Ford Center where Eliane borrowed Caroline’s badge to get a Stanford alumni tote bag. We headed to alumni reunion for engineering school, where I met Lucas, then SymSys, where I met Professor Michael Bernstein, Roma, Stephanie Niu (first time), and Cameron (first time).
- Had difficulty finding parked car, because alumni parking was on Palm Drive lots and lots looked the same (just cars on dirt). On way home, texted Jinjoo that I am heading home now, and she texted me back telling me that she is at Tresidder Union. I drove to Tresidder Union Parking Lot, waited for her to come, then drove home. In the car, I asked her how her event went today, and it was the first time we chatted in many days. At home, we ate dinner together, then I took a bath, and started recollecting the day in my diary and to spend a couple hours on developing Carmel.
- Finished developing Carmel first version. Jinjoo was putting on skincare after shower in the bathroom, so I went inside and started the camera stream. That became the very first frame ever processed on Carmel. Handed it to Jinjoo. She had a lot of fun with it, in the kitchen, in the living room, remarking how smart and engaging it was. We also remarked how rapidly it was able to learn about our interests. In just one session, it saw our cups, our plates, our cooking tools, our teas, our snacks, our fridge, our books, our fitness gears, our nutrition supplements. Not only will it take a long time for even the biggest sites like YouTube to learn so many interests, we also never search about vitamins on YouTube, so there are many aspects of life that Carmel can study that even biggest sites today cannot. So monetizable. Finally, I checked and found that 30 minutes of this great experience not only “felt” expensive to us as customers, but also only costed me about $0.05. I can give people 6H per day and still be fine if I charge $1 per day.
- Published Carmel server on the production server, and loaded test version app on several phones so that I can bring it to campus tomorrow, and can also hand a test device to Jinjoo for her to try using Carmel on Stanford campus tomorrow.

### 24.10.24

- Woke up and immediately invited Jinjoo to come join me for the SLAC tour today. She rejected, so I took a shower, and we ate lunch together but in silence, then I departed to Stanford.
- I considered parking at Stanford Shopping Center, then riding a bus to Tresidder, then using the bike to get around the events and finally go back to the shopping center, but I did not have enough time for that plan, so I parked car at Galvez Lot which opened for the Alumni Weekend, then headed to Ford Center for check-in.
- During check-in, staff let me know that Class of 2019, since we are the youngest there, get less swags during check-in and have less events over the weekend. I got to Bing Concert Hall in time, but I was not able to get on the bus to SLAC, because SLAC capped tour participants. After that, I returned to Ford Center to eavesdrop on what alumni talk about in order to become familiar with how old experienced alumni network. Still not sure how old people seem to know each other even when us young people cannot recognize one another despite better memory skills and fresher memories. Visited Undergrads Research Symposium, but did not find any projects interesting. Moved car to Tresidder, cleaned bike in Old Union bathroom so that I can ride the bike during this weekend, called parents while eating a sandwich for dinner at Tresidder, then headed to Green Library to work. Since parents did not listen to my advice to buy NVDA and TSLA, recommended META this time (hardware tech, ability to steal great softwares, and capital structure founder majority ownership giving it defense against hostile moves in the stock market).
- Worked from 6PM to 11PM at the library. Developed Carmel.
- Jinjoo texted me at 11PM to check my safety. I was near car, so I told her I am already on my way home. I sent her a joke, asking her how much she thinks Bookstore will charge for the golf carts parked inside the building for the night, but she ignored it. I came home and found that she had left food for me, but also dirty dishes. I ate food, washed dishes, then entered bath. Spent time in the locked bathroom, because she was active in the living room. How did I end up getting locked up and in fear everyday in my own home.
- After bath, worked from midnight to 5AM. I am going to work hard, get this product made. I am going to exercise. I am going to get back to commanding respect and getting loved. I have been feeling miserable lately, because I do not feel respected and loved by Jinjoo. I feel like she just treats me very comfortably, yet again, and I do not feel happy at all in life not getting respected and loved the way I want.

### 24.10.23

- I woke up feeling blank. I think I was struck by too much sadness that my ability to feel sad got disabled. I took a shower and got ready to leave home for the haircut. She was still in bed time I had to leave, so I texted her that I’ll go get the haircut first, then left home. Until I finished the haircut, I did not speak or think that much. I tried to go back to our original plan to eat out lunch then go to a library today. She told me that we can stay home if I want to be alone. I accepted the offer.
- I blanked out during the haircut, and only got to check the haircut after I returned home. He shaved my entire sideburn hair. I do not like it, but it is my fault, because I did not specify what I want. In fact, I was not able to specify what I wanted, because I did not have a clear understanding of what my hair should look like. I should form a strong opinion and hold an image in my own mind.
- Jinjoo made me salad for lunch, but I was not able to eat much. I took a long bath. By time I came out, Jinjoo was not at home. I stayed in bed for an hour resting, but decided to spend some time coding Junwon Camera in hope that getting some work done successfully will cheer me up. Besides, reading the web in bed will only depress me. Last news I read before putting down the phone is a report by New York Times that an AI chatbot by a startup convinced a teen to commit suicide.
- Worked on Carmel Camera. Called parents. Ran at the park, then exercised muscles in the bedroom. Jinjoo was home to make me dinner. I took a bath, then Jinjoo was gone, so I ate dinner, then started coding again.
- Worked from 7:30PM to 5:30AM coding Carmel.

### 24.10.22

- Woke up at 5AM. Jinjoo must have been really tired yesterday, because she struggled during sleep. I got kicked several times, and did not have a lot of space. I showered, brewed coffee, and sat down to work on Seelog as silently as I can.
- Finished Seelog D103C AURORA. Ended up spending 2H on the final edits. Jinjoo woke up shortly after I did. I suggested that we eat breakfast and she was hungry too. It seems like she is still not in a great mood though. I plan to eat breakfast then go back to bed. Ate pizza for breakfast, but I did not like it. Jinjoo told me it was a gluten-free dairy-free pizza. I didn't like its taste, but I think she made a good decision to try it for us. I woke up at noon, but Jinjoo is still unhappy. I'm going to run away after a shower. She was asleep by time I came out of shower, so I stayed home. Finished Seelog D104C GAIN. We ate late lunch together, and she seemed happy, but she started feeling unhappy again after lunch. She was in the bedroom. I sat down on desk and finished Product Plan FY3 S1.
- After a call with mom during a stroll, worked on coding work. Finished developing Generative Interface for posts, then published it on social media sites.
- After a dinner with Jinjoo, worked on coding work. Started developing Carmel Camera feature.
- In bed, I told Jinjoo I feel lack of confidence, because there are so many things for me to do right now: company work, getting fit, so on. She told me that she sees I was even looser in photos from college days, and I was so saddened to feel she does not love me especially my past self that I turned around and cried silently, but I was not able to breathe comfortably due to stuck nose, so I went to the bathroom to blow nose and it made me cry unconstrained for some time. She came out to console me, but I just lied down dumbfounded staring into the ceiling blankly. Tears continued to flow down my cheeks for the next 30 minutes although I was no longer crying. She told me she’s scared because I am not blinking, so I turned around to look away.

### 24.10.21

- In the morning, Jinjoo departed to the library to give me home today. Enjoyed the day, sleeping until noon, then starting the day with a relaxing bath. After eating Jinjoo Salad for lunch, sat down at desk and planned out tasks. Today, I'll finish off several writing tasks which I had purposefully delayed in order to take a fresh look at, take strolls and call parents and go on an evening run, then spend some time coding (either experimentally try setting up a minimal Junwon Camera or complete the Generative Interface for posts).
- At home, enjoyed sitting still, staring far, listening to nothing. I need to spend more time like this. Wrote down some ideas for next year. I want to start hiking again. Find a peaceful lake, then spend some time relaxing every so often.
- Took care of several homekeep tasks: washed dishes, laundered clothes. Recorded recent transactions converting Microsoft stocks to cash.
- Called dad and spoke about how the software industry now is like the fashion industry 100 years ago, because production is becoming unskilled labor. Ran casually. Took a bath. Enjoyed the day fully.
- Jinjoo texted me while I was in the bath that she is tired and therefore coming home. I texted her back immediately welcoming her especially energetically today since today was her first day in a renewed streak trying to establish a routine of living days separately. When she got home, I was playful, and I asked her if there is anything I can be doing for her. But she was in a bad mood. I asked her whether she is tired or whether she is unhappy with me. She responded that she is just tired. I asked her if she wants to chat about any problems. She seemed either tired or angry, so I just finished eating as fast as I could and left dinner table. I rapidly brushed my teeth, scraped all evening plans I had, and entered bedroom. I was not able to finish all my planned work today, but I'll just work on them tomorrow.
- I pretended to and also actually did try to sleep, but I shivered in fear in darkness on bed for an hour. I felt jolting sensation on from shoulders to elbows to wrists and finger tips.

### 24.10.20

- Published the demo video with a link to the landing page on TikTok, Instagram Reels, and YouTube Shorts. Got 800 views on TikTok, but less than 10 on IG and YT. Did not get any waitlist registrations.
- I was tired after working too hard over the past several days. I had to spend the rest of the day recovering. Spent over 9H on recovery. Enjoyed reading Spy Family comic.
- I had difficulty relaxing at home with Jinjoo. Not her fault, but a lot of distractions at home due to the sight or the sound of her carrying out totally justified activities at home. We avoided conflicts successfully.

### 24.10.19

- Woke up. Even before lunch, drove out to go buy grocery. Visited Target and Whole Foods to buy coffee filter papers and frozen pizza and epsom salt. Visited Kings Seafood Market for various food grocery. At home, ate mapo tofu for lunch.
- Made a landing page for Junwon Camera within 24H after deciding to commit to the idea. Decision to commit was 24H from coming up with the idea too.
- Discovered that my purple toothbrush was wet before my night shower. Asked Jinjoo and we found out that she had been using the purple toothbrush instead of the pink toothbrush. She was embarrassed and asked me how I found out that she had been using the purple toothbrush. OMG.

### 24.10.18

- Woke up in the morning when Jinjoo entered bedroom. Found that she had cooked and washed dishes. Took a shower, brewed coffee, then worked on Company work. Jinjoo later told me that she had stayed up all night to go to bed early tonight then sleep all night, because she was too awake at night yesterday after sleeping 3 hours until 11PM. She made lemongrass tofu for lunch. It was delicious. She also made a grass jelly dessert, but I did not like it as much. She wrapped rubber grip on badminton rackets.
- Made a simple interactive Figma wireframe to demonstrate the live camera wild idea from FY3 S1 Product Plan. Decided to commit to the idea. Junwon Camera (code name Carmel). Junwon Catalog delivers utility, but it is not “impressive”. Junwon Camera is “impressive” and can be a great way to bring people into Junwon Catalog. I will start tinkering with the idea while also collecting notes in order to write it out as a full product plan in FY3 S2.
- Today, spent over 6H developing the program. Worked on Generative Interface. Made it for Search Page, but decided to keep the search page handmade for now, and first apply Generative Interface to Posts. Search Page is high risk low return since it is high traffic yet low flexibility. Post Page is currently the same as Topic Page, but it has a potential to be surprisingly interesting if we let it be flexible.

### 24.10.17

- Jinjoo was worried about her Thit Ko, but it became delicious. After food, I suggested to her that we go play badminton, and we played badminton inside the Redwood Place apartment complex for an hour.
- Finished replicating data in NAS to HDD. I plan to check it again on Saturday.
- Finished planning FY3 S1. I plan to develop and publish app version 3.1 tomorrow. I committed to making a better shopping search than Google plus Wikipedia plus Reddit. Came up with a wild idea to let people start live camera streams then get AI comments.

### 24.10.16

- Jinjoo is craving certain dishes, so we woke up early to go shop ingredients at Kings Seafood Market. Jinjoo made delicious dishes including Thit Ko and Mapo Tofu.
- Finished writing Seelog D103C AURORA and Seelog D104C GAIN. I plan to review it and confirm it tomorrow. Discovered that HDD lacks data in NAS. Started moving data from NAS to HDD to make sure HDD is the standalone complete copy of all Seelog data.
- I plan to work in parallel on reviewing and advancing. Reviewing: Seelog, FY2 Company Story. Advancing: AI magazine.

### 24.10.15

- Jinjoo suggested that she gives me home today, but she was home even at 1PM at which point I had finished chores and stroll. I suggested to her that we go visit Mill Valley Library today.
- Drove to Mill Valley. Enjoyed music in the car. Stopped by Sausalito Library and Mill Valley city on the way. Mill Valley Library is beautiful, but there are too many people in comparison to desk seats. Enjoyed working at Mill Valley Library. Finished writing 격.
- On way back from Mill Valley, Jinjoo and I got dinner at In N Out. I found out that Golden Gate Bridge charges toll fee, so we came back using the road that passes Oakland. We sang songs together on our way home. At home, showered, then worked on writing Seelog. Finished writing 격.

### 24.10.14

- Woke up, showered, washed dishes. Jinjoo was awake by time I finished. Yesterday, I offered to her that I will visit the grocery store alone if she sends me a shopping list, and today she took up on that offer. I am planning to visit Costco while she is preparing lunch and taking shower, then take her to Portola Valley Library.
- Visited Costco. Purchased according to the shopping list she sent me. But I failed to discover coffee filters. Started feeling tired. Feels like acid in belly. At home, ate lunch, washed dishes. We departed to Palo Alto. Gave up on Portola Valley Library, because it is closed on Mondays. Visited Mitchell Park Library to return her books. Visited Palo Alto University Avenue to get 2 cups of boba. At Stanford, I called parents during her stroll. We were both feeling tired, so we returned home after that. She took a nap in the car.
- I am now planning to visit Mill Valley Library alone tomorrow. Jinjoo says she will bike to Sunnyvale Library if she is feeling energetic enough to do so tomorrow morning. Whoever remains home will get the home tomorrow to rest, and then yield home on the following day.
- At home, after dinner, watched Netflix together while folding laundry. It was nice and relaxing after we gave up on productivity today.

### 24.10.13

- Remembered that Samsung phones have Dex feature. When connected to an external monitor, the phone can create a desktop computer experience. I will try bringing phone alone and not my computer next time I go work at Stanford.
- Jinjoo asked me why I feel so compelled to go to libraries when I am so tired. I told her that I have difficulty working or relaxing at home, because I feel like she gets annoyed at the mere sight of me sitting idly at home.
- Worked on writing Seelog. Finished writing 패인 and 시행.

### 24.10.12

- Installed dehumidifier. Humidity was below 60% overnight for the first time in this home.
- Woke up, showered, made coffee, studied news, washed dishes. Jinjoo woke up and suggested that we go study at Stanford until pickleball. I suggested that we go watch the comet tonight.
- We actually worked at Mountain View Library until pickleball. I called my parents there.
- Played pickleball with Sylvia and Cindy. We found that Sunnyvale Tennis Court charges fee for renting courts, so we told Sylvia that we will chip in for past rents and also start reserving the courts using our names since Sunnyvale residents get discounts.
- At home, felt tired, so I lied down on bed with Jinjoo, and surfed the web.

### 24.10.11

- Woke up before Jinjoo. Cleaned home. Called parents while strolling at the park. Sat at desk and wrote about Monica in Seelog for D104C GAIN 절세가인 before Jinjoo woke up. Finished writing 절세가인.
- Amazon delivered the coffee bean grinder I had ordered, so I wanted to get some coffee beans for it. I suggested to Jinjoo that we go hang out at the mall. We packed the Whole Foods decaf coffee to get a refund for it, because we did not like its flavor. We visited Eataly. I purchased a bag of Lavazza decaf coffee beans. Jinjoo and I had a small conflict at Eataly. We considered purchasing a lunch bag. She wanted to use our shared credit card for 6% cash back instead of using our card (2% cash back) and then splitting using Splitwise. I was okay with giving up 4 percent point difference ($1.6) for the convenience, but she wanted to follow the best practice, and I decided to go with her plan. She told me to go get it while she is checking out the store, and I told her I want to check out the store too and invited her to come to go get the credit card with me. I was thinking, there is a trade-off between the cost of doing the walking to get the shared credit card and getting the 4pp extra cash back on the purchase. If return is smaller than the cost, a rational person will not take the trade-off. But if I take on the cost of walking on my own and she can get the return for zero cost, then there will be a positive externality, so she will keep making similar decisions in the future, getting tiny one dollar benefits at the cost of great inconveniences. Anyways, after we decided that we will go get the shared credit card together at some point, she wanted to check out the store first, so I waited patiently, although the task was on my mind and I wanted to complete the task soon. When we were close to the entrance, I told her let’s go, and she got angry that I was rushing her. I used my personal credit card to purchase the Lavazza decaf coffee beans, then we left Valley Fair. We drove to Whole Foods to return the bad decaf coffee powder. On our way to Whole Foods, I explained to her what was going on in my mind today while at Eataly and acknowledged that I understand what she was feeling and suggested how we can improve in the future. I told her I will buy her a dessert and offered that we can go visit anywhere and recover the rest of today, including hanging out at Santa Clara Square, going to a new mall at Almaden Valley, going back to Valley Fair, or anywhere else she wants to go visit today. We decided to go back to Valley Fair. She stayed salty for the rest of the day at least until dinner at home. At Valley Fair, I hopped on a call with my parents. After the call, I bought her a cup of boba. We stopped by Zimmermann, Wilson, and Williams-Sonoma. We drove home, but she was still not very receptive to my loving gestures until and after we got home. She cooked dinner, and told me I can hug her from behind while she is cooking, and I did, but her facial expression remained salty, so I got tired and got to sofa and started recording diary record for today (not angrily, but just in order to take care of another task that I need to take care of today). I plan to eat dinner, take a shower, record diary records for today and yesterday, then go back to writing Seelog. Oh, after the dinner, I am also going to try making coffee by grinding the beans.
- Dinner was tasty, but the coffee was bad, because I made the powder too fine for pour over. I took a shower, and I cuddled with Jinjoo in bed for 3 hours.

### 24.10.10

- Woke up at 11AM. Showered, washed dishes, and took out trash, while Jinjoo was still asleep. We are waking up later and later. We need to fix our daily life pattern soon.
- Spent time writing Seelog D103C AURORA. Finished writing 센텀.
- Visited Stanford to hike dish with Jinjoo. Then we visited Green Library to work. She wanted to leave at 9PM to get dinner. She was craving In N Out, so we visited In N Out for the first time in a long time. We brought the burger home, and she prepared dinner with also salad and paneer. It was delicious.

### 24.10.09

- Jinjoo woke up before me today. I got up, showered, made coffee, washed dishes, and went on a stroll but returned home soon after discovering that the city is cutting the grass at the park today. Visited Costco with Jinjoo for grocery shopping. I purchased a cheap pair of Calvin Klein jeans at Costco.
- Invested more effort into writing Seelog but I had difficulty getting much writing done today. Tried writing at the club room, cafe, home desk before and after a nap, but I was only able to finish writing one episode chapter and even at that, barely. Finished writing 진압.

### 24.10.08

- Watched Culinary Class Wars with Jinjoo. Finished watching the TV show.
- Drove to Cupertino Library. Studied a book on product management, but it was bad. The library was too hot, so we moved to Stanford. At Stanford, we drove into Golf Course parking, because Jinjoo wanted to see what the place is like. We got dinner at TAP, but they discontinued so many good menus that it was bad. We worked at Green Library.
- Worked on writing Seelog D103C AURORA. Finished 파, 초대장.
- Visited Palo Alto Trader Joe’s on our way back home.

### 24.10.07

- I woke up at 8AM feeling very tired, because Jinjoo attacked me (trying to hug me in every direction while I resisted) for an hour until 2AM yesterday night. Washed dishes. Washed body. Brewed a cup of Intelligentsia coffee. It was delicious.
- In the morning, worked at desk writing Seelog D103C AURORA. Finished writing 아름 and 투표.
- Jinjoo woke up at noon again. She told me she is sorry for waking up late again and for waking up late everyday, but I told her not to be sorry and that she can take a shower, we can eat salad, then make today a productive day. I am indeed a bit hungry for waking up hours before her everyday. Haha.
- I was tired during lunch and I wanted to take a nap to recover energy, but Jinjoo attacked me again. I hugged her for an hour, but then told her I need to get some sleep desperately. I was not able to fall asleep well, because my body was in too much pain. Jinjoo gave me a massage. I gave up on getting good sleep and instead got another cup of coffee at 4PM.
- Worked on writing Seelog D103C AURORA until dinner time. Finished writing 통일. During dinner, watched Marriage Report with Jinjoo. Asked her to feel at home here, and she told me honestly that she still does not feel like my home is hers too. I understood her, but felt sad and abandoned evening and retreated to bedroom. I woke up at midnight.
- I worked on writing Seelog D103C AURORA. Finished writing 선비 and 군정.

### 24.10.06

- Woke up. Showered. Folded laundry. Washed dishes. Drank coffee.
- After Jinjoo woke up, we ate lunch together while watching Culinary Class Wars. We abandoned plan to visit Stanford, and instead took a nap in the afternoon.
- Called parents. Dad is preparing for the visit of Samsung Mobile Division Head. Mom is exercising lightly, because she hurt her ankle recently.
- At night, drove to Whole Foods with Jinjoo to buy her some chocolates. I got Intelligentsia coffee beans and Whole Foods decaf coffee beans.
- I worked on writing Seelog D104C GAIN for 3 hours.
- I got attacked at 1AM for an hour by Jinjoo who was excited by chocolates or menstruation hormone or both.

### 24.10.05

- Jinjoo and I visited Sunnyvale Tennis Center to play pickleball with Sylvia, Samson, Cindy. It was my first time playing pickleball, so Sylvia taught me how to play it and let me borrow her rackets. We were exhausted after playing pickleball only for 2 hours, because today was a hot day. We drove to Santa Clara for lunch. Got coffee and shaved ice at Cocohodo, then fried chicken at Vons Chicken. The iced vanilla latte tasted so nice, because I was so thirsty. We got padak for lunch. Cindy left early, because she was tired.
- I invited Sylvia and Samson to Redwood Place. We strolled around the neighborhood, and Jinjoo and I showed them apartment community amenities. We sat at the cafe, chatting, then strolled the park, chatting. We got dinner at California Momo House. Paneer was delicious. I suggested that we visit the Indian grocery store next door. We purchased paneer cheese and saffron icecreams.
- At home, Jinjoo grilled paneer cheese for us to eat as night snack.

### 24.10.04

- Brewed coffee using pour-over method. Tasted nice! I am planning to take care of a lot of chores today. I made a lot of progress on Seelog yesterday. I hope I can replicate or exceed the success. Maybe I will try using voice transcription today.
- Took care of chores in the morning. Washed dishes, took out trash, cleaned toilet.
- Studied One Framework which came out today. I am interested in using it for Valencia. I shall restart technical development work on Monday.
- Went out to go wash the car. Visited UPS to return the old Nespresso coffee machine. Returned home to eat lunch with Jinjoo. Took a nap. Ate dinner with Jinjoo. Went on an evening stroll.
- Made progress on writing Seelog D104C.

### 24.10.03

- Got the new Nespresso machine. It works perfectly. Decided to visit San Mateo County to escape heat. Told Jinjoo in case she is interested in following me to the library, and she did follow me. We visited San Mateo Library and ate lunch there at the top floor terrace, but the library limited parking to 2H, so we left the library. We tried visiting Burlingame Library, but it also had 2H limit on parking. Jinjoo told me she will follow me to Half Moon Bay which was my original intended destination until I decided to switch to San Mateo to entice her to follow.
- Visited Half Moon Bay downtown area with Jinjoo. Parked car at the library, then visited shops at the downtown main street. There were many cute shops like in Carmel. Half Moon Library was also very nice. I made a library membership card there for the San Mateo County Library System. Jinjoo went downstairs to make the library card before I did. She told me the library card designs are very cute and wanted to show me her card so that I can get the same card or avoid getting the same card. I told her I will go get one myself first without seeing her card, then try to guess what her choice was. There were 8 cards total. I guessed correctly that she chose the one with a boy, a girl, and a monkey doll.
- Worked at Half Moon Bay Library until dinner time. Made big progress on writing Seelog D104C GAIN. Ate dinner with Jinjoo. It was getting cold at Half Moon Bay. Suggested to her that we go to Stanford and work until midnight there. She was excited. Today, we were at the cool waterfront while the day was hot, and returned to inland when the day was cold.
- At Stanford, worked at Old Union. Made a big progress on writing Seelog D104C GAIN. On our way out, Jinjoo and I considered eating TAP, then In N Out, but we successfully returned home thereby saving money. But we did eat Bo Kho for dinner.

### 24.10.02

- Yesterday, tried brewing hand drip coffee for the first time, but the coffee did not taste great. Today, tried again and it tasted way better. First brew tasted like coffees made by real baristas at real cafes. Promising!
- Spent the day in San Jose, because Jinjoo had an appointment at a medical clinic in San Jose. Visited San Jose Biblioteca Latinoamericana. Made a library membership card for the San Jose Library System. Left the library, because it did not have an available desk. Visited Barnes and Noble bookstore at Almaden Plaza. Original plan was to visit Almaden Library, but Jinjoo spotted the bookstore on our way. I worked on writing Seelog. We returned to Biblioteca Latinoamericana for her clinic appointment.
- It is so hot today. Temperature is over 40C. I will go running at the park tomorrow morning since temperature is lowest during the morning.
- Jinjoo was relieved after hearing from doctor that she is healthy and well. She had been worried about the inner end of her tongue having bumps, but the doctor told her that all humans have those tongue bumps. If Jinjoo had told me, I could have also taught her, but she did not tell me, because she was worried that she has a rare disease and that I would think it is weird. She was worried about her wrist, and the doctor told her she has tendonitis. She will need to use a wrist cast for a week. She was worried about her knees, and the doctor told her that her knees are fine, but there is an imbalance in the outer thigh muscles and inner thigh muscles, so she can benefit from working out inner thigh muscles more. I am very happy she is healthy and well.
- Jinjoo suggested that we go eat 짜장면. She bought me 짜장면. She also ordered 탕수육. She ordered food while I was in the restroom, and she told me after we finished eating that she ordered extra noodles. The food was delicious, but we were not able to finish the noodles.

### 24.10.01

- Woke up at 6:30AM. Took a shower until 7AM. Drove to Stanford. Called mom in the car on my way to Stanford. At Stanford Shopping Center, sent a letter to Jinjoo asking her to change the way she thinks and speaks about our relationship.
- Travelled Palo Alto searching for a coffee dripper. Ended up purchasing a Blue Bottle coffee dripper. Also got coffee bean powder from Blue Bottle and Verve.
- Drove to Mountain View Library. Had a conversation with Jinjoo over text messages. In response to my angry messages from the morning, she told me she is sorry. I am happy she chose to say she is sorry instead of choosing fight me. I love her, so she can easily avoid conflicts by telling me she loves me instead of fighting me. I returned home to have lunch with her at her invitation.
- I had lunch with her. We spent some time together, then we visited the Redwood Place community room where she had a video call meeting for Stanford Alumni Energy Club and I checked news. We then visited Costco. She got a lot of salmon cheaply, and also got a $10 back on the air fryer which she bought last week but went on discounted sale today. At home, I used Google’s AI to generate podcast episodes for her CFA study materials.
- Jinjoo invited me to a stroll at the park. I ideated product plan during the stroll. At home, I let her take a shower first while I cleaned the kitchen. After I showered, I worked on processing notes. Cut a lot of outstanding notes from company documents.
### 24.11.30

- Ate breakfast on floor 38. Pho here is better than pho on floor 63. Worked on LA CAMERA until noon.
- Jinjoo came back to Lotte with Lenna. We snacked with Lenna's parents. While they went to get a massage, we babysat Lenna. Lenna did not cry and took a nap peacefully, so she was easy to babysit.
- I visited Lotte Mall Westlake with Lenna and her family. As per mom's instructions, I asked our driver to drive them to the airport, then grab a Grab home with Jinjoo.
- Jinjoo and I ate dinner with my mom and my dad on floor 63. I tried hard to force Jinjoo to discuss difficult professional topics that will showcase her intelligence. Mom told me after the night ended that I tried too hard and it was visible to everyone and I also admit that indeed I made the conversations uncomfortable at times by trying too hard to make Jinjoo talk about difficult topics in order to show how smart she is. I was not that satisfied with the conversations during the dinner. But we did laugh a lot and have a lot of fun. I just was not satisfied that I was not able to show my parents how smart my girlfriend is.
- After dinner, we returned home and popped open a bottle of champagne from Moet Hennessy. At their ask, I performed a storytelling for Moet Hennessy, but then tossed the baton to Jinjoo and dad who respectively discussed “negative cash conversion cycles of Zara and Costco” and Samsung. We discussed visiting Napa Valley winery, and Opus One winery offering a $3K membership to get unlimited wine for 1Y which is a great deal since each bottle is $1K. Then Jinjoo pointed out that creates a lock-in effect, and dad remarked that she can just hear the story and think about lock-in effect. Then I was finally happy that I was able to show my parents how smart she is. I tried too hard, I admit, but I did get what I want. I think I have been worried that Jinjoo after coming to Vietnam has been only talking about food and mostly dressing up like a school student, and not casually, and her greatest strengths are therefore not showing.

### 24.11.29

- We woke up at 5AM to go on a family trip to Cat Ba. We just ate ramen at home, then departed. I did not even take a shower. We each took a nap in the car but not for too long.
- Our car rode a ferry to get to Cat Ba. Dad’s secretary had suggested that we send the driver on the ferry, then, instead of waiting for the ferry, we take the cable car to get across. But we forgot to tell our driver, so the driver was already at the ferry by time we noticed we were there. But it was a fortunate turn of events, because cable car had not started operating, and the ferry did not take long to arrive or to cross the water. After we landed, we asked the driver to take us to a breakfast place, and he suggested Bun Hai San. It was more delicious than pho. We ate together with the driver. Mom tasted my broth then told me hers is better than mine. Then dad tasted ours and told us his is better than mine. We all thought our own one was the best. Hahaha. After breakfast, we visited a nearby cafe, trendily decorated in boho style, for a cup of coffee. We only ordered 3 cups of coffee, including one for our driver but excluding one for dad who said he does not want coffee, so they charged us for 3 cups, but for some reason gave us 4 cups, so we luckily were able to all enjoy a cup of coffee. I recorded scenery using LA CAMERA and showed dad what it can do.
- After breakfast, we headed to Lan Ha Bay where we rode a boat while the driver took a nap and rested after having driven since 5AM. A tour guide greeted us there, and told us that a private boat is 1.5M VND. We asked for price of shared boats, and the tour guide told us that private boats are better than shared boats. We told her that then we will take the private boat. Then the tour guide told us that we need to additionally buy tickets to enter Lan Ha Bay, per person, and it is 120K per person. We were taken aback, then she told us that she will work something out and make the total price go down to just 1.6M VND. We asked for the price of shared boat, and she told us it will be 500K VND per person, a price which we were not able to confirm on any writings after she told us that until the end of our trip. Our driver, who is amazing in many other ways, is callow when it comes to price negotiations, so we did not get much help on that. Anyways, we decided to go on the private boat for 1.6M VND total. Then as we were getting on the boat, I overheard a different tour guide telling white people behind us that a private boat is 1.8M VND. Hahaha.
- In our opinion, Lan Ha Bay was even more beautiful than the famous Ha Long Bay. Stone islands, like Ha Long Bay, seemed like big rocks dropped from the sky as in the Vietnamese legend. Some of the rock islands had sand beaches encapsulated in the stone walls, making the beaches nicely private. I envisioned rich people having vacation homes here, just to hang out for a weekend, enjoying time privately in private beaches, visiting each other by driving small boats like yachts. The weather was nice, and the breeze felt nice, but the sea wind was a little cold. Unlike me and dad, mom did not bring a windbreaker with her, so I let her use mine, telling her that I am not cold at all since my body is still more familiar with the colder American weather, but actually it was a little cold for me too. Haha. Lan Ha Bay has all the greatnesses of Ha Long Bay, but it is smaller. Chinese people like big grand things, so they might like Ha Long Bay. Korean people like beautiful things. Lan Ha Bay, and the smaller characteristic ships here, give us greater pleasure. We were all greatly satisfied today. We visited a village called Viet Hai. We enjoyed beautiful water lilies there, but otherwise, we are not that interested in visiting it again since it is just a regular small village, not even that careful about preserving traditional ways.
- At Lan Ha Bay, then at the Cat Ba National Park, mom told me I should come back again alone with Jinjoo. I did not respond to her, but I felt sad each time she made such assumptions. I also want to be able to go on trips with a lover, a lover who also wants to go on trips with me, but Jinjoo is not someone who will like it when I suggest to her going on a trip with her. In fact, Jinjoo already has told my mom that Jinjoo wants to go on trips alone in the future, thereby undermining me and making my mom too startled to know what to say in response. I am great, but why do I not get to enjoy a normal happy relationship? Even after such a happy trip, after having spent an entire day in just happiness from 5AM to midnight, as I write this diary record, this one bullet point, I am saddened.
- Samsung published executive promotions today, so dad and mom were busy sending out congratulations messages and gifts such as flowers, fruits, and wines. 신무섭 아저씨, our family friend, got promoted to Vice President. 이성호 아저씨, dad’s long time friend and colleague, got terminated several days ago and dad found out today that a factor was a report against him from a vendor company that he has been exerting pressure unreasonably on that company to advance his own career. 류일곤 아저씨, dad’s close colleague here in Vietnam, did not get promoted, so dad felt bad for him.
- Dad is expecting that Samsung will move him to Home Appliances division. I told him it can be a good event for him, because the proportion of manufacturing in the profit margin in home appliances might be greater than that in mobile devices. We discussed Ikea. I suggested to him that he changes his planned slogan from Smart World Made Together to Smart Home Made Together. He asked whether I think he should bring Jugaad culture, which he used in Samsung India for home appliances, to entire Samsung Home Appliances, and I told him it is a great idea especially since he can test which of the new colleagues are actually taking effort to study the unfamiliar concepts to do work better, but I suggested that he ties it not to India but instead to Himalaya. Instead of telling other countries to learn from India, say he wants to take Samsung Home Appliances to top of the world, and so he looked back on his trip to Himalaya which is the literal peak of this planet, then discuss his activities, such as his “road” analogy, then discuss the Jugaad culture which is followed by people “there” since the part of Himalaya we visited was part of India.
- After Lan Ha Bay, we visited Cat Ba National Park, but we gave up on hiking there, because the stone mountain was too steep for mom to hike. The national park looked like a jungle. We did check out some nice vacation pension huts there.
- On our way back to Hanoi, dad and I did not sleep, and instead discussed LA VISA business plan for me and Design Thinking method for him. As for design thinking, I explained Needfinding, Focus and Flare, and Rapid Prototyping to him, focusing mostly on Needfinding. I realized a great needfinding is done the way a doctor cures a patient. I will write that down in Company Operations Guide sometime. As for dad, I realized that dad need not follow some practices of design thinking, because he is planning to apply design thinking to a specific scenario which is improving work processes in a company. Design Thinking must be generic, because it must be applicable to consumers outside of the company. But dad is only planning to use design thinking on employees, so he can make many convenient assumptions such as that customers are experts, customers can participate in activities for many days such as writing down problems everyday for several days. I also realized dad has been practicing most principles of design thinking for many decades, just without calling it design thinking, much better than we do in the software industry at silicon valley, because dad visits fields to make observations, dad investigates problems with direct observations without relying just on reports, and dad tests multiple solution ideas prioritizing fast solutions. I told him he should develop a process called SMART Week borrowing heavily from design thinking but calling it his own invention, then narrate it in the context of me having gone to Stanford. This can also complete the loop since software industry of the West got design thinking and lean startup method from hardware industry of the East’s lean manufacturing method.
- We ate dinner at Galbiroman, then dad and I went to sauna. We ended night early since dad has to wake up at 4AM to go play golf and have a work meeting with the colleagues tomorrow.

### 24.11.28

- Woke up. Showered. Dad was already at work and mom was working out. I recorded diary while enjoying a cup of coffee, and Jinjoo cut and ate some fruits.
- For lunch, Jinjoo did not want to eat inside Lotte today. Mom suggested Lotte Mall Westlake. We ate Beijing Duck at Crystal Jade for lunch. After lunch, mom suggested that we enjoy shopping separately until car comes in 1H. Jinjoo and I visited Mujosh which is her favorite eyewear brand. She purchased 2 sunglasses which I selected for her, then she bought me a dandy frame with gun gray metal frame and dark wood legs.
- After Lotte Mall, we visited Ocean Park and Eco Park. We visited Aftertaste Cafe where barista made us a great hand drip coffee. The Costa Rica coffee beans smelled like gochujang to me, and mom laughed that it does smell like food after hearing me say it that way. The cafe made coffee so precisely, measuring coffee beans down to the gram, grinding it and pouring it so carefully in front of our eyes, then I asked whether they can add milk to make it a latte, and they looked so taken aback that I immediately withdrew my question and drank it the way they made it. It tasted nice.
- In the cars, Jinjoo told us a lot about what she knows about Vietnamese businesses: Vinfast car manufacturing division subsidizing car sharing app platform division, G7 coffee brand owning family going through a divorce, plus more. Mom remarked how Jinjoo is not only curious and but also executes asking questions thereby gaining new knowledge everyday.
- In the evening, Jinjoo and I met Lenna family at Hoan Kiem. We ate Bun Rieu (tomato crab soup) that my family’s driver recommended on our way to Hoan Kiem, Che and milk jelly, then sticky rice. I had heard that Lenna is so cute that she caught people’s attention in Saigon and Sa Pa, but it was funny to see in real life. When we were at the sticky rice restaurant, the son of the owner who is about 5 years old himself was so curious about Lenna and wanted to come see her, give her Yakult.
- Mom and dad and I are planning to go on a trip to Cat Ba tomorrow. Driver recommended that we stay overnight at Cat Ba, but dad must attend a business meeting in Hanoi in 2 days, so we will depart home at 5:30AM tomorrow.

### 24.11.27

- Woke up at 6AM. Mom asked why I am up so early. Showered. Jinjoo was awake by time I finished showering.
- I wore Stanford sweater since Jinjoo and I had planned to both wear Stanford sweaters for the first breakfast, but she asked me after I finished dressing up whether she can wear gym clothes. I told her to feel free to wear however she wants to, but honestly I felt quite unhappy, since I wanted to be able to brag about her. Jinjoo told me the two of us can go eat breakfast now since my mom went to the gym, and I was surprised since I expected mom to wait for us. I texted mom, as I had expected, mom asked me to let her know when Jinjoo finishes taking a shower and dressing up so that mom can come back home and we can all go eat breakfast together. I told her Jinjoo feels ready to go now, and mom returned home.
- Mom, Jinjoo, and I went to floor 63 for breakfast. We had more moments such as when Jinjoo, even while staying careful, made some remarks that made mom, as Jinjoo calls me and my family, pensive. But all in all, we had a good breakfast. I originally planned not to go work out in the morning, but I changed my mind during breakfast, and told them that I will join them at the fitness center after I get changed. By time I went down, they were actually in a yoga class, so I just ran and came home. I was surprised they entered the yoga class late since mom will not feel comfortable doing so, just like how I did not end up joining them in the yoga class because I did not feel comfortable entering the class during the session, and as I expected, when they returned home, mom spoke in a complaining voice that Jinjoo saw the yoga class so they had to enter the class during the session. I let Jinjoo know, and Jinjoo told me Jinjoo told my mom that Jinjoo need not join this yoga class, but mom dragged her in anyway. Haha. By time they got home, I had finished running, finished taking a short shower, and was sitting at the desk working.
- We enjoyed tea and coffee. For desserts, mom gave us TWA tea teddies fruit gums in ginger lemon flavor. It was delicious.
- Mom, Jinjoo, and I visited floor 38 for lunch. We looked at Thu Le Park outside, and mom mentioned parrots at the zoo, and Jinjoo mentioned she saw parrots at Maldives, and mom asked about how much time she spent there alone, then exclaimed how Jinjoo is able to spend so much time alone there. Jinjoo answered that she was there for 3 weeks, enjoyed the trip, and that she hopes to be able to enjoy such trips, spending time alone, once every 5 years in the future. Mom asked for 3 good things about being alone, and Jinjoo answered two at which point mom ended the conversation with the exclamation that Jinjoo is so independent.
- Worked on LA CAMERA. Fixed FFMPEG video saving error bug.
- With mom and Jinjoo, ate dinner at Sente. The restaurant was incredible. Without exaggeration, it ranks as one of top restaurants I have dined at in any country ever. All the foods were cooked to the theme of lotus, using parts of lotus such as its flower, its root, and its seeds. Dishes were seasoned well, and flavors were intensified with herbs. They were not only delicious, but they were delicious without compromising healthiness. For that reason, foods tasted expensive. At the end of the meal, mom and I wanted to order a can of Coca-Cola, but they told us they do not have it. I asked for Pepsi, and they said they only have healthy drinks. Hahaha. Mom and I felt so guilty, and I felt very impressed that they are using customer selection strategy by choosing whom not to serve and what not to sell. Wow. Even what they do not sell impressed me.
- Back at Lotte, mom returned home first, and Jinjoo and I strolled in Lotte Department Store. We saw many local Vietnamese brands. I let Jinjoo know that international brands moved out of Lotte Department Store when Lotte Mall happened, and I think it is a great strategy for Lotte since I can easily go to the mall to visit stores of brands I know the names of, but I do need the curating department store to help me discover great local brands. Prices were great.
- Back at home, I let Jinjoo shower first. While waiting, studied news and engineering blogs. I took a long bath. Earlier today, mom had told me that my aunts sent her text messages letting mom know that it snowed for the first time this year in Korea. I read Korean news during bath and saw that Incheon airport hundreds of flights were impacted today due to heavy snow. Over a hundred flights were cancelled, and over 30% of the cancellations were international flights. Wow. Had I chosen to fly a single day later than planned, I would not have had the fortune of getting to come to Vietnam so easily. I am so lucky.
- Dad returned home. Mom and Jinjoo were asleep. I came out to stay with him and chat with him while he ate a bowl of ramyun. He asked me whether I think he should accept the offer if Samsung wants him to go work at the home appliances division. I told him I think so since big products may become important products in the future, such as robots and cars, and he can gain credibility by working on those products. Even if the big products are actually easier to manufacture than small product, other people do not know this truth, so he might as well have that credibility explicitly recorded, if he wants to be able to manage big and small products in the future.

### 24.11.26

- When we landed in Hanoi airport, Jinjoo abandoned me and entered country as a Vietnamese citizen. I was left alone to wait in the line. She wanted to brush her teeth, but I was holding onto the tooth paste so she was not able to brush her teeth.
- At the airport, mom and dad greeted us. I was surprised that dad also came to greet us since it was a weekday noon. Mom and dad welcomed Jinjoo. Dad told her, in English, we have waited for Junwon to bring a girlfriend home for a long time. Haha. Mom and dad sent us in dad’s car to Quan Nem first, then took our luggages to store them at home. At Quan Nem, dad had to depart soon, because he had an important business event to attend. In fact, he will be also missing dinner, and that is why he had made time to come to the airport. Dad was also busy getting calls, because Samsung had started informing executives which ones are no longer staying in the company next year. He lost 2 executives under him.
- Jinjoo was nervous when she met my parents. When we met them at the airport for the first time, Jinjoo’s face was red, because she was blushing. In the car to Quan Nem, she tried to speak to the driver, asking him why there are so many airplanes in the sky, and he was flustered, so I told her via text not to scare the driver. She was flustered too, in the car and at the restaurant while waiting for my parents, unable to chat with me on random topics because she did not have mental capacity for conversations. While conversing with me about how a flight attendant asked me about where to go in Hanoi during landing, she even mistakenly called the attendant a servant. Haha.
- Mom gave Jinjoo a tour of Lotte: 38th floor restaurant, bridge to hotel, 63rd floor restaurant, 58th floor, hotel executive club lounge, 53rd floor indoor pool, 7th floor outdoor pool and sauna and fitness center, Lotte department store and Lotte Mart.
- At home, mom had prepared everything for her. She and I each got a room with gigantic beds, and mom had filled Jinjoo’s room’s closets with some warm jackets, and even new panties and new socks that she bought in case Jinjoo needs them. Mom also filled our bathroom with various cosmetic products and cleansing products and menstruation products for her. Jinjoo thanked mom for preparing all the things for Jinjoo.
- Mom gifted her Jo Malone Sea Salt Wood Sage perfume and me Tom Ford Vanille Fatale perfume. Jinjoo gifted her a wooden cutting board, whisky chocolates, Starbucks tumbler, and a bunch of tote bags from Stanford and Palo Alto and Trader Joe’s.
- Mom, Jinjoo, and I walked to Galbiroman for dinner. They gave us unlimited meat and side dishes. It was delicious. Jinjoo showed mom a photo album of the foods she made for me and I liked. Jinjoo keeps the album so that she can quickly remember the foods I liked in the past while she is doing meal prep.
- Jinjoo and I got a massage. Jinjoo says they called me handsome repeatedly. I fell asleep, and Jinjoo got on a call with Lenna.
- When Jinjoo and I were home, my dad had also returned home. We showed dad the gifts that Jinjoo brought my parents including the alcohol chocolates. Dad showed her his 지행33훈 booklet which he has read again and again over 100 times and had recorded every single time he has reread it.
- My parents were planning to take a vacation this weekend and spend time with me and Jinjoo, but their plan clashed with Jinjoo’s plan to hang out with her niece and family this weekend. Her older sister Kim, her older sister’s husband Justin, and her older sister’s baby Lenna, are visiting Hanoi for the first time this weekend. Back in California, when Jinjoo was planning to hang out with Lenna so promptly after meeting my parents, I was afraid her plans would not make her positively presentable to my parents, then I had a fight with Jinjoo, because Jinjoo thought I was being too controlling. But alas, as was easy to expect, her plan is clashing with the plan of my family. This single clash is not that important on its own but very emblematic of the cultural clash.
- Overall, Jinjoo did well, speaking softly, acting decently, all day today.

### 24.11.25

- At the Incheon airport, Jinjoo and I took a shower at the shower rooms for transit travelers. The service was free in the past, but it got transferred from the airport to a private company, so now it is $6.
- At the Incheon airport, ate bibimbap and tonkatsu with Jinjoo. The food was delicious and cheap, unlike airport foods in other countries. I felt like each bite was helping me recover energy.
- We visited stores like the Korean Heritage store checking out various products and recording LA CAMERA videos. When she recorded the wall of books at Starbucks, LA CAMERA knew that we were at an airport Starbucks, and we were so surprised.

### 24.11.24

- Packed luggages. Finished reading Epictetus and adding notes to Seelog. Took a morning nap. Reviewed house finance for last month.
- Told Jinjoo that I wish to take a bath as the last activity before departing home, such that when I am feeling unwell on the airplane feeling like I want to take a shower, I can remember that I took an entire bath as recently as theoretically possible. I worked on LA CAMERA until the moment I had to take the bath.
- I was on high alert for traveling, but Jinjoo told me she is filling relaxed and will take care of me. I was on maximum alert level when departing home. Alertness halved after we got off the car at the airport, halved again after we checked in our luggages, halved again after we got past the security check. We had enough time after security check-in, so we strolled to the terminal for domestic flights. Jinjoo bought me a banh mi.
- On the airplane, she and I were the only ones staying awake reading books. We did try to sleep whenever we could, but other times, we just read our books. She read a book on Lehman Brothers, and I read a book on John Malone. I also listened to an Acquired Podcast episode on Ikea. She and I also discussed working capital and cash flow and how I am inspired by Ikea and John Malone and also recent anti-trust trial of Google to use leveraged buy-out as a small company to buy popular apps and remove them from rival platforms.
- On the airplane from SFO to ICN, I should have ordered bibimbap, because it is more delicious, but I ordered beef pasta without thinking much, so Jinjoo offered me half of her bibimbap, then she felt hungry still hours before the next meal, so I went to the back of the airplane and asked the flight attendants for some potato chips.

### 24.11.23

- Woke up angry at 5:30AM. Took a shower. I will depart California with her tomorrow to go see my parents. I think she has been somewhat stressed about whether she will be able to get along well with my parents, and it remains a great mystery to me and probably to my parents as well why she has been so eager to go spend a whole month with them, so eager that she fought me on two separate occasions this year when I was hesitant about planning our trip to go see my parents, but she insisted that she is just trying to spend a good time in her own home country and that my parents just happen to be there, so I guess I will let her be and mind my own business. It remains a mystery to me what she thinks love is. I will record some reflections I had yesterday in Lover Orientations 24.11.22. Washed dishes. Grabbed a cup of coffee. Then spent the next 2H reflecting on living with her. Am I unhappy? You bet that I am. Am I unhappy because of her? All I can say is that there is nothing else in my life that can make me unhappy at this moment.
- Had a nightmare during the nap. I think I have not had a depression this serious. In my dream, I wanted to die, but I found out that my older sister also wants to die due to our mom, so I decided to help her before I depart life, and discovered our mom was planning to kill our dad tonight. I stopped her, and we celebrated, then our younger sister jumped out of balcony to die. I did not catch that the younger sister was suffering from yet another problem. Recently, I had been so severely depressed that they are surfacing as deaths, and the sources of my concerns that appeared as sufferings and struggles of my blood relatives are what is going on in my home in California and my relationship with Jinjoo, and I am terrified problems are appearing faster than I can solve or even detect.
- Jinjoo woke me up from my nap telling me that Cindy unexpectedly texted us telling her that she did not fly to Texas and is in fact on her way to Sunnyvale pickleball court to play with us. She was planning to skip the reservation today seeing how tired and unhappy I am. I did not mind at all. We drove there, played pickleball well. I won 2 games against them, but I realized this will be the last time we play pickleball this year, so I let them win very spectacularly on the last game.
- On our way back home, I told her I am not sure whether or not to chat with her about how I have been unhappy lately, because neither choice will lead us to happiness. She suggested that we do talk about it. We ate dinner then talked about it. I suggested to her that we try just as an experiment giving each other a month and blindly following whatever the other says for a month each, then offered to her that she can have January or February. She let me take January. I also told her that I will have tried her family’s ways even on aspects that are different from my own ways if I were to stay with them and therefore I hope that she will try my family’s ways and also make it her goal to not fight with my parents while we are staying with them. We spent time together, then we drove to Mercado, 5 minutes before HomeGoods to buy a wooden board for my mom. We also visited Walmart to buy pregnancy tests. Jinjoo has been worrying about her missed period, but she has also missed many periods in the past due to PCOS. I was not alarmed unlike in past incidents since I learned she panics every month. As expected, she was not pregnant.

### 24.11.22

- I suggested to Jinjoo that we cancel trip to San Francisco Premium Outlets since it is raining all day at Livermore today, but she wanted to go unless I really did not want to go, so I drove her there. I had shown her the app icon for LA CAMERA I made yesterday, which is a camera icon with Junwon icon logo at the center, but she told me she does not like it. I asked her why and she told me it is just because the color resembles Apple App Store icon, and then asked me back if I am going to be asking customers when they give me such shallow feedback. She hates thinking deeply for me. I am hurt that she is so careless about me. More I care about her, worse it is. She had prepared neck pillow and waist belt and took a nap for latter half of the trip. I think she is great as a friend, carefree, but anyone who tries to care a lot about her will be punished emotionally.
- At the mall, called dad for 2H. Discussed LA CAMERA. I can just feel that it is prominent, but what shall I point out to customers as the feeling that it is best at delivering?
- Purchased several clothes at Bloomingdales.
- We fought in the car on our way home. I was excitedly telling her about the discussion I had with dad about describing LA CAMERA and my goal to reach a thousand customers by better selling the existing product, then she started giving me a passionate speech about how she wants fiscal discipline. I explained to her I am just trying to have money to pay for rent and food, and she told me that she thinks I should not be so focused on luxury and that she wants to live frugally even if she becomes rich. It was not really a conversation at all, because we were discussing completely different topics. Near home, I suggested that I just stop mentioning eating out when discussing customers and revenue, as she wanted. She was caught off guard, and tried to look for other things to say, but I told her she told me she wants X and I will give her X, and prevented her from finding yet another topic to fight about. At home, she asked me why I have been depressed lately, and somehow slipped in how she has been angry that I did not do dishes several days ago, and I told her I do not want to talk today. Usually when people ask why are you depressed, they ask to help resolve the problems. When she hears what I have to say, she will refute point by point and present her dissatisfactions. I am not interested in enduring such pain today. The drive was highly difficult and dangerous due to rain. I had to use emergency lights at some extremely dangerous segments.
- Cried at night in bed in dark. Others have happy relationships. Why must I suffer a bad relationship? I cried night after night. At first, I cried in fear. Then, I cried in sadness. Now, I cry in frustration.

### 24.11.21

- Woke up at 3:30AM to the sound of a car slipping on the road outside due to rain. Tried to sleep again, but did not feel very well. Went out to brush teeth and threw up. I think I am feeling unwell either due to drinking alcohol without eating dinner or due to eating pistachio last night. Tried to sleep again. From depression, I now feel less sad all the time and more agitated all the time.
- Sat down to try writing code, but there is so much to do that I was not able to get started. First washed dishes. Then decided that I will spend some time planning engineering tasks for the rest of FY3 S1.
- Worked from 6AM to 3AM excluding minimum tasks such as food and shower. After hard work, I was able to finish developing the minimal LA CAMERA I feel confident selling to customers. At least for iOS. I will have to fix bug for Android.

### 24.11.20

- Worked from 2AM to 5AM developing La Camera.
- Took Jinjoo to Westgate mall. While she was trying on clothes at Nordstrom Rack, I read news and posted Carmel videos.

### 24.11.19

- Woke up at 6AM to drive Jinjoo to the CFA exam test site. She called Lenna in the car while I was driving to a destination I have never visited before, so it was incredibly difficult to navigate, but I let her have everything today since she is tackling a task that is important to her. When we got there, I lingered, trying to make sure that she is ready and that everything is well and that there is nothing else that I can be doing for her. I fear her these days, but increase in fear happened in isolation of any changes to how much I love her. I sincerely wish her to do well on her exam so that she may feel and be fulfilled.
- After returning home, I got back to Company work for the first time in several days. I texted her letting her know that I am going to stay awake during her exam in case she needs anything from home so that I can come to her within 10 minutes. It was great to return to work. I set up a template for mobile apps.
- She texted me 20 minutes before the exam finish time telling me that she finished the exam early. I stopped working and drove over to her immediately. She told me she did well and predicts that she will pass the exam. Fortunately, she was in a good mood today. We drove to Ranch 99 Market to buy grocery for malatang. In the grocery store, I just stood still at a random location while she was shopping. I felt cold in there, so I wanted to return to car, but I hesitated to ask her, but I ultimately asked her to suggest that I go stay at the car. At home, she cooked fried fish for us for lunch.
- Called parents. Dad is planning a slogan for next year. He is thinking Smart World Made Together.
- We ate malatang for dinner. We were happy. I did nothing that might make her unhappy. But I'm exhausted. I lied down on bed. I felt tearing up in bed but was able to hold back today successfully. She is taking a bath right now, and I think I'll be able to fall asleep before she comes out, thereby ascertaining the completion of today as an untroubled day.
- Woke up at midnight suddenly with an inspiration for what to say to hiring candidates visiting Company website and sent an hour at desk writing it down.

### 24.11.18

- Woke up early in the morning, because she wanted to talk to me about the conflict from last night. We had breakfast. Then I recorded the conflict. Now I am feeling very tired. I want to get some morning nap before working. Had nightmares during morning nap, and felt uncomfortable fear creeping up in my veins when she was in the room despite the circumstances that my eyes were blocked by a mask and that I had been asleep already by then.
- During the day, reviewed breathing difficulty incident on Seelog, washed dishes, called parents. Drove to Sunnyvale pickleball courts but we failed to find an open court today. We visited Safeway to buy bananas for her to eat during the exam tomorrow.
- At Safeway, she realized that I was still feeling unwell near her, and she started feeling unhappy. While driving home, I tried to breathe silently, because in the past she has been unhappy that I breathe loudly when I am unhappy, but the blood veins in my nose was swollen due to sadness, so I had to breathe using my mouth to breathe quietly, and I started feeling more and more short on oxygen. I started feeling dizzy only half way back home, but I was able to successfully make it home alive. Jinjoo was very tired from lack of sleep. She reviewed materials while I was taking a shower and wrapping up the day. I tried my best to help her understand any last minute materials that I can contribute another explanation for, and tried my best to help her feel emotionally safe by thinking I am not unhappy. She fell asleep pretty early in the evening. I was unable to breathe comfortably in the bedroom, so I left bedroom at night. I was highly stressed, and I let out stress by eating a lot of pistachio nuts, so much that I vomited next morning. I felt much more comfortable breathing while in the living room, but the couch next to the windows was very cold. In the bedroom, I considered turning on the heated blanket, but the cable was disconnected last night, so instead of waking her up to connect the heated blanket, I turned on the heater. I tried to fall asleep in the bedroom. It was after 3AM by this point. But I teared up. I have been deeply depressed and stressed and scared near her in the past week, and I have been tearing up at random times today too such as at Safeway and while watching Chu Qiao acting nicely in the TV show. She told me she noticed she was getting easily angered a couple weeks ago. I think I notice I am getting easily startled right now. I feel like I am suffering depression. When she was awake, she asked me whether I will be able to be happy in the future if I am so unhappy next to her. I feel so sad that she does not understand me. To me right now, it feels like she is not interested in putting in the effort to understand me, and I also told her and I do want her to focus on her exam for now and not on me, but it is most likely that she is just not wired to understand and care for my emotions. Different people are built for different things. She is built for great work, and she needs the way her brain works to be able to get her great works done, but making me feel safe and loved is not going to be included there. She asked me whether I will feel happy in the future, but I do not care about the future, I cannot think about the future, I am literally spending time in my car driving back home focusing on every single breathe I am inhaling and exhaling so that I can get home safely without fainting without angering her, and I am unable to suppress my heart from pumping faster and faster when she is in the bedroom, I am lacking sleep due to this, my frightened body condition is making my brain give me suited nightmares everytime I try to sleep, and, just in general, every hour of each day, not my brain, but the blood veins touching every corner of my body, my finger tips, are feeling primordial fear, just animalistic fear of a prey hiding from its devourer, hoping that the devourer will not feel agitated today so that I may live on just another day. I cannot think about the happiness of the future. I cannot think about whether my fear right now is logically justifiable or not. All I can do is survive each minute barely. I left bedroom multiple times to catch breath since my body had frightened reactions every time I entered bed, and I was yet again in bed, pouring all 100% of my attention and energy to carefully control my body to suppress any noise of me sobbing in the darkness, when she woke up and told me to go turn off the heater.

### 24.11.17

- Mom relayed story that dad heard from the older brother of the head of Samsung mobile division. According to him, Samsung mobile division head wanted to bring dad in to Korea so that dad can lead production for mobile division, but vice chairman (who ranks higher than division head) called and asked to either let him borrow my dad for a year to lead production for appliances or at least keep my dad in Vietnam so that he can work on both mobile products and appliance products for another year. Mom says dad was unhappy about the rumor that he might be moved to appliances division, but now he is kind of happy about it.
- We discussed dinner plans before heading out to pickleball, and decided that we will eat Vons Chicken tonight. I offered to her that I will pay for the chicken if she beats me on at least one game tonight. It was a fun offer and we left home feeling happy, but I think it was a mistake in retrospect. During the gameplay, Jinjoo complained when she was losing that I was playing in a mean way, sending balls far from her instead of where she is standing. I was pretty annoyed in the past game sessions when she spoke that way, trying to change the rules of the game to her unfair advantage, especially because she just keeps playing her best even when I comply with her request to play worse. Today, I felt robbed. I was cranky, acting the way she acted yesterday when she was losing, not speaking, with a frowning face expression. I did pay for the entire chicken, but I told her I do not like playing pickleball with her.
- Had a conflict with Jinjoo. See the record in Lover Orientations for 24.11.17 Panic due to her unexplained anger.

### 24.11.16

- Felt hungry at 5AM. Jinjoo cooked sushi bake for me.
- Tried remaking web search AI bots. Succeeded with Perplexica and Morphic. Chose not to use Microsoft Magentic One. I finally gained access to the internet.
- Jinjoo is taking the last CFA Level 1 mock exam today. Gave her home and my desk, and I instead worked in the apartment community room.
- Had a call with Parnian and Ian.
- Collected notes for the marketing book I finished studying yesterday.
- I was patient for Jinjoo all day today. I ate lunch and dinner as silently as possible, and I did not rush her to our pickleball appointment. When I was leaving home, she told me to get ready to depart home at 7PM for our 7:30PM pickleball appointment, so I returned home at 6:30PM, remained silent in the bedroom, then came out to the living room in 7PM to check on her, but she told me she still needs more time, so I told her to take as much time as she needs, and did not even mention to her that I checked and found out that Sunnyvale Pickleball Court has a no refund policy for not showing up on time. When she was done at 7:30PM, she hurried to the pickleball game, and I happily let her do everything her way. Jinjoo not only passed today’s mock exam just like last week’s mock exam, she also passed with higher scores. She was happy. She also played pickleball very well.

### 24.11.15

- Worked productively and in focus at home all day today. Made Generative Page.
- Studied a marketing book from Japan. Will add notes to Seelog Book Collection tomorrow.

### 24.11.14

- Soon after waking up, departed home and worked on phone in the apartment complex. It was great. I’ll keep doing this. Published a Carmel video.
- Called mom. While explaining the idea of providing multiple La apps in Junwon Membership, came up with the idea to upsell more expensive membership plans by upgrading AI models.
- Worked until late into the night.

### 24.11.13

- Before taking a shower, I predicted that Jinjoo will dislike seeing me “sitting idly” at desk, and wondered whether I should go work at the cafe or go on a stroll to avoid conflict. She never described that way, but I work cognitively so I seem to sit idly to external observers, and in the past, she has both been asking me to do random things when she sees me at the desk and also explicitly recounted getting annoyed that I “do nothing and wait” while she is cooking and cleaning for both of us. After shower, she seemed to be in good mood, so I chatted with her, but after some time, she asked me to go clean the bedroom. I told herI actually predicted this in advance and my predictions to come true. I had so many ideas for company work until she told me to go clean the bedroom, then I had to spend 2 hours recovering from it.
- Jinjoo took an afternoon nap and I was able to get back into productivity flow. I worked on La Catalog.
- Visited Sunnyvale Pickleball Center and played pickleball with Jinjoo for 2 hours. Called parents. Explained that I win the sports despite having just started, because I know that a sports game is about maintaining a steady pace until the game is completely over. Visited Trader Joe’s for grocery.
- At home, worked on Company work. I am importing Centum Catalog as La Catalog.

### 24.11.12

- Woke up at 6AM. Showered, ate breakfast, studied Epictetus. Today, I will go ship iPhone 13 Pro Max to Apple at Fedex, spend time writing Company Story FY2, and develop info site.
- Visited Mercado to drop off iPhone 13 Pro Max at FedEx. Also got a cup of coffee at Starbucks. Visited Costco to buy grocery. Called parents during the grocery shopping trip. At home, ate dinner with Jinjoo, then we headed over to Stanford to work at the library until midnight.
- Worked on monorepo. Added pages to company site. Added info site for camera app.
- After returning home, we had dinner. I washed dishes and cleaned kitchen using vinegar while Jinjoo was taking a shower. I heard from my mom that vinegar is great for cleaning, but I have not been using it.
- Stayed up until 3AM working, just because I did not feel sleepy. Not coding, but just writing down ideas. Decided to address customers who are “epicurean”.

### 24.11.11

- Fell asleep at 6AM. Slightly before midnight, Jinjoo asked me if I think it is a good idea for her to take her first CFA L1 mock exam then. The exam is 6H long, so I first considered it to be a bad idea, but then I suggested that she takes the mock exam if she has the energy to since she has been stressed about the exam for awhile, so stressed that she has been fearing taking the mock exam, and it is better to observe the state than to not do so, and I also had some confidence since some time ago that she will be able to pass the exam. I stayed up too, in solidarity, in support, reading Epictetus quietly in the bedroom. At 6AM, she told me that she has finished the entire mock exam and passed it! She was happy to celebrate the moment with me, and then I went to sleep. I woke up at 10AM to find that she has stayed up to write a letter of apology to my parents about yesterday and to me for recent days. I showered, hugged her, made coffee for me and her, then sat at desk to do morning tasks. I will write her a letter telling her that this is Jinjoo I love: in the past 24 hours, she has exercised hard, studied hard, wrote thoughtful letters to me and my parents for our relationship. I feel respected and happy.
- We had a fun day at Valley Fair mall. I was running out of Carmel videos to post on social media. This trip help me get a ton in stock.
- In the evening, I had a strange feeling in my arm. My right hand muscle was tensing up. I first found it weird that right hand was thicker than left hand, so I asked Jinjoo to confirm by comparing my two hands. Then later, I felt pain in my right forearm. Then later, numbness in arms. We returned home. I am not sure if it was due to lack of sleep or perhaps migraine, but I feel like I was losing cognitive ability, because I was feeling alienated from my own body.
- At home, we has dinner while watching Chu Qiao, spent time together. She collapsed, and I worked in the living room. I set up a monorepo for an info site.

### 24.11.10

- Woke up late. Showered. Jinjoo wanted to spend time together for a bit, so we did. I called parents, but had an argument with them. Several days ago, Jinjoo asked me if my mom may have a tour agency to recommend for Hanoi tour, and also asked me if I think it will be okay to ask my mom about it since Jinjoo does not want to stress out my mom. My mom was trying to find a tour agency and also was wondering whether they need to make a tour reservation for them. I got so tired of this expected behavior and we had an argument. I am too tense due to stress coming from all fronts, from work, from Jinjoo, so I think I exploded too easily on my parents. Anyways, I explained I am very tense these days, and I returned home, and Jinjoo consoled me after spending some time worrying about her own situation with respect to my parents.
- Packed iPhone 13 Pro Max to be sent back to Apple Store. I will drop it off at a FedEx shipping center tomorrow. It has been with me for years.
- Jinjoo has been bodily clingy since yesterday, so I remarked that it is interesting since I think other women, I think, actually get cranky during menstruation and their relationships deteriorate. She told me women get cranky before the period, and she was actually also suspecting whether she has been impatient recently, because period is coming.

### 24.11.09

- Company. Worked on Carmel Product Plan FY3 S1. Finished writing it, but planning to rewrite and polish the product introduction part which I will publish publicly as the app store listing.
- Woke up feeling pretty depressed. I do not feel supported by Jinjoo. I am not sure about what will make me happy with her now or later. Showered, washed dishes, then left home without a word with her. Wrote a letter to her expressing depression but also some optimism to fall in love again during upcoming trip to Vietnam.
- Decided to take the day off from Company work. I will read Epictetus. I took a nap after reading.
- Jinjoo responded. Instead of showing concern or asking more about me which is what I would have done if she had sent me a letter first, she shot back at me, as I suspected. She is so different from who I am or who I need. I told her I will spend as much time as I can separately from her starting now.
- I will depart home tomorrow morning, eat Trader Joe's salad and Costco chicken.
- We played pickleball with Sylvia. She enjoyed playing pickleball for 2H, and I was able to make her feel better again. We played for 1.5H at the court we had reserved, because the next reservers did not show up for 0.5H, and we found a different court that was open and played there until the lights went out at 10PM.
- At home, I made salad for her. When she was chatting with Sylvia, it seemed like Jinjoo was pretty stressed that her CFA Level 1 exam is happening in just 10 days, so I offered her that I can do more for her in the next 10 days so that she can have more time to study for CFA. I can make the salads for her.
- At night, I drank just 2 cups of diluted egg nog, which is not that much alcohol, then pretended I got super drunk. Thankfully, I am weak to alcohol, so my body gets red, so she was convinced. I was lying in bed, and I let tears slide down my cheeks, and she kissed me and consoled me.

### 24.11.08

- Drove to Stanford. Called parents. Mom is planning to visit a Thai Nguyen tea farm with her friends. Dad and I discussed Carmel for 1.5 hours.
- Worked in Green Library. Got a bag of Trader Joe’s salad for dinner. Worked in Old Union.
- Company. Set up the new monorepo.
- Had a small tension again with Jinjoo. She knew that Stanford Green Library was closing early tonight but was planning to study until midnight at Old Union. I was not aware of her plan, so I asked her while coming out of the library whether we shall return home for dinner then study until midnight. She was angry: 1) that she will have to cook food whereas I will get to rest at home, 2) that I am changing our plan multiple times a day. I came here planning to stay in the library until midnight not knowing that it is closing at 7PM tonight, and also I used to prefer eating out until she got angry at me sometime ago for keep suggesting eating out when we can eat at home and save money while eating healthy. I told her people cannot understand what others are thinking without having conversations and normal people have conversations to communicate without getting angry at the very fact that the other is starting a conversation to align the plan. I sent her to Old Union then brought some salad bags to Old Union to eat with her.
- At home, I took a long bath in darkness. I wonder if I’m a little depressed. Recently, I feel like I want to tear up at random times. I’m not confident that Jinjoo is good for me. She is irrational, disrespectful, and ungrateful. She is selfish, and prioritizes her comforts over mine. Every attribute that made my mom great for my dad, Jinjoo lacks.
- I did not want to sleep at night. Drank alcohol alone. I feel miserable to feel disrespected by my own lover.

### 24.11.07

- Woke up at 3AM due to sleeping early at 9PM and sleeping shallow due to alcohol. Jinjoo woke up first and made small sounds, so I woke up too. She was interested in eating food, so we ate super early breakfast. She returned to sleep, but I stayed up, with 2 cups of coffee, and worked peacefully on desk. We had a small tension just this week, because Jinjoo dislikes when she sees me sitting idly at home (even if idly means actually working cognitively while sitting at the desk) and she also dislikes when she sees me feeling uncomfortable feeling that she is discomforted by me sitting idly at home. I think this is just her instinct, and the only way out of this problem is for me to get a dedicated office space as soon as possible outside of home. A man is driven out of home.
- Worked at desk during morning. Studied news. Studied tech stacks like One (but discovered that One is not yet ready for production, so decided to stick to current set up). Planned product.
- Washed car. Shopped grocery at Hankook Market for Jinjoo. Called parents during the drive.
- At home, she and I were both tired. She exercised at the fitness center, and I worked on developing a new site for the company.

### 24.11.06

- Worked at Sunnyvale Library with Jinjoo. The library was pretty noisy today due to a public class and a help session for computer use. I worked on reviewing documents from FY2 to write Company Story FY2, then called parents. Jinjoo wanted to take a break in the evening, so I asked her how long she wants to take a break for, then she suggested that we go to Costco for grocery shopping. At Costco, we got egg nog, because Jinjoo told me she does not know the taste of egg nog. At home, we got drunk while sipping a cup of egg nog, then enjoyed the evening without worrying about working and studying. It was a good way to destress.
- I see many ways to make Carmel even better, but I will freeze feature expansion for now, polish what exists, and publish the product to an open test.

### 24.11.05

- I woke up at noon feeling groggy, possibly due to excessive sleep, possibly due to allergy medications from yesterday morning. Jinjoo texted me telling me that she will be in the library all day today and that she prepared food for me in the fridge. I responded wishing her good luck telling her I hope her day goes well so that she can come home happy tonight. I bathed, ate lunch, then washed dishes.
- Worked on Carmel, but felt tired. Called parents while feeling tired. I hope Jinjoo comes home happy today, because her depression swiftly destroyed my productivity. I'm giving up coding work for the rest of today. I will do some exercise, homekeep chores, hopefully some writing work, then sleep.
- Exercised, bathed, ate dinner. Jinjoo texted me from the library telling me that people are lining up to vote for USA presidential election. I got happy that she is talking to me again, and became productive instantly.
- Developed Carmel. Switched camera from React Native WebRTC to React Native Vision Camera thereby adding camera stabilization.
- Visited Stanford with Jinjoo to be at campus during USA presidential election moment since university campuses get energetic on such nights. Contrary to our memory of Stanford campus on the night of 2016 presidential election, Stanford was not that interested in the presidential election tonight. We suspect that it is because we were in our dorms back in 2016, but we were in Old Union tonight, so students who are interested in politics are all back in their dorms and uninterested students gathered in Old Union. Trump won.

### 24.11.04

- Woke up at 6AM. Feeling slightly allergic. Possibly due to drinking some alcohol yesterday at the party. Decided to stay up despite not having gotten a lot of sleep since I was not able to call dad for several days now and I might as well reset sleep schedule. I can take an afternoon nap while Jinjoo is at the library today since she plan to go study at one all day today.
- I am considering publishing Carmel Camera as an app called La Roastery. People can check whether they will be roasted or toasted by AI.
- Reviewed M343. Planned M344. Made a Zelle account in Chase bank app so that Jinjoo can send me the rent split amount.
- Took a nap. Woke up at 2PM. Showered, ate lunch, then sat down at desk to begin work. I’m feeling groggy. Might be due to the allergy medication I took in the morning for the first time in many months.
- Worked on Carmel. Fixed iOS build bug by upgrading Expo. Called mom during a stroll. Since it was cold today, I texted Jinjoo telling her that I can bring her a warm jacket to her or even drive her back from the library (then drive her back to the library tomorrow morning for her bike) if she is feeling cold. She told me she has been at the common room and is now returning home for dinner. I told her I will come out to carry her backpack. I ran out in excitement. Then when we met, she was depressed and out of energy. I asked her what is wrong, and she did not say anything. I asked her if she failed a practice exam, and she told me she did not take one yet. She was not in a mood to chat, so I just walked home silently too, feeling depressed.
- After dinner, I showered and headed to bed. I gave up on all evening work, because I felt depressed by her depression. I’m not sure what she is angry at. Before she left home, all we talked about was that when I woke up, she told me not to keep laundry on bathroom floor so I told her I will but also showed her the laundry she had left in the bathroom and told her I left mine on bathroom floor because I forgot after not getting chance because she was in the bedroom where the laundry basket is. She told me she is not angry due to CFA study, and she was laughing while on a call with her family. I’m not sure what other topic might be grave enough to make her ruin our days. I fell asleep at 9PM and ended up sleeping until noon.

### 24.11.03

- Woke up at 10AM, showered, ate lunch while watching Chu Qiao wuxia TV show. Played pickleball with Sylvia at 2PM. I was very good at pickleball, but Jinjoo was also very good at pickleball.
- Visited Andreas for a pumpkin carving party. We actually did not finish carving a single pumpkin tonight. Hahaha. Andreas cooked delicious barbecue. Salad was delicious, Brazilian cheese skewer was great, and dipping watermelon in tequila was surprising good. Met old friends such as Andreas, Isa, Gabe, Blaine, and met new friends like Will, Monica. We had a great time at the party, then came home early enough to preserve energy.

### 24.11.02

- Woke up. Worked on distribution. Ate food. I spent the afternoon taking a nap. Then we went out to play pickleball with Sylvia and Cindy. After pickleball, we visited Dae Bak to keep chatting with them.
- After we returned home, Jinjoo and I once again spent hours in bed editing and posting videos on social media sites. It was fun to be doing that with her, especially because she was laughing and having fun, and I am happy when she is happy, especially when she is made happy thanks to the outcome of my work. Posting on social media with her is a great way for me to decompress at the end of a day.

### 24.11.01

- I purchased a new iPhone 16 with the help of Jinjoo to get Apple employee discount through her friend. We plan to go pick it up at Apple Park at 5PM today.
- Visited Apple Park Visitor Center. We recorded Carmel videos. I picked up and unboxed the new iPhone 16. We sat at the roof deck on opposite sides and called our respective moms. After that, we drove to Costco Redwood City to buy the tea icecreams that she has been wanting to try. We also got alcohol chocolates and recorded even more Carmel videos. It was a fun trip! At home, we recorded Carmel video of us unboxing and tasting the tea icecreams.
- Posted Carmel videos on social media. I am junwoncamera and Jinjoo is ai.thinks (whatdoesaithink). We spent hours in bed editing and posting videos on our respective phones. It was fun to do that with Jinjoo.
### 24.12.31

- Worked on setting up D106C Office.
- Washed dishes. Disinfected hard surfaces in the bathroom.
- Got some sleep from 2AM to 6AM. Showered. With Jinjoo, ate breakfast, watched OEY Marriage Report.
- Posted LA CAMERA videos online.
- Started 24.12 House Meeting but ended midway after we ended up fighting. Had to depart home to go meet her friend Sylvia.
- Visited Sylvia. Met her dog Dash. Picked up CFA Level 2 textbooks that Jinjoo had delivered to her home during our Asia trip. Gifted her graviola tea.
- Visited Hankook Market. Bought 붕어빵 to bring to the New Year Party tonight.
- As soon as returning home, called parents to wish them Happy New Year.
- I had to get some sleep before departing home due to jet lag and I did feel severely tired but I was not able to feel relaxed enough to fall asleep with her in the bed. I came out to the living room to think and relax. I reviewed how we ended up fighting during the house meeting. OEY Marriage Report couples learned a lot just by watching themselves through the camera. After we had an initial fight during the house meeting, I suggested that we record ourselves with a camera, and I just watched the recording then showed it to her too before she went to bed, and the recording helped us see that she is unlike me putting on scary angry facial expression a lot and I seem very nervous and scared. In the new year, I plan to use cameras on us way more. I think it will help us learn how we can each be better for the other. I think it will mostly help her a lot to see what she is like and how she is different from me the perfect partner.
- Visited Andreas in Palo Alto for New Year Party. He moved in with Isa. All the guests were couples. Had a lot of fun chatting with people, eating food, playing Codenames.

### 24.12.30

- Jet Lag Sleep from 2PM to 2AM. Bathed. Helped dad write a new year letter to Samsung Home Appliances production team. Ate breakfast, watched Squid Game with Jinjoo in bed, then washed dishes.
- Transferred money to CSC for statutory representation in the State of Delaware. Recorded diary.
- Worked out at the fitness center. Walked fast at a slope. At home, showered, cut nails, then worked at desk while Jinjoo cooked aglio e olio for our lunch. Set up Migrations log.
- Jet Lag Sleep from 2PM to 10PM. Wrote in FY3 Operations Guide a note comparing how we must “cure like doctors”. It is an idea I had since describing design thinking and needfinding to my dad during our ride back home after a trip to the Cat Ba archipelago. Set up D106C Office.

### 24.12.29

- Started the day at midnight after a jet lag nap starting from 6PM. Showered then did homemaking chores such as washing clothes and washing dishes.
- Reviewed Y28. Called parents. Purchased a new pair of Nike running shoes. Ate breakfast at 3AM. Exercised lower body.
- Woke up again at 10AM. Cleaned dishes. Planned house meeting.

### 24.12.28

- Woke up before the sunrise due to jetlag. Watched Squid Game with Jinjoo in bed until Costco opened. Shopped grocery at Costco. Disinfected luggages. Brewed coffee. We went out again to shop grocery at Kings Seafood Center then Hankook Market. I studied 하나회. After returning home, she cooked and I unpacked. Then I fell asleep at dinner time due to jet lag.

### 24.12.27

- On the airplane from Hanoi to Incheon, discovered that water bottle leaked water in my backpack. I hurriedly took out electronic devices and cash to mitigate water damage. I did not lose any items to water damage, but I was not able to sleep a lot on the airplane in order to dry the items. Perhaps I was destined to lose the cash or electronic devices during the remainder of this Asia trip but Fortuna informed me to stay alert so that I can keep all items safely in my possession until my return to my California residence. After the airplane landed and Jinjoo returned to seat, told her what happened and that I decided to take it just as a warning from Fortuna that I shall be grateful for and that I am happy and energetic and that we shall enjoy Korea today.
- Landed in Korea. We stopped in front of the first bathroom we encountered after getting off the airplane, then took turns brushing teeth, washing face, and changing into clean clothes. We enjoyed seeing beautiful artistic ads on the wall display. At the passport check, I got through immediately since there was no waiting line, but Jinjoo had to wait an hour in the waiting line for foreigners. I relaxed and edited LA CAMERA videos while waiting for her. Originally, I was worried about timing since Coex opens at 10:30AM, but this waiting time actually made timing perfect.
- At the airport, we visited Lotteria and ate the bulgogi burger that military generals ate while planning the recent martial law coup. We got on a bus to Coex, and it was pleasant. On the bus, Jinjoo remarked that Korea looks just like it does in the movies and dramas. She also remarked how people can feel at peace in Korea unlike in USA or Vietnam. I explained Seoul to her on our way from and back to the airport.
- At Coex, I was able to remember the way and guide Jinjoo to Starfield Library. I got a cup of Kyoto Latte at Percent Arabica. It was as delicious as I remembered. I gave Jinjoo a photoshoot at the Starfield Library. I gave her excellent directions and performed an excellent camera work, and I was able to give her some amazing videos.
- We ran around at Coex for shopping. We shopped at Eight Seconds, which disappointed, then DAISO, which impressed, and YP books, where she only got 5 minutes to shop. But after that, we ended up missing our bus despite running fast, because we were not able to find a way to cross the road to get to the other side of a big road at the last minute. We got on a different bus later. At the airport, Jinjoo asked each person standing in front of us at the security line, and got us to the front of the line for security check. I was able to pick up my carry-on luggage at the duty free shop and she was able to buy Sulwhasoo face wash products and of course we were able to get on the airplane safely thanks to her having done that. I was a little bit stressed at the end when she tried to squeeze in more activities until the very end by boarding last, and despite me having stood in the line diligently then having fought the airport staff members to let her into the line telling them that she was just at the bathroom, they did not let her join me in the line. But I told her on the airplane that I will have everything if I can have my mom’s preparedness and my girlfriend’s hustle.
- On the airplane, watched movies related to 광주 and 전두환. 택시운전사 was a movie about the consequences of 전두환. 서울의봄 was a movie about how the military coup against democracy happened the day it happened.
- Listened to Mars episode by Acquired podcast. Interestingly, Mars did not invent any new technologies, but they did buy commodities and sell brands as advised by Warren Buffet.
- At the San Francisco airport, Jinjoo lined up separately for TSA Global Entry, but the interviewer showed up so late that I waited nearly an hour not just after having passed passport check interview but also having claimed all our baggages. Our baggages were also especially early because we got priority tags on them thanks to my Asiana Airlines membership status. Anyways, whereas my body was very tired even since before getting off the airplane, I was happy to wait since I was able to enter USA again without any problems.
- We safely got back home. Jinjoo offered that I can take a shower first while she cooks food for us. Shower was nice and indeed desperately needed. But more importantly, I wanted to record that she took this nice action. Upon returning home, I was planning to start recording her actions toward me that are especially good and especially bad, and I am happy I was able to start with a nice record. Thank you, Jinjoo.

### 24.12.26

- After finding out that Jinjoo had stayed up all night packing and then was feeling depressed for having accidentally broken a lotus tea pot gift from my mom, I was planning to tell her she worked hard and that the tea pot does not matter. But before departing to breakfast, I saw her checking cabinets to see which tea she can take. I was surprised, because I didn’t expect she would be asking for more at this point, not just in regards to feeling sorry for breaking the first tea from mom but also since even I had given up so much that I can be bringing due to limitations in volume and weight of the luggage contents. When I asked her if she is planning to take more, she answered only if she finds a good one. All the warm nice feelings I had for her grew cold all so suddenly. I was feeling cold and loveless during breakfast. Now that I think about it, it was expected that she will meet challenges during packing since she did not refrain from gaining more items, either by showing interest in items my parents have or by buying items with her own money. She even felt unhappy when I told her she will have difficulty taking items when she told me she wants to take my heavy bulky hugging pillow. I was able to finish packing by midnight last night.
- Fought with Jinjoo, first at the 63F breakfast buffet, then at Starbucks, then at the 60F sky garden. I told her, after hesitating whether and how to communicate, and with lots of disclaimers in advance, that I am just explaining my bodily reaction so that we can work things out together, that I did not like seeing her dig through the cabinets searching for tea she can take. She told me she feels judged. She brought up more occasions when she felt judged, by me, by my mom, by our neighbors, and she told me she hates having to follow etiquettes and that she expects we will not get along if I keep making her follow etiquettes. I told her that I think a difference between us is that when other people have some expectations of us, I tend to just change my ways when doing so is the easy way out, and she tends to resist adamantly considering it the easier way out. Neither is the necessarily correct answer for all occasions and a person must find a balance of both, situation by situation, and we can work together to better each other. Mom called me to ask why I am not back home yet and to tell me to come help move items out of the way of movers, so we headed home.
- When we returned home, home was crazy busy with movers packing and moving boxes in all corners of every room. I moved luggages that we need to fly out with tonight in the bedroom I had been using. My bedroom was emptied and locked out to be used as a storage space. Jinjoo and I used our 2 bedrooms as havens and took 2 naps. Movers packed diligently all day long and ended up packing and moving 151 boxes.
- Jinjoo and I left home to drink matcha lattes and to fulfill her plan to buy a card and write a thank you letter to my mom. Jinjoo wanted to get a gift for my mom too, but I told Jinjoo not to do so this time since we need to minimize the burdensome luggages.
- PT texted me telling me that he has been waiting for me all day at the fitness center but it seems like I am too busy to exercise today so he is leaving me a thank you text. I told him we were too busy moving, but came down to give him some mooncakes for his family for the new year. Later, he called me and asked me if he can come up to our home to say bye to my mom, so I told him to come up. We took photos with him, then gifted him a dozen bottles of wine and whiskey that we were not able to take with us to Korea. Jinjoo joked that he gets something everytime he comes to say bye to us.
- Mom's friends visited mom throughout the day, with various snacks, and stayed for hours, to keep her company and to chat with her about random topics to help mom get distracted from the stressful chaos and the sentimental situation. At 8:30 PM departure time, mom's friends gathered at the 1F lobby. Mom said goodbye to each of them and mom's friends teared up and even cried. Lotte Residence staff members also came to help and say goodbye. I recorded the moment for her. Mom told them and me that she hates people crying, but in the car out of Hanoi, she was silent. I asked her what she is doing, and she told me she is just holding in her eyes as much as she can the sight of Hanoi.
- At the airport, we checked in, got airplane tickets, passed by security checks with maximum allowed cash divided among the three of us. I had not informed Jinjoo in advance about the cash transportation plan. Mom got caught at the security check. They asked mom how much money she is carrying. Mom told them the exact amount which is the legal maximum, then they let her go. During that time, I had called Jinjoo to stay with my bags so that I can come to her and say I am her travel companion who can split cash with her since I do not have any cash on me.
- At the airport, we sat down while Jinjoo finished writing and delivered the letter to my mom. Then we waited together until my airplane started boarding. I gave mom a hug, and Jinjoo invited my mom to come visit us in California, then we boarded the airplane.
- On the airplane, we were lucky to have been on an airplane with many empty seats. Jinjoo asked me to ask a flight attendant whether she can sit in a different empty aisle, then she lied down in an empty aisle. I was also able to get the entire aisle to myself after she moved.

### 24.12.25

- Ate breakfast at home with mom and Jinjoo. Jinjoo ordered some buncha and Vietnamese pizza. After breakfast, we left home and visited Capital Place building and Vincom Metropolis building.
- Spent some time writing Seelog D105C AGAIN while at Starbucks Vincom Metropolis.
- Jinjoo went shopping at Lotte Department Store during the afternoon. I worked on fixing LA CAMERA app in response to feedback from Apple App Store and Google Play Store. Jinjoo asked me to come down to check out the clothes she was considering buying. She got great clothes made by Vietnamese designers, including an aodai, at great prices.
- Planned the trip to Korea. Suggested the palace and the National Museum, but she chose Starfield Coex for the library.
- Ate Christmas dinner at Lotte Hotel Club Lounge. Drank Italian Chardonnay white wine, Italian Sangiovese red wine, tequila, bourbon and Coca-Cola.
- Packed to depart Vietnam tomorrow.

### 24.12.24

- Ate pho at PLQS with mom and Jinjoo. Drank matcha latte at Starbucks. The barista knew my name and asked me why I did not bring a book today. He must have remembered that I come here to read a book everyday. Haha.
- At home, wrote a letter for PT.
- Relaxed in sauna while Jinjoo was shopping at the department store. Then headed over to her when she asked me to in order to give her feedback.
- Exercised with PT. Today was our last PT session.
- Mom cooked pad thai and kimchi jjim for dinner.

### 24.12.23

- Drank matcha latte instead of coffee latte at Starbucks today.
- Ate lunch at Pho Ly Quoc Su.
- Ate dinner with a husband and a wife who are old friends of mom and dad. We ate at Sente. Jinjoo chose food for us and explained the dishes to us very well. After returning home, I thanked her and let her know she did well.
- Jinjoo purchased a pomelo and boiled pomelo zest to make oil to use with shampoo tomorrow.
- I planned our one day trip to Korea this week. Considered the palace, then the National Museum, but chose Starfield Coex because Jinjoo wanted to visit it the most.

### 24.12.22

- Had lunch with my old Vietnamese language teacher.
- Worked on submitting LA CAMERA to app stores for review.
- Exercised with PT, but felt very tired for some reason. Had to give up in the middle. Even after PT, I had elevated heartrate at above 100 bpm for 2 more hours. Massaged muscles using foam roller with the guide of Jinjoo.

### 24.12.21

- Skipped PT in the morning.
- Visited Lotte Mall Lach Ca Lach Cach for lunch with mom and Jinjoo.
- Visited Nike stores in Lotte Mall then Lotte Department Store. I wanted to buy an Air Jordan Paris hoodie but failed to find any remaining inventory.
- Relaxed in sauna.
- Ate Pizza 4Ps for dinner.
- Finished developing the LA CAMERA app.

### 24.12.20

- Ate lunch with the family of a mentee that Jinjoo taught 5 years ago.
- Visited My Dinh with Jinjoo. Worked on LA CAMERA at Secret Garden cafe.
- For dinner, ate Lotte Hotel dinner buffet with Jinjoo. It was a nice romantic date.
- Finished developing LA VISA.
- Delivered test mode LA CAMERA app to dad.

### 24.12.19

- Exercised with mom and Jinjoo and PT.
- Moving company came to assess moving workload.
- Ate lunch on 38F with Jinjoo.
- Mom asked me to write letters on her behalf and follow her to give gifts to staff members at Lotte Residence.
- Worked at Starbucks with Jinjoo after Jinjoo told me she wants to go somewhere to study and work.
- Ate dinner at home. Ordered K-Seocho Chicken. It was pretty good. Visited Lotte Mart with mom and Jinjoo after dinner. Ate durian and pomelo at home.
- Jinjoo asked my mom to show her old photos of me. They looked at various photos for hours from when I was a baby to when I was in high school. Jinjoo remarked how people wrote such long messages in my yearbook at the end of each year.

### 24.12.18

- Visited Starbucks and distributed a LA CAMERA video about Sadhu vegetarian restaurant.
- Mom came back. We ate lunch together but she had to go meet friends.
- Doctor called Jinjoo and informed that she is allergic to oak trees, mugworts, and ryes.
- Watched Moana 2 at West Lake Lotte Mall Lotte Cinema with Jinjoo.
- Worked on LA VISA while mom and Jinjoo exercised with PT. Dad texted and told me that mom chose unit 3302 which is on the top floor at the Gwangju Hyundai Hillstate apartment. I responded that it is a great number since 3+3+0+2=8 which is a lucky number.
- Ate dinner at home. Mom cooked 떡국. After dinner, Jinjoo prepared a pomelo bath for me. After awhile, skin felt painful due to acidity, but I was happy thinking about how Jinjoo was so kind to propose and execute on the pomelo bath idea.

### 24.12.17

- Yesterday, I was planning to tell Jinjoo that I feel mentally healthier after spending time in Lotte recovering from our fights in our Californian home. In the past day or two, I felt a sudden switch flip, and it felt like my mind was back to perceiving every event as positive or calm despite the events remaining the same. It is a good sign, because it means we can once again try living together and making our relationship work. I missed the chance yesterday, because she was not in a good condition after a hospital visit and while preparing for a revisit today. I will tell her tomorrow.
- Jinjoo is at the hospital again today for colonoscopy. After hospital, she will eat lunch then get hair done at Hoan Kiem.
- Got breakfast on 38F. Worked at Starbucks.
- Exercised with PT. After intense exercises, my exercise shoes are worn out. I'll throw away this pair on way out of Vietnam and order a new pair from Nike.
- Worked on LA VISA.
- Ate dinner with Jinjoo at Sadhu in Lotte Mall West Lake. It is a vegetarian buffet. Food was delicious but I ordered too much when they called for last orders and I felt like I was going to throw up.
- Jinjoo got back from the hospital. Her digestion problem was diagnosed to be due to helicobacter pylori infection, so she got prescribed antibiotics. Her eye problem was due to suffering far-sightedness but using glasses made for near-sighted people.
- Jinjoo cut her hair short as she told me she would. I tried my best to pretend that I like it since she spent 7 hours and hundreds of dollars at the hair salon for her new hair, but I do not like it. She was already not very feminine before the hair cut, and now she lost one more feminine feature which was long hair. It also hurts that she looks different. Before the haircut, she looked prettier to my eyes than to my camera, because my eyes were giving her bonus points from mere exposure effect which is familiar preference. But now, my brain perceives her without any bonus points since her new appearance is unfamiliar to my eyes. Her face looks fatter. Her skin looks bad.

### 24.12.16

- During this latter half of the last month of the year, I will focus on: 1) finishing up Company work to publish LACAMERA with LAVISA, 2) write review documents, and 3) plan next year.
- In the morning, Jinjoo had already departed home to visit a hospital. She is asking doctors about digestion and allergy and eyes today. I showered, drank a cup of coffee, washed dishes. Studied news. Ate lunch alone on 38F.
- Played violin for the first time in a long time.
- Last week, Jinjoo asked her dad in Saigon to send us some fruits. Today, the fruits arrived. We enjoyed durians and pandan coconuts. I have been getting allergic reactions to durian in the past, but I was okay after eating this one. Her dad says I might be allergic to the chemical they use on imported fruits.
- Worked on LA VISA.

### 24.12.15

- Told Jinjoo that today is my D105C. I think I will invite her to a date this week then have a chat about specific ideas and plans to rebuild love and trust in our relationship. I will also publish LACAMERA within 7 days.
- We skipped breakfast, then ate lunch together on 38F. After lunch, we went on a stroll at Lotte Department Store.
- Exercised with PT.
- Jinjoo was nice all day today too.
- Worked on LA VISA.

### 24.12.14

- Exercised with PT as first activity in the morning. Yesterday night, I wanted to skip today’s PT, but I pulled through, and I felt great for having done so. PT saw me sweating a lot and my sweat drops making marks on the floor and joked that it must be raining in Hanoi. I told him that I heard Hanoi has a lot of lakes and now I see it is because he is reigning in this city as a PT with many students.
- For lunch, ate pho at PLQS with Jinjoo. Also drank a cup of coffee from Starbucks and it was delicious. I chatted with Jinjoo about how I will be a thesis figure, as opposed to existing antithesis and possibly synthesis figures/
- Watched a Doraemon movie with Jinjoo. Spent time together. Relaxed in Sauna.
- For dinner, Jinjoo got me a chicken burger and a basket of chickens from Lotteria, and some Vietnamese food for delivery. Vietnamese pizza was delicious.
- In the evening, I wanted to work but felt too tired to work. I pulled through and worked on LAVISA for 5 hours.
- Jinjoo was nice to me all day today. I will be nice to her since she was nice to me. She was also very pretty especially thanks to having regained fitness from PT exercises.

### 24.12.13

- Got a haircut.
- Got salmon sashimi for lunch at 38F.
- Picked up my wooden frame glasses thanks to Jinjoo’s help.
- Visited Nagocha. Ceremonial matcha latte was really nice. I enjoyed our date here. I like the sound of the word “Ceremonial”. The barista explained to me that matcha separates from milk easily, so I need to shake the cup each time I drink it. I saw that the separating milk and the water coming out of ice creates interesting pattern every single sip. I like it. I think matcha cafe can be an interesting addition to my company one day, not to sell the drinks, but to enhance brand. For example, consider a matcha cafe that does not permit take out. By sacrificing the revenue of take out drinkers, which may be majority of revenue in the beverage market, and the marketing effect gained by people carrying around branded cups, I can control the experience of visiting customers, use the experience to upsell my other products then or later. Staffs may wear colored ribbons so that customers can write feedback on specific staff members silently. That might help me introduce some politeness to American staff members which can be a huge differentiation since Americans have no sense of politeness.
- Worked on LA VISA. Tried but decided to abandon WorkOS AuthKit. Will try again using Supabase and Resend. Challenge is making a solution that works for all LA apps.
- Watched Kiki with Jinjoo at home.

### 24.12.12

- Exercised with PT. It was difficult, because I did not have any exercise clothes laundered in the past 5 days. I felt accomplished after the PT session. I might pitch the idea of video call PT to my mom.
- After exercise, ate Bun Cha at a local street-side shop, then visited a nearby VinCom mall.
- In the evening, visited Giao Mua coffee at Hoan Kiem. Watched videos of recent new AI technology releases.
- Got banh mi and papaya salad to go for dinner at Hoan Kiem, then we returned home. Grab driver was very nice and taught us a lot about where to go eat. At home, ate dinner, washed dishes, showered.
- A little after 9PM, Jinjoo wanted to go to sauna, but also wanted to get me fruits from Lotte Mart, and both sauna and mart were going to close at 10PM, so she did not have a lot of time. She got me fruits from the mart and also visited the glasses store on her way. She is such a good girlfriend.

### 24.12.11

- Woke up with the same headache and the same swollen throat that started to develop yesterday. I fear these symptoms imply a yet another infection after the one that sent Jinjoo to VinMec last week.
- Visited Lotte Mall with Jinjoo for lunch. Ate Vietnamese food at 37TH ST Lach Ca Lach Cach. It was delicious.
- Watched Wicked at Lotte Cinema at the Charlotte private room. I am not sure why the private room is supposed to be better since the screen is smaller. Wicked movie was pretty good.
- Checked out shops at Lotte Mall: Crabit, Muji, Samsung. Ate dinner at the 3F food court. Food was okay.
- Called parents. Told dad Samsung Electronics Home Appliances team will need to hear answers to 2 questions: 1) Why Home Appliances market is important to Samsung, and 2) Why Samsung can be important in the Home Appliances market. Answer to former is that HA market is bigger than phones market, and answer to latter is that Samsung is the only home appliances manufacturer with such comprehensive consumer electronics ecosystem including smartphones.
- Jinjoo and I watched a movie called Barbarians at the Gate.
- I tried to make the evening living room nice with a candle and fruits. City was pretty. Fruits were sweet.

### 24.12.10

- Ate porridge and protein shake for breakfast.
- Exercised with PT. I was weak due to sickness, and yesterday’s inactivity, and not enough nutrition, so I vomited, then we did low intensity exercise for the rest of the session.
- Rested in the afternoon alone in bedroom.
- Called mom. She decided to live in Hyundai Hillstate apartment complex while living in Gwangju-si. She is considering having secondary residence in or near Suwon too since dad will be working in Suwon on many days.
- Worked on LAVISA in the evening. Fixed env var.

### 24.12.09

- Jinjoo is feeling better today. We went out to eat pho at Pho Ly Quoc Su. It is still one of the best pho restaurants in the world in my opinion. We visited Lotte Mart, then returned home. Jinjoo does not have a lot of energy, so she returned to sleep while I worked in the living room.
- In the afternoon, I also decided to take a slow day. Read a comicbook. Checked Jinjoo’s fever temperature every hour during her sleep. Ate crushed noodle for lunch.
- I stayed in bed for the rest of today. I had slight fever and had indigestion problems. I think it was a smart idea to stay in bed all day.

### 24.12.08

- Mom and dad got breakfast at floor 63 while we were asleep, so Jinjoo and I got coffee and tea for breakfast at Showtime.
- Ate lunch with mom and dad and Jinjoo on floor 38.
- Helped dad write a speech to introduce himself to executive team at the Home Appliances division. Helped dad move files to the new computer.
- Jinjoo got sick. She started vomiting. With the help of Mr. Im Chung Hyeon, I took Jinjoo to the hospital. There were no hospitals open, so we went to VinMec Emergency Room. I stayed by her side the entire time. While she was hospitalized in bed, emergency room changed shift from day to night, so I got kicked out. When I came back, she told me two dozen nurses surrounded her while her primary physician told them her age and the fact that she is also waiting for her pregnancy test. I waited her for hours, and she told me one takeaway from this experience is that she got to see that my love for her is deep even when she is in a terrible condition. She got to see, as she says, that I am a reliable and a dedicated lover.
- Chatted with Mr. Im Chung Hyeon who was the head of Environment Health Safety team under dad in India and Vietnam. I talked to him about the stories I heard about him and dad: saving lives from Coronavirus in India, designing automatic battery fire extinguish mechanism for electric vehicles, preventing not only damages but even productivity losses from typhoon Yagi. He wanted to go see dad one last time before dad departs Vietnam, so I asked him to go since I can take care of Jinjoo at the hospital.
- Doctor told us that Jinjoo does not have influenza or COVID or food poisoning. Doctor suspects a common cold virus in respiratory organs. We got medicines, then returned home. I felt weak too at the hospital, so I showered, ate food hurriedly, then went to sleep.

### 24.12.07

- Exercised with mom and Jinjoo and PT. Bathed in sauna.
- Visited Royal City mall with mom and Jinjoo. Had lunch at Thai Express. The food was delicious, but I started feeling unhappy to be with Jinjoo about half way through the meal. I thought about how there can be a different girl sitting in that place who will be better for me, who will disrespect me less, respect me more. Jinjoo made me feel like she hates me at random times for no particular reasons. Now I feel like I hate her at random times for no particular reasons. Mom also had suggested to me that she goes shopping in her own for 1H after lunch, and I hated the idea of getting stuck with Jinjoo alone. As soon as lunch was over, I also ran away, thereby splitting us three ways.
- Had a conversation with Jinjoo over text messages about breaking up. I hate her so much that we are both getting hurt, and she will rather let my hatred cool down to indifference than to convert my emotion back to love. We were able to make up in person after the fight, and I do plan to try one more time, but I will ask her for an apology letter next week.
- Ate dinner at Red River in Lotte with dad and Jinjoo. Jinjoo helped dad write a text message to the Vietnamese language teacher. Dad was angry at the server for serving the noodles too soon instead of waiting until we have sufficiently enjoyed the main dishes.
- At home, Jinjoo helped dad pack by helping him cut up the medicine pills in order to fit more pills in boxes.

### 24.12.06

- I was tired after waking up due to sickness. Fell asleep again until lunch time. For lunch, I wanted to order delivery food, but mom wanted a lot to eat at floor 38, so we did. Mom told me privately that people are talking about how Jinjoo was lying on the floor with her arms and legs all open in the yoga room, too comfortably in Korean standards. I tried to tell Jinjoo at the table, and mom kicked me the sheen, so I told Jinjoo privately in the elevator, then Jinjoo responded, “Whatever. I am not going to see those ladies again.” I think Jinjoo will bring me and my family a lot of stress if we live tied together.
- Worked on LA VISA.
- Asked Jinjoo how she is doing and whether she was not bored at home. She so suggested that we go to a cafe so we visited Phe La next to Ho Chi Minh mausoleum.
- Had dinner with Tung who has been the driver for dad for the two years dad has been working in Vietnam. Tung gifted us with a stone painting of a Vietnamese tea farm. I wrote a letter for dad to write in his name for the driver: “Dear Tung, Thank you for helping me throughout my time in Vietnam. Thanks to you, my family and I were able to live well and visit many memorable places during our time here. I’m lucky to have met you. You are smart, professional, and thoughtful. Thank you for helping me so much. I hope you and your family the best. I hope you and your family get to live happily and healthily. I hope to see you again one day. BigStar, Sungho Park.” We ate dinner with his family on floor 63. His children are called by nicknames: Jin and Jun. We found it funny, because I am Junwon and I was with my girlfriend whom I call Jinjoo.
- Visited sauna with dad then snacked on fruits with dad and mom and Jinjoo at home. Dad explained to me the changes for the home appliances manufacturing team. I told him I think path optimization does not need his attention since it is a clearly defined task that his team members will be able to make advancements on if given another year to work on. As for inventory reduction, I suggested to him that he takes into consideration the approach that Ikea took. Usually, companies try to reduce inventory because doing so helps them deliver products to customers soon and cheaply, but Ikea chose to make and hold many years worth inventory to deliver products soon and cheaply to customers. So what matters is the outcome. Dad pointed out the interest cost and the opportunity cost of locking up cash as inventory, but I pointed out those are also money just like profit so if profit from holding inventory exceeds interest fee, then it is better to hold the inventory for a longer time. He wanted to return home quickly from the sauna to write this idea down.

### 24.12.05

- Ate breakfast on floor 63 with mom and Jinjoo. Mom wanted to depart early to prepare a gift for her personal trainer. After breakfast, we visited fitness center together. Mom wanted me to record her PT session. Mom told PT that she is departing Vietnam, and PT was teary. Mom gave him a gift, and I told him I thank him and my entire family thanks him, because he helped mom completely change. Now, mom exercises every single day. Mom was so good at exercise that, let alone Jinjoo, even I was not able to keep up with her during the PT session. After PT, massage chair repairer visited to fix our massage chair.
- Played Journey of Monarch. It is a new game in Lineage franchise published today by NC.
- In the afternoon, I felt a little sick due to the ongoing sickness and did not want to go out for lunch. Asked Jinjoo to order some food to Lotte, and she ordered a banh mi sandwich for each of us. It was my mom’s first delivery food using Grab. Dad also sent us marinated crab from Bac Ninh which he mentioned during dinner yesterday. Mom and I gave Tung the driver an air purifier.
- Secretly hugged Jinjoo in her room making no sound while mom was at home. We both took a nap after that. Mom went out to see her friends.
- After nap, ate marinated crabs for dinner. After dinner, exercised, then washed in sauna. Dad came to sauna. After sauna, helped dad move files from old computers to a new computer.
- Mom warned me to make sure Jinjoo is not feeling bored in Hanoi. But I am not sure what I can do. I ran some simulations in head and concluded that I have three options: tell her to go out, tell her to stay in, and not tell her anything. In case 1, she will tell me she feels pushed out. In case 2, she will tell me she feels imprisoned. In case 3, she will tell me she felt implied that I want her locked in Lotte. I just told Jinjoo mom warned me so in hope that she will figure out a way to stay entertained. She told me at night she has been feeling tired all the time in Lotte. Ideally, she will rest happily if she is tired, be active if she has energy, but I worry that afters she voluntarily stays home due to her own tiredness, she will tell me she was involuntarily locked up by me or my implied expectations. An ideal girlfriend for me would wait patiently and keep herself entertained and healthy while I am focusing on work, then help me alleviate stress by enjoying quality time with me engaging in activities like traveling the city. She will be excited to go to places, and I will be happy just because she is happy. But as for Jinjoo, she makes me feel like I am resented by her, like she hates me, like she is annoyed by life and herself then unleashes her stress on me. I do not want to spend time with someone while feeling hated, so I have been rejecting my mom’s daily suggestions to visit places and do activities with Jinjoo alone. My mom remarked to me today separately that Jinjoo seems to consider my mom her mom, feeling too comfortable. Her remark was misguided in my opinion, because it was in the context of laundry, and I think Jinjoo just did not know better. I cannot know what her intentions are, but whatever her intentions are, she makes my family feel uncomfortable. Yesterday, when I reminded Jinjoo that my family did not feel comfortable having her over for a month, Jinjoo refuted telling me about how Justin visited her family or vice versa or something just after 4 months of dating, whereas Jinjoo dated me for 1.5Y. I have no idea how Justin is supposed to be in any way of interest to me and my family, but that background information apparently is why Jinjoo feels entitled to our hospitality. To us, to my family, the expected behavior of an ideal girlfriend is feeling grateful and acting with utmost carefulness in our presence, which we in Korea may refer to as good manners. I had been in so much fear in November due to trying to make things work with Jinjoo. In December, I have been avoiding Jinjoo, just living my own life, and I cannot recall having felt better in the past season. I feel more at peace, more filled with happiness, more free from fear. I need to stay away from Jinjoo.

### 24.12.04

- During breakfast, dad told me how he got calls yesterday.
- Ate pho for breakfast on floor 38 with mom and Jinjoo.
- I have contracted a disease. I took medicines, but fever reached nearly 38C. Thanks to taking medications soon and sufficiently, I was able to suppress the fever from further growing.
- Worked on LA CAMERA. Fixed ChatView rendering and recording frame rates. I think the core feature is now done. I just need to work on other necessary parts like membership and info site, then I can publish it.
- Took a nap. Fought with Jinjoo over text.
- Dinner with mom and dad and Jinjoo at Hanwadam. We ate beef tenderloin, ribeye, sirloin cap, and foie gras.
- On our way back home from dinner, driver was teary. Mom asked dad to tell him that we are leaving Vietnam. Driver told us he found out this morning. We invited him and his family to a dinner with us on Friday. His eyes were red and full of tears when he was opening the door for me at Lotte.
- At home, we ate fruits for snack. I showed dad that Samsung refrigerator has internet. Dad turned on a YouTube video then we found out that it has a great audio speaker. Mom, dad, Jinjoo, and I sang songs there using refrigerator as a karaoke machine. Dad told me the market for home appliances is bigger than mobile phones.
- I reset Samsung devices I have been using so that dad can return them to Samsung mobile division: phones, tablet, watches, laptop. Dad told me I can actually keep the phones, then told me the day after that I can keep the tablet too. He is going to keep using the laptop I have been using. I helped him set up a new phone he got today: Galaxy Z Fold Special Edition.

### 24.12.03

- Ate breakfast with mom on floor 63. Mom’s phone broke yesterday, so there is a green vertical line whenever the display is in use, but mom told me she did not tell dad in case it is bad omen. Koreans, when children are about to take big exams, do not say an item broke or an item fell or similar sentences. So mom and I ideated how to say it using descriptions like “mom: it lit up”, “me: a straight line is appearing continuously”.
- Worked on LA CAMERA. Fixed overlay frames running out before camera frames by matching timestamps, but I will need to fix fps for overlay frames capturing.
- Dad got informed that he will be in charge of Samsung Home Appliances manufacturing next year. I may also want to think about home and life to market LA VISA to homebodies, travelers, shoppers.
- Ate lunch with mon and Jinjoo. We ate dimsum at MeiWei. Jinjoo and I fought before and after the meal. I tried to relax then work after lunch, but I was so flustered after fighting with her that I was not able to regain focus. I decided to spend the afternoon writing to her to explain how I have been feeling lately. Spent 2H writing 10K words on how I have been depressed due to her recently.
- Ate dinner at home with mom and Jinjoo. Worked on LA CAMERA. Fixed some bugs.
- Worked out at the fitness center. Returned home. Then saw on news that Korean president is declaring emergency martial law on a live stream. After dad returned home, we watched news together in real time until lawmakers successfully entered congress before military then passed a law to lift the martial law.

### 24.12.02

- After shower, went down to Starbucks for a cup of coffee. It took me 10 minutes to reach first floor due to all the workers and students getting on the elevator.
- Reviewed day while enjoying coffee and waiting for laptop to charge. I’m still bitter about feeling like I was mistreated by Jinjoo yesterday, but I plan to get over it and focus on work today.
- Jinjoo woke up. Mom suggested that we go eat breakfast. If Jinjoo is not hungry, mom suggested, Jinjoo can sit in front of me and drink tea or something while I eat pho. Jinjoo told me she can read a book there then, and I clarified to Jinjoo that mom was saying Jinjoo can keep me company by talking to me when we are there. Jinjoo was not interested in doing so, so we decided to eat pho later for lunch at Pho Ly Quoc Su. Then later, Jinjoo wanted to eat yogurt there, so I let her know that breakfast buffet on floor 63 is $40 and on floor 38 is $20 and I think it is too expensive for just one yogurt. So mom and Jinjoo went down to Lotte Mart to get yogurt, and also some fruits and milk and coffee syrup.
- I posted a LA CAMERA video on social media. After coming to Vietnam, TikTok has been showing my videos to people in Vietnam. And a random video I took at the Sunnyvale Library got 10X more likes than did a video of Harry Potter merchandise products at Valley Fair. I guess American libraries look interesting to Vietnamese people. This reinforces my theory that humans are interested in other cultures.
- Worked on LA CAMERA. Added recording duration limit and recording progress display.
- Got lenses for my new wooden glasses.
- On way to department store with mom and Jinjoo, met people who know mom. I introduced myself, but I felt a bit unhappy that Jinjoo was wearing unprofessional fitness clothes and therefore not the most presentable at the moment. We decided to visit My Dinh for lunch. Last minute, mom told us she wants freedom and go shopping here and there in My Dinh after lunch while we sit at the cafe. I was terrified because Jinjoo hates time wasted like that and told mom that Jinjoo does not like spending time like that. I checked time and we had just enough time so we went up to get her book so that she can read while waiting for mom, but I told mom again not to go roam around on her own while keeping me and Jinjoo alone at the cafe, and she told me we will come back home immediately after lunch. In the bus to My Dinh, I was terrified that Jinjoo is angry. Jinjoo will think she is angry now because I am unhappy, but this much anger is nothing compared to how angry she will be if I do not take precautions like this. I am scared of her all the time.
- We ate lunch at Gardenia. It was a feast. We packed food that we were not about to finish. I got a cup of vanilla latte coffee at Bread Factory.
- At home, I worked on LA CAMERA. Tried to fix video saving bugs but failed to do so today. Mom and Jinjoo made kimchi. We ate dinner together at home. After dinner, we sang some songs together at the dinner table.
- Exercised at fitness center. Left early without mom or Jinjoo and serendipitously ran into dad at the front door. After shower, worked on LA CAMERA. Added clearing comments upon ending stream.

### 24.12.01

- In the morning, reviewed M344 and planned M345.
- Worked on LA CAMERA. Added dialog to show video saving progress.
- Mom went to the fitness center, then Jinjoo woke up, so I sneaked into Jinjoo's room and hugged her. Then I also went down to the fitness center and I walked for 30 minutes while listening to podcasts.
- Mom and Jinjoo cooked good at home today after purchasing grocery together. I also suggested that we get pizza on top of it. Mom made 갈치구이, 땅콩조림, and Jinjoo made stir-fry flowers.
- In the afternoon, I worked on LA CAMERA. Fixed Skia snapshots failing on Android, but recorded videos have frame errors similar to videos recorded using Jinjoo’s iPhone.
- Visited sauna, then dad came to sauna after returning home. I suggested that he takes a nap before dinner. We both did. Mom exercised with personal trainer during our naps.
- For dinner, we headed to a snail restaurant that Jinjoo wanted to visit, but it was closed, so we ate at Kokoro near home. We ate a lot of beef.
- On our way back home, Jinjoo wanted sugarcane juice, and mom was stressed about making sure they make it as clean as possible for Jinjoo, so I had to look into what she wants from them without paying attention to what Jinjoo was saying, then Jinjoo got angry. At home, while mom and dad were at Lotte Mart, I protested to Jinjoo that it was not my fault that mom was on high alert, and Jinjoo responded she is not angry at my mom since my mom is now happy, but she is angry at me for being still angry. I give up on trying to understand what makes her angry. I’m not sure if related, but possibly due to high blood pressure from anger and low air pressure at high altitude of our home, I got a nosebleed during shower. As a first day of the last month of this year, I think today is pretty emblematic of my year: I am happy with my family, I try to give Jinjoo all that I can, and I feel like she is fighting me for the sake of fighting me.
- Dad was tired from days of not enough sleep. All the others were also pretty tired, so we all headed to sleep immediately.
### 25.01.01

- Woke up in the morning at 9AM. Showered. Suggested to friends that we go hang out at Monterey Bay today. Washed dishes. Brewed a cup of Intelligentsia coffee. Texted parents telling them once again Happy New Year (since I called them yesterday as well when it became 2025 in Korea).
- Jinjoo was still in bed by time I woke up. Then I heard she got on a video call with her family in Seattle. Entered bedroom to join the call to say Happy New Year to her family members.
- Drove to Monterey. At the Fisherman’s Wharf, got off the car to stretch and enjoy the beach view, and we luckily returned to car just as parking enforcement entered the parking lot. We had taken a bet to not pay for parking thinking that parking enforcement might be taking a day off today. Haha. Got some pretty photos and videos of us at the beach.
- Visited a local cafe called “Captain + Stoker” and got a cup of matcha latte. Then drove along the beach coast at Pacific Grove. Passed by Lovers Point where I took her last year for our 1Y anniversary date.
- Visited the Pebble Beach Resort on a serendipitous trip. I was aware of the name Pebble Beach from golf magazines, but I had not searched about it or planned specifically to visit it today. I was just planning to drive along the coast at Monterey Bay until we serendipitously reach a pretty street to stroll and shop at, but a famous drive in the area, called the 17 mile drive, happened to be inside the Pebble Beach Resort.
- Visited the Inn at Spanish Bay in Pebble Beach Resort. The place was rustic and peaceful, somewhat like a smaller serener version of the Ritz-Carlton resort at Half Moon Bay. We strolled along the beach and took photos. We also visited the shops there and found that the stores sell nice dandy apparels with Pebble Beach branding actually at reasonable prices. I offered to buy her an apparel as a late Christmas gift, but she did not want me to buy her anything today.
- Drove along the 17 mile drive. I expected to enjoy the beach, but she and I actually found the houses, probably vacation homes, more interesting. We debated whether or not to get a house here when we are rich enough to do so.
- Visited Pebble Beach Golf Links. Shops were not as fun as the shops at Spanish Bay, but the Market store, which sold grocery, had a delicious rolled wafer snack called Dolcetto. She chose Hazelnut and I chose Zesty Lemon and I personally think the flavor I chose was better. We ate the wafer rolls while strolling through the golf resort. A couple asked us if we can take a photo for them and then they offered to do the same for us, so we got a photo in front of a cypress tree in front of the Lodge.
- Due to the jet lag and the long drive, I was actually feeling dizzy throughout the day. I had not told Jinjoo in case she worries, but after watching the sunset together at Pebble Beach Golf Links, I told her that I feel a little bit dizzy and suggested that we return home now. I wondered whether to go back the way we came to stop by at Spanish Bay again. I saw a quilted jacket there that I liked and now was considering buying as a souvenir. But the car told us the best way to get back home was to pass by Carmel, and she suggested that we do so since she is curious what Carmel looks like at night. I remembered we were also interested in getting some Carmel souvenirs if we get to visit the town again, so we departed Pebble Beach Resort through the Carmel Gate.
- Visited several stores in Carmel. I purchased a pretty classy caramel-colored sweatshirt that says “Carmel, California” and a pretty classy fleece jacket that says “Pebble Beach, California”. I have been intending for some time now to buy some nice apparels that say California, so I am happy with the purchases I made today. Jinjoo also checked out several clothes, sweatshirts and jackets, so that we can wear as a couple apparel, but she did not find any that she feels satisfied with. I even offered, once again, to buy her one as a late Christmas gift, but she declined again. Called parents. Dad is in USA for a business trip and was trying hard to stay awake to fight the jet lag.
- Drove back home. I let Jinjoo sleep in the passenger seat. It was a pretty difficult drive. My body was at its limits. I listened to Nintendo episode of Acquired podcast, in order to learn how the game industry transformed business models for games in the software industry, until I needed to be more actively participating in an activity to stay awake, then sang the song Magnetic for the last 10 minutes of the drive. I made it safely back home. Jinjoo was asleep all the way until I finished parking, so I guess I did a pretty good job driving the car peacefully for the passenger (but I did sing loudly so I guess it is less about my driving skills and more about her own tiredness). When we got home, Jinjoo cooked some dinner for the two of us while I took a shower, but I chose to skip dinner and collapse on bed immediately. My eyes were hurting too much.

### 25.01.02

- Woke up at 3AM. Bathed. Laundered apparels. Washed dishes. Took out trash. Reported completion of morning homemaking tasks to Jinjoo. I think gratitude will be key to living together happily this year.
- Jinjoo woke up. We ate breakfast while watching Chu Qiao, then returned to bed for a morning nap which will help us stay awake and fight off jet lag during the day today.
- Woke up from the morning nap at noon. Edited and posted LA CAMERA videos I recorded yesterday.
- Visited Santa Clara Square to deposit cash at Chase bank and to shop grocery at Whole Foods Market. We searched for the same Dolcetto wafer rolls, but was only able to find and buy lemon cream wafer bites made by Whole Foods. Jinjoo also purchased a small can of ceremonial matcha. After Whole Foods, we visited Costco where we fueled car with gasoline then shopped grocery inside. Got 12 bottles of the sesame-flavored Kewpie salad dressing which Jinjoo had been searching for ever since she moved here.
- After returning home, visited fitness center to exercise. I felt super tired after working out for 45 minutes. After returning home, I showered, then told Jinjoo I am once again unable to eat food. The bed was not made, but I collapsed on it after wrapping myself up in unfilled duvet cover. Jinjoo too fell asleep shortly after. I remember she did massage my upper body while I was groaning in pain during sleep. I woke up at 3AM with barely enough energy to make the bed for us.

### 25.01.03

- Decided to get out of bed at 5AM and stay awake. Sat at desk and reviewed the day and fixed Y28 calendar with records for time spent asleep.
- Washed dishes while listening to news on podcasts.
- Got a text message from dad’s friend who told me he will be in San Francisco in January as I must have heard from my dad, but I had not heard anything from dad, so I asked dad for clarification, then, since dad was not able to respond immediately, sent back a vague polite response.
- Took a nap. Ate a bowl of salad for lunch. Brewed Bacha coffee. Got new Nike running shoes. Wore them to go hiking at Stanford Dish.
- Hiked Stanford Dish with people Jinjoo knows. Jinjoo hiked with the wife with whom she worked with on the non-profit, and I hiked with the husband who is working on Project Artemis at NASA.

### 25.01.04

- Woke up at 3:30AM. Showered. Washed dishes. Took out trash. Read a book while eating snacks and drinking coffee.
- Wrote Jinjoo a love letter in celebration of Y2025 and D550. I told her my vision for the new year is to make us be “a home for each other”. To do so, I will make us “thank and celebrate”, “be fit”, and “smile more”. To monitor, I will set target for us to be “zero fights”.
- Ate breakfast while planning day.
- Drove to Sacramento. Visited Stanford Mansion. Stanfords had a ballroom, a game room with a billiard table, a parlor with crystal chandeliers and golden ceiling frames and Irish lace curtains, a study room where Leland Stanford played card games and saw photos. Stanfords had a big sliding door that weighed 250KG mostly due to the glass and not the walnut wood, a cabinet for plates that had the block S logo the family started using at one point and now the Stanford University uses, a big cabinet that looked like the face of a railroad car, and what looked like dessert holders that held perfumes.
- Met Victoria. She took us to a Sacramento cafe called Temple Coffee.
- Met Nghi. Nghi is Jinjoo’s younger sister. Nghi was the only member of her family I had not yet met. We ate food. Jinjoo gave her gifts. Then she went on her way to Los Angeles. She is moving from Seattle to Los Angeles by car this weekend.
- Drove home, then collapsed as soon as I got back home.

### 25.01.05

- Woke up at 3AM. Showered. Called parents. Told them about visiting Stanford Mansion yesterday.
- Started reading a Leland Stanford biography. Today, I am going to recover from traveling a lot during recent days.
- Ate banh mi for breakfast. Washed dishes. Returned to bed for nap. After nap, ate banh mi for lunch. Watched OEY Marriage Report, washed dishes, disinfected bathroom. Went on a stroll.
- Jinjoo says she got to read my letter from yesterday and she will do as I say.
- Booked flights for trip to Seattle. We will spend Lunar New Year with her family. I will return after spending a week there, and she will return the day before Valentine’s Day.
- Ate dinner while watching Chu Qiao with Jinjoo. Ran for 30 minutes then walked a bit at the fitness center. At home, Jinjoo peeled pomelo for me while I was taking a shower. Called mom.
- Worked on writing Seelog D105C AGAIN. Finished reviewing all diary records.

### 25.01.06

- Woke up. Bathed. Washed dishes. Took out trash. Washed laundry. The only other homemaking chore I will do today is settling 24.12 Finance.
- Studied Stanford biography. Made salad on my own then ate it for breakfast while Jinjoo was exercising at the fitness center. I was made pretty unhappy due to having had to make my own food despite having split up the chores especially in a way that left her with almost no other duties but preparing food. Spent 2 hours setting up Lover Orientation D106C. Took longer than I wanted, but it feels good to have it set up now. I will collect Incidents such that I can better communicate with her what I like and dislike.
- Took a nap. Drank a cup of Robusta coffee. Robusta tastes strong like gunpowder.
- Visited Maruwu Seicha in Palo Alto. Matcha latte was pretty good.
- Worked in the 24H Study Room at Stanford Lathrop Library.
- Finished reviewing 24.12 House Meeting Finance. Set up Notion for her. Gave her time to go over the house meeting agenda. We will have the house meeting after dinner.
- Shopped grocery at Trader Joe’s. Ate salad for dinner at home. Exercised a little bit.

### 25.01.07

- Woke up. Showered. Washed dishes. Ordered Mint Mobile for Spring season.
- Jinjoo asked me if she can get her birthday gift early this year, because she wants to order matcha kit. She then asked me what she can have as her budget. I told her $100 then I sensed disappointment through her poker face so immediately raised it to $200 and she told me she saw a good deal at $190. I asked her that it is okay for this year but in the future, exclude consumables from gifts, because I disliked gifting matcha powder in the bundle whereas I am okay with gifting matcha kit, similar to how she cites her mom for excluding many items from giftables.
- I think I feel a little tired today. I will eat breakfast, go to the fitness center, then work at home either immediately or after a nap. Spent some time in bed with Jinjoo after breakfast but felt so tired that agitation got exceeded my tolerance level and I had to leave home. Went to the fitness center.
- Worked on adding In App Purchase to LA CAMERA but did not get to finish. Reviewed and finished FY3 S1 company documents.
- Called parents while strolling in the park.
- Worked on writing Junwon Seelog D105C AGAIN.

### 25.01.08

- Studied Stanford biography. Finished reading the entire book.
- Drove Jinjoo to Cupertino. She met her friend Danielle. I waited in the car.
- Visited Mountain View Downtown. I ate lunch, then we went on a short date. Shopped grocery at Mountain View Costco.

### 25.01.09

- Suggested to Jinjoo that we go visit San Francisco today to buy the matcha kit she wanted.
- Shopped at Japan Town with Jinjoo. We got a cup of matcha latte at Maiko. We looked at matcha kits at several stores. We bought a matcha bowl and utensils like whisk and whisk holder. The store owner who was Japanese explained to us how early matcha bowls were porcelains that came from Korea then Japanese people over 100 years made new shapes that optimized for Japanese powdered matcha.
- We ate Japanese curry for lunch.
- Jinjoo wanted to share price for matcha but not coffee and I felt unhappy. I told her I will not drink matcha.
- Jinjoo’s younger sister was instructed by government to evacuate from LA. We invited her to come stay at our place. She will be here by midnight.
- Visited Hayes Valley. Visited Todd Snyder, APC, Brooklinen, Parachute, Epicurean Trader.
- At home, ate Jinjoo salad and Costco seasoned chicken legs for dinner. Jinjoo made some ceremonial matcha with oat milk and I drank it with Dolcetto wafer rolls. Cleaned home for Jinjoo’s younger sister to arrive. Her sister arrived at midnight. I greeted her, then headed to sleep.

### 25.01.10

- Woke up when Jinjoo’s sister needed to depart home to start work. I need to be working more regularly longer hours each day, but last year, working normal hours repeatedly made Jinjoo get extremely frustrated, accusing me of making her feel like a maidservant, and her words not only hurt me at the moments but also eliminated my productivity for days or weeks at a time. Since, I have not been able to work normal hours. I estimate that I lost over 50% of workable hours last year due to her, and I am at or below 10% of possible productivity currently.
- Jinjoo told me a funny story. The matcha bowl that we visited so many stores to choose yesterday was the exact one that she had picked from the internet before we departed to San Francisco. I had seen it too, and neither of us had realized until we got back home. Well, we are happy with the purchase.
- Jinjoo seems very happy to be with her younger sister. She cooked lunch quite happily, and was happy discussing what we can be doing with her sister today.
- While Jinjoo’s sister was working in the common room in the morning, I worked at home and made some decent progress writing Seelog D105C AGAIN. I planned to present several options for working space to Jinjoo’s sister, then work on Seelog while sitting in the same space with Jinjoo and her sister in the afternoon. But Jinjoo’s sister’s team was in dismay due to LA wildfire and was not in a mood to work today, so I told her Jinjoo and I are more flexible than most working people and can hang out today. Jinjoo’s sister, though she seems filled with positive energy right now, must be scared, having escaped fire immediately after moving to the new city. Yeah, let us hang out today and distract her from concerns by doing a lot of fun activities together. We planned to go play pickleball then buy groceries for malatang.
- Played pickleball. We subscribed to a pickleball racket testing program. We will try several new rackets then buy one we like the most.
- Got a haircut. Played arcade game.
- Shopped grocery then ate malatang for dinner.

### 25.01.11

- With Jinjoo, Nghi, Tuan, visited Apple Park Visitor Center then Half Moon Bay Ritz Carlton. Ate com tam at 909 Story Road for dinner. Strolled at the mall searching for desserts. At home, we played Codenames.

### 25.01.12

- Tried to play Bomberman with Jinjoo and her younger sister, but the version her sister found online did not support a collaborative gameplay.
- Visited Sunnyvale Pickleball Center, but no courts were free. Visited Costco, but the checkout line was too long for us to dare shop there tonight. Returned home for dinner. After dinner, exercised at fitness center.
- Called mom. Suggested to her to consider establishing base home at Dongtan or at least visit Gumi to spend more time with her sister. But mom wants to establish base home in Gwangju precisely because it is the more uncomfortable city in comparison to Suwon. By making a home in Gwangju, mom can help dad suffer less when he is in Gwangju. I was not able to convince her to change her mind.

### 25.01.13

- In the morning, visited Community Room as soon as waking up to work there. Jinjoo’s sister followed me. Jinjoo cooked and did chores at home.
- Played pickleball. Shopped grocery at Costco. Called parents while at Costco.
- Watched an episode of OEY Marriage Report during dinner. Exercised at the fitness center.

### 25.01.14

- Jinjoo informed me as soon as I woke up that she has passed the CFA Level 1 exam. Her score was higher than 90% of the test takers.
- Called dad in the morning. Discussed life of Leland Stanford I learned by reading a biography about him recently.
- Visited San Mateo Public Library. Studied business books: Private Label Strategy, Unlocking the Customer Value Chain: How Decoupling Drives Consumer Disruption, Blue Ocean Strategy, Business Boutique, Obsessed: Building a Brand People Love from Day One, 100 Ideas that Changed Advertising, and more.
- Visited Dreagers Market. The flagship store in San Mateo is closing at the end of next month, so they went on a store closing sale. We got many products at near 50% discount. I got coffee beans and bubble bath elixirs.
- At home, we ate salad and aglio e olio from yesterday. Jinjoo also cooked ramyun the way she saw Lotte Hotel do it. I say it was pretty good. To me, it was as good as the hotel ramyun. After dinner, I went on a stroll at the park to hop on a call with mom. I did not bring my home key so I called Jinjoo and her sister, but they did not pick up. I called them again and again but they did not pick up so I had to enter home through our balcony. I was quite upset at them for not picking up my calls for so long.
- I took a long bath. Then entered bedroom feeling still upset. Jinjoo was worried, so I told her I know that she did not do anything wrong so I am not angry at her, but I am upset just in the situation and tired, so I just need to rest. But we chatted for a little bit and I felt much better time we fell asleep. She told me how our trip to Draeger’s Market today became a fond memory for her that she thinks she will remember into the future. It was only 10 minutes long, yet such moments become special memories for us.

### 25.01.15

- Revisited Draeger’s Market immediately after waking up. On the upper floor, saw expensive kitchen products from Baccarat, Royal Limoge, L’Objet, Simon Pearce. Downstairs, we got expensive grocery products such as Le Sirop de Monin gourmet syrups in lavender and rose flavors, Carol Hall’s Mint Jelly recommended by a kind old lady passing by, Tache barista-grade pistachio milk, Elmhurst oat milk, Madhava honey, French pate pork liver, and, of course, Dolcetto Zesty Lemon wafer rolls. After check out, Jinjoo reviewed receipt and remarked how much money we saved. I asked her to take a look at the customers at the check out line before we leave. They looked rich. 35 years or older, dressed comfortably but looking dandy, Caucasians and Asians, faces looking confident and content, and when you overhear them, they know upscale products that fit upscale lifestyles.
- Visited Kings Seafood Center to buy grocery for Bo Kho. Jinjoo will cook some bo kho in celebration of herself passing the CFA Level 1 exam.
- Jinjoo’s sister is visiting Berkeley tomorrow then San Francisco on Sunday to meet her friends. She told us she is planning to drive to LA on Sunday after her visit to San Francisco. Jinjoo and I suggested that she take a day off from work on Monday and drive after getting a full night of sleep on Sunday night. We will monitor LA fire too and tell her not to go back if it seems unsafe for her to do so.
- While Jinjoo cooked Bo Kho, worked at desk while drinking a cup of Counter Culture coffee. The coffee was delightful.
- Exercised at home then at fitness center. Washed dishes. Worked on writing Seelog D105C AGAIN until sleep.
- I reflected next to sleeping Jinjoo. We have been able to live happily together without any fights ever since coming back from Asia, and she deserves more credit than me. Last year, I felt like my patience alone was supporting our relationship. But this year, I feel like her patience has been preventing us from getting in any fights. I am not sure what happened to her that made such rapid change possible, but she changed drastically, and even I myself have not been able to grow at such pace in terms of becoming a great lover. I feel grateful for her. She promised me that she will be good, then she lived up to her words. I will let her know how I feel soon, perhaps before departing to Seattle for Lunar New Year. Actually, might as well write to her tomorrow. On another note, I think she has been happy during our time with her younger sister, and I enjoyed seeing her happy. Yay.

### 25.01.16

- In the morning, wrote Jinjoo a love letter thanking her for becoming a great lover this year.
- Called dad while strolling at the park. Came home then watched Reborn Rich with Jinjoo. Jinjoo is enjoying the show!
- Ate the bo kho beef stew that Jinjoo cooked. It was super duper delicious!

### 25.01.17

- Woke up with a bad headache. Am I suffering a migraine? Ate 2 Tylenol pills at 9:30AM.
- Worked on writing Seelog D105C AGAIN.
- Ate dinner with Lee KJ and his family in San Francisco. He kindly let me borrow his Hawaii beach house during my planned visit to Hawaii this Summer. Mister Jiu’s restaurant served Cantonese fine dining course meal.
- Back at home, I ate bo kho for secondary dinner, then tried to buy airplane tickets with Jinjoo now that we have housing dates. But the airlines offered different prices to her and me, 2X or 3X the prices listed on Google Flights, so we got frustrated and decided to revisit another day.
- Jinjoo and her younger sister visited Stanford to watch a Vietnamese musician’s concert with Cindy.

### 25.01.18

- Showered. Washed dishes.
- We ate dumplings for lunch, then visited Sunnyvale Pickleball Center to play pickleball.
- Jinjoo has been suffering from stiffness in neck and shoulders. She tried many solutions including foam roller, massage ball, and forcing her younger sister to give her a massage. She also tried exercising at the fitness center and playing pickleball. The solution that worked was bathing in the hot tub at the Redwood Place pool. We dreamed about making resorts with hanyak spas.

### 25.01.19

- Visited San Francisco Museum of Modern Arts with Jinjoo. Jinjoo and Jinjoo’s younger sister stood in separate lines, then used Jinjoo’s obsolete Stanford student ID card to get tickets at price for students.
- Enjoyed Yayoi Kusama’s Infinity Mirror Room, Ragnar Kjartansson’s The Visitors, Gerhard Richter’s Seestück, Sol LeWitt’s Wall Drawing, Ellsworth Kelly’s Red Curve, Alexander Calder’s Mobiles.
- Jinjoo brought fruits to the museum trip. We returned to the car to get the snacks then returned to the museum to eat them. It was a phenomenal decision, because I was very tired after almost 5 hours of studying art, and the fruits and some snacks made me feel energetic again.
- We had driven to San Francisco to help Jinjoo’s younger sister get to an event at City Lights Bookstore. After the museum closed and the bookstore event ended, we drove to the bookstore to pick her up. On our way home, we visited Nob Hill to see Stanford Court Hotel.
- At home, we ate dinner, then watched Reborn Rich.

### 25.01.20

- After lunch, Jinjoo’s younger sister departed to her home in LA.
- Worked on writing Seelog D105C AGAIN.

### 25.01.21

- Woke up. Washed dishes. Worked on writing Seelog D105C AGAIN while sipping coffee.
- YouTube killed JunwonCamera social media account. YouTube has not been distributing my videos to many viewers anyway, so I will just stop posting on YouTube for now.
- Visited Cupertino Library. Studied books on modern art.

### 25.01.22

- Dad showed me photos of the Samsung private jet that he has been riding for business trips. He has a private room with a bed and a bathroom. I wish I had a private jet too! One day.
- Enjoyed the day at home. Exercised at the fitness center. Bathed in the hot tub spa.
- Worked a lot on Seelog D105C AGAIN.

### 25.01.23

- Visited Stanford Art Library. Studied art.
- After studying art for several days now, I noticed that it is actually very easy for someone like me who can take in and hold information very fast to catch up on history of a field such as art. Yet, catching up is merely 10% if not 1% of the work. Making any contribution is 90% to 99% of the work. If I were to contribute an art movement, I will propose Integrationism and posit that art must elevate and be elevated by the surrounding which the artist cannot control such as the weather.
- When passing by Cantor Arts Center, saw Rodin sculptures, so I explained to Jinjoo some fun facts I remember from reading books about art history in past few days. She told me she does not want to hear about arts since she wants to use her brain capacity for finance concepts. I was pensive, not because she did anything wrong, but because I was worried about her brain capacity. It is within her rights to make such requests to defend her brain capacity. Objectively, she was not morally wrong in any way. She asked me if I am disappointed that she is not interested in art, but I am myself not interested in art anyway. But I have a responsibility to make sure that I am inheriting best genes to my descendants. And I am worried after hearing from her that she does not have brain capacity to process that small information. I understand I have more brain capacity than others, but she hates to communicate explanations, she hates to hear explanations, and I am concerned whether her brain is less capable than normal brains. I need to make her take an intelligence test sometime. I can say I am taking it for me just for fun and invite her to join me in taking it.
- Visited Trader Joe’s grocery store in Palo Alto.
- Watched Dieter Rams documentary with Jinjoo during dinner. She taught me about Kanopy app. Now we can watch so many documentary videos for free.
- I have been feeling jolly until that conflict with Jinjoo at the Rodin garden, but then I have been unable to feel jolly at all since then. I stayed up late tonight. I will take it easy tomorrow. I will catch up on sleep, exercise, read some books on art. I also have to go to Costco tomorrow.

### 25.01.24

- Fell asleep at 5AM last night. In past seasons, sleeping late was the cause and the effect of fights between me and Jinjoo that fueled vicious cycles. I will spend less time than normal with her, then sleep early. I will stop work and return to bed at no later than 10PM.
- Apple informed me that they decided to accept my request to them to lower App Store tax from 30% to 15%. I shall resume working on LA CAMERA.
- During morning shower, reflected on the conflict that started yesterday. I have been having difficulty getting out of depression, but I think it is less about the incident that happened yesterday and more about how my body is afraid of whether what happened last season is going to repeat. I think we had conflicts sometimes when I felt disappointed that we do not share interests in a topic, especially because I am capable of taking interest in a lot of different topics, whereas she prefers to take interest in even less topics than most people. I will just record the interests we share and do not share. Started recording topics in Lover Orientation D106C Topics.
- Jinjoo told me she is not hungry so she will not join me for lunch. She will go to the fitness center. I asked her when she wants to go to Costco, and she responded we can survive with food at home until we fly out on Sunday. I guess the home will be bare empty when I come back since I am coming back before her.
- Visited bookseller Barnes and Noble. Studied books about art history. I think I am done reading all reasonable art history books that are readily available to consumers today. I will wrap up now, and perhaps dive deeper into specific artists or art movements in the future as I get impressed by them at art museums.
- At home, ate dinner. Jinjoo did not want to eat but stayed when I suggested that we finish watching Dieter Rams documentary. When I told her as a gesture for conflict resolution that I will graduate from taking interest in art now that it has been a week, I meant it to be self-deprecating so that she can disagree and save my face, but she agreed then told me she dislikes taking interest in what others try to make her get interested in. How can she say she will not take interest in art specifically because I am interested in art? I do not feel like I am living with a partner. I feel like she considers me an enemy. We were not able to finish watching the documentary. I took a nap.
- I woke up from nap. Had dinner. Washed dishes. Instead of thanking me for washing dishes, she came out of bedroom and asked me whether we even have enough dishes to run the dishwasher. First of all, New York Times reported that it is okay for the dishes and the environment to run dishwashers without filling them up. Second, literally the most recent OEY Marriage Report episode was about a mom distrusting the ability of the daughter and criticizing her for what she tries to do for mom. I felt unhappy and entered bedroom, not just because I was unhappy but also because we had agreed to sleep at midnight so that we can have energy to tolerate each other better.
- We tried to fall asleep at midnight, but we ended up staying awake until 1:30AM. She told me she was bored, so I was able to chat with her about art. We came out to the living room to drink hot cocoa. I think chocolate boosted my mood a lot. We watched Train to Busan. She fell asleep after finishing watching the movie, but I was not able to fall asleep, so I just decided to get some work done until I feel sleepy.
- Had allergic reactions possibly to chocolate. Or more likely dust mites. Took allergic medications after suffering for 2 hours, then spent another hour after taking medication sneezing, until I was able to sleep.
- During the day, felt slow due to allergy medication. Did fit in exercise out of sense of duty. I feel like the house is a mess. Jinjoo says bed was not washed in 6 days now. Laundry has not been folded. I had to get kitchen towel supply from the storage room.
- I think I will choose not to write Seelog today since I am not feeling normal. I will pack luggage for Seattle trip, then maybe do House Meeting especially finance.

### 25.01.26

- Fell asleep yesterday night immediately after shower after exercise. Woke up at dawn to pack. Jinjoo had stayed up all night to study then pack. I packed, ate salad, cleaned home. Spent an hour on homemaking since Jinjoo wanted a lot of parts of home to be cleaned for a clean start in time for the Lunar New Year.
- We flew from SJC to SEA.
- Played with Lenna for hours. We went out to play at a small playground at a nearby park.
- Jinjoo’s mom cooked for us for lunch and dinner.

### 25.01.27

- 아침에 샤워하러 침실을 나서는데 진주 여동생이 화장실 문을 열어둔 채 안에 있어서 의도치않게 보게 됐다.
- Jinjoo and I stayed at Lenna House today, because her mom asked her to perform the ancestor veneration ceremony while the other family members were away from home for work today.
- We strolled the neighborhood, sang karaoke.
- Called parents. Told dad about my plan to posit that Junwon makes clear AI apps for modern homemakers.
- After dinner, helped out by washing dishes.

### 25.01.28

- Woke up before 6AM and worked on phone brainstorming company brand for about an hour then fell asleep again, and Jinjoo was asleep continuously, until Jinjoo’s younger sister came to our room to wake us up at 1PM.
- Ate banh mi for lunch. Peeled egg shells to help Jinjoo’s mom cook Thit Kho.
- Strolled past a lake park to a nearby grocery store. Jinjoo’s younger sister offered to come pick me up. After she picked me up, she wanted to go visit an Asian grocery store to buy food, so we did.
- Head starting hurting. Showered. Then consumed a pill of Tylenol. The headache feels less like a migraine and more like a common cold.
- Dinner was a feast, and the highlight was thit kho that Jinjoo’s mom cooked.
- After dinner, we sang karaoke, took photos, then played boardgames.
- Celebrated Lunar New Year with Jinjoo’s family. Cleaned home. Her mom gave us red envelopes.

### 25.01.29

- Woke up at 7AM. Only got 5 hours of sleep. Showered and dressed up to go visit temples with Jinjoo’s family today. Played with Lenna while she was eating breakfast and getting ready to depart home for her daycare.
- Ate thit kho for breakfast. Drank matcha. Jinjoo’s mom asked if I can drive us to the temple and I gladly agreed to do so. Visited a temple about 1 hour to the North. The temple is very busy on Lunar New Year, so they usually park far then walk to the temple, but Jinjoo bet that the temple’s main parking lot will have a spot available for us since Junwon is lucky, and we did indeed have a spot. Her younger sister arrived about 15 minutes later, and she had to go park pretty far, because the main parking lot was full. Got free food at the temple such as Snickers and Twix and sticky rice and hot tea and durian coffee. I had never seen durian coffee before. After smelling it, it took some courage to try drinking it. I liked it at first sip, but I was not able to finish more than 5 sips.
- Prayed to divinities. Jinjoo’s mom donated to the temple for us, and we got some lotus flower candles to give to the gods and a wish card to place on the wish tree. For the wish card, we had several choices, and Jinjoo chose one that references an old story about a fish that tried to pass the dragon gate every year until one year it passed the gate and became a dragon.
- We picked luck prediction lottery. I was taken to a room, then I was told to follow some steps, but I was not explained what it was for. I shook some sticks in a cup. Then I was instructed to shake it such that one stick would fall, but not shake it too artificially. I was not sure how to do it naturally, so I did it somewhat artificially and 2 sticks fell. I just picked one at random and put the other one back into the cup. Then I was told to throw yet another item: a pair of tokens that looked like bananas. I threw it once, then they fell on the same side, and the monk told me I need to throw it again to verify that the fortune is correct for me. At that point, I understood that we were doing it to predict luck for the year. I threw again, and this time, they fell on opposite faces, and the monk told me I am good to proceed. I was not sure whether my stick was 21 or 23, but I decided to go with 21. Luck for 21 was 下中 which is second worst. Then Jinjoo got 下下 which is worst. 21:下中 warned: “Do not seek to gain from others. It is like a flying crane getting shot by an arrow in darkness. I fear you will suffer due to meeting bad hand (bad partner). Love and work are hard to predict. Be careful of disasters. You are expected to have emotional suffering.” 36:下下: “Fear deepens to coldness. One can find comfort only if one can meet a divine hand in the mountain. If you try to meet a new person, you will meet a cunning person.” She was worried, then thought about burning the luck prediction papers. We went to the beginning of a row of statues of divinities. In front of each statue was a fire pit for the incense sticks. She rolled up the papers and held the paper roll up to a candle fire. Fire caught on but soon died due to coldness and wind. She was worried, and tried again. She stuck it upside down into the fire pit ashes next to other incense sticks. The outer layer lost fire, but I was able to see smoke coming out of the pipe. She was worried that the papers are not burning and suspected the papers were made out of a material with added resistance. I told her I think the fire is still burning inside since I see smoke, and suggested we wait a little. We waited for about a minute, then she suggested that we pray to other statues then come back. The row was actually very long. I think we prayed, one by one, to statues totaling to a number between 24 and 60, then returned to the first fire pit. Most had burned away, but about an inch long roll was still stuck there in shape with no sign of fire or smoke, maintaining white color of the paper. She was worried, but declared, “I will make my own destiny,” and then tried to pick up the roll. But she couldn’t pick it up, because it was just ash. The paper roll had been in fact entirely incinerated, but it had burned in such perfection that even in cold wind, the last inch had maintained its shape. And the white ash resembled white paper. I thank the gods for generosity and applaud her for having the power to declare war on gods and win over them.
- On our way back home, we stopped by Starbucks at Green Lake for coffee. It was delicious. Jinjoo’s mom and I chatted a lot in the car, mostly her telling me stories about her friends in Seattle. Jinjoo’s mom dropped us off at Seattle Library, then visited an Asian grocery store called Lam’s Seafood Market. She and I claimed seats on the top floor study area, but I did not get to sit once on the chair, because Jinjoo’s mom had returned just as I finished checking out books in the aisles. I checked out biographies, business books about grocery stores, and art books about advertisements. On our way home, we visited Safeway.
- At home, ate dinner with Lenna and family. I washed dishes.

### 25.01.30

- Finished preparing 25.01 House Meeting document then sent to Jinjoo for review. I plan to skip having an actual meeting this month since we are in her family home until end of month and since I do not see any outstanding topics anyway.
- With Jinjoo, Jinjoo’s younger sister, and Jinjoo’s mom, visited T&T grocery store in Bellevue and Lam’s Seafood Center in South Center Mall.
- Took a nap at home. Ate dinner. Played with Lenna. Sang karaoke. Played board games.

### 25.01.31

- Woke up at 6AM to shower and eat and get ready to depart home at 7:30AM with Jinjoo and Jinjoo’s older sister. We got to the Kent station then took Sounder Transit train to get to Seattle. Jinjoo offered me to sleep until later then get driven to Seattle by her mom, but I wanted to see and be on the train that she has been using to get to Seattle every morning in the past to go study at Seattle Library.
- Once we got off the train, we separated ways with her older sister. Jinjoo and I first visited Elm Coffee Roaster. Their iced latte with their own beans roasted right there in the cafe and their own vanilla syrup was delicious: lightly-roasted so slightly acidic just the way I like coffee, fruity aroma, and not that bitter yet not too sweet. We strolled the Seattle streets. It was nice to be back. Jinjoo told me, “Morning commute with Junwon is so fun.” We stayed at Columbia Center for an hour waiting for the library to open. We took some photos of each other studying and working.
- Worked on Seelog D105C AGAIN at Seattle Library.
- For lunch, we ate french food at Le Pichet.
- Enjoyed a date with Jinjoo at Pike Place Market. Got enamel pins at the first Starbucks. Checked out shops in the market. We especially enjoyed visiting a store called Paperworks which sold old vintage papers like vintage ads. Vintage ad style is fun because they are paintings, informative, and definitionally antithetical to futuristic AI technology which makes them an interesting vehicle for advertising AI models.
- Visited Seattle Nordstrom. Nordstrom started in Seattle and Seattle Nordstrom is the biggest store and the flagship store. Checked out Barbour waxed canvas jackets, Parachute pajamas and robes, and various hand creams. We got MFK perfume samples.
- On our way back to the train station, ran to Seattle’s Best Tea and got a cup of oolong milk tea with popping boba pearls. It was as tasty as I had remembered it to be. Jinjoo had never been to the store, and told me she will visit it again for the strong tea flavor.
- We headed back to King Station, met Jinjoo’s older sister, then rode the train back to Kent. Jinjoo’s older sister drove us in her car back to home. After returning home, I showered, then went down to join dinner. Jinjoo’s mom had cooked Vietnamese curry. It was delicious!
- After dinner, we sang karaoke. I sang Snow Flower in Korean, and Jinjoo’s mom remarked I sing so well that I am like a movie star. Jinjoo’s older sister played the song in Vietnamese language. I sang along pretty well, so Jinjoo’s family was amused.
- We played board games. This week, we played various board games, including Monopoly, 7 Wonders, and Ticket to Ride, and I was not able to win any games. Today, I got negative 6 points at the end of Ticket to Ride, and others were amused that they have never seen a Ticket to Ride game round in which all other players block off the route of a single player like they blocked me off today. It was fun and organic though, so I enjoyed the game. A funny moment was when Jinjoo scolded Justin to stop blocking off her boyfriend then during her next turn, she blocked me off to get a path that she needed. It too was just funny.
- Her family and I tried to plan a Summer trip together to Canada, but I came upstairs before discussion ended because Jinjoo repeatedly urged me to go upstairs with laundry and start folding it. Despite having spent a great day together today, I got annoyed at her that she was so adamantly against getting me just a cup of water, which to me seemed like she was not annoyed at the task but rather annoyed at the idea of getting water for her man, then she was so focused on trying to make me fold the laundry that she cut me off from the trip planning discussion with her family members. I do have to wake up early tomorrow to catch the return flight to California, so I came up and started folding laundry, only after recording that I was annoyed by her actions tonight.
- Folded laundry then packed luggage.
### 25.02.01

- Woke up early in the morning to head to the airport. Jinjoo’s mom cooked breakfast and made coffee for me. Jinjoo made matcha for me. First snow fell in Seattle today. Jinjoo’s mom asked me whether I can drive to the airport since she does not feel confident driving in snow. I told her I can gladly do so, and thanked her for walking up early for me so that I can go to the airport in her car. Jinjoo and her mom followed me to the airport. At the airport, I held Jinjoo’s mom’s hands and thanked her for hosting me today, then hugged Jinjoo goodbye. I texted parents and Jinjoo after security check and before boarding.
- For the airplane ride, I basically purchased a wide seat with just $8. After debating internally whether I should, I decided to get yet another big cup of coffee from Starbucks at the airport, then ended up finishing it by time airplane was getting ready to take off. That cup of coffee, along with the cup of matcha Jinjoo made for me and the cup of coffee that her mom made for me this morning, filled up my bladder. I wanted to go to the bathroom desperately by time the airplane was taking off. I waited impatiently for the seat belt restriction light to turn off, then ran to the bathroom. On my way, I found a row of empty seats. So after bathroom, I claimed the whole row to myself.
- Got a free upgrade for the Lift ride from San Jose airport to home. After returning home, showered, ate lunch, unpacked, watched TV shows, then fell asleep.

### 25.02.02

- Woke up at 2AM after going to sleep at 6PM.
- Weather forecast says it will rain all week this week. I will wash car next week.
- Woke up. Bathed. Cooked drinking water. Disinfected bags and coats with which I went on the trip to Seattle. Reviewed home to check for items I can store in the storage room. Planned day.
- Took a nap. Woke up. Showered. Ate lunch. Strolled at park reviewing last week.
- Visited Mitchell Park Palo Alto Library, and joined membership, but the library was too crowded, so I moved to Rinconada Palo Alto Library.
- At the library, reviewed last month, then worked on writing Seelog. Stayed until library closing time.
- Called mom. Shopped grocery Mountain View Trader Joe’s.
- At home, ate dinner, bathed. Finished writing Seelog D105C AGAIN.

### 25.02.03

- Woke up pretty late at 10AM. Showered. Ate lunch. Cleaned home. Shopped grocery at Costco. Washed laundry. Ran robot cleaners.
- Visited apartment clubhouse to work, but I was not able to focus, so returned home and took a nap.
- Ate dinner. Washed dishes. Cooked chicken breasts. Exercised at home then fitness center. Worked on writing FY2 Company Story.

### 25.02.04

- Woke up. Showered. Took out trash. Ate breakfast. Folded laundry. Brewed a bottle of coffee to bring with me to a library.
- Visited Mountain View Library, but forgot to bring laptop. Planned tasks to do at the library and tasks to do on computer at home.
- At library, planned out FY3 Enterprise Plan to be simple six steps. I will spend this month finishing writing three plans: enterprise plan, products plan, and branding plan. Planned Y29.
- I have been happy and productive after returning to California. I think I may have been subconsciously feeling guilty when feeling happy without Jinjoo last year, but now I feel more comfortable feeling happy and at the same time feeling love for her. This year, I feel more hopeful, especially since she has changed to be better and I have a strong determination to become more fortified as well.
- Returned home. Noticed that productivity immediately took a hit due to lighting or air at home. I was thinking about staying at home today to avoid driving in rain, but I will go out to regain productivity. Actually, I tried ventilating and then bringing out the uplight lamp from bedroom, and immediately, I felt productive at desk. This is an important discovery! I think I had discovered this fact, about my preference for reflected lights, at Bravern, and that is also why I have this uplight lamp, it was for Bravern living room, but after moving to Redwood Place, I had been using it in the bedroom, because we did not have any lamps in the bedroom. Anyways, it is great to regain productivity at home.
- Called Jinjoo. Call started happy but ended in frustration. She remarked that she is productive in Seattle, because she is not spending time on chores. I had already offered at the start of year to do most of the chores for her. I feel overwhelmed, because I feel like I had terrible productivity last that myself, but my productivity loss was due to her emotional tantrums rather than house chores, and I feel like she will throw tantrums even if I take care of the chores because she will not be satisfied with her own productivity. And I feel like the work I need to do is way harder than what she needs to do. I feel like I am pulling all the weight for us and she is asking me to do so. Fine. I will be the primary homemaker for us, give her tasks to help me out, but she needs to spend as much time outside of home as she is spending in Seattle. I am so concerned because homemaking tasks in number of minutes did not take as much time away from her as time she wasted, but she is complaining so much about the house chores. I think I am screwed.
- She wants to start visiting apartments as soon as she comes back since we need to move soon. I think the timing is correct. I need 2 attributes: 1) she must be able to commute on her own every single day, and 2) a room for myself that is completely separated out.
- Ate dinner. Called mom. Discussed with her the concerns I have about the call I had with Jinjoo regarding homemaking tasks. Wrote a letter to Jinjoo reflecting on what did not amount to a conflict today, and assuring her that we will figure out chores. Unsent the letter. Sent her a text message assuring her that everything will work out.
- Exercised at the fitness center. Showered. Called mom again.
- Transcribed paper notebook writings from library to computer.
- Before midnight, entered bedroom. Planned tomorrow while in bed.
- I have been made so miserable by the conversation with Jinjoo today, and here is my conclusion from my reflection. I conclude that she did not say anything wrong. From her point of view, it is true that she is more productive when she has less house chores to do. I was made so miserable, because I was so greatly disappointed by her. I am not sure what she is able or willing to do for me. She wants to go traveling alone. She dislikes any money or time or effort we spend on each other. That's what makes me so sad. I do not understand what I am dating her for when there is not a single thing she wants to do for me. I have nothing to gain. But I think this reaction is a disproportionately large reaction to her benign remark this time. I will just record that I have this ongoing unhappiness then move on regarding this incident. I need not chat with her until she comes back, and I am okay taking on chores especially since I will lose more time to her complaints than to house chores.

### 25.02.05

- I wonder if caffeine causes anxiety. I will try stop drinking coffee.
- I unsent messages I had sent to Jinjoo and had not gotten responses for. Jinjoo told me late morning that she just woke up then asked me about the unsent messages. I has been feeling unhappy even after waking up in the morning, but I felt immediately better after getting a text from her. I told her I just missed her a lot yesterday. When she is back, let me just have a conversation during house meeting that I seem to be still recovering from trauma from last year, and work together on getting healed over time. Slightest things she does can worry me ever so deeply currently.
- Washed bed laundry. Showered. Cooked quinoa. Ate lunch. Drank decaf coffee to ease into stop drinking coffee. Checked mail then discovered that I got even more notices of toll evasion violation. Called FasTrak and spent over 30 minutes resolving the issue.
- Ended up having a fight with Jinjoo. I was disappointed that she is uninterested in spending time with me today. This was a critical hit today only because I have been feeling unstable after she showed disinterest in doing chores at home. She is uninterested in doing anything with me, doing anything for me. She hates the idea of us spending time, money, effort on or with each other. Yesterday, mom told me people endure negativities in relationships, because gains outweigh the pains. She mentioned emotional happiness of being together. But that happiness of being together is absent in our relationship. She is happy when she is without me. She is unhappy when she is with me. We experience all the pains of a relationship and none of the gains. I am not satisfied in this relationship.
- Jinjoo has been complaining about losing productivity. Texts and calls with me are such hits to her productivity. I on the other hand have not once complained about driving her to her friends or even flying to Seattle to spend an entire week with her family. I drove her to Sacramento. She wants me to drive her to Walnut Creek. When I see her considering time spent with me as waste of time, all those past time investments I considered to be happy memories now feel like wasted time to me as well. Maybe I was the wrong one so far. Maybe I was too naive to be not considering her as an enemy to my productivity the way she considers me. Okay. So be it. I will do that too.
- Sent her an angry letter but then unsent it after remembering my new year resolution to have zero fights with her.
- Took a nap. Ate dinner. Ended conflict with Jinjoo. Recorded incident in diary. Studied book by Ritz-Carlton Founder.
- Had a slow evening. Washed dishes. Bathed. Did not exercise.
- I feel somewhat better now thanks to having been able to take my mind off thinking about Jinjoo starting evening.
- I feel lonely so often and Jinjoo dislikes engaging with me every time I feel an emotional need to communicate. If I can channel this emotional need to social media instead, I might be more productive at establishing an online presence which I need for my Company.

### 25.02.06

- Woke up. Cooked food for meal prep. Disinfected bed. Started robot cleaners. Showered. Ate lunch.
- Visited Santa Clara City Library. It is beautiful. Finished reviewing Y28.
- Called mom. Told her I plan to try techniques to bring down anxiety this year.
- Visited Cupertino Library. Returned book. Studied branding.
- Got a headache. Decided not to go buy grocery today. Headache until I returned home. I plan to focus on emptying my mind while taking care of fitness (e.g. eating, exercising). The only work I will tackle tonight is Y29 Plan. And maybe confirm the name “LA siblings” for Company Brand.
- Ate dinner. Washed dishes. Came up with another name candidate: LA CASA MAMA. I think I will choose one between @lasiblings and @lacasamama. Called mom then dad to ask for opinions. Mom chose former, dad chose latter. Before calling them, I was leaning towards latter.
- Exercised at home then at fitness center. I have been pondering profile name for company brand and I am still unable to choose one.
- I suffered severe allergic reactions in bed. I suspected chocolate but my nose congestion immediately unblocked when I left bedroom. I got up from bed then lied back down in bed several times to be able to tell with confidence that I am allergic to the bed sheet. The soft bedsheet blocks my nose completely. I switched to the hard bed sheet. If this fails too, I will suspect that either blanket or lying down is causing noise congestion. I will write update here if and only if the hard bed sheet fails to solve problem. So if no further update gets recorded, hard bed sheet solution worked. I still suffered allergy a little after, then I found out that lying down facing the other way immediately unblocks nose. Placing head towards headrest blocks nose and placing head towards footrest unblocks nose. Tomorrow, I will disinfect headrest area extensively. That too did not help. Used Dyson vacuum cleaner to suck up all dust mites from bed sheet and blanket and ventilated air. Finally did not get nose blocked.

### 25.02.07

- Woke up at 5AM due to sickness. I suspect common cold or flu. I have been unwell during sleep recently but pretty fine during daytime, and I have been hoping that healthy lifestyle will help me fight off the oncoming sickness, but today, I feel the critical threshold has been passed and I have lost the battle. I took medication for common cold. I am not very sick yet, but I will prioritize grocery shopping above all else today in case I do become quite sick in the next few days.
- Tried to sleep a lot to fight the virus or bacteria, but got woken up again in the morning due to pain. I decided to prioritize grocery shopping above all else.
- Drove to Costco in Mountain View. There was an art supply store nearby so visited it too and checked out colored pencils. Shopped grocery at Costco. Returned home. Cooked chicken breast.
- Strolled during call with mom. Returned home to take a shower.
- Deleted @junwonbear accounts on Facebook, Instagram, Threads, YouTube, TikTok, Reddit. Decided to keep @junwoncamera.
- Made @sisterlacasa accounts on social media platforms.
- I suspect feeling of sickness might be from sudafed as much as from pathogen.
- After dinner, lied down in bed early. Played with AI music generation. Made a song for Lacasa, then made a song for Jinjoo.

### 25.02.08

- Woke up feeling much better. Much less pain. But feel slow as if I am trapped in water. I have not taken any medications in the past 24H.
- Showered. Ate lunch. Brewed coffee. Recorded diary records for yesterday and today.
- Booked haircut. First available date is March 10.
- I plan to finish planning LA CASA branding plan this weekend, then start on Monday using AI to manage social media profiles automatically.
- Ran robot cleaner, ran dishwasher, plugged in laptop to charge battery, then went on a stroll. I hope strolling will get me sun exposure and some time to get mind in order so that I can work effectively today. Strolled while listening to podcast news. At home, sat at desk, drinking coffee, planning Y29. I made big progress, but got stuck after 3H of work.
- Cooked for 1.5H but I do not feel like I was able to get a lot of food prepared. Ate dinner.
- Started Demeditations D106C. I called it Demeditations, because Meditation means thinking and I am trying to find ways to stop thinking since I think all the time. Tried bathing as a demeditation ritual. I think bathing is pretty effective!
- Finished planning Y29.
- Called dad for 3H until 2AM.

### 25.02.09

- Woke up feeling much better. I think I am 90%+ healed from sickness. Still slight discomfort in sinus and a small headache, but feels more like aftertaste rather than an ongoing issue.
- Showered. Cleaned home lightly. Ate salad.
- Studied books at Barnes and Noble, Redwood City Library, then Stanford Green Library, to get inspirations for lacasa. At Stanford, also studied news.
- An elected representative in the legislative branch in Korea texted me after hearing about me from my dad. He wants to meet me sometime. Mom later explained to me that he wants to introduce me to his niece for a romantic relationship. But my family had not been able to tell him that I am already in a romantic relationship with a girlfriend.
- Exercised at home then at fitness center.
- Fought with Jinjoo. I explained repeatedly that I am telling her to change not what she is saying but how she is saying, and I was not able to make her listen and understand despite urging her to listen and understand. Asked ChatGPT to review my conversation with Jinjoo. ChatGPT also told me T is more wrong than J.

### 25.02.10

- Visited Santa Clara Library. Worked until library closed. Finished writing LACASA Enterprise Plan FY3 S2.
- Visited Barnes and Noble. Bought the new Bill Gates autobiography.
- The Korean congressman had texted me earlier today a news article about the Bill Gates book. I texted him telling him I saw it at a bookstore on my way home and got it. After returning home, I ate dinner, ran robot cleaner, disinfected kitchen stove.
- Exercised at the fitness center. Showered. Folded laundry.
- Reviewed vintage ads and watched a documentary about Audrey Hepburn.

### 25.02.11

- Fueled car. Ate beef for lunch.
- Took a nap. Strolled.
- Texted Jinjoo about my reflection and inviting her to reflect and move towards resolution as well.
- Purchased a subscription to ChatGPT Pro. Gave it a 3,300 words instruction to submit to me a plan for how to grow Lacasa on online forums. It gave me a 3,300 words plan in 7 minutes. Asked it to go check online forums to study influencers. I think it is definitely an interesting technology. I am not sure about spending $200 again next month, but spending it this month to learn about latest AI technology’s capabilities is worth the money.

### 25.02.12

- Woke up due to fire alarm testing.
- Visited Mountain View Library. Worked on Branding Plan.
- Finished collecting product ideas for Products Plan FY3 S2.
- Returned home. Called mom. Ate dinner. Showered.
- Reviewed and recorded recent conflict with lover in Lover Orientation Conflicts D106C.
- Exercised. Washed bed.
- Texted Jinjoo. Worked on Branding Plan.

### 25.02.13

- Disinfected bed. Ran robot mop. Showered. Threw out trash. Cleaned home for Jinjoo to arrive. Picked up Jinjoo from the airport. Drove to San Jose to buy Banh Mi. Spent time with Jinjoo at home. We ate salad and banh mi sandwich, then watched Roman Holiday featuring Audrey Hepburn and Gregory Peck.
- While she was having a meeting for her Stanford Alumni in Energy Industry group, I cooked lettuce, quinoa, and chicken breast, and worked on LACASA Brand Plan FY3 S2.
- Exercised at fitness center. Showered in demeditation mode.
- Finished working on Brand Plan FY3 S2, but I plan to iterate on it tomorrow by 1) giving guideline to AI to get posts, 2) giving posts to AI to get feedback, and 3) giving feedback to AI to edit guideline. I also plan to choose aesthetics using Midjourney, but I do not expect to get to generating actual posts using Midjourney, Sora, Suno. I plan to go work at Santa Clara Library tomorrow.
- I plan to bring up following topics during upcoming house meeting: setting realistic targets and tracking actual hindrances to us each getting individual productivity time and individual peaceful time such that I will not get blamed for these matters in the future. She told me that she visited Seattle Library on 3 out of 7 days on average and studied for 7H (rounded up) on average.

### 25.02.14

- Woke up at 9AM. Showered. She woke up. I disinfected bed, brewed coffee, threw out trash, put away cleaned dishes, folded laundry partially. I got tired after 1H of homemaking, so it might be a good idea to limit homemaking to 1H per session. Ate lunch, then we departed home to go to a library.
- Worked at Santa Clara Library. Got here at 11AM. Worked on aesthetics for Lacasa brand persona. Departed at 5PM.
- Called mom at about 2PM. Went on a stroll at the park near the library for the call and to take a break from work. Told mom that Jinjoo got home safely, we watched Audrey Hepburn movie (Roman Holiday), and that I think I will be choosing painted aesthetics over photorealistic aesthetics for Lacasa.
- We packed dinner. I suggested to her that we go eat at Santana Row, but it was cold outside, so we went to Valley Fair. We ate Banh Mi and salad while I was showing her the images I made to design Lacasa aesthetics. She gave me lots of feedback, letting me know what she thinks are nice and not nice for Lacasa to have, ranging from fashion to hairstyles. It was a nice conversation. We strolled around the mall, then drove back home.
- At home, we spent some time together to celebrate Valentine’s Day. She also cooked dim sum for our night snack, because I asked for dim sum. It was very nice of her to do that. She visited the fitness center for a brief exercise. I washed dishes, and spent even more time working on Lacasa aesthetics.
- I must have generated way over 10K images today. I chose top 36. Then top 9. I started experimenting with animating the top 9 in order to test the aesthetics in animations. AI video models are a beast to handle in a bad way. Like AI image models few years ago, AI video models this year are still bad at logic, consistency. I laughed a lot while watching the generated videos.
- Tomorrow, I plan to 1) record image generation work from today in Brand Plan, 2) iterate on visual aesthetics by generating videos for images then generating variations of chosen images and repeating the process until I am satisfied. I might be able to get to audio generation as well to go with the video.

### 25.02.15

- Woke up. Packed lunch to go work at a library. Jinjoo had told me last night that she wants to stay home today. Showered. Washed dishes. Jinjoo told me and told me she wants to follow me to the library. We visited Stanford.
- For Lacasa, animated images into videos. Yesterday, found Sora sucks, Runway rocks, Pika is okay but not great, and today, found Sora is actually pretty okay for its price since it comes with ChatGPT Pro, Kling is no better than Sora, and Hailuo sucks. Also, Runway failed to animate characters today for some reason.
- We worked in Stanford Green Library, Jane Reading Room, until closing time. Jinjoo had never noticed the paintings of past Stanford presidents on the wall and the patina bronze sculpture at the entrance of the Lane Reading Room. We returned to car to get the packed dinner, ate in Old Union, then worked there until 9:30PM at which point my computer lost its last percentage of battery and Jinjoo also seemed to have run out of her brain battery.
- We returned home. She cooked dim sum for us. After that, we exercised. While she was at the fitness center, I called dad for 30 minutes. I exercised at the fitness center, showered, then spent some time writing diary at desk.
- Today, I was able to finish designing aesthetics for Lacasa, including appearance and music. Tomorrow, I will prioritize generating some contents so that I can post them on Monday. I will spend time remaining after that on refining aesthetics for Lacasa.

### 25.02.16

- Jinjoo woke me up. It was 1PM when I had finished taking a shower. We ate lunch, then headed to Stanford. I suggested that we share Starbucks Matcha Latte since she has been talking about it recently, so we visited Mercado on our way. At Stanford, worked in Lane Reading Room again.
- Worked on Lacasa personality guideline.
- We departed library at 7PM when Jinjoo told me she was hungry. On our way back to the car, we discussed dinner and grocery. She mentioned buying boiled vegetables. I mentioned seasoned broth being bad due to high salt intake. And garlic having high sugar content. She said “why don’t you cook”. I was dumbfounded, because I was not following what made her suddenly say such a hostile remark when we have been living happily. She told me it was to make me stop complaining. I took great offense that she will speak to me like that, so disrespectfully. I don’t know why I’m even dating her. She’s so disrespectful to me.
- I drove us to Hankook Market. She entered store for grocery shopping. I stood outside eating a sandwich we had packed for lunch.
- At home, she cooked then ate dinner. I showered then headed to bed. I refused dinner. I still felt angry, I felt tired, and I also felt physiologically unwell for some reason.

### 25.02.17

- I woke up in middle of night to find that she was sleeping outside in the living room. I lost an hour of sleep wondering whether she was doing so as a protest or as an apology, therefore whether to feel more or less anger. In the morning, I swiftly showered and ate breakfast then came out to common room. I texted her telling her I will be outside for several hours to give her time to rest and feel better. I worked on Lacasa.
- I returned home near 5PM, but Jinjoo was not at home. I see she is protesting, not apologizing. Okay. I will take a nap. I woke up to the sound of her returning home. I came out to the living room, but she cooked food for herself only and ate dinner alone. I invited her to a movie date tonight. I told her we can go watch the new movie she told me yesterday she wanted to go watch with me sometime. I told her I am on the movie theater website readt to buy tickets as soon as she says yes. But she told me she is tired and she headed to bed.
- I worked on Lacasa. Producing contents is harder than directed especially due to limitations of video generation AI models. But I did post one video.

### 25.02.18

- I worked hard on past several days. I will take a break today. I will take care of homemaking chores like grocery shopping.
- As for Lacasa, learning the skill is what matters. If I learn the skill, then I can remake new profiles anytime even if Lacasa gets blocked. If I fail to learn the skill, then my business will fail no matter what kind of product I make.
- After waking up in the morning, I asked Jinjoo whether she wants to go to a library or stay home today. She told me she will think about it. I took a shower, came out, then she told me to eat lunch alone. She told me she will go out if I stay home and vice versa. I asked her why and then realized she means she wants to be wherever I am not. I was hurt, but I told her then I can drive her to a library then go elsewhere. She told me she does not want to be dropped off then picked up. I was hurt. I had to leave home for a stroll and to get on a call with mom since I was not even able to text my parents over past several days. But before I hopped on a call with mom, I texted Jinjoo telling her I am not sure whether her younger sister should stay with us this weekend since I might be suffering a panic attack if she keeps fighting me several more days. She told me it will be okay since her sister will only be home for sleeping at night then depart as soon as waking up. I told her I do not want to do anything for her family this week. She did not respond. During call with mom, I told her I am once again fighting with Jinjoo. Today, I told her the reason I have been trying so hard to appease her is because her angers reach such intensity for so many consecutive days usually that last year I suffered multiple panic attack episodes. I had never told her about the panic attack episodes. She had never heard of anything like that before. I was on a call with her for about an hour, and ultimately decided to make yet another gesture of peace. I told her I will do things for her family, pick her dad up from the airport, let her sister sleep. I also apologized for commenting on food nutritions several days ago. I explained my behaviors and my fears especially how I am fearing for life and trying to make peace with her in order to not repeat having a breathing problem again. I then departed to Costco for grocery shopping. I told mom I texted Jinjoo, and mom told me at least I must feel like there is nothing else I need to be doing. But I had this feeling that Jinjoo is not the kind of person who will accept apology and stop fighting on day 3. I felt like she would rather break up than spare me. And that is what she did. She texted me back telling me that she wants to move out. I was too tired, for too long. I tried again and again for over a year. I accepted her suggestion that we break up.
- I told mom that we broke up and that her sister will help her move out this weekend. Mom was surprised how fast we were moving, but I told her she has been repeatedly telling me she wants to move out since last year and each time she made such fast plans quite readily. I too need time to heal. She and I discussed flying me over to Korea. I told her I will make a decision on which date to fly out and then let her know.
- I immediately felt much better after breaking up with Jinjoo. Jinjoo the girlfriend can hurt me emotionally deeply. But Tran is a nobody to me. I have a very clear sense of who are in my circle and who are not. And now that she is not somebody in my circle, I am not bothered at all by her. But I am aware that humans go through stages of grief, and I may be in denial right now. And I might get struck by waves of deep sadness that might even cause migraine on me. So I will take it easy for the next several days.
- I drove to Stanford. Visited Green Library. Recollected this week. I finished catching up on writing records into the green embroidered diary. I wanted to give it as a gift to Jinjoo on Y3 or if we get married. But I guess this will be our break up gift.
- I decided to fly out of USA and head home to Korea as soon as I finish filing taxes. I will return in time to figure out apartment lease.
- While I was working at the library, Jinjoo texted me telling me she tried to sleep but woke up with a heartache. We chatted. Eventually, I found out that she was angry at me, not because of food comment, but because she was not able to celebrate yesterday with me. I am still not sure about her own analysis of the situation. I think had I apologized about yesterday on top of food comments, she would have come up with another point to be angry about. I am not sure. I am once again having some sympathy. I see how someone who was unable to celebrate her own birthday, Y30 birthday too, might have felt very sad. But I should not forgive her. A man must keep his promise even if he finds out that he made a wrong promise, because losing trust is often more dangerous than the wrong thing itself. And she also has been committing this repeatedly. She told me she is going to move out again. What do I do. I know I am only getting myself into more pain. Should I give her one more chance and go back on the break-up conversation? Okay. It is 10PM right now. I will work until 11PM. If I still feel like I want to give her one more chance, I will give her one more chance, and go back on breaking up with her.
- I texted her at 11PM. I explained to her that I do not go back on words, and that a man must usually stick to the words even if he finds out too late that he was wrong to say something in the first place, because the cost of being wrong is often outweighed by the cost of losing trust that he always sticks to his words, so I am conflicted. But I told her I am willing to consider going back on my words and un-do the break-up, since I feel bad that the uncovered reason was that she was sad about not feeling celebrated for her 30th birthday. I told her I will consider the break-up to have never happened if she agrees to a term. I told her that I do not want to do anything for her family this week, I do not want to see her younger sister when she visits, and whereas I am willing to share the cost of preparing arrangements such that her sister or I will sleep outside of our home, I do not want to be the one solely paying for the cost. And I explained to her I feel somewhat bad for imposing this, especially because her younger sister herself did not do anything wrong, but despite considering the measure slightly too cruel for me to feel comfort, I still decided to impose the term because I feared without such punishment, her brain will end up learning that she can just bring up break-up without significant cost. She agreed to the terms. I decided to forgive her this once.
- I departed Stanford at midnight, purchased a Lao Gan Ma hot chili sauce at Safeway, returned home. Jinjoo cooked mapo tofu with scallops.

### 25.02.19

- Woke up. Suggested to Jinjoo that we go visit Filori. I was scared and distressed about not feeling confident in how to celebrate birthday well.
- We visited Vons Chicken for lunch. It was delicious!
- After lunch, we stopped by Mountain View downtown to get 2 cups of boba at Happy Lemon. On me. Jinjoo liked the bobas today! Roasted tea like Hojicha and boba was cooked just right, not too soft.
- We visited Filori estate. It is a big mansion constructed a hundred years ago. We had fun checking out rooms and items and taking photos and videos. I liked the house too but I really liked the outside garden where I can see far too the mountains and there are no other houses or any other buildings in vicinity. I could smell flowers and hear birds chirp and that was it. No cars. No cityscape. No other houses. It was like the estate was the only place in exsitence from there to the distant mountains. Absolutely peaceful. I aspire to have a home like this one day. Secluded in peace not just inside but even to the distance that senses can sense. We saw daffodils which are narcissus flowers and hyacinth. (We ended up getting into Filori for free. As soon as we arrived, I looked everywhere from the first building the visitor center and the mansion’s front door to find where I can buy a ticket, but I was unable to find a ticket office anywhere. While trying to find the ticket office, we ended up seeing all the mansion and the garden!)
- On our way back, we stopped by Barnes and Noble bookstore, because I wanted to buy Jinjoo a coloring book on which she can use the art supplies set she got gifted by her older sister today. She chose one that taught her how to draw cute food characters.
- At home, we unboxed her Valentine’s Day gift for me. It was a photo book that she had spent 15H+ preparing. It was romantic and touching.
- We relaxed in the hot pool spa in the apartment complex. After returning home, she let me use the shower first. We ate mapo tofu for dinner, then watched Ne Zha the movie. The movie was very fun.
- At night, I asked her about weekend plan. I once again thought that it might be too cruel to her and her sister to be asking for making arrangements such that I do not have to be a part of her family affairs this weekend, but I once again decided to follow through especially to make sure she does not lightly bring up break-up again in the future. She told me she looked into her hotel chain points and can book 4 nights for me at Carmel. I expected I will take home and her sister will get somewhere else, so I was stunned initially, but I came to accept that not just because I had asked for it but also because I could see she took the care to look into locations like Carmel, which I like and I cherish as our date spot, so that I can use it as a vacation as well. Then I had an idea and asked her how far the hotel chain points go, and she told me she can use it at any branch in the chain. I found that they have a location near Yosemite.

### 25.02.20

- She woke up little after sunrise due to allergy, and I woke up as well. I told her to relax in the living room while I disinfect the bedroom for her. I cleaned thoroughly, vacuuming with the dust mite vacuum which uses sound at certain frequency and UV light and vibration to kill and shake off dust mites, I also sprayed disinfecting alcohol on it and shook it many times, and ventilated the room, and vacuumed one more time. While cleaning, discovered that the Daiso spray pump part fits the Costco alcohol bottle perfectly, so there is no need to pour the alcohol from Costco bottle to the Daiso bottle. I revealed this amazing discovery to her and she was amazed too. Haha. It was a funny moment.
- She booked the hotel for me, and we called the hotel to add me as an additional guest so that I can check-in without her at the hotel. I waited for the Yosemite National Park entrance pass reservation to open, because government blocks guests without reservations this weekend in order to control crowd traffic during the popular Firefall days. The tickets were to be released at 8AM. I tried at 7:59AM to confirm that tickets are not released in advance. Failed. At 8AM, I tried again, and the site told me there are too many customers, and failed. I immediately closed the app, re-opened it, tried again, and failed again. I tried one more time, and one ticket was added to the cart, so I rushed and skipped over the long text the site told me to read carefully, and got the ticket. The tickets were sold out in seconds. Later, I got an email informing me that “1 ticket” was made available, and that 3996 other individuals are also trying to get the ticket.
- I planned out then invited Jinjoo to take a train to come meet me at Fresno on Monday. I can come pick her up, then take her to Yosemite so that we can see the Firefall together. It can be an amazing way to celebrate her 30th birthday.
- I went on a stroll, called mom, told her about everything that happened and will happen this week. What a week.
- Washed dishes and cooked food while Jinjoo was working in the common room. Worked on marketing with Lacasa. After Jinjoo returned, ate dinner and watched Jiang Zi Ya. Ran to a grocery store to buy cup noodles as emergency food for Yosemite. After returning home, I packed for the trip. After packing, I spent some time with Jinjoo. Then I tried to fall asleep, but I was too excited to sleep.

### 25.02.21

- I was too excited to fall asleep, so I left bed, sat on living room sofa, and read a book for awhile. Read Bill Gates autobiography, then returned to bed.
- In the morning, Jinjoo cooked dumpling ramen for breakfast for me, and saw me depart. I started driving at 10AM.
- I am a little bit scared about traveling alone. What if something happened to me while I am in the hotel alone or what if car gets trapped in snow while I am in the mountains? Well, the latter may happen even if I am not alone, but at least the problem will be fought by 2 brains. And what if I get lonely? I don’t know how some people choose to travel alone. Haha. That’s what my mom said to Jinjoo when Jinjoo told my mom Jinjoo wants to travel Maldives or places like that alone regularly in her life even in the future.
- I packed 1) an entire insulated grocery bag with food, 2) an entire backpack with things I may need in nature, 3) an entire briefcase hand bag with things I will need for work, 4) one full carry-on luggage, and 5) two full check-in luggages. Jinjoo thought it was funny, so she took a photo of me on my way out with the bags.
- Stopped by Gilroy for gas, restroom, and coffee.
- It has been such a long time since I was able to look so far, to focus my eyes on something far like distant mountains. I am so happy.
- Drove from Gilroy to Merced. During the drive, encountered a beautiful lake called San Luis reservoir. The place looked like heaven. Soft round hills look like Okanogan, but these hills are lush green. I parked car and ran up a hill to see the beautiful place. I am living the time of my life. Woohoo!
- Stopped by Merced for gas, restroom, lunch.
- Departed to Yosemite. Called parents on my way. Dad says he will gift me a Galaxy S25 Ultra.
- Got to Yosemite National Park. Purchased an America the Beautiful pass. The ranger at the ticket station was very kind.
- I arrived at Yosemite Valley an hour early, yet parking lots were full. I circled the road loop once and then parked at the start of the loop at the first empty slot off the street. It was about 20 minutes on foot away from El Capitan Picnic Area. There were spots where people were gathering. I studied cameras they were holding and followed the herd with the best cameras and I did in fact successfully get to an open area with a great view of the waterfall. I positioned myself and by that I mean I just sat down next to a tree where I was not bothering nor bothered by anyone else. I still had about 30 minutes left, so I read Steve Jobs biography.
- I saw the firefall. I have never seen anything like this. When I first got to El Capitan, I saw the waterfall, but I was not sure if that was the one, because it was so small. It was so far and so small. No wonder the photos on the internet did not have any people standing in front of it. The photos must have been zoomed in a lot. I wondered whether I should tell Jinjoo to abort the plan to come see firefall, because the waterfall was so small. I feared it would be very disappointing to spend that many hours coming all the way here just to see such a tiny waterfall perhaps get a little bit red for couple minutes. But when I saw the actual firefall, it was magical, precisely because the waterfall was so small. As the sunset time neared, the entire Yosemite Valley, not just El Capitan, darkened. Shadow was upon the mountains to the left and to the right, upon the trees, upon everywhere, upon the people, upon me. It got cold within mere minutes. Sun shone a bright white circle over the area including the waterfall on El Capitan, and it was the only shone area in all of the valley. Then it spot got more and more concentrated, becoming more and more red, until it became a single laser point, fully red, and it pointed exactly on that waterfall. The entire world got dark, and the waterfall was lit up red by the sun. How was this possible? The snow had to fall on El Capitan over the winter, accumulating, then melt at this time at the end of the winter, and the stream of water had to flow down the rock at that spot making a small temporary waterfall, and at that season the Sun had to set at this angle such that the exact location of the waterfall was shone and nowhere else in the valley. For the ray of sunlight to hit that small waterfall, it must be like for me to throw a dart at a dot that is 1 kilometer away from me accurately, if not more difficult than that. The alignment of all those factors created this miracle which was the firefall, an appearance of a luminous stream of fire lighting up the majestic rock just with its own light as it falls. Wow. I still cannot believe I saw what I saw tonight. What a magical night it was today.
- Before sunset, I considered spending another hour after sunset at the El Capitan picnic area reading a book so that I can drive comfortably without getting trapped in crowd traffic. But the place got cold a lot after sunset and the crowd included many children and old people who were moving slowly, so I decided it will be better for me and better for them for me to move out fast first. I intended to move car to Ahwahnee Hotel to wait for the crowd to leave Yosemite National Park, check out souvenir shop, and check night sky so that I can decide whether to bring Jinjoo there or not on Monday night after I show her the firefall. But I took a wrong turn and ended up placing myself on road out of the park. It was a fortunate mistake, because I soon started feeling very tired. After all, not only did I drive a lot today, I also did not sleep a lot yesterday. I drove in darkness for 2 hours towards Oakhurst. The drive was more tiring than fun at this point. A task I had to finish so that I can get to sweet rest. Every minute felt like a chore, especially since I did not have any internet connection, no way to contact loved ones, for most of the 2H drive. But I made it safely to Oakhurst eventually.
- Checked in at the hotel. The receptionist was a kind young man. Judging based on his voice, I think he is the one who picked up my call yesterday and helped me fix reservation such that I can check in on my own without having Jinjoo here. He was very kind in person too, and wasted no time in checking me in. He guided me to a room with a king-size bed on the top floor as Jinjoo had booked for me, and explained to me how to connect to the free internet and where to go tomorrow morning for free breakfast. As soon as I got to my room, I showered. I was not able to hold on any longer. I was totally out of energy. I was also starving. As soon as I finished taking the shower, I pulled out a cup noodle and cooked it with a microwave, and pulled out the salad I had purchased from Costco earlier today, and ate on desk. It was delicious. I felt fantastic. A long day of traveling, seeing so much of the world, such beautiful places in California, San Luis reservoir the beautiful lake, the road towards Yosemite where Sierra-Nevada mountain range looked like a gigantic wave inland, and of course Yosemite. This hotel is really nice too. No frills. Clean enough. Quiet enough. Enough amenities. Cup noodle may not be the healthiest food in the world, but it is cheap, delicious, and perfectly convenient, especially at the end of a full day like today. And, as long as I also eat protein and fiber like I did with the Costco chicken salad, eating like this will supply enough nutrition to my body at least until the end of this fun weekend trip. Everything is fantastic. I am super satisfied. I texted Jinjoo that I have made it safely to the hotel along with fantastic reviews for the amazing Yosemite firefall, then I gave my parents a call to tell them about the amazing Yosemite firefall. I told them I will not call for too long today so that I can sleep now then wake up in time for hotel breakfast. I considered visiting Kings Canyon National Park or Sequoia National Park tomorrow, but I decided to go back to Yosemite after conversing with ChatGPT about the options and finding out that Yosemite is the better destination during winter season. I will go back to Yosemite tomorrow as soon as I wake up. And for tonight, I will sleep.

### 25.02.22

- Woke up. Texted Jinjoo. She booked the train ticket to come over on Monday. She will arrive at Fresno near noon. I will pick her up, then drive back to Oakhurst, then in to Yosemite. Woohoo! Ate breakfast at the next door hotel.
- Black Nike shoes, black Levi’s jeans, dark gray Bean Pole shirt and dark gray Pebble Beach jacket. I am ready to depart hotel. Packed books and notebook for reading and writing in my Montblanc briefcase hand bag. Usually, a hand bag is not what I carry to a national park. But today, I plan to hang out in the Ahwahnee hotel, and the Yosemite Valley village area, surrounded by nature, but focusing on text.
- Got to Tunnel View at 11AM. Read Steve Jobs biography. Ambience was serene, but the book’s content mentioned drugs too many times to be a joyful read. I am just disgusted by use of substance to alter mind (aka easy happiness). I think I am going to start telling people I lost a friend while in college due to him using drugs so that I can escape the use and the discussion of drugs. Left Tunnel View Vista Point near noon.
- Drove to Yosemite Valley. Parked at Yosemite Lodge. Purchased a note card with a painting of Firefall to write a Happy Birthday letter for Jinjoo. Purchased a bear paw patch with name and painting of Yosemite.
- Ate lunch at Ahwahnee meadow which is also the nearest free parking lot to Ahwahnee Hotel. Just a sandwich I packed from city, but it was good enough as a side dish to the actual main meal which was the grand sight of the Yosemite mountains.
- Californians are obnoxious in comparison to Americans I encountered in mountains in Washington state. Koreans dislike obnoxious people. I hate obnoxious people. Obnoxity means harming others. Good people make sure that other people are not harmed by them. Obnoxious people spill harm on senses of others be it distracting sight, sound, smell. Extending unsightly sight, noisy sound, unpleasant smell beyond boundaries of personal space is no different from invading the sense of touch of another by extending a fist beyond the boundaries of one’s own space.
- Visited Ahwahnee Hotel. 2:30PM. At the gift shop, purchased a small black leather cross bag featuring an Ahwahnee logo brass charm zipper handle crafted by a local artisan. Made a reservation for Monday dinner. Sat down on a sofa where I can see Half Dome well. Read Steve Jobs biography. Wrote a happy birthday letter for Jinjoo. Took a nap. Read Bill Gates biography.
- Reading Steve Jobs biography and Bill Gates biography side by side was interesting. Steve Jobs grew up under poor parents, in California. Bill Gates grew up under rich parents, in Seattle. In both books, Sputnik happens, then US establishes NASA, ARPA, and Jobs parents take Jobs to California NASA where he sees a computer, and Gates parents take Gates to Seattle Expo where he sees a computer.
- It was great to be inside Ahwahnee. Unlike outside, obnoxity was suppressed. Most followed rules. One white woman put her feet on a table, and a staff appeared within minutes to ask her not to (politely such that the woman would not be angered.)
- At 5:30PM, sun started setting. I could come back to Ahwahnee immediately, but for now, I had to go back to my car to get my shearling jacket before it gets really cold outside very soon. I was also feeling ready for dinner which was also in my car. I went to the front desk and checked that shuttle bus keeps operating even during firefall hours, then strolled back to the car. I called parents at the meadow while eating dinner. Stars appeared as sky became blue then black. I told parents I will start driving back to the hotel since I feel energetic now but may not be feeling so energetic later on.
- After returning to the hotel, I called parents, texted Jinjoo, and recorded today in diary.

### 25.02.23

- Woke up after 10 hours of sleep. Showered. Tidied room and called in room cleaning.
- Ate lunch at Subway then packed another sandwich to go. Fueled car. Grabbed a cup of matcha latte at Starbucks. Entered Yosemite. At the ticket station, the car in front begged, but was ultimately rejected entry for not having a reservation.
- Felt sleepy. Stopped by Wawona Hotel and took a nap in car.
- Got to Ahwahnee at 2:30PM. Wrote a letter for Jinjoo so that I can give it to her tomorrow during dinner as a romantic surprise. Read Bill Gates biography. All weekend, I have been in various rooms in Ahwahnee, reading in the Great Lounge and the Winter Club Room, writing in the Solarium, strolling nearby trails, and did not encounter anyone using Ahwahnee amenities as much as myself. Seems like people who pay are not necessarily people who use the most.
- Today was another peaceful day, but I am starting to feel bored alone, somewhat lonely. I think the amount of solitude I can enjoy time to time is just a weekend at current stage in life.
- Left Ahwahnee at 7PM. During drive, finished listening to Benjamin Franklin biography audiobook. Reached Oakhurst at 8:30PM. Ate sandwich with noodle. Showered. Texted Jinjoo.
- Found out that Ahwahnee dinner buffet reviews are terrible. Kitchen is under construction for renovation, so food is not good. Discovered that Sonoma County is hosting its restaurant week this week. Reserved a fine dining restaurant called Hazel Hill at a resort called Montage. Contacted Jinjoo and explained to her the situation. Hated to break the surprise, but I needed her input since it will be a celebration for her birthday!

### 25.02.24

- Woke up only after 6H of sleep but I was not able to fall back asleep despite eyes hurting. After an hour of wasting time in bed, decided to just get up and start the day. Showered. Called hotel to send in room cleaning.
- Drove to Vons grocery store. Fueled car. Bought a bottle of Coca-Cola, salad, and sandwiches. And ate a sandwich on car trunk at the parking lot. Revisited Safeway and purchased a bottle of barbecue sauce and it enhanced sandwich greatly.
- Drove to Fresno. Picked up Jinjoo at the Amtrak train station. Visited Starbucks and picked up matcha latte. Drove to Oakhurst.
- At Oakhurst, went up to the hotel room to change into nice clothes. Drove into Yosemite.
- Stopped by Wawona Hotel. Drove on.
- Told Jinjoo to start recording camera just before entering the tunnel for the Tunnel View so that she can get a great recording. At the Tunnel View, we took photos.
- Stopped by Yosemite Village Welcome Center briefly, but drove on.
- Parked car at Ahwahnee meadow. Strolled to the Ahwahnee hotel. Checked out gift shop, Great Lounge, Solarium. Showed her the view of Half Dome from inside the hotel.
- Returned to car. Drove to El Capitan Picnic Area. Visitors were few, not only because weekend was over but also because weather forecast showed cloudy weather. In fact, the sky has been cloudy all day. On a positive note, park opened roads and parking lots that had been blocked off during the crowded weekend, so we were able to park inside the El Capitan picnic area and not walk at all. But I was worried that we will probably not get to see firefall today since during the drive today, I saw that cloud was covering California even at the far distances I could see on my way into the valley. I warned her, and the man standing behind us also remarked that he has traveled across the world and yet failed to see firefall for 5 years in a row. But Jinjoo told me she trusts my luck. And indeed, just 15 minutes before the sunset, the sky cleared, lighting up the firefall. It was magical. It was miraculous. It was romantic. She and I enjoyed a picnic dinner during the wait, then got busy exclaiming and recording during the firefall. She was happy, and I was happy that she was happy.
- We returned to Ahwahnee. I handed her the card I had written yesterday. We sat down in Solarium, the middle table where I had written the letter, and I recorded her reading the letter with teary eyes. By the way, I found out that the solarium becomes a panopticon at night. We enjoyed reading books, but her energy was running low already, so we did not stay there for too long. We visited the Sweet Shop, and she bought me a can of coffee to help me wake up for the drive.
- On our way back, we strolled under the stars. We stood outside the hotel at the bridge and saw a shooting star and we made a wish: “우리 오래오래 함께 하자”. We admired the stars on our way back to the car, at the Ahwahnee meadow too.
- Stopped by the parking lot at the Tunnel View. Tried to take photos of the stars, but camera was not able to capture the beautiful sky. She told me she wants to paint this view once she is back home.
- We ate cup noodles for dinner after returning to the hotel room.

### 25.02.25

- Woke up at 9AM after getting a nice 8H of sleep. I did get woken up by dry air yet again tonight, so I guess I was not able to get a comfortable continuous sleep on any night during my stay here in the mountains. I look forward to getting enough rest after returning home.
- We showered, packed, then checked out of the hotel. Picked up matcha latte at Starbucks, fueled car at Vons grocery store, then departed Oakhurst.
- Listened to Acquired podcast episode on Rolex during the drive. Ate lunch at Denny’s at Madera. Price was great and taste was great. Departed again. Saw many yellow flowers on the green rolling hills. At Gilroy, stopped by a fruit stand where Jinjoo purchased two dozen dollars amount of food.
- At home, rested for about an hour, including shower. Then we departed to Stanford where Jinjoo had to be at for a professional networking event. Tresidder parking lot was full, so I parked in front of Cantor Arts Center and waited for her resting in Bender Room.
- I worked on marketing in Bender Room.
- Returned to car. Moved car to near Ricker dining hall. Entered Ricker dining hall telling them that I am there for the Energy alumni event. I sat upstairs and ate food. Wow, it was so delicious. I had not realized how delicious Stanford dining is. Actually, now that I recall, I think I considered it to be super delicious even back when I was a student. I cleared 5 full plates of food. I am pretty sure this food was better than Ahwahnee dining. After her event ended, Jinjoo came upstairs and ate dinner too.
- I was greatly disappointed to hear that Jinjoo had forgotten that she was taken to fine-dining restaurants during business trips while working for her former employer. In fact, she suspected she was taken to Montage. I was disappointed because I had reserved Montage Hazel Hill specifically because she told me multiple times over the past 2 years that she has not had fine-dining experiences and therefore I thought the expensive meal was worth the price for the special memory. But I felt like now the specialness was ripped out of the story. I asked her, practically begged her, to come up with a good story so that I can feel good, but she is not the most romantic person nor the most talented in coming up with romantic narratives so I was not able to feel better.

### 25.02.26

- Had multiple nightmares about fine dining and woke up at dawn just like in recent nights at Oakhurst and had difficulty falling back asleep.
- Woke up in the afternoon. Showered slowly. Ate slowly. Watched TV. Relaxed in bed. Relaxed in apartment pool hot spa. Jinjoo checked photos and confirmed that she has never been to Montage. I felt better.
- Jinjoo cooked aglio e olio for dinner.
- Jinjoo made pandan oat milk using Monin Sirop. It was good.
- Watched Ne Zha 2 at AMC Mercado. The movie was great! Great design!

### 25.02.27

- Woke up at 8AM to shower to go to haircut.
- At the haircut, chatted with hair designer. He dislikes dealing with rude selfish customers such as those who make tens of reservations then only show up to one. It was a fun chat.
- Returned home. Jinjoo was still asleep. I read Bill Gates biography, read news, and put away cleaned dishes. Jinjoo woke up. I folded laundry and cleaned bed.
- Ate lunch. Watched OEY Marriage Report. Worked on marketing.
- Visited Costco to fuel car. Visited Cupertino Library. Called mom briefly. Studied taxes.
- Jinjoo tickled my neck during work once and she hurt herself bumping her nose into my head when I twitched as instinctive reaction. The distraction from tickling feeling lasted a long time. I need to find a place to work that is safe from her distractions. After the tickle, I even felt a pain in my neck that spreaded to both of my shoulders. Even my arms were feeling a little numb. The pain concentrated in right upper arm. I was unable to work anymore. I gave up on working and sat down on a sofa to read. The pain was ongoing even 50 minutes after the incident. I’m getting quite angry as the pain grows that I have been doing so much to elevate her productivity especially in response to her own unfair inaccurate accusations that I hurt her productivity in the past, and she has smashed my productivity like this. I felt better after 60 minutes.
- Filed company tax to State of Delaware.
- Shopped grocery at Costco in Mountain View.
- Ate dinner at home. I felt sleepy so ended day after dinner. Did not feel sleepy after going to bed, so got up, washed dishes.
- Submitted FinCEN BOI.

### 25.02.28

- Got woken up in the morning, before 8AM, because she was trying to hug me. I had barely gotten 6H of sleep. I stormed out of the bedroom angrily. I think I do so much for her productivity, but the other way is not true. I will deliver my complaint in House Meeting.
- Wrote opening for 25.02 House Meeting and delivered to her. I pointed out how her productivity has been hurt by her and not by me and how in reverse my productivity has been indeed hurt by her, not to blame her, but to tell her that I do not blame her (though it would be correct for me to do so) yet she has blamed me (though it has been incorrect for her to do so). She was angry for an hour, but we made up before departing to Sonoma.
- She stayed awake during the entire drive to Sonoma. We listened to Acquired podcast Rolex episode.
- We visited a winery called Francis Ford Coppola Winery. It belonged to Francis Ford Coppola who was the director of the movie Godfather. The place was beautiful with a swimming pool and a view of distant mountains.
- I got to experience the epitome of luxury service at the Montage resort. From the main gate, the resort lobby was about a mile in. Valet parking staff approached me and greeted me. I told them I am here to dine at Hazel Hill, and they asked me for my name, then promised me they will park my car safely in the parking lot, and drove away.
- I entered the lobby and got greeted by the counter receptionist. I told her I am here early to enjoy the property before dinner, and she told me I can go wherever I want to go, told me where are good places to check out, then asked me whether she may prepare a water bottle for each of us since we may get thirsty during the stroll.
- Whereas the artistic paintings and objects and furnitures must have been nice expensive items too, but what impressed me about the inside was the wide mirror that was maintained perfectly. I approached closely and saw it in different angles, but I was not able to find even a small fingerprint or spot or even dust.
- In the bathroom, they had, not just expensive hand wash and fabric hand towel, but also hand lotion.
- Strolled outside past the grape trees and hotel rooms. Took photos and videos and enjoyed the stroll with Jinjoo. On our way back, a golf cart appeared and offered us a ride. We gratefully took the offer. Jinjoo asked the cart driver how long it takes for a grape tree to grow. The cart driver apologized that he is not sure. At the lobby building, another staff member explained to her that it takes 3 years for a grape tree to bear grapes that are delicious enough to be in wine.
- It seems like Montage invites a local wine maker every Friday. Today, a winery called The Setting visited. The wine maker gave us glasses of Cabernet Sauvignon red wine from her Alexander Valley winery, then explained to us the taste. I looked up later, and a single bottle of that red wine was priced at over $200.
- With the glasses of wine, we sat down on a sofa at the outdoor terrace and read books while looking at the scenery.
- We entered Hazel Hill as opening customers. The hostess greeted us as Mister and Misses Park, and Jinjoo blushed and told her we are not yet married. The hostess congratulated Jinjoo on her 30th birthday. Jinjoo was touched not only by the restaurant, but also by the fact that I had told them in advance about her birthday.
- We were first customers, so we got to choose from all the tables. Waitress congratulated on her birthday, and offered to take photos of us, outside with scenery. After serving each food, waiter also offered to take photo of us again and again. It was nice.
- I noticed the napkin was Frette, then realized they must have selected best products, so I took note of all the products. Robert Welch spoons and forks, New West Knife Works knives, Schott Zwiesel wine glasses, Fortessa water cups. Oh and of course the Gloss Moderne hand wash and hand lotion in the bathroom. Haha.
- The food was fantastic. For appetizer, we both chose Cellery Root Soup with Parsley, Apple, Truffle. For main entre, we both chose Braised Lamb Shank with Marble Potatoes, Cippolini Onions, Carrots. For dessert, I chose Chocolate & Orange Blossom Crémeux with Kasha Croustillant, Chestnut Mousse, Rosemary Anglaise, and I chose for her Pear & Plantain Sorbet with Caramelized Oats, Pear Gelée, Pear Williamine Sauce, and her dessert was more delicious than mine.
- On way out, the hostess saw us departing and once again congratulated Jinjoo on her 30th birthday. Jinjoo was touched that they remembered her by face. We strolled a little at the resort, then departed to return home.
- It was a fantastic night. I think I did a great job celebrating Jinjoo’s 30th birthday. I gifted her a matcha kit set, took her to Filoli mansion, took her to Yosemite where we saw Firefall and Ahwahnee, took her to Sonoma Valley where we saw Copolla Winery and Montage Resort and dined fine dining at the Hazel Hill restaurant. In dollar amounts, I spent on her $75 for matcha kit set gift, $12 for a coloring book gift, $150 for car fuel during Yosemite trip (I paid all on my own), $80 for America the Beautiful pass for National Parks, $37 for her train ticket for Yosemite trip, $150 for fine dining at Hazel Hill, $25 for Golden Gate Bridge toll, so even if I do not count the shared expenses incurred during activities I did in celebration of her birthday such as shared gas prices and my movie ticket or the time and energy I spent such as during driving, I spent about $529 to celebrate her birthday. Wow… But she wanted to break up due to us failing to celebrate her 30th birthday sufficiently, so I guess this was a necessary expense.### 25.03.01

- Departed home in the morning to work productively at a good workspace during the day.
- Visited Whole Foods. Purchased 24 oz of coffee beans at $24. Visited Santa Clara City Library.
- Added “Practice Memory Skills” target to Y29 Plan. Recently, I have been feeling like my memory skills have become dull, because I have not been using memory skills as often as during school years. I want to recover memory skills.
- Worked on writing 몬타지 episode for Seelog D106C.
- Returned home. Called parents during stroll at park. Told them about Rolex story. Ate dinner at home. Jinjoo was happy and offered to wash dishes for me.
- Bathed. Sat on sofa and finished reading Bill Gates biography. Studied news.

### 25.03.02

- Visited Stanford. Ate lunch at Tresidder Union. Worked in Lane Reading Room at Green Library. Read Four Seasons founder autobiography. Ideated Firefall profiles to be operated along with Lacasa.
- Made ChatGPT generate an exam with 100 questions on the Benjamin Franklin biography I listened to while driving Yosemite. I got about 90% correct. But the exam was too long. Next time, I will make exams contain 50 questions. It felt nice to exercise the semantic memory skill though.
- Left library at 5PM for a dinner break. Ended up departing Stanford campus.
- Ate dinner. Exercised at fitness center.
- Prepared 18 profiles for Firefall Marketing Campaign. I will run them one by one, then automate locally before end of fiscal year.

### 25.03.03

- Visited Sunnyvale downtown to discover and assess residence candidates. Made appointments at The Martin and The Flats. They are promising so far.
- Visited Mountain View Library to work. Called mom before entering the library.
- Finished reviewing last month and planning this month.
- Finished recording notes from Benjamin Franklin biography by Walter Isaacson.
- Edited Tasks D103C to be a Board view (as opposed to List view).
- Visited Costco for grocery shopping. Jinjoo let me wait in the car. Felt light sensitivity. Rest was useful.
- After returning home, subscribed to ChatGPT Pro using sisterlacasa email address. Generate and posted a post on Lacasa profile.
- Ate dinner. Exercised at the fitness center.
- Studied biography of Isadore Sharp (Four Seasons founder).
- Tried to transcribe my notes from Bill Gates biography paper book using ChatGPT but failed. Will try again tomorrow night.
- I wanted to go to sleep feeling peaceful, but Jinjoo attacked me when I entered bedroom. Touch was brief, but I was suffocated with such immense physiological discomfort that I had to leave bedroom immediately and focus for 30 minutes on recovering from the negativity. I rested alone in darkness in living room on sofa. I felt better after 30 minutes. But not before.

### 25.03.04

- Sent a message to OpenAI Customer Support again demanding them to give me a full refund instead of partial refund. I used ChatGPT to draft the message.
- Ate brunch. Spent time together with Jinjoo.
- OpenAI support team decided to agree to the full refund demand.
- Visited Foster City Library to check out the workspace. Recorded Rolex notes.
- Traveled to Stanford to get a microwave to heat up our lunch. Jinjoo was not feeling productive at Foster City anyway. Drank Lavender Matcha at Starbucks, then ate lunch in Old Union.
- Worked at Green Library. Studied Isadore Sharp biography (Four Seasons founder).
- Set up databases for Firefall Marketing FY3 S2 campaign. Planning and monitoring tasks have become much easier.
- Renamed FY3 S2 LACASA plans to Firefall plans. Explained why I am using the name “Firefall”. (See Firefall Enterprise Plan FY3 S2).
- Finished 25.02 House Meeting Finances.
- Returned home. I washed dishes and cleaned bed. Jinjoo cooked dinner. Ate dinner. Posted about asparagus on Lavita and Lacasa.

### 25.03.05

- Assessed The Martin apartment at Sunnyvale. Did not like any units.
- Ate lunch at Whole Foods.
- Assessed The Flats apartment at Sunnyvale Cityline. We liked the first floor unit (crosswalk) and the second floor unit (triangular). (Francis Santos. Email: fsantos@sares-regis.com)
- Assessed Santa Clara Square apartment. Similar to when I visited it two years ago, Jinjoo had a terrible experience due to their self-guide app failing miserably. She got so tired that we just left property without completing the tour.
- Returned home. Let Jinjoo rest. I went on a stroll at the nearby park and called mom. Told her about planned Firefall profiles.
- Posted a short video about Ocean Stamp Samadhi on Dalani profile for Firefall Marketing.
- During shower, suggested to her that we paint art for fun tonight. I was excited, but I found her on a phone call with her family in Seattle when I came out of shower. I waited for her patiently, but the call went on for another 45 minutes. I lost energy and interest during the wait. I was frustrated. I stayed in bed and she also fell asleep.
- At night, she woke up. I offered to give her a massage for 10 minutes. I did so out of kindness although my own wrist was experiencing pain. After massage, I just mentioned to her that I gave her a massage although my wrist hurts. A perfect lover would have offered to massage my wrist to ease pain. A normal lover would have thanked me for giving her a massage despite the pain I was experiencing myself. An acceptable lover would have expressed emotional empathy for my pain. She told me “It must be because you were holding your phone in bed. No more phone for you.” I felt miserable to be in my position.

### 25.03.06

- Told Jinjoo I have low energy today and therefore I will stay home and do chores while she studies productively outside. It was a kind offer from me.
- Woke up before Jinjoo did. Showered. Disinfected bathroom. Washed dishes. Did homemaking for 1H and then brewed a cup of coffee and sat down at the dining table to take a break. Jinjoo saw me resting and asked me to go wash the blankets. I told her I will do it after break. She told me, with a frowning face and tired voice, that she will go do it herself since the blanket takes all day to be washed. I protested I had spent a whole hour doing chores and was just taking a short break. I recessed to my desk to be able to rest. I had been doing homemaking chores today for longer than she has been awake.
- With Jinjoo. Ate lunch together. Spent time together. She left home to go exercise at the fitness center. Cleaned bathroom. Washed dishes. Rested on sofa reading Isadore Sharp biography.
- Posted a video about Starry Night by Van Gogh as Delmoma.
- Jinjoo was put in a good mood after I had spent time with her and when she was leaving home. But she came home once again with a tired face. I had been working well on Firefall videos. I offered to show her but she told me she is too tired to see. So I did not. During dinner, she returned to good mood. We chatted and I showed her videos and all were good. Then after dinner, I returned to desk to work. She wanted to take the standing lamp from living room to bedroom. I explained to her I need it since I cannot work with direct lights, but she was angered and she had a tired face again. I lost all energy instantly too. I took a bath but mood did not get better. If anything, seeing her made my head ache. I decided to give up on work tonight. I will rather sleep early and depart home tomorrow to be productive away from her. I consumed a pill of Tylenol to mitigate the headache and headed to bed.

### 25.03.07

- Woke up at 2AM. I was having difficulty falling back asleep. My nose was also feeling itchy. Jinjoo told me to go blow my nose, so I came out, then did not go back into the bedroom.
- Posted a video about Yosemite Bears as Lagasan. Worked on marketing.
- I feel low energy again today. Despite having gone to bed after taking a pill of Tylenol pain killer, I am still suffering from that headache which began after feeling disrespected by Jinjoo yesterday. But I am not sure how much of the cause is her versus other factors like my own tiredness or perhaps even allergens that are not strong enough to be sensed acutely. In any case, I plan to take a light day today. I will focus on: 1) financial chores (review spendings, file taxes), 2) lover records (her bad practices in recent days in Lover Orientation, catch up on Green Diary), 3) rest by studying (record Bill Gates biography, read Isadore Sharp biography). I will try to push off, until tomorrow, 1) company work, 2) housing search, and 3) any writing work (Junwon Seelog, Company Story).
- Went to bed again after 5AM. Woke up near noon. Showered. Invited Jinjoo to a library. She told me she will come. But when I told her I will let her come, she told me she will not come if I do not need her to come. I think she is in that monthly unstable mood period as I suspected. I think it will be better not just for me but also for her for us to spend today separately. Ate salad rapidly, brewed coffee, then departed home.
- Strolled at a nearby park listening to news.
- Visited B&N bookseller. Got inspirations from books then tested OpenAI Sora ability to generate videos on that topic.
- Visited Westfield Valley Fair mall. Called mom and dad during a stroll.
- Worked at Santa Clara City Library. Checked the days that Jinjoo fought with me. It seems like the average incident per day in a month is below 1 for all days except first week of month. It is first week of month right now. Might be a good idea for me to stay away from her for about 3 more days.
- Studied Isadore Sharp biography.
- Left Santa Clara City Library at closing time. Texted Jinjoo wishing her that she is having a great day and informing her that I am returning home for dinner and will be going to Stanford in the evening. Also informed her, with a data visualization graph, that we tended to fight a lot between the third and the eighth of each month, and suggested to her that we mind this especially carefully for the next couple days. She agreed.
- Ate dinner at home. She followed me to Stanford. Green Library closed early, because it is Friday today, so we visited Old Union, but it was too smelly (sweaty) so we left immediately. We visited Lathrop Study Space. Our library card did not get us in, but we slyly followed a kid inside. Haha.
- She will be visiting San Francisco on Saturday (tomorrow), and San Mateo on Sunday, so I will have home both days.
- At Lathrop, checked finances. Started recording Bill Gates biography notes, but decided it will be faster for me to use voice transcription tomorrow while I am home alone.
- Tonight, try to do taxes while preparing for contents to be published in coming days. This weekend, try to finish FY2 Company Story.
- Worked on Firefall. Left Lathrop when Jinjoo told me she wanted to go to a restroom, because Lathrop Study Space had no restroom. Stopped by Old Union. Returned home.
- On our way back home, almost fought with Jinjoo over some trivial topic about business that I cannot even remember already, but told her I do not care about it that much and canceled the fight from happening. Told her that I just have to wait out until Monday since she tends to be all better by 10th of each month.

### 25.03.08

- She woke me up so that I can drive her to the Caltrain station, but she woke me up at 9:45AM instead of 9:30AM as I had asked her to. We ran out of home and I drove as fast as I can without risking safety, but we arrived 1 minute too late. She was frustrated, not at me, but at the situation. I calculated time, then offered to drive her to a Caltrain station where she can get on the exact train she had missed, but she rejected. I calculated time, then offered to drive her all the way to San Francisco, but she rejected again. She told me she is upset, but will get better in a few hours, and told me to go home and rest. So I did return home.
- I had a nice relaxing day. Got a couple more hours of sleep. Enjoyed bath. Enjoyed coffee. Washed dishes. Took out trash. Washed laundry. Ventilated air. Worked on transcribing Bill Gates biography notes.
- She texted me that she is on her way, and suggested that we go buy grocery at grocery stores. She was in a decent mood when I picked her up at the train station. She suggested that we go eat hamburger or fried chicken. I was afraid that we had been eating too unhealthily lately, but I was also afraid she will be angry if I say so, so I offered to her that I cook for her tonight. Her face hardened. We visited Whole Foods and returned items she wanted to return to Amazon. We visited Trader Joe’s. Her facial expression was like a stone and I was terrified, so I suggested to her that she shop comfortably at her own pace while I go get ingredients for my envisioned soup. I got to breathe a little while hiding away from her. She was still in a bad mood by time we left Trader Joe’s. We visited Safeway to buy sausage. She was suddenly in a good mood. Then we visited Hankook Market. She entered with a pretty good mood, and was in a good mood for 99% of time, but she was in a bad mood again by time we were departing. Her mood changes are crazy and driving nearby people crazy. I knew to be careful when I was leaving home to go pick her up, yet I was not only super tired but also pretty frustrated by time we were driving back home.
- At home, I cooked dinner: wine soup, brussels sprouts, and soya. She was in a good mood after dinner.
- At night, she felt an intense pain in her lower left belly. She rested in bed in pain. I searched for information using GPT and my own past diary records. I found that she had a similar pain in her lower left belly exactly 6 months ago. I started suspecting more strongly that she is strongly impacted by monthly cycles.

### 25.03.09

- After waking up, tried to put away food we left on the dining table. Then dropped and spilled So Ya. So sad. Had to spend 30 minutes cleaning up.
- Studied Isadore Sharp biography.
- Cleaned dishes and cooked for Jinjoo since she is unwell. I asked OpenAI GPT to review cyclical changes in Jinjoo’s mood and condition from my diary records, and it told me 1) it sees cyclical pattern, 2) her mood becomes unstable during the two typical “hormonal hot zones” each month, and 3) she is predicted to have periods between day 15 and day 13 of each month, and have unstable mood near day 28 and day 8 of each month.
- Finished reading Isadore Sharp biography.
- Fought with Jinjoo. She stormed out and took an Uber to Cindy’s.
- For residence search, I found neighborhoods with fitness classes and public libraries for Jinjoo. Called mom. Finished recording notes from Bill Gates biography.
- I texted her to make sure that she is safe and okay, told her that I will keep phone unmuted so she can call me anytime if anything happens, then went to bed early.
- I heard her return but remained asleep. She was on bed on her phone. I woke up in middle of night to go to the restroom. I saw she had sent me text messages after returning home. It seems like she had a decent time with her friends. Her text messages mostly refuted my points, but at least logically, rather than emotionally, and she ultimately showed willingness to prioritize housing search by choosing not to keep engaging in an emotional cold war. I responded calmly to most points, but I got really upset at the last point.
- I did not feel any anger while reading all her seemingly unrelated complaints. But the one complaint that broke me was her complaint that she has been unhappy and uncomfortable and unproductive at home, because she had to keep home dark for me due to my migraine. I tried to write a response calmly, but I was so upset, I broke down in tears. I was not able to stop crying. Tears, mucus, it was messy. She heard me and came out to the living room. I excused myself and went to the bathroom and washed face but my jaws were trembling uncontrollably. She was at the door, so I pleaded to her that I need to drink some water. I cried uncontrollably for several more minutes, then I felt blank. She asked me to feel better and asked me what she can do to make me feel better, but I was already feeling nothing. Absolute peace. No anger. No sadness. While crying, I was just thinking about how I wished to be not here, then I felt like I was not here anymore. I felt comfortable while staring blankly into the distance space, towards but beyond the bedroom ceiling. The only distraction was her voice telling me to please blink because she is scared. I felt like I did not matter to me, she did not matter to me, that neither of us mattered more to me than did any other random person living somewhere else in this world. I thought about Yosemite and I could vividly remember the view from the valley and the view of the valley under the stars. It was beautiful. She asked me what I am thinking, whether I am feeling angry. I told her I was actually feeling quite happy. I was thinking I was at Yosemite and the stars were beautiful. She cried. Tears ran down my cheek too which felt weird to me because I was not sad. She kept telling me to come back. Some time later, I regained sense of body, and my head started to feel heavy, so I came out to the living room and monitored carefully in case it was a migraine. I started looking for new California residence candidates. I am going to take care of residence search, then go rest in Korea, away from her, as I had planned. I will suppress emotions until I finish taking care of the urgency: moving to a new residence.

### 25.03.10

- For residence search, decided to prioritize finding a place where I will be able to be safe from fighting with Jinjoo. This goal implied several criteria: 1) home must have two bedrooms such that we can have isolated spaces whenever useful, 2) home must be walkable to a library and a fitness class program (e.g. OTF) for her. To find apartments that fit criteria within our budget, I started searching for cities outside of the core silicon valley (bay area between San Francisco and San Jose). The started looking more inland: an area that people here call East Bay. Consider them the lands that are closer towards Yosemite from the Pacific Ocean. I found 5 candidate cities, San Ramon, Livermore, Dublin, Walnut Creek, Fremont (not ranked in any particular order), with modern apartments within walking distances from a public library and an OTF fitness center. We departed home to visit the cities in person today. She was ready to depart home at 9AM wit packed food, but I told her I hope to sleep until noon to gain energy to drive. I was had been awake since 3AM, so I was able to fall asleep pretty much instantly. There was a fire alarm during morning sleep, but I just decided to plug my ears for several minutes and stay asleep. I woke up as planned at noon to get ready. We departed home at 1PM.
- Before departing Sunnyvale, we first fueled car at Costco. Surprisingly, she made the courage to discuss a random topic and broke the icy tension that was lingering between us since yesterday’s conflict. She told me about the friends she met at the dinner yesterday. The conversation brightened the atmosphere in the car.
- We reached Fremont Centerville Library. It was not only small, but it also closed on 3 out of 7 days every week. Street between library and apartment did not look safe or pleasant. She was willing to see apartment units, but I suggested to her that we just move on to the next candidate city. Since we have many candidates anyway, I did not feel a need to endure a candidate that did not “vibe” with us.
- The next city candidate on the map was Dublin, so I started driving towards there. I did not know what to expect. I must have passed by Dublin multiple times in the past since it is at the center in the middle of Stanford, San Francisco, Napa Valley and Sonoma Valley, Sacramento, Yosemite, and Santa Clara County, but the city name had never registered in my head. I had neither hopes nor worries about the city we were heading towards, but I was remarking how beautiful the road was. It was a road called Niles Canyon Road that was paved along the Alameda Creek. Driving on it felt like driving in the rural areas near Seattle towards the mountains. Jinjoo agreed.
- When we reached Dublin, we were first impressed by the artistic design aesthetics of the city itself. Upon entering city, we were greeted by city sign with the city logo which is a clover, itself carved on a metal plate cut out in shape of a clover bed. We drove to the library. The city, the streets, the constructions were new and clean. Dublin Library is modern but small enough to be cozy. It even has standing desks which makes it one of rare existing public libraries with the feature that Jinjoo considers to be important for ergonomics. We liked the city and the library a lot. I found it very funny when she texted me from the library restroom telling me that even the restroom smells nice.
- I drove to an apartment candidate from the library to check bike path that Jinjoo will be using to get to the library on her own. The path was a literal straight line. I was worried about the the fact that the straight road was a very big road with many lanes and therefore many cars, but Jinjoo told me it is not a concern to her. As long as car drivers here drive safely, I am also happy to see a straight road since I myself prefer an easy drive over a short drive. Making less turns is easier. The apartment looked pretty new from the outside, but the leasing offices were not open today, so we left the area.
- We visited OTF which was in a small shopping center with other shops like Whole Foods. We visited OTF, and she chatted with a staff member, and we liked both the new clean fitness studio as well as the nice professional coach who might be teaching us how to exercise.
- We visited an apartment in the area. It was on the wrong side of the highway. It was in Pleasanton, but technically it was possible to walk to the Dublin area. 2B2B unit was gigantic. We will not be moving there, but it was great to see what 2B2B apartment units are like in this area: affordable but still sufficiently decent.
- When I told her the next city is San Ramon, she told me we need not go elsewhere. She was ready to settle. But I convinced her that since we are here anyway, we might as well just to make sure. San Ramon city was fine but the library was small and it closed on too many days, so we did not bother checking more. We were getting hungry by then. My plan was to eat packed lunch somewhere in San Ramon, but since we now knew San Ramon is not a candidate, I wanted to go to a candidate city and eat since we will be able to observe the location, especially botanical allergies.
- We drove to Livermore. It was rustic, and I liked the presence of a golf course that I expect will be quite cheap, but I was worried to see an airport for small planes, then an endless stream of small airplanes that were landing. Jinjoo enjoyed seeing the small planes, but I told her they may mean noise and smell. Indeed, when we got off the car, it smelled like fossil fuel, so we hopped back onto the car and drove back to Dublin to eat there instead. On our way out of Livermore, a pedestrian threw water at a Tesla driving in front of us. I did hear that people all over the planet are vandalizing Tesla in protest against Elon Musk recently, but it was our first time seeing an incident in person.
- In Dublin, we visited Emerald Glen Park. The park was grand. It was the moment when I told Jinjoo that this was my first time finding a city that I might consider to have better livability than Bellevue. Emerald Glen Park had lush green grass with children playing various sports like basketball, skateboarding, and swimming. And it had an entire water park with towering water slides. It looked grand. And the park was artistic with art sculptures, paintings. And we did not see oak trees. California was full of oak trees. Dublin was a rare oasis for Jinjoo.
- After enjoying dinner, we made the final stretch drive to visit Walnut Creek. It was urban, just like a bay area peninsula city, and the library was beautiful and modern, bigger than that of Dublin, but the city had many oak trees. We drove around but left city.
- On our way back, we passed by Dublin, so we stopped for a boba at Jinjoo’s request. The boba store was right in the neighborhood that we were eyeing to live in. The boba store had an interesting concept with many arcade games, board games, and K-Pop products. But the boba we got was not good at all. We considered trying driving to Stanford from there to see what the drive is like, but the map told me we have to go around the bay, passing by our home, if we do not want to pay bridge toll, so we just decided to head back home.
- Upon returning home, cleaned bed while she prepared a small dinner for us. We ate peppers. Relaxed in bubble bath. She opened a new bottle of shampoo: Florevida rose shampoo we brought from my parents. I liked its fragrance, but it is not bubbling up enough to feel satisfying.
- I was tired, but I decided to be industrious and work on Firefall marketing. Published a video about frozen vegetables on Lacasa profiles.
- Jinjoo helped book Dublin apartment tours for Wednesday. We will inform Redwood Place tomorrow our intent to move out at the end of our current lease.

### 25.03.11

- Woke up at 10AM. Showered. Worked at desk. Took out trash. Put away cleaned dishes.
- For residence search, visited Dublin city government website to find a complete list of apartments in Dublin, then made AI note information such as biking time to Dublin library.
- For Firefall Marketing, posted a video about artichokes on LASAISON profiles.
- Returned library books: Isadore Sharp biography at Santa Clara City Library for me and Trader Joe biography at Atherton Library for her.
- We felt tired today. We decided to go to Stanford, but I ended up driving past it, because I had entered home as navigation destination in car. Jinjoo suggested that we just go home and rest seeing that I am quite tired. I suggested that we go eat Vons Chicken. She enjoyed it a lot. And so did I.
- After dinner, I suggested we go hang out at Santana Row. We stopped by Cupertino Happy Lemon for boba, then headed to Santana Row. We visited Yeti and Brandy Melville.
- Jinjoo suggested that we go visit Valley Fair and check out Rolex watches since we learned about Rolex recently. At the Rolex store, we saw Datejust, Submariner, GMT Master, Day-Date, Daytona, Explorer, and the Oyster Perpetual Rolex watches. We also saw other watch brands including Tudor, Omega, Blancpain, Breguet, Piguet. Patek Philippe watches were really eye-catching especially with the colorful dials.
- At home, we prepared to go back to Dublin tomorrow to see apartment units. I studied Dublin. I learned about the vibes of different areas within the city, and ruled out some apartment complexes. I think there will be a lot of great places to visit once we move to Dublin, such as Lake Del Valle and Concannon Winery.

### 25.03.12

- I got only 6H of sleep. My mood might be impacted by tiredness, so I shall be more mindful today to be nice to Jinjoo.
- In car, she brought up a news about a Korean celebrity who lent money. Chat went on to loosely related topics, then I mentioned I would not lend anyone money, and she mentioned that she would lend money unconditionally (e.g. zero interest rate, no record of transaction are what she mentioned without me asking) if it is a reasonable amount for a reasonable time. I tried to explain to her that such mindset is basically having no principles. In protest, she cited specific numbers like $10K and 15 days but I told her why not $11K or 14 days to illustrate point that wishy-washy policies do not work. She told me she sees we do not agree on the point and stopped talking. I think she took offense because she thought I was attacking her family. But I was just prioritizing what will become my family. I have a parental duty to act in the best interest of my children. And I have a strong sense of duty to ”my” family in the sense of family “I make”, aka my downward family. She is not yet able to understand this sense of duty for her own family yet, but it is okay. On this matter, it is just that I am exceptional. I think most humans are like her at least at her age. She can learn. I will have to teach the person anyway if I were to be partnering with someone else.
- Fountain at Emerald Park. Old. Smelly. Carpeted. Possibly moldy. View and air are from a busy car road in front of the unit. Location is nice, but we decided to reject it.
- Ate packed lunch at Whole Foods Market.
- Assessed Tralee Village apartments. It is nicely decorated with shops on the first floor. Jinjoo especially liked the friendly management officer. Unit interior was great: new home appliances, all hardwood floor, spacious 2B2B. But the window was facing the highway, so unit was exposed to noise and pollution.
- Visited Avoca to make a reservation for a tour. My opinion is that the place looks old and unsafe. None of the cars in the parking lot are expensive cars, so mine might get targeted if a criminal infiltrates.
- Drove around the West Dublin area since we missed it last time. The area looks okay at this hour.
- Apartments near Bart Dublin Station were terrible. Avalon was smelly in different ways in the hallway, in the elevator, and in the unit. I also saw an empty can trash left on a window sill, and from it inferred the character of tenants. It got worse every minute. Every time we thought it could not get any worse, something surprising happened. When we were on our way out of the property, only after having spent 10 minutes in the building, we saw that a homeless person had entered the garage and was loitering just meters away from my car, and when we were leaving the garage remarking how something even worse is setting new record on this property every minute, we had someone spit on the road in front of us. Wow. Last time we visited, we thought this area is nice due to the location (at the center of library, fitness, and the train station). We dodged a bullet by not coming here. We were suspecting that Windsor cannot be much better since it is in the same area. During the tour at Windsor, Jinjoo was greatly frustrated by the incompetency of the management officer. She was unable to answer any questions well. Unit interiors were actually quite okay, with modern home appliances, good views, and quietness, but I too had already decided when we entered hallway that we will not be living there. The hallway was filled with unsightly and smelly trash cans, because the apartment offered what they called a trash valet service. They made tenants keep the trash cans outside the apartment units, and promised that cleaners will come pick them up each day, and charged each tenant $150 a month for that service which cannot be opted-out from. Well, even if everything was perfect in this apartment, I would have had rejected it due to criminals roaming around the area. The decision was very easy. We rejected all apartments in this area.
- We rested in the car at the Whole Foods parking lot, then entered store to buy some wet wipes. I had missed the fact that Jinjoo had made the reservation to tour Avoca to be today, so we hurried over to Avoca.
- Assessed Avoca apartments. It is now a top contender competing against Tralee. My greatest concerns when I saw the apartment from outside were safety and modernity. As for safety, the unit came with a garage on its own. Avoca is tucked away from the main road, and its public parking lot only feature old inexpensive cars, so ideally criminals will not target it in the first place. And if a criminal breaks in, there will be many garages, and the criminal cannot see what kind of car is inside each garage, so the there is that another layer of protection for my car. As for modernity, home appliances were indeed old and the dishwasher was smelly, but at least the floor was all hardwood. The unit was a little dark. I wonder if a unit on the top floor will be better. Jinjoo also vibed with the management officer. She was friendly, and after we remarked that we are concerned about the fan noise in the bathrooms, she grabbed the maintenance workers on our way back to the leasing office and asked them to check the unit’s bathroom fans. It is definitely not as nice as Tralee on a 1:1 comparison, but Avoca is cheaper, so living here for 1 year will mean that we get to save 1 entire month’s amount of rent.
- We liked Avoca so much that I was now interested in checking out that Emerald Park apartment that we had decided not to visit after getting disappointed with the Fountains Emerald Park apartment, so we drove to the leasing office there, but saw it was surrounded by oak trees, and rejected it without entering the leasing office.
- She liked seeing the homes at the army reservation area, so I drove around it for her. She remarked that those are units that even money cannot buy. We stopped by Park Sierra. The buildings look pretty nice from the outside, and the area is quiet, and Jinjoo told me the leasing office was decorated beautifully, but the leasing office told us that there are no units without carpets. We will still check them just for fun since she wants to.
- I fueled car at Safeway, then we visited Pieology for dinner. She used to like it when they had a store in Palo Alto. It works like Subway but for pizzas. Customer can choose any toppings, then they bake the pizza on spot. Pieology was amazing. The pizzas were so delicious that I think Pieology might be the most delicious pizza I have ever tasted. We also got a great deal: 2 pizzas for 20 USD. We remarked that, the more we see Dublin, the more we love it.
- We visited San Francisco Premium Outlets to buy Nike shoes. It was right across the highway from Dublin. We found that Nike is discontinuing our favorite running shoes: ReactFly InfinityRun. I was not able to find a satisfying pair. I decided to buy shoes online.
- We returned to Tralee, then took a nap in the car in the parking lot, not just to rest before driving back home, but also to see what the area is like at night. Tralee seems quite safe thanks to shops. There are customers coming in and out of Tralee constantly, so I cannot imagine a violent criminal feeling free to engage in any criminal activities here. A lot of witnesses.
- I drove to Dublin Library a minute after its closing time. We did not see any person. I actively tried to find anyone anywhere in vicinity, including the nearby park, but we did not see anyone, we did not hear any activities, and we did not smell any illegal drugs. The entire block was lit up sufficiently, so I think I will be able to feel relaxed even if Jinjoo was planning to come home alone from there at closing time. Tralee is literally one block away, diagonally, from the library.
- We drove around West Dublin and saw many pedestrians. It is a good sign that pedestrians feel safe to walk around the area at night time.
- I drove to Pleasanton and checked out Costco and the Stoneridge Mall. Did not see anyone loitering and engaging in criminal activities even in empty parking lots.
- After returning home, and taking a shower, I relaxed in bed searching for calligraphy pens.

### 25.03.13

- Woke up way too early but I did not feel sleepy. Decided to take care of some work before returning to bed.
- I will take care of homemaking tasks, check Korean military tasks, and catch up on news today. Ate breakfast alone.
- Ordered 2 pairs of Nike running shoes.
- After another nap, worked at desk. Posted a video about Mona Lisa on DELMOMA profiles. Posted a video about Rainier Elks on LAGASAN profiles.
- Ate. Washed dishes. Departed to Stanford.
- Worked on Marketing. Worked on writing Seelog D106C FIREFALL.
- At home, ate again with Jinjoo while watching 궁.

### 25.03.14

- At home, ate lunch, washed dishes, departed alone to give her a day to relax alone at home. Visited Chase bank to deposit cash. Called mom.
- Worked at Santa Clara City Library. Spent some time ideating for Montage. Filed personal taxes to USA federal government IRS and California Franchise Tax Board.
- At home, ate dinner with Jinjoo. Jinjoo was told me she will take a nap after eating. I asked her how many hours of sleep she got last night, and she told me 8 hours. I suggested that we go out to the grocery store right now. She suggested we go stroll at Valley Fair mall. I was also looking for inspirations for company product ideas, so we did set out to go to the mall.
- Strolled at Valley Fair mall. I ideated Montage.
- Shopped grocery at Lucky Supermarket. Saw Sonoma Magazine, and got the idea to compile articles from other places instead of trying to generate all contents on our own using AI especially images and videos.
- At home, exercised lightly. Showered. Ideated Montage while in bed.

### 25.03.15

- Visited Jinjoo’s friend named Tina who lives near Edgewood in Redwood City to celebrate her daughter Eve’s D100. Gathered friends conversed in Vietnamese, so I mainly chatted with Tina’s husband, Enis, who is British. Enis is a security engineer at Tesla, moved to US from UK in January 2020 and got stuck here during COVID just like me. After lunch, Enis left living room, and we each painted an animal using water color. I painted a penguin. But all in all, Tina’s hospitality skill was catastrophic: house was difficult to reach, she was not appropriately dressed despite imposing a dress code on guests, she did not prevent me from feeling included and engaged in conversations, I still have no idea who the guests were due to lack of intros other than mere names, and I felt hungry during and after the event. It is imperative to remember, for the sake of reputation and therefore welfare of my family, that I make sure guests never feel this way towards my family.
- Drove towards Dublin to visit the city’s Saint Patrick’s Day festival. Picked up a boba for her and a lavender matcha for me in Foster City on our way. Jinjoo told me it was her first time on that Foster City bridge.
- Dublin City festival for Saint Patrick’s Day was jolly. Jinjoo was excited to show me the rides that carnival teams bring to cities in USA. Performers sang songs and played guitars and many guests dressed up in green. I also wanted to wear green today, but Jinjoo was against the idea of spending 15 minutes to stop by home. Merchants sold diverse interesting products. I thought patchworks jacket looked interesting and very American. We saw that Dublin Police was hosting a booth. We chatted with them about neighborhoods. An officer confirmed that proximity to Bart Station means crimes, and Dublin is second safest city in California. It was helpful, and I was happy to see that Dublin is protected by kind proud police. I told Jinjoo we can drop all West Dublin apartment candidates.
- Visited Tralee Apartments again to see available apartment units. Leasing office was closed, but I really liked a unit on the top floor in the green building that Jinjoo told me will be made available just in time for us to move in. I told her to go ahead and sign the deal with Tralee.
- We ate dinner at Pieology. It was delicious!
- Returned home. Nike running shoes arrived: a pair in black, another in green. Played with Jinjoo, then fell asleep.

### 25.03.16

- Woke up at 5:30AM due to allergic reaction in bed. I have been getting woken up like this every morning this week. Tried to sleep after blowing out nose in bathroom but felt allergic reaction in bed again. Showered and started day.
- Practiced working memory by trying to memorize and remember cards but it was difficult. I really need to work on recovering my memory skills. But it felt good to exercise the brain in peace in the morning.
- Called parents during morning stroll.
- Jinjoo and I had lunch with Maho and Edgar at a Sichuan restaurant in San Mateo. After meal, we drank coffee at a nearby cafe called Kaizen coffee, then we checked out a local Goodwill thrift store where Maho purchased an old porcelain to turn it into a Kintsugi art piece.
- It was cold outside, so Maho let Jinjoo borrow her Montbell foldable hiking jacket.
- At Kaizen cafe, Maho showed interest in a strawberry matcha chocolate bar, ordered a hot black sesame latte coffee. She has lactose intolerance but carries lactase supplement, because she prefers cow milk. She dislikes oat milk.
- Edgar is working on campus at Stanford for a month to work on a project called Enigma. Enigma is the world’s biggest-scale brain scanning project. Lab is making new tools with highest-ever density brain scanning devices to scan brains of non-human primates. Project is funded by a private funder and the lab is open to spinning off into a commercial company in the future. Maho offered to design a website for the project, then one of the three leaders of project was interested in hiring Maho as a personal assistant.
- Jinjoo had a call with a CEO of a data center company, so we visited San Mateo Public Library. I tried to take a nap during her call, because I was feeling very tired today, but I was unable to fall asleep. She sat down next to me while I was trying to sleep on the desk, then thanked me for waiting for her.
- After returning home, I took a long nap. Jinjoo cooked for hours tonight. I woke up to eat dinner, rested while reading a comic, then fell asleep again.
- Jinjoo entered bedroom while I was asleep, then while trying to hug me, bumped into my lip, and my lip bled. It was bloody and painful, not so much because of her fault, but because her bumping unfortunately hit a canker sore I have been suffering from lately. She apologized, telling me she is a clumsy-mon and I am a magnanimous-mon, and it was cute, so I recorded her saying it.

### 25.03.17

- I suffered severe allergic reactions in bed during sleep. Jinjoo offered to clean the bed for me while I rest on living room sofa. I thanked her. After I woke up, I cleaned bed again for us. I have been meaning to clean the bed everyday, but I have been failing to do so in the mornings because Jinjoo woke up later and later every morning. I might have to clean bed as an evening routine going forward or at least until Jinjoo is able to fix her sleep schedule.
- Visited Dublin. Worked in library. Ideated Montage.
- Called mom. Later, dad and mom texted me happy birthday.
- We visited Tralee. We had made an appointment at 3:30PM, but nobody was in the leasing office. In fact, even the desk was gone. A construction worker later came, so I asked, and he told me he does not know and he has not seen anyone come to work today. Nobody picked up the phone call for 15 minutes. We departed. At the library, I called just one more time, without much hope, but a man picked up, so we returned. Due to construction, leasing office was temporarily set up in a different location. Jay the leasing officer showed us a unit facing Southwest as per our interest, but he told us there was only one available unit, in the yellow building near the road, and not in the green building far from the road which I had been interested in. Unit was nice. The high ceiling was characteristic. But the unit was more expensive than the other, and terms were not very friendly. For example, we wanted to move-in on 25.04.12, but Jay the leasing officer told us we need to move-in two weeks before that date. Later, he told us he can let us move-in just one week in advance. But then after hearing that I am an entrepreneur, he wanted to see that I have savings that amount to at least 3 years amount of rent, aka about $144K, and it was weird since we were only trying to move in for 1Y. Besides, the fact that Jay was able to do us a favor by changing the move-in date made me suspect him since any change was flexibility and ambiguity. During tour, he also proudly told us that he evicted a resident for keep throwing away cardboard boxes in the trash room. All in all, unit was nice, but the leasing officer was startling. I wrote a review on Google Maps commenting about the weirdnesses. After returning home, I contacted several government agencies.
- For dinner, Jinjoo came up with the idea of eating cajun seafood. We visited Kickin Crab in San Jose which she liked to visit with her friends during college. It was delicious. We loved it!
- We shopped grocery at Ranch 99, then returned home.
- We relaxed in apartment pool hot spa, then rested in bed. Watched 폭삭 속았수다 which is a new drama that features IU and 박보검. The show was great! We ended up falling asleep at 5AM.

### 25.03.18

- Played all day with Jinjoo in celebration of my birthday.
- Visited Montalvo mansion. The mountaintop mansion was secluded and serene. Rarely saw anyone. We admired the architecture, the trees on and around the lush grass field, and sculptures and plants in the garden, then we sat down on a picnic blanket in middle of the grass field. Jinjoo napped, and I ideated Montage. Came up with the idea of describing Montage as a search engine that answers in short videos.
- Visited Saratoga Library. It was beautiful with expansive windows looking out to the orchard. Jinjoo rested for a bit. I stepped outside to call parents and stroll between the prune trees.
- Jinjoo came up with the idea of eating Indian cuisine for dinner, so we visited Zareen’s in Palo Alto. It was delicious! Came up with idea that our signature 5-course meal can feature cuisines of places we have been to such as Korea, Vietnam, China (especially sichuan and guangdong), India, American (especially cajun).
- At home, bathed in apartment pool hot spa.
- Jinjoo was so loving and nice all day today. And also yesterday. And for many days this week. I felt grateful for her, and expressed my gratitude to her.

### 25.03.19

- Front tooth broke. During sleep, felt the detached chip on tongue and took it out. I will have to fix it when I visit Korea at the end of this season. It had broken in the past. I last got it fixed in Vietnam, after I had gotten it fixed in Bellevue, after it had first broken during sleep in Bravern. But I shall take it as an omen and stay safe today.
- Kank-A benzocaine medicine I had been using for canker sore spilled on bathroom sink, because I had not closed it after using it. It was difficult to clean it. Without thinking much, I wiped the liquid from sink top to sink bowl without thinking much, then realized the liquid melted a shallow layer of my skin and residue stuck onto my hand. I tried washing it off with water, then with soap, then with a scrubbing towel, but I was not able to get it all fully off me. Even after shower and several other morning routine tasks, some are still on me. Oh well, I will have to let it wear off over time. I used toilet paper to wipe off the remaining liquid without touching it with hands after initial failure. But spilling is also a bad omen. Let me make sure to stay safe today.
- Jinjoo asked me in advance what I want as birthday gift, and I told her a calligraphy pen, but we had not been able to select one top candidate. After reviewing practically every pen in existence, I asked her I want the Ivy Bloom Oblique pen holder by Tom’s Studio in United Kingdom. Fancy metal one that I think will last a long time. I told her she can use my pen whenever she wants to and she can also choose our first ink which I will order.
- After concerning encounter with Tralee’s community manager during last visit, I reached out to government agencies in search of mitigations. Mom advised me “Do not fight. But if you did start a fight, then make sure to win that fight.” The most successful escalation thread was from City of Dublin’s Department of Housing to an investigator called Angie, but upon further research, I decided not to pursue this case further. It made some sense to fight, since ideally, we wanted to live in Tralee without that specific community manager. Since we had not moved in and had not disclosed our intent to pursue the property manager by communicating with government agencies, we were able to: 1) if unlikely to have a favorable outcome from starting the fight, we can choose to not fight, 2) if we fight then we lose, then we can choose to live in elsewhere, or perhaps with a protection from that government agency against retaliations from property management, and 3) if we fight then we win, then we can live in that apartment without that property manager. But research revealed that the investigator will at most refer the case to an authority who will most likely only encourage settling between us such as by making the apartment admit us into residency. Best way to save time and live in that apartment is to just not pursue the fight. On top of that, as I continued meeting more property managers, I lost confidence that any replacement will be any better than the bad ones there now, since the talent pool is so void of talents in the first place.
- To mitigate the risk of Tralee not panning out, searched for an alternative candidate as a back up option. Discovered Vintage Apartments in Pleasanton which is new, near OTF, and near enough to the Pleasanton Library. Called them to check several factors such as carpetlessness, window direction, and price. Woke up Jinjoo to suggest that we go visit them today.
- Took out trash. Washed dishes. Cleaned bed.
- Assessed Pleasanton as a residence candidate. Pleasanton Library was okay. It was big but old. Mason Flats was a little off on every trait, so we rejected it. Vintage Apartments was too far from the library and a grocery store, so we rejected it. All in all, Pleasanton is not comparable to Dublin. We have not found any cities that are comparable to Dublin.
- In Dublin, assessed Waterford Apartments. It is an income-restricted apartment, so the rent is very cheap, and Jinjoo ideated on the spot (and told me without telling the leasing officer) that we might be able to borrow her younger sister’s name. The location is prime, next to a big beautiful park and next to a grocery store, but the unit is old and carpeted. We may suffer from molds and bugs and other residues of old age. Health is most important.
- Assessed Park Sierra Apartments. Once again, unit was old and carpeted. It was very quiet thanks to its location next to a trail, but the trail made Jinjoo worry about bugs.
- I was hungry and tired and suggested that we go eat dinner again at Zareen’s today. Jinjoo wanted to visit Tralee to clear air with community managers. It was stretching our schedule since we were tired and hungry, but it was a good idea given that Tralee is more and more likely to be the best residence candidate for us. So I drove over to Tralee. I was about to enter the leasing office, and I literally had the car door opened, and she held me back and went on and on about how she is concerned that I am walking in with certain mindset. I told her I am planning to be jovial with them and capable and in any case think that application will be reviewed by their central office in a different city, but she started discussing loosely-related practically-irrelevant past moments like how she saw that I am generous to apartments that looked bad but I was harsh on details like noise from outside at Tralee. On those points, obviously I was friendly to leasing officers in all communities to extract information from them while I can, and I did tell her whether I am feeling good or bad about the apartments as soon as we departed each apartment, such as the most recent one we saw where I told her ‘this is a no’ as soon as I exited the leasing office. She did show her feeling very transparently in front of the leasing officers, and it shut down many’s willingness to give us useful info. On applying strict standards to Tralee, it is rational to worry about details of a candidate I am most likely going to choose but not worry about details of a unit that will be rejected and enter mind again. Anyways, I did not explain any of these points since I am now familiar with her explosions. She does not listen to me when she is in this emotional state. I just told her she is in an irritable mood and when she is feeling this way, she tends to first get filled with anger, and then attribute her anger to some external factor that she can see in front of her. And since I am usually in front of her everyday, I tend to get subjected to blame. She protested that I am assigning blame to her cyclical hormone changes instead of addressing the real problem. I was not good at explaining well, but it is indeed the case that stressors are real in such moments. It is just that a person in an irritable mood tend to react disproportionately strongly to such real causes.  I cancelled all our evening plans such as dinner at Zareen’s again, and drove straight home. I am now used to handling situations like this. I need to get away from her since there is nothing I can do. She just has to come back to sanity and in all past cases, the cure was not any action or words from me but rather flow of time and therefore the restoration of the circumstances in her own body. I felt miserable while driving back. Tears flowed down my cheeks. I felt empty. I did not want to be here anymore. I wanted to be on that mountain over there or inside that car instead.
- After returning home, I took a shower, collapsed in bed. I had swallowed a Tylenol pill as soon as she started exploding, but I was nonetheless struck by tiredness and headache. I woke up again after a few hours.
- At night, I had no appetite despite having felt hungry since Dublin. If anything, belly ached. I wanted to work, but I was encapsulated by so much resentment, frustration, and depression, that I decided not to even try. Instead, I tried to sleep. But I was not able to sleep. Head hurt and nose was congested. I shivered in coldness despite turning on the heated blanket to max temperature. I thought I was getting flu.
- Jinjoo offered to feed me some food. After declining twice this evening, I accepted the third offer, and I did feel much better physiologically, and then emotionally.

### 25.03.20

- Woke up feeling super tired. This was expected since I swallowed an anti-histamine medicine to suppress allergy yesterday night. Try to spend time separately with respect to Jinjoo since she is also suffering low energy today.
- Printed, signed, and mailed Form 1120 to IRS thereby finishing filing company tax to USA federal government.
- Visited Cupertino Library. Jinjoo was irritable. I recorded her unpleasant resting face, and remarked to myself how she was frustrated at me when all standing desks were occupied. I suggested that we sit where we can see people leave from the standing desks and she angrily glared at me and I told ehr she is the one that needs standing desks, not me. She is in her crazy lunatic mode today, and I do not have much patience in me. I need to stay away from her as much as possible today, not just for me, but also for her.
- Started coding Montage. Firefall is E2E best way to generate videos for dominant marketing channels. Montage is automating what can be automated.
- On way home, stopped by Zareen’s and picked up chicken tikka masala to go, then ate it at home along with salad and broccoli and rice. It was a delicious meal. I was not feeling that well emotionally before dinner, but I felt significantly better after the meal. Showered. Cleaned bed. Worked.
- Developed Montage to be a program that automates parts of the content generation work I had been doing for the Firefall marketing campaign. Database is Notion.
- Posted Firefall contents: about laundry detergents on LACASA, about lemons on LASAISON, about Claude Monet on DELMOMA, about Grand Canyon Big Horn Sheep on LAGASAN.

### 25.03.21

- Tried to decide whether to prioritize or postpone Tralee case. Residence search is a task that must be completed and Tralee is a source of concern. But I had difficulty even thinking about it, because a residence candidate is nothing emotionally important to me, but Tralee is now a symbol that reminds me that Jinjoo was ungrateful to all my efforts during residence search and reminds me that she blamed situation on me. I hate Tralee. I hate Jinjoo. I am in so much pain. I do not want to think anymore. I decided to rest a little on bed. This is my decision for today. If she brings it up, and if she wants to resolve Tralee case today, I will do it for her and for us. But otherwise I will live today focusing on my own tasks instead of wasting energy on trying to make us happy which seems to be an impossible endeavor anyway.
- Took a nap. Woke up. Played with Jinjoo. After eating lunch together and while we were in good mood, and before departing home to go on a stroll to call parents, told her that I will commit to doing what I can to make us be living in Tralee if she desires.
- Strolled. Called parents. Told them about how residence search has been difficult because I am an entrepreneur with no steady income. After returning home, told Jinjoo I told parents about this stress, and she felt bad for me.
- Visited Costco for grocery shopping.
- Worked on Montage. Notion is the database and the interface. Montage is checking once an hour and updating records marked as TODO with guidelines to send to AI. I will manually send the guidelines to AI since doing so is cheaper, but I can easily automate this one step whenever I desire to.
- Former Korean Lawmaker Ahn Min Seok called me and invited me to a lunch with him. I will meet him tomorrow at the Four Seasons hotel in Palo Alto. Geared down on work for the evening and spent hours studying him.
- Exercised at the fitness center. Dad is at the wedding ceremony of the daughter of the Samsung Vice Chairman Han JH. Vice Chairman apparently passed out due to drinking too much alcohol then got carried out and is now resting in a room at the Shilla Hotel. Wow, the wife and the daughter will be so angry. Haha.

### 25.03.22

- Met a Korean lawmaker and his family members over a brunch at the Four Seasons Silicon Valley hotel’s Quattro restaurant. See notes for “25.03.22: Lunch at Four Seasons Hotel in Silicon Valley” in 안민석 page in Contacts D100C database for details on conversation.
- Toured Four Seasons hotel. The prix fixe 3 course brunch meal was quite unimpressive as a work of culinary art. In fact, I felt like I was eating Stanford CoHo’s dishes just on nice porcelain plates. Other parts of the hotel were also quite unimpressive. Lobby, pool, gym, spa, gift shop, bathroom were just barely acceptable in my opinion and even at that only if I apply the standard for American hotels. Four Seasons at least this Silicon Valley branch is not Ahwahnee, not Montage, not a luxury resort like those great resorts. I think it is a valid strategy for FS-SV to focus instead on becoming a great meeting place in middle of silicon valley. But even at that, I was disappointed while washing hands in the bathroom. The hand wash was alright. But the hand lotion did not smell that gentle. And I tried to wipe it off using the hand towel, but the towel was not made out of fabric but rather a thick paper that somewhat felt like a fabric, and the paper bits got on my hands because my hands were sticky with the hand lotion.
- Called parents. Told them that the Korean lawmaker came with his entire family. Mom saw through their behavior and told me it must have been like an interview I did not sign up for and empathized with me. I am not sure whether my dad actually did not see this coming since I had expected this possibility as soon as he gave me a call. Seriously, as I remarked yesterday night during a call with them, why was “Honesty” our family motto at one point. Anyways, I told them about the conversation we had over the phone call.
- Before lunch appointment, I had dropped off Jinjoo at the nearby Rinconada Library. I returned to the library to pick her up. I walked inside, and she was studying hard on the wooden desk. She was happy to see me, then asked me whether I want to stay there and work or head out. I told her I want to change out of formal clothes. I saw that there were dirty tissue papers on her desk, probably from disinfecting the desk when she first entered library and she also might have suffered allergic reactions. Anyways, I picked up the dirty tissue papers and trash (granola bar wrapper) in one big grasp and then put it in a trash can on our way out. She later told me that the moment felt weirdly romantic to her, especially because I was dressed up in formal suits.
- I was tired at home. I bathed. Then I fell asleep on bed.
- I woke up at midnight. Jinjoo also had taken a nap then woke up about an hour before me. She cooked a full meal for us. During dinner, we watched 냉장고를 부탁해 which is a Korean TV show where chefs have to cook a dish within 15 minutes only using ingredients that were inside the refrigerator of a guest celebrity.
- Called parents at about 3AM. They were strolling outside their apartment after eating out for dinner. They were in a good mood, because the Korean lawmaker had texted them a concise compliment about me: “the greatest young man I have ever met”. But they told me a top secret story that is going on inside Samsung. Dad was asked not to go on the business trip he was supposed to go on today, to America, or any other business trips to any countries. Instead, he was asked to stay on full alert in Korea, ready to respond to any event at any moment. His direct boss, Han JH, the head of Samsung Electronics, is unconscious, unable to breathe on his own, and on a hospital bed, kept alive only by life support. A crisis for Samsung, possibly for the Korean economy too. This news is a top secret that must not leak.

### 25.03.23

- Woke up leisurely at noon. Lived peacefully with Jinjoo, eating lunch, homemaking, and working on desk.
- Played pickleball with Sylvia and her date Angie, then we ate dinner at Vons Chicken and dessert at Hodomaru.
- Visited apartment pool hot spa with Jinjoo.
- Worked on Firefall for 3 hours, but I was not able to finish generating contents for the profiles as I wanted to. Namely, ChatGPT Operator failed to fetch grocery deals and ChatGPT failed to code web image search.
- Chatted with Jinjoo about residence search. She has been thinking about returning to job in September, because she is discovering that studying for CFA will become harder by level 3 without encountering the concepts while working in the financial industry. This decision means income and need for commute, so she is interested in searching for candidates nearer to San Francisco even if it means higher rent price. We are interested in visiting several apartments in or near San Mateo downtown.
- During the conversation about residence search and returning to job, I started realizing that I have been quite unhappy in life recently. It is not only due to this conversation. Yesterday’s lunch conversation had an impact on me too. I have found out once again that I derive happiness from work accomplishments. But I have not been able to produce any great accomplishments in work over the past year. I have not even been able to invest a lot of time and energy into work in the first place last year. I learned that to me none else matters. It does not matter to me that I ate delicious fried chicken today, or that played a fun pickleball game with good friends, or that I relaxed in spa, or that I did not suffer any illnesses, or even that Jinjoo has been a happy loving girlfriend all day today. None of it matters. The only thing that matters to me is whether I have been able to get great work done, and I am, from that perspective, really really unhappy right now in life. I feel miserable. I was not able to stay in bed. I had to come out to the living room. It was past 3AM, but I was not able to feel relaxed enough to fall asleep. I feel so so unhappy.

### 25.03.24

- Visited San Mateo. Assessed De Sabla apartment. It was an old apartment. I was quite shaken after the visit. I felt insecure.
- Assessed Daly City, Millbrae, Menlo Park. The house we visited in Menlo Park was not an apartment. I am open to checking out houses too at this point.
- Ate dinner at Stanford Shopping Center. Returned home. I felt too tired to do anything other than shower and head to bed.

### 25.03.25

- Woke up to Jinjoo excitedly telling me that she found the perfect job posting for her: a position for Strategic Financial Analyst at OpenAI infrastructure team. I checked LinkedIn and texted a friend asking whether she can help my girlfriend reach a human at that team. Elaine connected me with Joanne Jang who is the head of product in Model Behavior team. And I connected Joanne with Jinjoo.
- Dad and all other direct reports stayed at the funeral of Samsung CEO. The news is all over the internet today. Asked dad who will be the next head of Appliances division. He told me there is no evident candidate. I told him I think Appliances division can be the robotics division. Samsung can be divided into 2 parts: mobile division can become the information technology division that handles moving bits, and appliances division can become the robotics division that handles moving atoms.
- Visited a residence candidate in Cupertino. On our way, I told her I will reject this home with 80% probability since it is far from San Francisco to which she wants to commute. She told me the probability is 100% for her, but she wants to visit it only to grow our skills at assessing homes. But when we got there, we were totally blown away. The building itself was quite modest. But the location was within minutes on foot from fitness, library, stores. And the neighborhood was peaceful and safe. There were no oak trees. And the units were newly renovated. I checked the appliances and nobody had used them yet. 2B2B facing East. It was perfect in every way. Oh and also no carpets so no dust mites. One key issue is that the laundry machine is outside of the apartment unit, shared with other apartment units, but Jinjoo assured me that this is doable. And it is not an apartment community like Redwood Place, so there is no pool or fitness center or other such amenities, but I am willing to let go of those amenities in face of all the other factors we will gain. Oh and it seems like there are also pickleball courts within walking distance. Jinjoo was not sure what to do about this new situation. I told her we should get this home. She agreed. We checked out the neighborhood by driving around, then visited Cupertino Library and submitted documents for application.
- I was fairly tired and I wanted to go home and rest, but Jinjoo had a dinner appointment with her friends in Palo Alto, so I drove her there. She assured me it is good for us, because Cindy was going to be there, and Jinjoo was planning to ask Cindy to be our guarantor. Jinjoo dined at a fancy restaurant. Chan Zuckerberg came and sat on a table next to hers during that dinner.
- While Jinjoo was hanging out with her friends, I got dinner at the nearby Ramen Nagi, then visited Stanford. Stanford was on spring break, so Old Union was closed and Green Library closed early. I rested at the Old Union courtyard for a couple hours, then on the first floor of Green Library. I read 라멘서유기 comic. I wanted to rest, but I was too tired to be able to rest while at the library. I stayed there until the library announced that they are closing soon. Cindy drove Jinjoo to Tresidder Union parking lot where I had parked my car. We drove home.
- At home, I was too tired to sleep. I lied on living room sofa and read the comic until very late. I entered bedroom and felt that Jinjoo had turned on the heated blanket on my side for me. I was touched. It felt like she waited for me and took an action to make the bed feel nice when I arrive. I am touched by these little things.

### 25.03.26

- Got woken up by gardener cutting grass outside our window. Washed dishes. Showered.
- Tried playing Mabinogi M which came out today. Nexon blocked America.
- Checked the new OpenAI image generation tool. It is impressive in comparison to the past versions but not great in an absolute standard. Actually, zero-shot was not great, but one-shot and few-shot might work for Montage. I am going to investigate.
- Cupertino landlord accepted our tenant applications.
- Posted about Bernard Arnault on a new Firefall profile called Matterhorn. In the past, I had canceled plan for Matterhorn because AI video generation was not able to generate an image that is semantically correct with respect to people and items and places. The new image generation AI from OpenAI has semantic integrity with respect to input images so Matternhorn is now made feasible.
- Jinjoo cooked delicious lunch and dinner today. We watched “Chef & My Fridge” while eating and in bed.
- At night, I felt too tired to rest. I feel like my body is pushed to over the limits. I was tired for few days especially after feeling stressed about residence search without income. I was already too tired by yesterday to be able to rest comfortable. Today was mostly restful, but Jinjoo was clingy, and playing with her twice in current condition I think pushed me over the limit. I was sleepy by midnight and wanted to sleep. But by 2AM, I suddenly felt heightened sense of smell during shower and my body is in too much pain for me to be able to sleep.
- I clarified to Jinjoo that she is not the reason but I have been tired for several days. She held my hand and monitored. We wondered whether honey and oat milk would help me feel better. Indeed the sugar boost helped me feel “normal”. I felt comfortable breathing and I felt well enough to fall asleep.

### 25.03.27

- So tired. Woke up after noon.
- Gave Jinjoo resume feedback. Pushed her to rewrite the cover letter. She just copied and pasted her answer for the online application form, but I told her that cover letter, if it moves the hiring manager on the email thread, may be more important than her resume.
- Signed lease contract for the Cupertino residence.
- Called mom. Originally planned to be on a call with mom during stroll, but my body felt too tired for a stroll, so I returned home. Called her during desk work. I told her I feel strangely tired. I told her I figured out residence. She told me she thinks and has heard dad say that Appliances division is in a bad shape and would not be worth dad’s effort to save it.
- Worked on Firefall marketing. Posted a video about Arnault on Matterhorn. Also posted a video about Orca at Kenai Fjord on Lagasan and a video about halibut on Lasaison. Orca video was most popular.
- Jinjoo texted me asking me to pick her up at Lawrence Station. I did. We ate dinner and watched Chef and My Fridge.
- Sensed that my memory skills were weak. Probably due to tiredness. Possibly because I am actively trying to not spend energy thinking.

### 25.03.28

- Jinjoo woke me up so that we can go to Stanford. She has a brunch with a person in the banking industry for job search.
- Mr. Ahn the Former Korean Lawmaker texted me asking me if I can join a dinner at Santa Cruz tonight. Rejected politely.
- Dropped her off at GSB. Did not depart campus since she will need to be picked up again in an hour. Parked near Green Library but did not leave car since parking is not yet free until 4PM.
- Picked her up at GSB. Ate lunch at Stanford Shopping Center. Strolled to Stanford Arts Library. Reviewed Jinjoo’s cover letter.
- At Arts Library, caught up on industry news.
- Jinjoo helped us book a moving company.
- Told Jinjoo about the plan to add Montage mode to Centum. She loves the idea.
- Shopped grocery at Palo Alto Trader Joe’s.
- At home, cleaned bed, washed laundry, prepared 25.03 House Meeting.
- Ate dinner. Showered.
- Mr. Ahn the Former Korean Lawmaker again asked me if I am free on Sunday, so I told him I am free on Sunday, but I told him politely that if he is thinking about introducing me to a lady, I must politely decline.
- Worked on Junwon Seelog D106C FIREFALL.

### 25.03.29

- Woke up, washed dishes, showered.
- After Jinjoo woke up, ate lunch together, then worked on desk. It was all in all a very peaceful day.
- Worked desk. Spent 3H on Firefall Marketing, but I was not able to finish generating videos. I also tried to get full refund from OpenAI, but failed. I will come back to both tasks later.
- Strolled at park. Called parents.
- Worked on Seelog.
- Ate dinner. Watched the Korean cooking show. Relaxed in apartment pool hot spa with Jinjoo.

### 25.03.30

- Got full refund from OpenAI. Like last time, first refund request was rejected citing company policy. But second refund request focused on the fact that the customer support took hours to respond and like last time did get approved. Tried to create a new account immediately, but failed to, because OpenAI had a technical error all day that prevented anyone from creating new accounts.
- Mr. Ahn the former Korean lawmaker texted me asking me if I can join him for lunch at Pebble Beach. Pebble Beach??? I did decide several days ago that I will go see him if he calls me out within 7 days after I first rejected him, so I did drive out 2 hours to go meet him.
- 안민석 의원님과 페블비치 리조트 여행. 18번홀 근처 갤러리 카페서 식사. 원래 롯지 호텔 내부 스틸워터 레스토랑에서 식사하려 했으나 리노베이션 공사 중이라 못 했다. 내 차 타겠다 하셔서 태워드리며 둘이 차로 이동. 페블비치 롯지에서 론 사이프러스, 스패니시배이. 둘이 먼저 스패니시배이 호텔 도착 후 일행 기다리며 앞 산책. 일행 도착 후 테라스에서 음료 한잔씩 마시며 대화. 또 내 차 타겠다 하셔서 산호세에 있는 가족분들 집까지 모셔드린 후 기다리는 동안 동네 산책. 처남댁 집에서 저녁 식사. 대화 내용은 Contacts Database에 안민석 문서 참조.

### 25.03.31

- Sent follow-up text messages to 안민석 (의원님) and 소병선 (대표님). Latter is a person 안민석 (의원님) introduced me to at Pebble Beach yesterday. He is in education industry and has little overlap with me, so I am not that interested in texting him, but I sent him a text message, because I saw that 안민석 (의원님) is quite close to him and his wife and is even planning to go on a cruise trip to Alaska with them in Summer. So he might ask them about me, and I wanted them to have gotten a message from me immediately. Even if they say I never ended up visiting Los Angeles or asking for introductions to their contacts, I can still say I did follow up to maintain connection but had not gotten around to needing them yet.
- Called parents.
- Worked on Firefall Marketing. Ate breakfast. Played with Jinjoo. Took a nap. Ate lunch. Traveled to Stanford. It was raining on campus, and Jinjoo wanted to share an umbrella (and we only had one umbrella anyway) and she remarked that it was romantic.
- At the library, posted a video about Bison at Yellewstone on Lagasan profile and a video about Goat Cheese on Lasaison profile. Lagasan video got over 100 likes within an hour.
- Worked on Company Story FY2.
- Went on a stroll for a short call with mom. Returned to library. Jinjoo was hungry. We returned home. It was a good time to end day.
### 25.04.01

- April Fools Day Prank. Made a New York Times news article about Half Moon Bay Ritz Carlton adding pickleball courts to utilize the unused spaces in its golf links. Jinjoo got fooled!
- Fell asleep at 2AM. Woke up at 6AM. Worked on Company Story FY2. Make sure to end day at 10PM to get enough sleep.
- When I got tired after writing Company Story FY2 for hours, I explored the idea of developing Centum temporarily on Astro, and the experiment was a nice success. I will commit to migrating Centum to be on Astro before the end of month.
- Exercised at the fitness center for 1H. Relaxed in hot spa in cold rain.
- At home, showered. Jinjoo cooked oil pasta for our dinner. Today is such a fantastic day. I had a productive day, on telling the story of my company, on advancing technological work, on advancing my political philosophy, and I was able to take care of my fitness by exercising, and I got to relax in hot spa and eat tasty dinner. What a happy day!
- Wrote Centum FY3 Technology Plan FY3 S3.
- Jinjoo wanted to spend time together, so we played after eating dinner. Then I nosebled. I wanted to work more in the evening, but I decided to end day, not just for in response to bleeding (which may indicate that I am tired) but also since it was after 9PM and I had planned in the morning to go to sleep at 10PM today.

### 25.04.02

- Perhaps we fell asleep too early. We were both awake by 1AM. I decided to work for an hour before returning to sleep since I was not feeling sleepy at all.
- Washed dishes. Cleaned bed. Cleaned bathroom. Returned to sleep. Woke up. Ate lunch. Processed emails in the inboxes.
- Played pickleball. Called mom.
- Worked at Sunnyvale Library. Worked on FY2 Company Story.
- Shopped grocery at Costco.
- Called dad. He was able to boost daily production of laundry machines from 200 per day to 420 per day in just 2 days. He is happy that the new management of Samsung appliances division are from mobile division.
- Worked on Company Story FY2 and Junwon Seelog D106C FIREFALL.

### 25.04.03

- At home, ate, cleaned bed. Called Korean Air to fix email address associated with the account. Jinjoo got on a call with a person on the OpenAI finance team. The position shew as interested in is already filled, but the contact invited her to ping him every few weeks to check for position openings. Very promising!
- Visited Stanford. Checked out books at the bookstore.
- Worked at Stanford Green Library. Spent 1.5H, on top of hours spent yesterday, on finishing writing just 115 words in the Dream section, but it was worth the time investment, because this section defined a framework for how we will think and tell our story moving on: using technology as a tool to attain beauty as the target, using Asian heaven and gods as analogy.
- Called mom during a stroll. Returned home.
- Purchased an airplane ticket for Korea trip. I will depart USA on 25.04.29 then depart Korea on 25.05.29.

### 25.04.04

- Woke up late. Jinjoo and I decided to live a slow day today. Started watching San Sheng San Shi Shi Li Tao Hua. That xianxia TV drama was recommended both by Jinjoo and by ChatGPT when I asked them for a recommendation.
- Took care of small tasks at desk, then went on a stroll at the park. Called mom. Sat on a chair at the pool and tried to write Company Story FY2. I felt blocked.
- Tried to return home, but the apartment fire alarm rang, and I had to exit building as soon as I entered it. Met Jinjoo outside the building. She had been woken up from her nap. Once we were back in home, I cooked kimchi fried rice using lots of oil. Before meal, I was feeling very tired, but I felt much better after the meal.

### 25.04.05

- Woke up at 3AM. Decided to stay up and work since I was having success writing Company Story FY2 after feeling blocked all day yesterday.
- Aside from a nap and a stroll, wrote all day. I am mostly done with Company Story FY2.
- Jinjoo was good to me all day today.

### 25.04.06

- I plan to finish writing Company Story FY2 today. Ranked priorities for this week: 1) moving to the new home, 2) preparing then posting Firefall marketing contents, and 3) writing Junwon Seelog.
- At the end of lunch, I read to her a news article that predicted a stock market downfall tomorrow, and she remarked that she had purchased $NVDA stocks, and remarked “Oh no! I am out of money.” I started feeling very worried and anxious. I felt overwhelmed by my body’s reaction to the fear of running out of money even when my mind was not scared by it. She clarified to me that she meant she is out of money to buy more $NVDA shares. But I spent an hour watching outside just listening to calm music. I did not feel well.
- Jinjoo was nice to me and helped me cheer up. She came to check on me several times. She suggested that we go outside. She told me later that I looked like a sad man trapped inside a prison or an old man who cannot go outside on my own so was only able to look outside through the windows.
- We visited Stanford and hiked the dish. It was pretty nice to hike for the first time in a pretty long time, getting hit by the sun ray (although we were a little bit worried about not having sunscreen on our skin), seeing greenery, seeing far, chatting with her one on one for a long time about random topics like Atolum.
- For the dinner after the hike, we ate at Zareen’s: chicken tikka masala thali with naan. It was delicious. I think Indian meal has all the elements of fine dining. After meal, we checked out a board game store. Jinjoo told me Justin talked about our Ticket-to-Ride game for days about how I ended up getting teamed up against by everybody during the game. Haha.
- At home, Jinjoo suggested that we go relax at the spa, so we did, then back at home, I suggested that we watch a movie, so we watched Apollo 13. She agreed it was a really great movie.

### 25.04.07

- Woke up feeling peaceful and positive. I think it is thanks to Jinjoo treating me especially nicely all day yesterday after I felt anxiety from fear about our financial situation in the afternoon. We had a great day yesterday hiking Stanford Dish, dining at Zareen’s and watching Apollo 13. This week will likely be stressful due to moving. I will monitor me more carefully than I monitor her and steer us away from getting into fights during the period of heightened risk until 15th.
- Today, I will catch up on lover diary, respond to Delaware tax division, then work on Firefall Marketing Campaign before tackling other works.
- Washed dishes. Jinjoo woke up. Suggested to her a plan: after move-out inspection, play pickleball, buy grocery, then work at a library. She suggested that we play pickleball and buy grocery before move-out inspection, then work at a library after move-out inspection. I had no problem with that plan, so we prepared to depart home. Cleaned bed before departing home.
- Visited Sunnyvale Pickleball Courts. Discovered that Monday mornings are packed with people and events. Visited Whole Foods Market and purchased Blue Bottle coffee beans. We did play pickleball for 30 minutes, but left when a pickleball teacher told us she needs the courts for students.
- Tomorrow, I will drive to Fremont and bring us boxes with which we can pack and move our items.
- At home, we ate lunch, played, then I took a nap. Then I woke up from the nap with vision loss. I calmly headed over to the kitchen table and swallowed 2 pills of Tylenol immediately. Then I suggested to Jinjoo that we head over to the hot pool. At the pool, I told her that I am suffering vision loss. She cancelled all her plans for the evening, and took care of me. I was very thankful that I had her with me. We watched C-Drama and played and had an unproductive but fun day focusing on my recovery. She also gave me a massage.

### 25.04.08

- Woke up feeling like mind and body are very slow. During sleep, woke up many times feeling groggy, thirsty, and in need of using the toilet.
- I felt slow in the morning, so I delayed all homekeeping responsibilities, and prioritized leaving home. We visited Stanford. I dropped off Jinjoo near Green Library, parked car at Tresidder Union, then called parents. I was so out of it today that I forgot to bring my Ahwahnee bag which contains my earphones, my library card, and my ID card. Texted Jinjoo letting her know I am unable to enter library, then worked in the Sun at Meier Green.
- Purchased [mangobotics.com](http://mangobotics.com/). In college, Jinjoo had a dream to start a company, called Mangobotics, to make robots that recycles decommissioned solar panels. During the hike at Stanford Dish on Sunday, she told me about [mangobotics.com](http://mangobotics.com/), but avoided my question about who owned it, so I sensed it probably belonged to her ex, and she confirmed to me yesterday night that it was her ex. I had first heard about her ex exactly one year ago from today, and we fought last year about it. Today, I purchased the domain, as a signal. Haha.
- It was getting cold outside, so I moved to Old Union. Finished recording the migraine episode in Fitness Episodes D99C.
- Submitted request to PG&E to transfer energy service to Cupertino apartment starting Saturday.
- Jinjoo saw my text messages and came to Old Union. We departed Stanford and ate dinner at Zareen’s. There was a comedy show going on there, so we listened for awhile. Albert Lin was pretty funny. Other comedians were not very good, so we left. At home, we enjoyed spa.
- Finished writing Company Story FY2.

### 25.04.09

- Visited Fremont. We worked at Fremont Library for several hours.
- I think the monthly high risk period started for me and Jinjoo. Jinjoo told me I am reacting sensitively to drivers and pedestrians, and I noticed from her facial expressions and behavioral reactions that she has been feeling tired and negative.
- We grabbed a cup of cherry cream matcha latte at Starbucks then strolled at Fremont Park. The park was beautiful. It was fun to chat with her. I read to her Company Story FY2. She told me she believes in my aesthetics.
- Picked up moving boxes from Brother Movers office. This is why we visited Fremont.
- Drove to Lafayette Car Wash. Stopped by Safeway on way for restroom, then ate dinner at a nearby Chipotle.
- Washed car.
- Visited Trader Joe’s for grocery shopping.
- Relaxed in spa.
- We woke up in middle of night. Ate dinner. Played. I remarked that we sleep, eat, play. She asked me what kind of paradise this is, and I laughed. She pointed out even people who are richer than us will not be as happy as us today.

### 25.04.10

- Woke up. Showered. Rested enjoying coffee. Blue Bottle Coffee is feeling especially nice today. For the next 5 days, I will focus on moving logistics, posting Firefall videos, and settling camera files. I will not try to write for Seelog or Company.
- Jinjoo woke up. We planned day. Told her gently that I am declaring a high-risk period for the next 5 days so that we can each be especially mindful to be nice to each other.
- A contact at OpenAI invited Jinjoo to meet in San Francisco for chat. I decided to commit to visiting Korean consulate during that time after driving her to San Francisco.
- Jinjoo made curry for lunch. I added coffee and it tasted delicious. We watched an episode of OEY Marriage Report that featured the husband of a disabled wife who can only blink eyes in bed, and it was an intensely sad episode.
- Washed moving boxes. They were very dusty and dirty when we got them, but I wiped them outside in the balcony with dry cloth, then disinfected using chlorine bleach, then wiped them with water wet cloths.
- Relaxed in spa.
- Worked on reporting address change.
- Started packing. Jinjoo is packing most of home, and I am packing key expensive items like electronics, documents, memorabilia.
- Considered purchasing a more powerful computer than originally planned in fear that USA tariff will increase price of computing even for 3P API endpoints. Originally considered a $1K computer but also considered $2.4K, $3.5K, and even $10K. But estimated that local computer running models at 10~20 tokens per second even if electricity is free will not be cheaper than 3P API (even if it multiples to $1.5M per 1M tokens) in less than 5Y if ever.
- Worked from midnight to 2AM. Posted video about Persistence of Memory on DELMOMA profile then a video about lamb on LASAISON profile.

### 25.04.11

- Planned cleaning for the new home. Ate breakfast. Fixed the order for the internet. Made and posted a video about ferrets on LAGASAN.
- We got codes to enter our new home in Cupertino. We cleaned surfaces using Clorox wipes.
- Jinjoo let me choose room to use as office. I picked the more private room.
- On our way back to Redwood Place, visited YMCA and toured the facility. The place looks like a great fitness center! We are excited about moving to Cupertino!
- I was tired after cleaning the new home also due to lacking sleep. After returning home, I devoured curry. I gave my mom a call then lied down on the floor to rest.
- Visited Lowes. Purchased a box of industrial container bags and a roll of bubble wrap.
- After returning home, I napped.
- After waking up, ate hacao, then packed the expensive luggage with which to move in to the new home first.
- Moved the most expensive items to Cupertino home.
- While at the Cupertino home, purchased a new phone number from Mint Mobile.
- After returning home, cleaned bed, showered, headed to bed. It is 3AM and I will wake up at 8AM.

### 25.04.12

- Showered. Washed dishes. Took out trash.
- Packed fragile items. Moved items once. Got Starbucks coffee on way to Cupertino, In N Out burger meal on way back.
- Packed frantically and finished storing away small items just in time by arrival of movers. Movers were quite efficient. While they filled their truck, I filled my car with more delicate items. I hoped to depart home in 1H after they came, but we departed after 1.5H.
- At Cupertino home, I helped them unload in order to finish moving sooner. Total time they worked was 3H.
- Decided to name Cupertino home “Supertino”.
- Ate dinner at Fish With You (Yu Ni Zai Yi Qi). Jinjoo selected the place and the dish, and dinner was delicious.
- Returned to Redwood Place. Visited spa, but it was crowded and noisy, so we returned home after about 30 minutes despite having planned to stay there for like 2H to wash away our tiredness. Returned to Redwood Place apartment unit and enjoyed bubble bath for one last time.
- We drove back with items to move as the one last run of the day. On our way back from Sunnyvale to Cupertino, at 10PM, we got stopped at every single red light until we turned right into Cupertino (the road that has Apple Park). It felt like Sunnyvale was holding me back.
- In car, Jinjoo remarked for the fifth time today that movers told her “ni de nan peng you zhen shuai”. When she remarked earlier about how she did not know even men thought I look handsome, I responded mildly, but I told her I will record it in my diary now that she has remarked five times in a single day. Haha. She remarked how people including her own family members keep saying I am handsome and worried that others who see us together might not think she is pretty enough for me. I told her not to worry, because she is piao liang.
- We returned home. Our new home. We are the first tenants to move in. We looked up at the full moon. She picked a full moon day for us to move into our new home. Moonlit courtyard felt like our own little world, like a yard in a xianxia home. I felt like we were gods who descended to human realm to enjoy humble life. It felt nice.
- I cleaned just the bedroom then collapsed.

### 25.04.13

- As soon as waking up, drove to Redwood Place. We do not even have a single toothbrush in the new home. We had to shower at Redwood Place.
- Transported fragile items.
- Ate lunch at Fish With You again. It was delicious again. We also got a lot of energy thanks to unlimited rice refill.
- After lunch, we were too late to make it to Redwood Place by our 1PM appointment with the move-out inspection technician. I have been trying to make it to the appointment by reminding her since yesterday, but she was frustrated that I was acting so stringently. I think she was planning to ask them to be flexible. She gave Redwood Place housing office a call, and asked them to move our appointment to 2PM, but they not only refused to reschedule, they even told us that we cannot be there for the final move-out inspection. I had been suspecting that the inspector was doing us a favor by letting us be there for his final move-out inspection, because we were nice to him during the preliminary move-out inspection. I was worried about getting an exorbitant amount charged. I was not worried about any particular amount. Rather, I was frustrated about an uncertainty that we could have squashed but did not squash. Anyways, mood deteriorated for us, so I went out to grab a cup of coffee for me and to bring back a cup of matcha for her.
- Walked over to the nearby shopping center. Got coffee for me at Voyager Craft Coffee, then got matcha for her at Starbucks. I only had to cross one road to get to that shopping center. Our new home is so walkable. The amount of conveniences that are within walking distance matches that of Bellevue downtown. It’s crazy that home is so peaceful, as if we are tucked away in the mountains, yet it is so walkable to all these facilities. I am filled with hope that Jinjoo will be happy while living here.
- Met Shawn the building manager. He is very friendly and he is very willing to fix any issues we brought up from stairs to bug screen to bathroom door.
- We transported items one more time from Redwood Place to Cupertino. Jinjoo asked me to set up my office. I was reluctant at first to expend my energy on unpacking rather than transporting, but I did spend some time setting up my new office, and it was pretty nice to feel at office.
- Ate dinner. We ate instant noodle and chicken nuggets in the courtyard. It was quite romantic. We watched 십리도화 on her phone.
- After dinner, I noticed that my hands were feeling numb, and I felt alienated from my body as if I am controlling this body in a first-person POV game. This is a symptom I sometimes have before experiencing migraine, so I wanted to rush to Redwood Place, because we had one last load to transport, and had to return the keys. I brought Tylenol pills as precaution but did not consume any yet, but she asked me to swallow just one pill as a precaution, so I did.
- On our way to Redwood Place, Dat and Chau texted her informing her that their engagement party in Hawaii is canceled. They are foreigners and do not want to risk leaving mainland USA amidst uncertainty introduced by Trump. It is understandable, but I guess we are now stuck with unrefundable airplane tickets to Hawaii. They will host the party in Boston sometime, so I guess I will get to visit Boston.
- When we reached Redwood Place, Jinjoo got a phone call from her father and a text message from a Vietnamese snack seller. Jinjoo asked her father to bring over hundreds of dollars worth of snacks from Vietnam, but the dad got in an argument with the seller regarding method of transaction, and now he did not want to go through the transaction any more, and the seller was angry. As soon as I parked car, she rushed out without waiting for me telling me that she needs to go home to jump on calls to resolve the matter. I was frustrated that she was prioritizing this silly matter when we had to finish moving out of a home. She spent a long time on the call and her voice was getting elevated, so I realized it will take a long time. At the same time, I saw my hands, and I saw that my right hand was red and swollen. I was not sure what was happening to my body, but my body was starting to collapse. I wanted to do my work before my body collapsed, so I started loading the car on my own without waiting for her. I finished loading the car on my own. She came out of the bedroom where she had been calling. She took care of the final inspection for us, taking photos and making sure the apartment has everything they need from us.
- I drove back to Cupertino, but I did not have energy to unload the car. I cleaned bedroom, showered, then collapsed in bed.

### 25.04.14

- Woke up at 3AM. Called parents. Due to frenzy related to moving home, I have not been able to call them in several days. Told them I like Cupertino: 1) home has isolated office space for me, 2) home is walkable to city facilities, 3) I see Apple everyday.
- After morning shower, Jinjoo asked me to wash vegetables and make salad for us. During cooking, I became very unhappy. I think it is important to me that I get to ease into the day by starting day with my own morning routine.
- Internet set up is turning out to be difficult. AT&T technician visited, 3H late, then told me that this building is not connected to AT&T fiber. I had to order internet from Comcast Xfinity. I now have to drive around to pick up a Xfinity model router and drop off the AT&T modem router. I contacted building manager to ask if he is willing to pay for price difference which will add up to be $240 at the end of 12 months. He responded that he cannot do that. He was visiting the apartment, so I talked to him in great anger, telling him the place needed to have been made habitable by Friday move-in day, yet it is Monday now, and I am losing working days due to lack of internet. I immediately visited a Comcast Xfinity store with him, then we set up the internet installation to take place as early as possible. It will be on Wednesday at noon. I told him I still prefer if he can get me $240 for the price difference I had to eat up due to switching from AT&T to Comcast, knowing he will have difficulty saying yes to it, then told him I am only willing to consider the idea he had about sharing internet between my home and another unit only if the price difference is significant. He told me he can make it at $15-$20. On Wednesday, I am going to tell him that I am willing to take the internet sharing plan if we pay $15 per month, and we control the main modem router (which will let me control the bandwidth allocation for the other home). Then, I will not only pay way less money, I will also have better internet (from 300 mbps at $55 for AT&T Fiber’s cheapest plan to 2 gbps at $15 for Comcast Xfinity’s most expensive plan). I was nice to him, then I showed anger at just the opportune time.
- I ran errand to return AT&T device, pick up storage shelves at Container Store, and gas the car. Then I picked up Jinjoo at home and drove to Ikea. While she shopped, I ate and rested in the Ikea restaurant. It was nice to be finally relaxing. I feel like I was driven mad, because I had no time to relax starting morning. I did not get a good sleep. Then upon waking up, I immediately took a shower, then as soon as I showered, I was asked to prepare lunch, then AT&T technician seemed to have arrived even before I had finished making lunch, so I hurriedly ate lunch, then AT&T technician came but the internet installation did not work out, so I had to find a different solution before end of business hours so I did not get any break, and then I finally tried to take just a 1H of break before a packed evening plan, but I was asked to depart home immediately without even 10 minutes of taking a break, and at that point I was filled to the brim without having had any break, and then I had to confront building manager about the internet. Tomorrow, I think I will need to be clear to Jinjoo that I am able to do any tasks, but I really need break times, not just for body, but more importantly for my mind.
- On way home, I tried to find a place where we can get coins for the laundry machine, but failed to find any. Back at home, we saw that the unit downstairs was left open, so we used the laundry machine in that unit. Jinjoo got frustrated that I am unable to even just run a load of laundry for her. I was not able to do anything about it though, because I was truly out of energy. I just escaped to the floor of the closet in my new office and rested in darkness. I fell asleep then woke up after several hours. After waking up, I cleaned bedroom floor, showered, then fell asleep. I had difficulty falling asleep and I stayed up until 4AM reading news.

### 25.04.15

- The new blanket Jinjoo chose for us from Ikea did not cause any allergic reactions from us. It was made out of polyester.
- As soon as I woke up and showered, I left home to escape to Cupertino Library. I need to be away from home to recover first. On a positive note, all my canker sores are cured for the first time in many weeks.
- At the library, reported address changes: canceled AT&T, canceled Lemonade home insurance, updated Fastrak, updated CA DMV, updated Stanford Alumni Directory, updated Costco, updated banks (Chase, Goldman Sachs, Citi, Apple Card, Wells Fargo), updated company bank (Mercury). I was not able to update addresses for American Express, CSC, and USCIS, because they need more info from me, so I will contact them again while I am at home tomorrow.
- Returned home then visited Chase bank to get coins for laundry.
- Left home for lunch. Ate at Marugame Udon. Got coffee at Voyager. Called parents. Talked to them about risk of Trump declaring martial law using Insurrection Law soon, and also how I became very tired due to moving and basically escaped home today. Brought home a cup of matcha latte for Jinjoo.
- Napped. Recovered perhaps half of energy, so it is a big win.
- Ate dinner with Jinjoo while watching Shi Li Tao Hua.
- Set up office. It is now 99% set up.

### 24.04.16

- Installed internet. Set up Wi-Fi name as “Supertino”.
- Drove to Ikea. Jinjoo shopped and I rested on a sofa, studying news, calling mom.
- Drove to Costco.
- Purchased 2 internet domain names: [atolum.com](http://atolum.com/), [stanfordsle.com](http://stanfordsle.com/).
- At home, worked on Atolum. It was nice to start work again.
- Played with Jinjoo.

### 25.04.17

- Woke up energetic. Showered. Declined to engage in distracting work at the start of day, and worked in office.
- The short time I spent in office before I started the day with Jinjoo was critically helpful. I informed her and noted that I will spend some time in peace in my office at the start of the day. I can handle homemaking tasks after the morning office time and before lunch time. So a perfect morning in Cupertino will be: wake up, shower, work in office, homemaking, lunch.
- Ate lunch. Drove to Sunnyvale Pickleball Center. Purchased pickleball paddles: the most expensive ones they sold.
- Visited Marina Food Market which is a nearby Chinese grocery store. During drive, Jinjoo’s younger sister informed her that her mom got furloughed at work due to negative impact on business from tariffs.
- After returning home, worked on Atolum for 5H.
- Ate dinner. Jinjoo cooked suan cai yu and it was surprisingly similar to the restaurant’s menu despite today’s dish being her first attempt. Also for some reason, today’s rice was remarkably delicious. I ate 3.5 bowls of rice.
- Washed dishes. Took out trash. Cleaned bed. Showered. Ended day at midnight.

### 25.04.18

- Sent move-in inspection info to building manager. Jinjoo will be in San Francisco next week on Monday and on Tuesday, so I will drive her there and be in SF too, so I will prepare documents this weekend and bring them to Korean consulate on Tuesday.
- I feel greatly anxious that I have not been able to spend time on work. I have no income, yet I am spending money, so I am racing to death, and there is no reason for me to hope that situation will get better since I am not spending time day to day working. I’m in despair. I need to monitor how much time I am working. Let me start annotating hours I am spending at desk. I need to spend at least 6H a day “@Desk”. If I am not spending 8H a day “@Desk” by end of this apartment lease, then I need to make drastic changes to my life. I will need to let go of everything and then start again from a blank slate, first making sure that I am getting 8H a day @Desk and then filling other hours with remaining time.
- Jinjoo came up with the idea of going to her dad’s new restaurant to save on money and energy from eating out or cooking. I rejected the idea in fear of actually losing time on the road, but I decided to make the trip especially after I found that I am not in a good condition to focus on work due to anxiety right now. Visited the restaurant. We were home 2 hours after our departure.
- As soon as we returned home, Jinjoo headed to bed for a nap. Before she entered bedroom, she made a comment telling me she wants to live peacefully without getting into a hostile relationship with the building manager. I felt infuriated that she antagonized me when I have been acting in defense of our best interest for her when the easy path for me would have been to be lenient with the building manager instead of making demands that will make her and her relatives safe and comfortable in this home. I am not even impacted much by those demands anyway. I made those demands for her. How can she be so ungrateful again and again? I cannot recollect how many times I felt so shocked by how little she thanks me and how much she blames me. I am so angry. I am so deeply angry. I do not even have any hopes of changing her at this point. I have given up on her a long time ago. I am just checking whether I am patient enough to live with her such negative traits. I entered office, but I had difficulty focusing on work. Spent about 2H catching up on lover diary.
- I went on a stroll to the Cupertino Memorial Park while listening to news podcasts. Stroll was peaceful, but I did not feel very peaceful. After returning home, I took a shower. Then I told Jinjoo that I am actually frustrated, because I feel antagonized by her remark making it seem like I am picking fights with building manager, ruining her ability to live well here, when I have been confronting him precisely for her. In fact, the demands I made in my email to him were fixing the matters that matter to her such as nails protruding in kitchen cabinets or minor details that might get her young niece hurt if she gets to visit us. After making that earlier statement telling me to stop fighting the building manager, she actually read the email I had sent him, and realized that I was actually not fighting him in some unreasonable aggressive way, but rather making reasonable demands in firm tone. She apologized to me. And I felt better. We ate food, watched San Li Tao Hua, until the end of day.

### 25.04.19

- Right before falling asleep last night, Shawn sent me an email that infuriated me. He told me he will aim to resolve red-level problems that I marked to be related to safety, but only will discuss with landlord about orange-level problems that I marked to be related to comfort (but these problems included matters like pests), and did not offer to make things right about blue-level problems. And then he told me I can choose to join their internet plan. What? He told me he will join our internet plan. Now we are in a 12-months contract with Comcast Xfinity. I was furious. I sent him an email detailing the timeline of how he threw me under the bus on this internet matter by getting his own internet set up after our joint Comcast store visit during which he gave me a different information about internet sharing plan. The information he gave me before, during, and after that store visit, stayed consistent, but his actions were completely divergent. I sent him an angry email urging him to reduce confusion.
- I woke up near noon. By time I got ready to start the day, potential tenants were visiting the property to assess the units. I played a loud music and started assembling the Ikea Billy bookcases that Jinjoo purchased this week to use in the living room. I am pretty sure those visitors are going to choose to live here. Assembling the 2 bookcases was not too difficult since I had assembled the exact same ones in Redwood Place 1.5 years ago, but installing them proved difficult, because the living room floor was uneven. I made the bookcases stand up on the floor, then found that the bookcases slant forward, ready to collapse on the person in front at any moment. We had to visit Target to get tools to fix the problem, but the tools were not enough, so we had to visit Home Depot to get even more tools. It took away my entire afternoon today.
- In the evening, dad wanted me to help him prepare questions for his trip to Europe. He is going to visit Germany, United Kingdom, Sweden, and Finland, over the course of about 15 days, with other top executives in Samsung Home Appliances division, to acquire Europe’s biggest HVAC company. Flakt sells HVAC not just for residential buildings but also for data centers and factories like semiconductor factories that need perfectly controlled air. But the production process and plans seem distant from ideal. I was on a call with him for hours, catching up on the context, understanding what he wants to ask, understanding the manufacturing process contexts, and writing them in English and then translating them back into Korean. After I sent him the finished questions in a table, with annotations for how important each question is and when and where to ask which questions, he told me edits he want made to the questions, and I told him I will work on the questions tomorrow since it is already midnight and I have another important task to do related to our home.
- To my surprise, Shawn did not respond to my email today. I was furious. I thought about what I am going to do to him to make him act. Right now, I cannot expect him to be acting quickly, because his inaction causes me pain, but his inaction causes himself no pain. I am going to flip it. I need to get in a position where his inaction causes himself pain every single moment he has not finished resolving the matter. I am going to take actions within legal limits by putting up a poster that has a link to a website, and including photos and text descriptions of all the bad things we encountered while living here, so that visitors can see. I was furious that he acted dubiously, costing us hundreds of dollars in internet bill, whereas it would have costed him nothing to do things the right way. My parents urged me to take a moment to stop and think about what outcome I am trying to get from this. They were trying to tell me the input work is not worth even the most ideal outcome. So I realized what to drive towards. Only a week after we moved in, he decreased monthly rent for units in this apartment by hundreds of dollars. I am going to email him to forget about the internet sharing since I want nothing done in concert with him at all. He can operate within his legal limits, not acting promptly, not making things right, since he is not legally required to do so, but I am going to put up this poster, which will be visible to the visitors, for as long as I want, for as long as I feel like things have been made right. He still needs to rent out 5 units, which means he will be losing $15K every month for as long as the problem is not solved, or $3.75K per week. If he voluntarily offers to decrease our rent by what will total to $3K in reduction over the 12-months period, my anger might be addressed. With the new desired outcome that changes the comparison between input work and possible outcome, my parents withdrew their rejection. I stayed up all night preparing and publishing that webpage on [ParkCircleReview.com](http://parkcirclereview.com/) ([parkcircle.com](http://parkcircle.com/) was not available and I decided to go with a neutral sounding name after also considering more aggressive names like [ParkCircleIsHell.com](http://parkcircleishell.com/).) I wrote to him a long email, never stepping over the boundary, never making it a threat or a blackmail, only showing my frustration and stating true facts and opinions. The war has started. And now that I started the war, I need to win. After I had discussed the plan with my parents, of course I first went to Jinjoo and explained to her what I am thinking. We discussed extensively, then Jinjoo spent an hour thinking on her own. She is a stakeholder. She will be impacted by my actions. Her opinion shall matter at least as significantly as mine in our house, and when it comes to home-related matters, perhaps even more. She initially told me she is willing to support me whatever direction I choose, and I told her that I am accustomed to seeing my dad first race out while my mom holds him back thereby showing people what we want collectively without starting full-on wars, so I told her I might be biased to racing out, and I need her to consider carefully. Anyways, she gave me her decision which is to go start that war with him, and I did start that war with him.

### 25.04.20

- Jinjoo woke up briefly at near 7AM, after I had finished preparing all the writings to send to Shawn. She edited, approved, then we sent it over to him. Without waiting for the big papers to arrive, we also prepared two small papers (U.S. Letter), wrote down “Our experience living here so far. [ParkCircleReview.com](http://parkcirclereview.com/)”, then put it up on our front door as well as on our window facing the garden. I woke up a little after 11AM. To my surprise, again, Shawn had not sent me any emails. Okay. So be it. Now, the tables are set up the way I like negotiations. He can be inactive for as long as he wants. Now, his inactions cost me nothing. And my inactions will cost him dearly every single minute. Clock is ticking, against him now.
- In the morning, I spent about 30 minutes in the office, catching up on diary records since yesterday was too packed for me to spend time reflecting. Then we headed out to visit Jinjoo’s dad’s restaurant again. At the restaurant, we ate a noodle dish and a beef dish, then brought back the ban trang snack that Jinjoo’s dad brought for Jinjoo and her siblings.
- In the car on our way to Jinjoo’s dad’s restaurant, I received an email from Shawn the building manager. He was aggravated and made the mistake of including a vague threat that I did not miss. He wrote long, point by point, but I sent a short response, telling him I received his response containing the threat. We agreed to meet at 5PM in person. I called my parents before the meeting to discuss plans. During the meeting with Shawn, he agreed to take care of all my problems, and caved in to all my demands. I knew that I technically had the power to further break him, but I felt like doing so would be cruel since he is already bending to my will. I ended the meeting without promising any actions from my end, telling him that I am just very tired, then called parents for an hour while he finished up home repair works with a repairman in the unit with Jinjoo, and made a decision to suggest to Jinjoo that I forgive him at this point. I talked to her over dinner. She agreed with my points that our goal has always been to establish a nice home for us to live in, and we just want to get along with the building manager as long as alternative approaches are not needed to get things fixed and to make home in the condition that we find pleasing. Anyways, I shall forgive him.
- Ate dinner. Installed doors on Ikea Billy bookcases thereby completing the furnitures.
- Showered. Rested while recording the day in diary. I will just finish helping dad prepare the questions for his Europe trip, then call it a night. I am very very tired. I got a lot done this weekend. Home is made livable. Home feels finally in a good condition.

### 25.04.21

- When building manager was visiting property, grabbed him to shake his hand and inform him that I am pacified.
- Checked timeline for military service paperwork. Must be done after M351, so cancelled plan to visit tomorrow.
- Visited San Francisco Climate Week event that Jinjoo planned. Drove to Mountain View then carpooled with Jinjoo’s contact: Banu. I helped out with the event with various tasks like carrying heavy items, setting up posters, and guarding the entrance. During and after the event, Jinjoo’s contacts continued to tell her that I am handsome and kind, so she was happy and proud.
- After returning home, I was very tired, but I still got on a call with dad and helped him with preparing for his business trip to Europe. I understand that it is important to him, so I was happy to help.
- I do feel like I am stretching very thin on energy. I need to rest soon. I discussed with Jinjoo a plan for tomorrow. I will wake up, not even shower, drive her to the nearest Caltrain station, come back home, then rest.

### 25.04.22

- Woke up at 5AM due to a nightmare. Did not feel like returning to sleep. Shallow sleep might be due to drinking alcohol yesterday.
- At office, started planning Manglasabang.
- To the best of my ability, helped Jinjoo prepare for her meeting with OpenAI. I studied the AI data center research report from her contact from Stanford GSB who is the director of renewable energy at JPM. I gave Jinjoo fashion feedback. When she even wanted me to lend her my bag, I felt like I was pushed too far, but she sensed it and withdrew her ask, although I told her I prepared the bag for her to grab in front of our closet. I drank coffee so that I can drive safely to Palo Alto Caltrain Station.
- Drove to a McDonald’s at Menlo Park. Jinjoo’s original plan was to arrive at San Francisco 2H early, then spend the time learning about data centers. But since I had studied the data center paper and was going to teach her about data centers, she no longer needed to get on an early train. So her plan was to eat food while I taught her. I gave her a concise lecture. She finished eating then took notes. But she got a text message from her OpenAI contact that he is cancelling the meeting at San Francisco, because he had a meeting in South Bay and was not going to be in SF in time. I asked her to text him that she is actually in South Bay now, so he can still meet her today, but he responded hours later that he is actually on his way to San Francisco. I am concerned that OpenAI seems to be hiring talents who have difficulty executing very basic tasks. I was worried she will be disappointed, but she took it well enough, and I told her today was a good opportunity for her to catch up on data center knowledge anyway. The data center paper was also very good. It divided the data center infrastructure value chain into categories of players. She has been asking me about what I think about small data center developers such as Crusoe, and I had been intuiting that I have at most 30% confidence in them, but after reading the paper which argued that the small data centers are only getting demands now due to large data centers not having had the time to catch up to sudden surge in demand, I now have at most 5% confidence in the small data center developers. As for Jinjoo, I think, based on what she has been telling me about what she wants, I told her I think she will be most interested in 1) buyers in the data center market (aka AI applications such as OpenAI that has ChatGPT, or Apple), 2) large data center developers (e.g. Microsoft), and 3) differentiated data center developers such as Cerebras with its own differentiated semiconductor chip technology. Or perhaps Softbank Energy which works with large data center developers.
- Visited Stanford Shopping Center to visit Apple Store and pick up my Mac Mini. Visited Hermes store to check out products. She asked me to note that she looked good in orange scarf. Haha.
- Visited San Jose Crab Bay. Played Wordle while waiting for cajun seafood. She got the answer “ARTSY” and remarked that it was her first time finding the answer in this game.
- After returning home, ate food, spent time with Jinjoo, then took a long nap. I was so tired that I was struggling in pain during sleep. Woke up after a 4H nap.
- Registered to vote for the upcoming election for the President of Korea.
- Installed Manglasabang.

### 25.04.23

- Showered. Drank a cup of coffee. Washed dishes. Took out trash. Drank of cup of cold saffron tea.
- At desk, worked on MLSB. When I got tired, I basked in the Sun in the garden.
- Moved car from parking at car port to parking on street to let construction workers work on private driveway asphalt tomorrow.
- Visited YMCA. Joined membership.
- We strolled at the Cupertino Memorial Park, checked out the pickleball courts. I was getting tired and hungry. She did not want to eat out, and we spent a lot of time in Target, so I was dead tired by time we got home. I was barely able to sense what was happening. I ate hurriedly, then headed to bed.

### 25.04.24

- Had a dream in which I was very hungry and I met another hungry friend, then Jinjoo suggested that we go to her dad’s restaurant since we can eat enough there. Woke up. Told her about the dream. She told me her dad is departing USA today. We decided to eat at her dad’s restaurant one more time, then head to Stanford.
- At her dad’s restaurant, we had a great lunch. Pho was delicious. But we spent too much time there. When we were done eating, her dad told her that he is in the car on his way to the restaurant. I was happy to wait since it is his last day in USA and we ate at his restaurant. But he did not arrive for a pretty long time, at least over 30 minutes after the message. Then when they did come, we chatted a little, but Jinjoo wanted to stay with her dad. We did stay. But I knew in real-time that our day was breaking down, not only because I am losing time and energy, but because she is completely running out of energy. She started yawning again and again during the conversation with her dad. We left the restaurant, but we did not have energy at all to go work at Stanford. We headed home. We left home a little after noon, and it was nearly 5PM by time we were home. And then we were out of energy, so we had to take a nap. It was 8PM by time I was awake again, and even then, I had no energy, so I did not get any productive work done today, until midnight at which point I decided to just sleep. At night, Jinjoo repeatedly told me to give her a shoulder massage. I was no less tired than her. She did nothing today. I at least drove for over an hour. But I did give her a massage for 15 minutes or more. But then she wanted massage on the other side too, and I was so done with her. I just turned away and decided to sleep so that I will at least have energy tomorrow to work.

### 25.04.25

- Woke up feeling unhappy about our lifestyle. I am getting no time to work. Jinjoo let me pack in 2H of work before departing home. In recent days, I thought to myself again and again that I am hungry and cold and tired. I feel like life will not get better at this rate. I do not have confidence that living with her can be done without me feeling miserable feeling hungry and cold. She hates cooking. She has different temperature preferences. She is not doing what she can to help me feel comfortable.
- Visited Stanford Faculty Club. A contact of Jinjoo at Stanford Earth is retiring. During open mic, Jinjoo squeezed out the courage to speak in front of the crowd to speak for Deana. Jinjoo cried.
- I walked over to Jinjoo to tell her she did a good job. After calming down, she wanted to go catch up with people. I told her I can either follow her or let her go on her own. She told me to focus on eating food since this is my dinner. I was let down greatly. The event only had finger foods, and the only food that contained real meat was crab cake which was a finger food. She also knew this fact since she had been eating before giving the speech. I feel like I have been feeling hungry day after day this week. I left room in order to not disturb her during the important event. After the event, I thought about how to best take out my emotions from the feedback, then just told her that I have been feeling hungry, and also cold, on many days this week, and I think we should keep us fed well. She told me to eat more during lunch so that I do not feel hungry. I have no idea what she is talking about. She has been saying this repeatedly lately: telling me that I do not eat a lot during daytime. Let alone the truth that I have had a habit of eating hotel breakfast buffet in the mornings and that I have been feeling hungry on many mornings during last year of living with her due to her waking up quite later than me and not cooking, how is this remark in any way related to me feeling too hungry. Perhaps she is claiming that I am too hungry by time we need to be eating dinner, because I did not eat enough during lunch. Only records can reveal the truth. I will start recording when I am hungry then.
- We worked in Old Union. I wrote lover diary. I complained about how I have been feeling hungry at home on a call with my parents. She got on a call with her family members then complained about how I complain about hunger. She told me to go to the kitchen and get myself food when I am hungry and to turn on heater and heated blanket when I am cold. As for temperature control, she complained about heated air and heated blanket when in Redwood Place. As for food, it was supposed to be her responsibility, one of the last remaining responsibilities on her plate after we shifted duties one by one from her plate to my plate. She is a terrible homemaker. I do not trust her with taking responsibility for my home. I do not feel like I am losing anything. I have not been getting food. If she stops giving me food due to fighting, I am not losing anything.
- After I returned home, I worked in office. Wrote 입주 episode, about the process of moving in, including the order of items I moved and the order of tasks I performed to set up the new home as well as the episode of fighting the building manager, in Seelog D107C PALACE. I worked in office until 2AM.
- Jinjoo cooked then ate dinner as soon as returning home. I just worked all evening in office without eating, without even going out to the living room, only using bathroom and taking a shower in the middle of the work session. I had not eaten enough food today, even before dinner, but I am too angry at her to eat any food she prepared tonight.

### 25.04.26

- Drove to Fremont alone and returned moving boxes. I was so hungry that I suffered headache and dizziness and hand numbness.
- After returning home, tried to work on Atolum at desk, but body was shaking and mind was unable to focus. Decided to rest in bed.
- Tried to rest, but I was unable to rest well or sleep deeply. I felt shaky and cold. Did get some delirious sleep. Woke up after 1.5H.
- I lied in bed next to Jinjoo, but Jinjoo sent me a text message telling me that she can hear my belly growl and to go eat out if I do not want to eat anything at home. I was so appalled that her reaction was that instead of having any concern for me.
- Called parents. Based on their advice, I think it will be a good idea for me to clarify to her that I am angry at how she told me to go feed myself. I am not dissatisfied about her food at all. Sent her a text message.
- Played pickleball with her and Silvia and Cindy. Then we got desserts at Pints of Joy.
- After returning home, watched Shi Li Tao Hua with her.

### 25.04.27

- As soon as waking up, Jinjoo asked me to go clean the dishes. I was surprised and asked even before taking a shower, and she said yes. I told her we do not have any reasons to rush. We can follow normal morning routine. She told me she wants to cook and wants the kitchen cleared. I cleaned kitchen. I washed all the dishes I could see. She came out and she was annoyed that I did not clean the containers containing food. I did not wash them, because they had food and I was not sure what she wanted done with them, but she has had a tendency to reach extreme anger rapidly when she has an idea and others do not understand her thoughts without her explanations and she hates explaining what she is thinking when such occasion arises. I washed them, but I waited her to depart kitchen. Now she was furious that I was waiting for her to leave the kitchen when she was just there for water. I did not engage and just smiled silently while waiting, then cleaned rest of kitchen after she left. I recorded her irritability. If our fight from two days ago was also related to her irritability, then I expect her irritability to last for 3 to 5 more days. Oh no. I am departing in 2 days. What to do… Do I try to spend time with her, for example by visiting Cupertino park festival, or do I stay clear of her way? Oh no… Why now… I only have 2 more days left in USA before my month-long trip to Korea. She asked for a house meeting. I considered just suppressing my complaints until departing USA, but I guess I’ll have to tell them today.
- I angrily showered then prepared notes to discuss with her during the house meeting.
- Drove to San Jose Casa Villa for lunch. Ate molcajete, and Jinjoo also asked for Mexican mole sauce so that I can taste it. The food was decent, but I felt like I was getting crushed due to the stress of unhappy love relationship. As soon as we finished eating, I only wanted to return home and sleep, so I did return home then sleep.
- After nap, spent an hour in bed, then an hour in shower. Cut nails. Did random tasks in office just hiding away from her.
- She told me food is ready. We ate together. Watched Shi Li Tao Hua together. But when she asked me whether to start the house meeting, I ran away, entered my office, and locked up the door. I was not able to focus on any work today, so I just distracted myself collecting foods and beverages into Dining Menu D106C.

### 25.04.28

- I just have one more full day in USA before my trip to Korea. Airplane departs at noon tomorrow, so I need to depart home in the morning. Today, packing is top priority. As for conflict resolution, I am not very interested in conflict resolution. I am in fear and pain. If she wants to me to drive her to a Costco so that she can stock up for my vacancy, I am willing to do so as long as she is willing to not inflict pain on me, but if not, I am okay leaving her, especially since there are stores in walking distance and she has friends who can drive her to Costco.
- She wanted to talk, but I did not want to. Immediately after waking up, I napped again, in order to avoid her. She wrote her complaints then sent them to me. I told her I just want to survive one more day then go to Korea. I have given up on her. I see no point in suffering pain to fix her, because she will not be fixed, and I will be pained.
- Ate lunch on my own. Called parents while sitting outside in the courtyard.
- Packed for trip to Korea.
- Jinjoo cooked dinner for me. We ate together.

### 25.04.29

- Woke up. Showered. Packed last items. Ate breakfast with Jinjoo. Left home. In the car to the airport, I felt carsick due to bad driver.
- San Francisco airport was quite empty. I was able to check-in at the Korean Air counter without waiting, and the counter staff told me that no one else is sitting on my aisle in the airplane today. Barely a line at the security check. I arrived at the airport 2.5H before the flight, and I had 2H left after reaching the gate.
- Airplane was empty. No one sat on my aisle. Airplane seats were also newly furbished. I checked out their catalog and magazine.
- Ate salmon bibimbap. Drank white wine. Watched White Lotus. In retrospect, drinking alcohol is a foolish behavior on an airplane since it induces headache and makes it impossible to use Tylenol.
- The White Lotus was a pretty fun show to watch. It is a show without a single central plot about guests staying at an luxury resort in Hawaii. The show was pretty fun. I don’t think I’ll remember it in a month, but I will give it a rating of “recommended” in Seelog. Also thought about what I want to do while I’m in Hawaii.
- During past trips, I thought about Jinjoo and wrote letters to her. But during flight, I did not spend much time thinking about her. This is a healthy natural progression. If she keeps me happy, I will be relieved and not think about her. If she keeps me unhappy, I will be tired and not think about her. In either case, during the year of trying to live together, I did what I can to try to change what I can change about her, so the rest are what I must accept or find unacceptable. This trip, I think I will not be writing any long letters to her, resorting only to occasional short messages, not only for my own productivity, but also because she has asked me to stop writing letters to her many times in the past.

### 25.04.30

- Landed in Korea. Brushed teeth. Got luggage. Then met mom. Ate 칼국수 for dinner, then drank a cup of Starbucks coffee to get enough energy until reaching home. On the airplane, I was able to even lie down thanks to having the entire row of seats to myself, but I was hit by a headache and felt unwell. Bus to Gwangju was over 4H, but the seat was big and comfortable. I fell asleep for the first 2H. I got woken up at the rest stop. I stayed awake for the last 2H. I ideated what to do while in Hawaii. I shall consider learning diving or sailing.
- After reaching Gwangju bus terminal, took a taxi to home. Gwangju looks like a modern city with high-rise apartments just like other cities in Korea. The taxi driver asked me “어디로 갈까요?”, but I was not able to understand him on the first try, because 경상도 people like I say “어↓디↑로 갈까요?” but people here in 전라도 say “어↑디↓로 갈까요?” I am able to understand them when I hear well, but I was surprised that on the first try, I was not even able to guess what he was saying. Perhaps I was taken aback by unexpected dialect. Haha.
- Home is nice. I showered. Fell asleep.
### 25.05.01

- I was able to sleep well from 1AM to 7AM. In the morning, showered, studied news in the living room, then ate breakfast that mom cooked for me. Entered office with coffee to work for 3H.
- Set up phones. Dad gave me a Galaxy S25 Ultra 1TB. It is very heavy. I am considering using it only as a camera then as a home device. I also found a Galaxy Z Flip 6 in Mint color that is unopened. I will use this device as the primary phone for my Korean phone number. I left a Galaxy S23 here to use as an exit node for my Tailscale private network.
- Ordered an airplane tag using a gift card mom had.
- 어머니와 점심 먹으러 집 앞 롯데마트에 갔다. 알밥 카츠정식과 청국장 비빔솥밥을 먹었다.
- 폴햄에서 옷을 구매했다. 하와이에서 입을 만한 얇고 시원한 옷들을 샀다. 하늘하늘해서 마음에 든다.
- 롯데마트에서 음식을 구매했다.
- 가이아 헤어에서 채린 미용사님한테 헤어컷 받았다.
- SKT 가게에 가서 유심 잠금 해제했다.
- 집에서 저녁 식사 후 샤워 후 침대에 누웠다. 아톨룸 일은 내일 시작해야겠다. 시차 적응 중이라 오늘은 너무 피곤하다.

### 25.05.02

- Woke up at 5AM. Showered. Played Mabinogi Mobile. Ate breakfast. Studied news.
- I wanted to take a nap in the morning due to jet lag. Mom suggested that I go stroll at the park or the shopping mall so that I can try to wake up and then sleep if and only if I am feeling sleepy even after the stroll. I thought it was a good idea. We departed to Lotte shopping mall.
- Purchased an aqua mint greenish blue denim jeans and shirts at a Korean contemporary fashion brand called Customellow. I like it. When I first saw me wearing it in the mirror, I felt like looking at a K-POP star.
- Came up with the idea of calling my app BOGAM for the korean term 보감 for treasure book that records information to pass down as treasure. Then came up with an English name for it: Bureau of General Anthropological Media for [bogam.org](http://bogam.org/) for now, then later will be Book on General Anthropological Matters for [bogam.com](http://bogam.com/). Purchased [bogam.org](http://bogam.org/).
- Assessed One Stack again but decided again that it is not yet ready for a commercial application.
- Got a refund for ChatGPT Pro from OpenAI.
- Worked at desk for 2H. Coded Bogam.
- Studied news then fell asleep.

### 25.05.03

- After breakfast, studied news while digesting, then climbed stairs for exercise.
- Left home to visit a dentist, but the hospital refused to fix the front tooth.
- Rode a taxi to visit a police station to renew driver's license but the taxi driver informed us that the police station is taking a day off today and also that it is better to go to a driving school to renew the license since all steps can be done in one place. We changed course to a furniture store then purchased an office chair for me to use everytime I visit my patents. We visited YP books and KB books.
- Ate lunch at 원할머니 보쌈 near home. Walked home. On way home, took a wrong turn and ended up visiting one of the three Samsung factories in Gwangju.
- Fixed Centum in production. Server address configurations were done incorrectly.
- Waited for dad but fell asleep.

### 25.05.04

- Collected study targets by reviewing photos of interesting books I captured yesterday at bookstores.
- Mom and dad woke up. Dad has to depart home again to go to Suwon to finish Samsung's acquisition of the European HVAC company called Flakt Group. Ate breakfast together. Told dad about Bogam business idea. Dad wanted to use ChatGPT Plus, so set it up on his phone and showed him how to use the features.
- Kang family arrived. Dad departed. With Kang family, we departed to Mokpo.
- 목포에선 천지수산이란 이름의 횟집서 점심 식사했다: 참돔, 전복, 조개, 낙지 호롱이, 소라, 멍게 등. 식사 후 카페서 커피 및 팥빙수. 그 후 왠 판옥선을 겹쳐 올려 지은듯한 건축물까지 산악 후 바다 따라 걷다 차로 복귀 후 집까지 왔다.
- 집에선 야식으로 교촌치킨 먹었다.

### 25.05.05

- 가족들과 즐거운 하루를 보냈다. 나의 귀국, 어린이날, 부처님 오신날, 모두 겹쳐 연휴가 생겼고, 연휴도 즐기고 나도 보러 가족이 모였다.
- 아침에 일어나 샤워 후 아침 식사로 소고기 등심을 먹었다. 서영이네가 도착하길 기다리며 동하테레 사프론 커피를 만들어주며 가르쳐줬다. 동하에게 릴랜드 스탠포드 전기를 얘기해주었다.
- 서영이네가 도착한 후 함께 산책하며 대화하고 사진 촬영했다. 동하에게 클레이튼 크리스텐슨 교수의 이론인 혁신가의 딜레마에 대해 알려준 후 베르나르 아르노 회장이 브랜드를 써서 기술 업계의 장기적인 시점에서 수익 마진 제로에 달하게 되는 굴레에서 벗어났단 얘기을 해줬다. 나무숲길, 꽃밭, 걸으며 가족 사진들 찍었다.
- 아버지께서 우리와 저녁식사를 함께 하기 위해 운전기사도 따로 미리 보낸 후 수원에서부터 기차를 타고 광주로 오셨다. 집에서 아버지를 기다리는 동안 내가 미국 생활하며 여행했던 사진들을 가족에게 보여줬다.
- 아버지께서 도착하신 후 다 같이 걸어서 집 앞 한정식 식당인 만선당에서 저녁 식사 했다. 식당으로 가는 길에 말씀하시길 아버지께선 저녁 식사 후 다시 수원으로 올라가야 한다 하셨다. 회장님과의 회의가 모래로 당겨졌기 때문이라 말씀하셨다.
- 집에 돌아와 아버지께 가족 모인 김에 와인 한잔 마시는 것이 어떨지 말 꺼내봤더니 아버지께서 좋은 샴페인이라며 돔 페리뇽을 한 병 꺼내 열어주셨다. 이모부들께서 찾아보니 그 한 병 가격이 백만원이라고 했다.
- 음악 제작 인공지능으로 세자매송 노래를 만드니 다들 재밌어 했다. 아버지께선 최대한 함께 있으신 후 11시에 출발하셨다. 새벽 2시 넘어 호텔 도착하셨고, 아침 7시에 회사에서 회의 참여하셔야 했다.

### 25.05.06

- 아침에 일어나 샤워 후 다들 아침 준비 중일 때 커피를 만들어 제공했다. 봉철이 이모부하고 양묵이 이모부한테 사프론 오트밀크 카페라떼를 만들어 드렸다. 두분 다 사프론 향과 맛을 처음 느껴보셔서 사프론에 대해 잘 설명 드렸다.
- Jinjoo texted me informing me that her contact at SoftBank Energy texted her inviting her to SoftBank Energy office in Redwood Shores to discuss job. Jinjoo thanked me for mentioning to that contact and other people at the event that she is searching for her next job.
- 아침 식사로 식당에 가서 청국장과 오리탕을 먹었다.
- 식사 후엔 전라도 산림연구원에 가서 잘 가꾼 나무들 사이로 산책했다.
- 산책 후엔 도곡에서라는 독특한 카페에 갔다. 쑥으로 만든 케이크와 음료수가 독특했다.
- 집에 돌아오자마자 다들 짐을 싸서 출발했다. 나는 이틀 동안 혼자 있게 됐다.
- 며칠 동안 생각했던건데 이제 혼자 있게 되니 생각 정리 할 수 있었다. 진주랑 이별을 계획했다. 이미 한 계절 넘게 전 함께 하고 싶단 결심을 잃었고 그 후로 한 번도 마음을 돌릴 계기가 없었다. 그래서 이제 이별로 나아갈 단계에 들어갈 때가 되었다. 만난지 1.5년은 넘었고 2년은 되지 않았는데, 이제 막 한 해 더 함께 살 집에 들어갔으니, 만난지 2.5년이 될 때를 기한으로 잡아야겠다. 지금 생각들을 정리해두고 만약 1년 가까이 되는 시간 동안 마음 변할 일이 없다면 종료하기로 했다.
- 피자 주문해서 먹으면서 오은영 매리지리포트 시청했다.

### 25.05.07

- 아침 식사로 어제 주문했던 피자, 점심 식사로 새로 주문한 치킨 먹었다.
- Purchased a subscription to Anthropic Claude Mac using Apple Card and a new Google account junwonbogam.
- Worked on developing Bogam technology.
- Exercised for 1H by strolling 3KM along the river in front of home.
- Watched OEY Marriage Report.

### 25.05.08

- 일어난 후 부모님께 어버이날 문자 보내드렸다. 그 후 몇시간 동안 보감 프로그래밍 했다.
- 어머니께서 리움미술관과 호암미술관에 후원자 초청 행사가 있으니 갈까 물어보셨는데, 시스템 오류로 인해 늦게 신청해서 대기명단에 들었다.
- 집에 있는 반찬으로 간략하게 식사한 후 바깥 공원으로 산책 나갔다.
- 집에 돌아와 오후 내내 보감 개발했다. 석양 즈음 5KM 산책. 뿌링클 치킨 시켜 먹었다.
- 어머니께서 기차 타고 집에 도착하셨다. 아버지와 통화했다.

### 25.05.09

- 아침 샤워 중 휴대폰을 써서 컴퓨터로 원격 접속한 후 클로드 코드에게 지시해서 몬타지를 개발했다. 샤워 시작할 때 빈 폴더 하나 있었는데, 샤워에서 나올 때는 이미 몬타지가 제작한 영상이 준비되어 있었다. 와우. 정말 휴대폰 하나만 써서 쉽지 않은 기능을 하나 만들어냈구만. 대기업 CEO가 숙련된 엔지니어한테 문자로 지시했어도 샤워하는 시간 안에 이 정도 프로그램이 뚝딱 완성되었을 것 같진 않은데 참 내 생산성이 지금 엄청나다. 정말 샘 알트만이 말한 대로 1조원 가치를 지닌 1인 기업이 가능할지도 모르겠다.
- 오늘은 식사로 등갈비 찜을 먹었다.
- 어머니와 거실에서 오은영 리포트를 시청했다.
- 보감 개발했다.
- 어머니와 거실에서 사랑이와 유토가 홍콩 여행가는 영상을 시청했다.

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### 25.05.10

- Woke up. Showered. Ate breakfast. Lost temper when mom mentioned, casually, whether I have prepared eating utensils for Jinjoo, because Jinjoo had lost temper that I do not do so. I told mom I plan to break up with Jinjoo if all stays constant. I asked Jinjoo about couple relationship counseling sessions she mentioned. We can get 12 sessions thanks to her sister's insurance.
- Dad’s important presentation to chairman is today. Mom was curious and asked me many times today why dad is not sending us any text messages.
- Mom gave me Graff cosmetic products (perfumes and lotions) that Korean Air private jet gave dad. He rode so many times that mom had a bucket of them.
- Purchased a Casio diver watch. Thanks to mom.
- After promising me that he will be home toady, dad returned home 3 minutes before midnight. His presentation at Samsung Seocho was a huge success. He came back with expensive wine bottles he got as gifts.

### 25.05.11

- 아침 기상 후 방에서 보감 일 잠시 했다. 어머니께서 아버지 깨울까 계속 물어보시는데 좀 더 휴식하실 수 있게 우리가 기다려드리자 제안했다. 그런데 늦게까지 주무시지 않으시고 일어나셨다. (어머니께서 깨우셨나?)
- 집에서 아침 식사 후 무등산으로 출발했다. 아버지께서 오랜만에 직접 운전하셔서 차 안이 편하진 않았다. 그래도 가는 길에 아버지께 길 안내 도와드리는 와중 차 기능도 몇가지 보여드릴 수 있었다. 무등산 가는길에 롯데백화점 광주점에 들러 폴바셋 커피를 한 잔 들었다.
- 무등산을 등산했다. 주차할 공간 찾던 중 어머니께서 꽈배기 가게를 보셔서 주차하자마자 드시고 싶어하셨는데, 가게가 윗쪽인지 아래쪽인지 기억 못 하셔서 아래로 가봤다가 위로 가서 발견했다. 가게 아주머니께서 빵을 집어주시는 동안 내가 “경성 꽈배기 찾으려고 방금 저 아래 미술관들 있는 곳까지 걸어갔다가 여기 드디어 찾아왔어요” 거짓말은 아니지만 좋게 오해하기 쉽게 얘기드리니까 표정이 밝아지시더니 그러면 좀 더 챙겨드려야겠네 하시며 빵 3개 샀는데 2개를 서비스로 주셨다. 무등산을 오르는데 산길이 가팔리지니 어머니께선 속도가 느려지시고 아버지께선 계속 빨리 걸어가셔서 어머니가 느긋하게 오실 수 있도록 필요하신 물건들을 드린 후 아버지와 산을 빨리 탔다. 어머니께서는 우리와 헤어지자마자 바로 등산 중단하시고 정심사 절에 가셔 쉬시다가 의재미술관에 가서 쉬신 모양이다. 아버지와 등산하는 동안 삼성 얘기도 하고 보감 얘기도 했다. 아버지께서 진주랑 사이가 어떤지 떠보시더니 이번 유럽 출장 중 시티뱅크에서 온 젊은 여성 컨설턴트가 참한데 앞으로 어떻게 될지 모르니 그냥 가볍게 다양한 사람들 만나듯 한번 식사해볼래 물어보셨다. 한국에서 나고 자란 아이는 미국 문화에 적응하기 어려울 것이며, 적응한다해도 적응하는 기간 동안 힘들어 할텐데 그 힘든 마음을 감당해줄 여유가 지금 창업 초기인 내게 없다고 말하며 완곡히 거절했으나 우리 문화 예의 상 완전히 거절할 수 없으니 연애 의도가 없다는 것이 명확하다면 그냥 비슷한 나이대 다양한 사람들 만나보는 의미인 선 안에선 식사 한 번은 괜찮다고 얘기드렸다. 하지만 오해 소지 없도록 또 명확히 설명드렸다. 지금 내가 어떤 여성을 만난다해도 여성 잘 만났다고 사업이 성공하게 되진 않는데, 사업이 성공하게되면 여성은 알아서 해결되니, 지금 내겐 보감을 성공시키는 일, 그리고 보감을 성공시키는 일에 방해되는 요소들을 제거하는 일에만 관심있다 얘기드렸다. 최고봉까지 반 이상 등반한 후, 어머니께서 돈을 안 가지고 계시단 점을 기억해내고, 아버지께서 긴 출장 후 몸이 피곤하시리라 고려하고, 어제 비가 와서 아직 돌 계단 위 젖은 흙이 미끄럽단 점을 감안해서, 최고봉까지 오르려고 한다면 오를 수 있겠지만 속도를 내야하고 그러면 피곤해지니 휴식을 헤치는 데다가 내려오는 길에 다리가 풀리면 미끄러지기 쉬워진다는 점을 감안해서, 정도껏 등산한 후 되돌아가자고 추천드려서 내려왔다.
- 부모님께서 몇번 맛있게 드셨단 강의리 추어탕 집에 가서 식사했다. 내 입엔 별로였다. 식사 후 아버지께선 급히 집에 돌아가 집 근처 미용실에서 머리를 깎으셨다. 그러시는 동안 어머니와 나는 집에서 휴식했다. 아버지께서 머리 깎고 오신 후 나와 아버지는 사우나에 갔다.
- 도시 안에서 가장 최근에 지은 좋은 사우나를 검색해서 아버지와 함께 갔다. 아버지께서 깨끗하고 좋은 사우나를 발견해서 기뻐하셨다. 오늘 하루 종일 그랬지만 사우나에서도 끝 없이 보감 얘기 했다. 아버지께서 오래 주무실 줄 알았는데, 역시나 수면하도록 준비되어있는 따뜻한 돌침대에서 잠시 잠드셨지만, 30분 주무신 후 깨워드려야겠다 생각해뒀는데 20분 수면하신 후 일어나셨다. 온탕, 냉탕, 열탕, 돌침대, 건식사우나, 수압마사지탕 다 잘 즐겼다.
- 사우나 후 아버지와 저녁 식사하러 집 근처 원할머니 보쌈 가게에 들렀다. 난 보쌈을 좋아해서 몇년 전부터 한국 올 때마다 한번쯤은 원할머니 보쌈 가게에 들러왔는데, 아버지께서도 오늘을 마무리 할 저녁 식사로 아주 좋았다 만족하셨다.
- 집에 돌아와 아버지께서 유럽 여행 중 찍으신 사진들을 보여주시는 동안 어머니 도움을 받아 머리 염색도 하셨다. 런던이 특히 좋아보였다. 언젠가 한번 가봐야겠다.

### 25.05.12

- Due to tiredness from hiking yesterday, woke up at 6AM. Ate breakfast with dad. After breakfast, told mom I will work for 3H in my room.
- In room, scraped art pieces on the websites of Leeum and Hoam art museums, planned day, worked on BOGAM.
- I will go to Suwon on Thursday with my parents. I plan to visit Leeum and Hoam if I can during the trip. I plan to code Bogam extensively until end of Wednesday.
- Worked on BOGAM during the day.
- Exercised by climbing stairs 2x (66 stairs) then strolling along the river to cool down.
- Dad returned home before sunset for dinner. We strolled outside.

### 25.05.13

- Worked on BOGAM.
- Dad came home late. Exercised together by climbing stairs 2x then strolling outside.

### 25.05.14

- Worked on BOGAM. Worked at Starbucks. Then at home.
- Leeum and Hoam both let us in to the events.
- Packed for trip to Suwon.
- Helped dad with filing taxes.
- Helped dad buy 100 shares of Meta.

### 25.05.15

- Woke up at 6:30 AM to depart home with dad.
- Dad was concerned about upcoming meeting. Head of Mexico firm has been refusing to show up to work. I suspect dad scolded him quite harshly even if substantiated. I think he was primarily concerned about whether he has to apologize, partly because his pride might get hurt and partly because he feels justified (aka Mexico firm head was incompetent). I advised dad to think about what he wants out of this call: making Mexico firm take actions to return to work and fix problems. But I pointed out that what they want is to discuss feelings not actions. So I recommended him to discuss emotions, thoughts, and actions, in that order. Tell them he can see they are emotionally unsettled, and give them a chance to discuss emotions. Then tell them he can keep covering their emotions with them, then move to discussing plans. Tell them now what they want is what he wants and what customers want and that is to resume churning out great products. Then explain best course of action is to formulate action plan that can be done and can fix problems. Dad took notes. But he asked he wouldn't have to say he's sorry since that'd be weak unlike a leader. I told him not only is it not needed, but it is actually hurtful. They want to discuss their emotions, how hurt they are. A leader telling them that leader's emotion is sorry, and explaining that the leader took such actions because leader was thinking this or that, all that is just about the leader, not the listener. I solved dad's problems, helping him bring Mexico firm back to work while also helping dad not bend in a way he does not want to.
- Traveled to Dongtan. Studied art during the ride. 겸재 정선 and modern arts.
- 어머니께서 맛있다고 기억하신 수제버거 가게 버거리버거에 갔다. 맛은 그럭저럭. 그런데 매장 노래가 아무래도 인공지능 생성 노래 같다.
- 오늘 하루 동탄에서 각종 병원들을 방문했다. 올해 또 한국에 올 수 있을지 없을지 모르니 일년치 의학적인 걱정들을 모두 확인해야 했다.
    - 치과: 깨진 앞니를 메타폴리스 치과 의원에서 홍진기 원장님께 수리 받았다. 생니를 최대한 보존해주시는 것이 마음에 들었다. 다음에도 여기 와서 이 분한테 치료 받아야겠다.
    - 이비인후과: 알러지 치료차 동탄 코즈 이비인후과에서 류재영 원장님께 진료 받았다. 집먼지 진드기 알러젠에 대한 내성을 기르기 위해 3년간 서서히 알러젠에 대한 노출을 늘리는 치료를 추천하셨다. 결정하고 시작하기 전 절차로 우선 알러지 혈액 검사를 다시 진행했다. 오른팔에서 피 뽑았다.
    - 내과: 나머지 각종 건강 관련 걱정거리들을 확인하기 위해 동탄 편안한내과에 들러 진료 받았다. 일단 혈액검사를 진행한 후 결과를 보고 다시 진료하기로 했다. 왼팔에서 피 뽑았다.
- 동탄 타임테라스 쇼핑몰에서 쇼핑했다.
    - 하와이 해변가 모래사장에서 신을 비치슈즈를 샀다.
    - 로가디스에서 셔츠를 4장 샀다.
- 빽다방에 방문해보았다. 피스타치오 라떼가 맛있었다. 저녁에는 해숙이 이모와 만나서 미소야라는 식당에 가서 고구마치즈돈까스를 먹었다. 메타폴리스 출발 전에 문자로 곧 출발하니 식사 함께 할 수 있다 하신 아버지께서는 나와 어머니와 이모가 식사를 마칠 때까지 도착하지 못 하셨다. 이모네 가서 아버지가 짧게 식사하셨다. 어머니와 나는 이모, 이모부, 서영이, 채영이한테 토요일 리움에 오라 초대했다.
- 수원 쉐라톤 호텔에서 잤다. 나는 호텔 스위트의 거실에서 자기로 했다.

### 25.05.16

- I was too tired to notice any discomforts during sleep. Woke up when my parents left home. Bathed. Then ate breakfast at hotel buffet eatery.
- Relaxed in hotel suite in the morning. Took a look at mental health tests. I do not think I am suffering depression or anxiety, but I may want to check on PTSD.
- Helped dad by writing a response to Head of Samsung Mexico who is refusing to show up to work, refusing to hop on a call, and now submitting a letter of resignation.
- Worked on writing Seelog D106C FIREFALL.
- 어머니와 수원 스타필드 쇼핑몰에 갔다. 크고 잘 되어 있었지만 물건을 사지는 않았다. 둘 다 피곤해서 아버지 기다리는 대신 우리끼리 지하철 타고 호텔로 돌아갔다.

### 25.05.17

- 리움에 갔다. 고려청자 조선백자 등이 있는 고미술관, 그리고 현대미술관, 둘 다 인상적이었던 작품들이 대거 국가로 넘어가버려서 리움엔 좋은 작품들이 별로 많이 남아있지 않아 아쉬웠다. 서울 로댕 미술관 관장이셨던 분을 리움이 큐레이터로 영입했는데, 그 분께서 후원자들 30명을 초대해 로댕 작품 및 전시중인 다른 작품들을 설명해주셨다.
- 저녁 식사는 함께 리움 갔던 서영이, 채영이, 해숙이 이모와 함께 양념갈비 먹었다. 인기 많은 가게라 음료도 떨어지고 고기도 떨어져서 조기 종업했다. 막판에 아버지도 오셨다. 호텔로 돌아가자마자 기절하듯이 잠들었다.

### 25.05.18

- 아버지께서 서울 강남에 위치한 호텔에서 결혼식을 참석하셔야해서 가는 길에 따라나섰다. 남부터미널에 내렸다.
- 베스트펜이란 필기구 가게에 방문했다. 5천원을 내고 입장하면 시필 용지들을 받은 후 백자루 넘는 만년필들과 백병 넘는 잉크들을 사용해볼 수 있었다. 엄청 많이 사용해본 후 딥펜과 쓸 잉크와 팬촉을 샀다.
    - 사용해본 만년필들: 몽블랑, 세일러 KOP, 세일러 프로피트, 플라티넘 센츄리, 파일럿 SF, 펠리칸 M1000-M805-M600-M400, 오로라 엡실론, 파커 듀오폴드, 워터맨, 그라폰 파버카스텔, 비스콘티 반고흐, 카렌다시. 선호: 펠리칸 M600, 오로라 엡실론, 파커 듀오폴드.
    - 사용해본 잉크들: 글입다 {이슬젖은별빛, Lost, 매화향기, Enki}, 도미너트 {고려비색, 페어리 포레스트, 호라이즌, 블뢰르 아탕쿠르, 레이크, 보그 세이지}, 디아민 {임페리얼 블루, 사파이어 블루, 아쿠아 블루, 임페리얼 퍼플, 오로라 보레알리스, 블리스, 카렌다시 {히프노틱 터콰이즈}, 모나미 {하늘 담은 호수}, 세일러 {유키아카리}, 이로시즈쿠 {맑은 하늘}
- 아버지께서 결혼식 행사 마치셨다는 소식 들은 후 남부터미널에서 고속터미널까지 지하철 타고 갔다. 아버지께 신세계 백화점 강남점에서 만나자 했는데, 알고보니 아버지께서 참석하신 결혼식이 열린 JW 매리어트 호텔하고 신세계 백화점 강남점은 같은 곳에 있었다.
- 신세계 백화점에서 아버지 쇼핑을 도왔다. 나는 인텔리젠시아 커피 한 잔 했다. 아버지께서는 빈폴과 닥스에서 옷을 구매하셨다.
- 삼성 패션 아웃렛에 가서 아버지 옷을 더 구매했다. 몰아치듯 사고나니 300만원 넘게 샀다.
- 아버지께서는 브라질 법인과 회의를 참석하시기 위해 저녁도 못 드시고 출근하셨고, 어머니와 나는 수원 스타필드에 가서 저녁 식사했다. 해피푸드라는 중식당에서 식사했는데 엄청 맛있었다. 식사 후 바로 펜필드부터 가서 며칠 전 보자마자 사고 싶다 생각했던 꽃무늬 자켓을 샀다.
- 호텔로 돌아가려고 택시를 불러봤지만 오지 않아서 운전기사를 또 불러야 했다. 아버지께서 저녁 식사를 아직 하지 못 하셔서 호텔에 돌아와 함께 치킨 시켜 먹었다.

### 25.05.19

- 호암미술관에 가서 겸재정선전을 감상했다.
- 호텔로 돌아와 피자를 주문해 점심 식사한 후 낮잠 잤다.
- 저녁엔 아버지와 춘천식닭갈비 식당에서 점심 식사했다.

### 25.05.20

- Jinjoo sent me a text message telling me that she feels sad that I no longer want to talk to her. I told her it is not that I do not want to talk to her. It is just that my body feels ill whenever I think about her, and I am going to return soon anyway.
- In an unfortunate timing for Jinjoo, I got migraine within an hour of getting a text message from her and feeling stressed.
- Suffered migraine quite badly due to slow response. I was at a cafe alone when migraine started, and I had given my Tylenol pills to my parents several days ago when they got vaccine shots. I suffered a bad headache for about 5 hours.
- 점심은 호텔 주변에서 물회 먹었다.
- 용인 운전면허시험장에 방문해서 운전면허증을 갱신했다.
- 수원역 본죽에서 점심 식사했다. 그 후 어머니께서 쇼핑 하시는 동안 벤치에 앉아서 휴식했다.
- I ordered Vitamin B supplements in case vitamim B deficiency (perhapd caused by MHTFR) is increasing homocysteine and triggering migraines.
- 아버지 퇴근 후 수원역에서 만났다. 동탄 노작골 남도연 식당에 가서 꼬막비빔밥을 먹었다. 아주 맛있었다. 그 후 바로 앞에 있는 사이렌 카페에 가서 아이스크림을 하나 먹었다.
- 양기사님께서 운전을 잘 하셔서 130KM 넘게 달리면서도 크게 흔들리지 않았다.
- 집에 돌아와 샤워 후 아버지께서 맥주 한 잔 마시고 싶으시다고 하셔서 함께 야식 먹었다. 아버지께서 내 여자친구와 잘 지내는지에 대해 또 물어보셔서 여자친구와 싸우는 스트레스로 인해 편두통 때문에 시야도 날아가고 호흡곤란도 왔다고 얘기 드렸다. 아버지께서는 어머니와 연애 중 한번도 크게 싸워본 적 없어 놀라셨다. 그냥 지금 바로 헤어지고 다른 여자랑 만나라 하시는데, 나는 내 상황에 맞춰 계획이 다 있다고 얘기드렸다. 일단 돌아가면 정신건강의학전문가 상담 받아볼 계획을 진주와 세워둔 상태다.

### 25.05.21

- 기상 후 샤워 후 커피 한잔 마시면서 영산강가 산책로를 걸으면서 실록 D107C 글을 구상했다.
- 집에서 실록 글 작성 후, 점심 식사 후, 보감 개발 후, 뉴스 파악 후 낮잠 잤다.
- 아버지와 어머니와 저녁 식사로 소고기 곱창, 막창, 대창을 먹었다. 염통과 허파도 나왔다.

### 25.05.22

- Looked into planning Hawaii trip. Chose then booked a sailing school. As for diving, discussed with girlfriend then decided that we will go snorkeling instead of diving since neither of us are keen on diving deep. We will try surfing.
- 어머니와 양동시장 가서 점심으로 양동치킨 먹었다. 꽤 맛있었다.
- 하루종일 돌아다니면서 하와이 여행 준비 쇼핑했다: 모래사장용 가방, 화장품.
- Watched Wicked the Movie with mom. Stopped watching at the end of Shiz part because mom wanted to sleep.

### 25.05.23

- Worked in room during morning.
- Ran a little bit at the nearby park.
- Developed Bogam technology.

### 25.05.24

- After breakfast, researched MTHFR using Anthropic Claude. Got recommended some nutrient supplements and medical tests. Ordered nutrient supplements.
- Had a conversation with girlfriend about my health conditions. Told her I likely have MTHFR and PTSD, but I am healthy in regards to liver, kidney, thyroid, depression, anxiety, diabetes, white blood cells, and many more. Also discussed Hawaii trip with her. Ordered items on duty free store. Purchased the cute monokini I had seen several days ago as a gift for her.
- Dad returned home. We ate dinner, then visited a local food supply grocery store. Exercised with dad while telling him about MTHFR. At home, helped mom and dad study health diagnoses.

### 25.05.25

- 아버지와 어머니와 담양 죽녹원에 방문했다. 아주 좋았다.
- 집으로 돌아와 아버지와 교촌 치킨 시켜 먹고 맛있어서 한마리 더 시켜 먹었다. 어머니께서는 아버지 출장 짐 준비 하셨다. 아버지께서 최근 자다 쥐 나신다 하셔서 마그네슘 영양보조제 사러 집 앞 롯데마트 갔다가 휴무일이라 올리브영 가서 샀다. 인공지능이 어머니한테 추천한 센트럼 실버우먼 멀티비타민 영양보조제와 밀크시슬도 구입했다.
- 저녁에는 지쳐서 일찍 마무리했다.

### 25.05.26

- 어제 마그네슘 먹은 후로부터 몸 상태가 안 좋았다. 잠들기 전에는 피곤했고, 잠든 후엔 춥다 느껴졌다. 늦잠잤고, 아침에 일어난 후에도 몸이 안 좋아서 오늘은 릴랙스하며 살기로 했다.
- 하나은행 가서 체크카드 재발급 및 대출 신청 금지했다. 요즘 통신사 정보 유출 사태로 인해 대출 신청 금지가 필요하다고 한다.
- 교보문고 가서 캘리그라피 손글씨 연습 책 사왔다.
- 집에 와 연어 회 먹었다.
- 하와이 집 빌려주시는 이경진 대표님한테 동탄에 가서 저녁 먹기로 한 약속 취소하자고 했다. 동탄에 예약 가능한 호텔이 없다.
- 여자친구하고 동거하는 동안 트라우마 생길 만큼 심하게 싸워서 호흡곤란 등 증상들을 겪었다 하니까 좀 따로 지내며 마음 편해질 때까지 회복할 필요가 있다고 말해서 올해 중 3개월 더 한국에 오기로 했다. 여자친구한테 말을 꺼내내 그러라 했고, 커플 테라피 세션 2회를 하와이 가기 전 하자 해서 예약하라 했다.

### 25.05.27

- 광주 메디체크 한국건강관리협회 건강증진의원 가서 건강검진을 받았다.
- 가이아 헤어에서 헤어컷, 볼륨펌, 다운펌 했다.
- 숲속의아침 포토스튜디오에서 여권용 증명사진 촬영했다.

### 25.05.28

- Enjoyed the last day of Korea Spring Trip. Worked on writing Seelog D106C FIREFALL and finished writing 아와니 and 소노마.
- Ate 뿌링클 치킨 for lunch.
- Mom cooked 갈비찜 for dinner for me.
- Packed for trip.
- 어머니와 석양 때 영산강 따라 산책했다. 코스모스 같은 꽃이 많이 피어있어 길이 매우 아름다웠다.

### 25.05.29

- All day yesterday, I was stressed about the prospect of returning to California and Jinjoo.
- Woke up. Ate breakfast. Packed up. Departed home. Hugged mom at the bus station. Then departed city.
- At the airport, ate lunch, drank coffee, picked up duty free, purchased Sulwhasoo cosmetics, then checked out stores.
- On the airplane, I watched The White Lotus S2. S2 was as good as S1.
- After returning home, showered, ate lunch, napped.
- After nap, ate dinner, spent time with girlfriend, strolled to the park with girlfriend.

### 25.05.30

- Woke up early. Unpacked luggage. Cooked breakfast.
- Practiced calligraphy. After the practice, I realized I was holding the pen with too much force.
- Ordered Quercetin with Bromelain. Took 2.
- Deposited cash at Chase bank.
- Exercised at YMCA. Ran.
- Finished watching The White Lotus S3. S3 was worse than S2 and S1.
- Girlfriend was nice to me. She thanked me for returning. She told me she understands I probably did not want to.

### 25.05.31

- Woke up early. Drank coffee. Practiced calligraphy. Washed dishes. Planned day. Studied sailing.
- Visited Cupertino Memorial Park with girlfriend. We exercised at the park.
- At night, girlfriend told me she planned out our Hawaii trip itinerary, so I reviewed it with her. But we ended up fighting. I dreaded about coming back to Cupertino, and we did not even last 3 days without fighting. I hate to be here. I hate to be with her. I want to get out of this life. I stayed up all night in the living room.
### 25.06.01

- Studied sailing. Napped. Called mom. Ate dinner. Swallowed nutrient supplements. Washed dishes. Took out trash. Strolled.
- Yesterday, I felt overmethylated, so I did not swallow any nutrient supplements. Today, I felt undermethylated, so I did take nutrient supplements. I felt perfect after that.

### 25.06.02

- Woke up in the morning. Cooked breakfast on my own for me. Independence begins.
- Reviewed M350. Planned M351. Practiced calligraphy. For the rest of today, I wish to spend time doing following tasks: develop Bogam program, write Seelog episodes, Costco grocery shopping, assemble dining table and chairs, study sailing.
- Exercised at YMCA. Showered.
- Attended the couple therapy counseling session. At the end, I mentioned my parents had a good marriage and are our role model, then she commented “Actually, I do not look up to his parents as much as he thinks I do. I want to have a relationship more like that of my older sister, because they embody teamwork.” And she lost me at that moment. I was mad. I told her in front of the counselor that if she thinks my parents as a team got less done than her older sister and her brother-in-law, then we are really culturally too different to reconcile. Counselor had to depart due to time. After the therapy session ended, I told her to not cook for me in response to her complaint during the therapy session that she feels like she needs to take care of me, and she responded by telling me she will leave to Seattle as early as tomorrow. I told her sure then told her to refrain from using my family’s items since she must not benefit from what she denounces. She told me she will not settle for someone like me who cannot be a team worker, and I told her she and I are too culturally different.
- Visited Costco. Returned items she had asked me, before the counseling session, to return. Purchased grocery.
- After returning home, I stored away the Costco grocery, started cooking, then dad called, so I paused cooking and joined a call with my parents. Dad had just reached hotel in Suwon after flying from New York to Korea. We discussed health especially MTHFR and how I am feeling much better already after I started taking nutrient supplements. Then I brought up that Jinjoo is packing up to depart to Seattle tomorrow. Dad told me he actually thought on the airplane, after he heard we fought and before he heard we had a bad couple therapy session, that he should suggest to me that I suggest to her that she spends several weeks in Seattle thereby taking time. So he thought it may be a good idea for us to spend some time apart. I talked to them about how I learned I want a woman who can support me and whom I can support.
- After the call, I returned home. Then Jinjoo informed me that she is going to depart to airport immediately. Instead of stopping her as I did for the past 1 year, I told her I think it may be a good idea to spend time apart while we cool down, since she suggested spending time apart on an ongoing basis and I took her advice and tried spending time in Korea and my dad also just had the idea that it may be helpful to spend time apart until we can converse more constructively. She told me she heard personality at age 30 lasts until age 50, and she has formed over her 30 years a clear idea what kind of life she wants, and it is to have a good career and a happy family, and whatever it is that I seem to be looking for, she predicted that I will not be able to find it in the US. Instead of refuting, I just told her it will be a good idea for us to chat after we get a chance to cool down. She discussed financial logistics of breaking up, but instead of confirming that we are at the end, I just told her to go spend as much time as she needs to cool down. I offered to cook so that she can eat my food before departing. She declined, telling me flight is at 6PM. I offered to drive her to the airport, but she declined. She closed the front door on her way out, but I followed her to the street and waited with her for her car to arrive then saw her leave. I did all that I can.
- Cooked mala beef for dinner while calling mom. I informed the Hawaii vacation home owner about the change in plan. Mom purchased airplane tickets for Hawaii trip. I showered, then headed to bed. It was 8PM, and I had been up since 3AM due to jetlag. What a crazy day.

### 25.06.03

- Went on a morning stroll to Cupertino Memorial Park. Listened to podcast. Studied news.
- At home, practiced calligraphy. Planned day.
- Spent time writing what I want to say to girlfriend. But did not send it to her as a letter. I might read it to her during our next counseling session.
- Transcribed recent medical examination report. Reviewed medical examination reports as well as diary records from recent months with AI. AI thinks I suffered undermethylation on about 80% of days this year so far.
- Ordered a Four Seasons beach towel.
- Napped. Ate dinner. Cleaned dishes.
- Allergic reaction in bed is much less these days than in comparison to before starting to take Vitamin B nutrient supplements.

### 25.06.04

- Reviewed diary records and calendar records in the context of methylation. Made AI analyze data and generate charts.
- Studied sailing.
- Exercised at YMCA.

### 25.06.05

- Woke up. Brushed teeth. Called parents while eating breakfast.
- Strolled to Cupertino Memorial Park while listening to news podcasts.
- Laundered beddings.
- Returned Xfinity Comcast equipment.
- Attended couple therapy counseling sessions. Jinjoo booked 2 sessions today to let me speak first and then so that she can spend a full hour speaking. I was satisfied after laying out all my complaints, but disappointed when her complaints seemed to be taking our problems much less seriously. I asked her to think about why she thinks I should stay with her when she is not willing to provide me any forms of support after she complained about providing emotional support and homemaking support. I asked her to come with an answer to our next meeting which will be on Monday next week.
- Made progress on writing Seelog D106C FIREFALL before and after the couple therapy counseling sessions.

### 25.06.06

- Woke up then felt like I have enough energy to go to San Francisco Korean Consulate to take care of military service papers. Ate breakfast while calling mom. But I learned that Korean Consulate needs online reservation in advance and they will not see me today, so I just made a visitation reservation for the Monday after Hawaii trip.
- Methylation support from nutrient supplements has been working well, so I tried adding Methylfolate. I accidentally took 2 pills instead of 1, so I will monitor me carefully today.
- Felt very dormant. Basically rested most of day.

### 25.06.07

- Felt dormant. Woke up at 5AM, but basically rested until 1PM.
- Worked on writing Seelog.
- Exercised at YMCA.

### 25.06.08

- Worked on writing Seelog.
- After lunch, enjoyed music.
- Drove to Whole Foods to return Jinjoo’s snorkeling set to Amazon as per her request.
- Called patents. Strolled at park.

### 25.06.09

- Started day with a bottle of coffee and a stroll to the park. Sky was cloudy.
- At home, washed laundry, washed dishes, ate breakfast lightly.
- Settled May living expenses. Calculation for June may be difficult due to her breaking up with me and moving out of our home mid-way through the month.
- Worked on writing Seelog D106C YOSE.
- Couple therapy did not go well. She texted me after the couple therapy ended. We had a long conversation, but I clarified to her that she broke up with me last week. I have been responding diligently to be nice and out of courtesy, but she is now a nobody to me.
- Packed for Hawaii. Called mom during the trip preparation process.

### 25.06.10

- Woke up. Ate breakfast. Called mom. Texted dad.
- Finished writing Seelog D106C YOSE.
- Four Seasons beach towels arrived just in time. Included in luggage.
- Studied sailing at home, at the airport, and on the airplane. Hawaiian Airlines provided free internet access via SpaceX Starlink to all airplane passengers.
- Landed in Hawaii. Got home. Rested.

### 25.06.11

- Woke up early. Enjoyed the sunrise. Got grocery from the Walmart store across the street from home.
- Picked up mom from the airport. Returned home. Unpacked.
- We ate lunch at Debu. Strolled past Ala Moana Shopping Center. Mom visited Ala Moana Shopping Center a long time ago with dad.
- On our way to Waikiki Beach, we saw yachts. I will be learning sailing soon!
- Reached Hilton Hotel. Purchased a pair of boat shoes at Olukai.
- We enjoyed a leisurely stroll along Waikiki. Got dinner at Poke Box in Ala Moana. Then we bought some grocery at Walmart. Then we returned home.
- I wanted to study sailing, but I was too tired and had to sleep first.

### 25.06.12

- Woke up at 3AM to finish reading the sailing textbook. Memorized textbook for the exam, then practiced knots.
- Reserved Hanauma Bay.
- Ate breakfast at home. Departed home early to visit ABC Store to buy a hat. Got a nice navy hat with sea turtle drawings and Hawaii text. On way to the sailing school, drank a cup of coffee, and purchased a bottle of water.
- Sailing lesson was much more intense than I had expected. And I was hoping to be better than the other student, but he was a student at University of Hawaii studying Oceanography. Sailing teacher was a 75 year old grandpa who had been sailing for 50 years. And the grandma was an intense sailing teacher as well. But I was somehow able to excel, even more so than the other student. I passed all parts of the exam, and got certified as a sailor! My first sailing was along the coast of Honolulu.
- After returning home, mom and I visited Ala Moana for dinner. We ordered pasta at Assaggio but the clam sauce smell was too strong for us. We left without finishing the food. We purchased vegetables at grocery stores in Ala Moana.

### 25.06.13

- Woke mom up at 5AM so that we can depart to Lanikai Beach. We ate at home, then visited Kona Coffee Purveyors, then Leonard’s Bakery, then drove around Diamond Head along the coast to get to Lanikai Beach.
- Mom and I snorkeled at Lanikai Beach.
- Returned home. Showered. Ate lunch. Then we both rested at home. Called dad. Told him about sailing lesson.
- Reserved Ama Ama at Disney Aulani and Noe at Four Seasons.
- Strolled to Royal Hawaiian Center.
- Returned to Hilton. Got dinner to go from Blue Water. Sat on sand. Watched the fireworks.

### 25.06.14

- Woke up at 5AM. Prepared then departed to Hanauma Bay.
- Snorkeled at Hanauma Bay. Amazing. We spent over 3H snorkeling under water.
- Returned home. Ate cajun shrimps for lunch. Napped.
- Drove to North Shore. Visited Dole Plantation and ate a pineapple icecream with pineapple toppings.
- Visited Ritz-Carlton Turtle Bay. Rainbow appeared above Turtle Bay as we approached it. Ate at Yamauchi Beach House. I enjoyed Triple Wave Sushi Rolls. We strolled around and inside Turtle Bay Resort.

### 25.06.15

- In the morning, drove to Waikiki. Ate a bowl of poke while watching surfers and swimmers, and booked a surfing school lesson for tomorrow morning. At noon, returned home. Rested few hours.
- Headed to Ko Olina. Enjoyed Aulani and Four Seasons. Watched the sunset.
- Ate dinner at Ama Ama.

### 25.06.16

- Learned surfing at Hans Hedemann Surfing School.
- Toured Dole Farm.
- Relaxed at Ritz-Carlton Turtle Bay Resort.
- Ate dinner at Alaia.

### 25.06.17

- Drove around Kahala. Mom remembered it to be an impressive town with expensive-looking houses. But now that we have traveled many more cities, the houses here did not look quite as impressive. Drove all the way to Kahala Resort then returned to Honolulu.
- Shopped at Waikiki. Purchased a triple-loop pearl necklace for mom. I got a surfer jacket that feels like a towel for drying body after surfing.
- At Waikiki beach, visited a beach bar, ordered and drank a cup of cocktailm Blue Hawaiian. Then I got too drunk, so I lied down on the beach and napped for an hour. Rested all day at home after that.

### 25.06.18

- Decided to avoid ocean and beach and sun today, for me and for mom. I will drive to Ko Olina then just rest all day there.
- Visited Waikele Premium Outlets. Shopped at Cole Haan, Saks, Tommy Hilfiger. I got a Hawaiian shirt, a pair of white short jeans, a belt, and a pair of shoes.
- Ate at Noe restaurant at Four Seasons Ko Olina. Noe was better than Alaia which was better than Ama Ama. Server Kyle was enthusiastic and competent!

### 25.06.19

- Packed in a hurry in the morning. Drove mom to the airport. Fueled car at Costco. Finished packing. Strolled Waikiki Beach one last time. Washed face and feet then departed home. Dropped off rental car at the airport. Checked in for flight and sent luggages. Passed security checks. By time I had a rushed lunch at Burger King inside the airport, which was delicious, I barely had enough time to walk over to the gate. Boarded the airplane.
- On the airplane, finished reading Ben Lynch book. Made progress reading Steve Jobs biography.
- Landed in SFO. Returned home. Unpacked minimally, just put the perishable food in the fridge, then showered, then fell asleep.

### 25.06.20

- I am back at home in California. Planned chores for the day. Cooked breakfast. Washed beddings.
- Shopped grocery at Costco.
- At home, rested, cooked, ate, exercised, unpacked, cleaned. Then the day was over. I feel like I did nothing other than homemaking tasks today yet the day was filled. Fortunately, I had enough energy to endure until the end of day.

### 25.06.21

- Woke up, swallowed nutrient supplements in empty stomach, then felt extreme hunger. I’m still not sure what happened. My best guess after discussing with AI is that I suffered low blood sugar, perhaps due to exercising hard yesterday. Rushed to blend vegetables and fruits into a smoothie then drank it while resting on sofa.
- Strolled to park. Confirmed Junwon Seelog D106C YOSE.
- Purchased vegetables from Marina grocery store. Cooked beef radish soup. Ate a lot for lunch, but I did not feel very full despite eating 2X the usual amount.
- Made a new account to use for AI subscriptions in July: turtlebaysurfer.
- Ordered a car cover to protect my car from dust since this home only has car port.
- Exercised at YMCA. Showered. Napped.
- In the evening, prepared for visit to consulate, ate dinner while calling parents.

### 25.06.22

- Yesterday’s breakfast smoothie was good. But I got arrogant and decided to add boiled broccoli and fresh prunes to the mix. Today’s breakfast smoothie was absolutely terrible.
- Washed dishes, washed towels, took out trash.
- Departed home. Visited UPS to print documents for military. I usually visit Fedex for printing but Fedex was closed on Sundays so I tried UPS. UPS Cupertino had a Korean lady who was kind and helpful. I told her I was going to go grocery shopping at H Mart, then she told me to go check out Mega Mart and Hankook Market instead.
- Bought grocery at Mega Mart. Are lunch at home.
- Coded Bogam. It is nice to be back to work.
- Exercised muscles then went on a stroll. Tried to run but I did not have enough energy to run. I also overate today. Called mom.
- Prepared papers for consulate visit tomorrow morning.

### 25.06.23

- Woke up early at 7:00AM and departed home early at 7:30AM to drive to San Francisco for the visit to the Korean consulate. Original plan was to wake up at 6:30AM, but I was very tired and missed the first alarm. But I was able to depart home on schedule as per the original plan. The consulate appointment was at 9:30AM, but I planned to arrive at latest by 9:00AM, ideally by 8:30AM, to visit a UPS or a Fedex nearby to print a copy of an old passport since the copy of the current passport I made does not show my Korean ID registration number. But the road to San Francisco was super packed with people commuting to work, and I barely reached the consulate in time for the 9:30AM.
- Consulate was helpful. The guy in charge of military service documents reviewed and verified that everything looks good, and helped me attach a copy of an old passport. I asked about renewing my passport, and he also helped me order a new passport without returning with another appointment reservation on another day. I did have to plead that I had to drive 2H today, because the traffic is bad from Cupertino to San Francisco. Anyways, everything seems to have been taken care of. Military okay. Passport okay.
- After the visit to the consulate, visited San Francisco Golden Gate Park, but did not feel that joyful. Visited Jagalchi Market, but the prices were not very good. Anywhere I visited today, I was struck by memories of ex-girlfriend and realization that I had a break-up. I reached out to Andreas, a friend I met through ex-girlfriend, to see if he is down to meet so that I can chat with him about the break-up, not only because he knows both of us, but also because he himself experienced a divorce, within just 5 years of college, despite him being older than me by only 1 year. But he did not respond today, which is understandable since today was a Monday aka a working day.
- I got lunch at Zareens Palo Alto on my way back home. It was one of the restaurants Jinjoo and I loved the most. It was as delicious as I remembered it to be.
- After returning home, I took a nap. A long nap. 3H. Then I woke up. Ran at YMCA. Worked on Bogam. Washed laundry. Reviewed day in diary. Ate dinner. Showered.
- Worked on Bogam until 11:30PM then ended day.

### 25.06.24

- In the morning, ate chicken breast and light salad for breakfast, just enough to take nutrient supplements, then departed home. Bought premade food at Mega Mart, washed car, then bought grocery for breakfast smoothies at Costco. After returning home, ate food, showered, then worked on Bogam.
- Worked on Bogam for 3H. Migrated Bogam to using a real database.
- Exercised muscles, then strolled at the park while calling mom.
- Worked on developing Bogam code until 1AM.

### 25.06.25

- Made online accounts for Bogam: [bogam.org@gmail.com](mailto:bogam.org@gmail.com) on Google and YouTube, [bogam.org](http://bogam.org/) on TikTok, and bogamfactverification on Instagram.
- Worked on writing code for Bogam for from 1PM to 8PM.
- After dinner, ended up working on Bogam for another 5H.

### 25.06.26

- Woke up feeling a little bit like I am about to get a migraine. Felt better after breakfast and nutrient supplements, but I think I will live an off day today, focusing on menial work rather than cognitively demanding work.
- Korean military service has been taken care of. I have been waiting for this day for many years, but I did not feel anything special. I was quite uninterested. Perhaps personality change was from taking medications. Or from the recent break-up leaving me cynical.
- Lived a slow relaxing day. Spent hours catching up on news. Visited Whole Foods to buy grocery for cheese fondue. Assembled dining furnitures thereby completing a homemaking task I had been postponing for a month. Cooked and ate cheese fondue. Relaxed in bubble bath. Napped. Called mom while eating cheese fondue again as a second dinner. What a nice relaxing day.

### 25.06.27

- Called mom before falling asleep. Came up with an idea I liked so much that I had to share it. I think it will be a great idea to sell Bogam at Farmers Markets. Off days are important. I had been feeling like I am working without a clear vision for the past few days then boom. On an off day rather than on an on day, I get this great idea. I feel optimistic. I wonder if this cycle of execution and ideation are a symptom of methylation cycles that I am bound to genetically.
- Decided to try introduce the new Homocysteine Nutrients nutrient supplement from Seeking Health to my diet. Replaced corresponding nutrient supplements by corresponding amount.
- Decided to add exercise to morning routine since I often skip evening exercises. Visited YMCA to avoid sun.
- Ate lunch.
- Developed Bogam. Finished Bogam Brand Plan FY3 S3.
- Strolled at park while calling mom.
- Watched Squid Game S3. It was bad.
- Came up with a genius idea. Sell in person at farmers markets!

### 25.06.28

- Visited farmers markets and flea markets to assess the idea of selling at markets. Visited Palo Alto Farmers Market, Sunnyvale Farmers Market, Santa Clara Farmers Market, San Jose Flea Market, and researched various markers and events happening in the next several weeks.
- Called parents.
- Shopped grocery at Target. Tomatoes for egg tomato dish.
- Watched K-Pop Demon Hunters.
- Exercised muscles.
- Spent hours sorting camera files. Made big progress.

### 25.06.29

- Strolled at park. Washed beddings.
- Spent today organizing photos and videos from phone cameras.
- Ran at park while calling mom. In retrospect, I think I was undermethylated today.
- Settled house finance for June.
- Posted a photo on my personal social media profile for the first time in 6 months.

### 25.06.30

- As soon as I woke up, I ran out to cover the car with the new car cover I purchased. It was because I had been woken up by the sound of a leaf blower. I suspected it would be Monday, but I was too lazy yesterday to go put on the cover. Anyways, my car is now covered and safe from dust!
- Showered then ate. I feel fantastic today, ready and eager to work. It is interesting how my body does not want to work on some days, but then I rest that day, then I am back to wanting to work on the following day. The question is how I can keep increasing working days. When I look back on last 7 days, I see I worked on 5 out of 7 days. The other 2 days, I spent 1 day on catching up on news and 1 day on visiting Farmers Markets. I am at a pretty good pace, I think.
- Updated profile photo on my personal social media profiles to a recent photo from Hawaii (at Four Seasons Ko Olina).
- Worked on Bogam. I felt productive but I was careful not to expend too much energy in case I ruin tomorrow.
- Increased nutrient supplements dosage.
- Cooked fried rice for dinner. Adding a crushed salted duck egg was a genius move.
- Exercised muscles. Strolled at park while calling mom. Showered.
- Worked on Bogam until 2AM.
# M352 Homemaking Tasks

### 25.07.01

- Woke up feeling productive again. Started day with coding work.
- Worked for 3.5 hours without eating a decent meal in the morning. But I did drink a healthy breakfast smoothie with 50% of nutrient supplements for the day. It was because I was struggling through a big code change since yesterday. Fortunately at 2PM, Anthropic API server was globally broken, so I got to take a break forcefully.
- Discussed with AI grocery shopping plan to get ingredients to practice cooking Korean food for the exam. I plan to be a certified craftsman cook.
- Found that items in car were all thrown onto the seats and floor. Did a thief try to find valuables? But it is odd because nothing was taken and the car itself was also left unharmed. How did one break in without breaking the windows? I don’t remember trying to find anything in car so frantically. What an odd event…
- Shopped grocery at Costco then Hankook Market. Got ingredients to practice cooking for 한식조리기능사 자격증 시험.
- Worked on Bogam. Finished developing Media Inclusion feature.

### 25.07.02

- Woke up. Entered kitchen to practice cooking. But then I found a hoard of ants! It seems like there was a seam, connected to the outside world, along the bottom of the cabinet, and ants entered my home through it. Fortunately, the trail of ants was not connected to any food items. But unfortunately, ants were persistent. I killed all ants in sight using alcohol spray, then wiped them clean, but more appeared. I tried to kill them with alcohol and vinegar. But more came. Toothpaste held on for a while. But ants came back after a while. Got ant poison, but it worked slowly. Examined the trail of ants to find the new entry hole they were using, then sealed it with a tape. This time, the number of ants significantly reduced. I think the remaining ants are probably survivors that are congregating to find a way back. I am killing them on sight, and I think, unless ants find a new way in, the ants will be gone in a day or two.
- 한식조리기능사 시험 준비 과정으로 섭산적 요리를 해봤다.
- Ran at park while calling mom.

### 25.07.03

- Woke up. Checked kitchen. No new ants! I have won the war in a single day.
- Strolled at park while planning day.
- Worked on Bogam. A lot. Started developing Bogam as soon as I returned from Stroll. Ate lunch to take a break then returned to work. Strolled in the evening then returned to work. Ate late night dinner then returned to work. Basically worked all day minus minimal other activities.

### 25.07.04

- Woke up expecting to feel emotional stress today. Today was supposed to be an anniversary with Jinjoo. Posted photos of her on Instagram with a short caption “fond memories”.
- Toy Story made a special short movie about Hawaiian Vacation in celebration of its 30th anniversary. It was funny to me, because Ken was similar to me. Hahaha. Posted it on Instagram as an ephemeral story.
- Worked on Bogam. Called parents. Did not practice cooking much today. All in all, lived a pretty light day.

### 25.07.05

- Woke up. Then started working on Bogam immediately after shower.
- I was able to work for 2H, but I felt extreme hunger and had to stop working in order to eat in emergency. I had been not feeling very hungry in past 2 days. Today, I felt so hungry that I had to change cooking plan in middle of cooking in order to eat as soon as possible.
- Jinjoo posted an Instagram story. A photo of Mount Rainier, where we had our first date 2 years ago, and a clip from the song “I Will Always Love You” by Whitney Houston. The clip sang “Bittersweet memories. That is all I’m taking with me.”. I guess she is now fully over the break-up. I will move on with the plan to post photos of me in order to bury photos of her down in my social media profile.
- Felt unsure about business. How will I make customers pay? I was lost in worries until 2AM.
- Kind of watched a horror movie. Skipped through just for the plots.

### 25.07.06

- I still feel unsure about business. Ants found yet another way into my home. I’m tired. I think I will spend today taking care of homemaking chores.
- Studied news and Steve Jobs biography. Felt peaceful. Developed Bogam.
- Strolled Cupertino. Came up with a satisfying business idea. AI Cook Book but brand it as a cookbook by exbf. Tell my story that my girlfriend broke up with me because I do not know how to cook. Show people the story of me learning to cook and getting better and developing an AI tool to help me and people like me.

### 25.07.07

- Purchased [excoox.com](http://excoox.com/). Made ExCoox profiles on social media.
- I actually think this kitchen can look decent on camera if I clean it up a little. I think I will set it up to be ready for camera, then use the kitchen for ExCoox.
- During morning stroll at the park, came up with what kind of character to make ExCoox be.
- Spent most of the day shopping grocery then cooking. Visited H-Mart, Hankook Market, and Costco. I was able to get Korean cooking tools at Hankook Market. I also got Henckels frying pans at Costco.
- Posted a video of me slicing a cucumber. The cucumber slices rolled away. The video got decent views (hundreds) on YouTube, but got zero views on TikTok and Instagram.

### 25.07.08

- Stayed up late into the night purchasing cooking tools on Amazon.
- Woke up feeling quite tired probably due to going to sleep late and therefore not getting enough sleep.
- Tried to run ads on Instagram and TikTok to start the new brand profile strong, but Meta and TikTok blocked ExCoox. I contacted them, but I am yet to hear back.
- I felt super tired today. Did not want to do anything. Not even catch up on diary. I had difficulty even staying on a conversation with my mom over the phone.
- Tried to rest by lying on bed with a skin care face mask on. Rested for about an hour.
- Ran at the park.
- Spent many hours cleaning up the kitchen. It was Jinjoo’s kitchen until today, but it is now my kitchen from now on.
- Deleted blocked account on TikTok. Repositioned the old Delmoma account to become ExCoox. And the first video took off! Thousands of views, hundreds of likes, tens of comments and followers!

### 25.07.09

- Each day is passing by so rapidly that I have not been able to keep up with the diary records since the start of this week which is when I started ExCoox profiles. Shouting out to the public takes a lot of energy and time… I am catching up on all the diary records until the start of 25.07.07. As I write this sentence, 25.07.09 has ended already…
- Deleted Meta accounts and repositioned the old Delmoma account on Instagram to be the new ExCoox account. Got Meta Verified.
- Made a pretty long short video (1 minute) of me cooking neobiani, then posted on TikTok, Instagram, and YouTube, then ran ads on all three platforms.
- Strolled at park. Exercised muscles.
- Andreas responded. He is down to hang out on Friday.

### 25.07.10

- Woke up. Showered. Then cooked recording the video for ExCoox. I aim to reduce time spent on ExCoox to 2H a day by next week excluding time I will have spent on cooking and grocery shopping anyway for my own survival.
- Posted a video of me learning how to hold the knife correctly. TTIGYT did not show my video to many viewers.
- Made another video about cooking eggs… But I think I am going to discard it. I am speaking with too much energy but I think I need to be more mellow as ExCoox… Or… Is high energy the way to be…? Actually maybe I will put it out there and see how it performs. It is a good experiment…
- Aunts texted old photos and updates in a group chat. Told them about MTHFR, advised them to get homocysteine checked and consider taking nutrient supplements.

### 25.07.11

- Woke up early for lunch with Andreas and to try posting on ExCoox profiles at a different time of the day. ExCoox video (jidan egg yelow) did not perform very well. After I started driving towards Palo Alto, Andreas cancelled lunch and suggested that we go hiking in the evening as per my earlier suggestion.
- I have not had a chance to rest my mind in past several days due to getting dragged into ExCoox so much. I think I will live a slow day today. Put frozen chicken breasts in a pan to thaw, and sat at desk in office to practice calligraphy.
- Cooked chicken breast malatang for lunch and dinner.
- Recorded a video of me teaching spiral peeling cucumbers for ExCoox. Posted a video of me cooking jidan egg white.
- Hiked Stanford Dish with Andreas. Told him Tran broke up with me. He gave me lots of advice as a man who has gone through a divorce.
- During car ride and call with mom, came up with the idea to sing a song while teaching Korean craftsman cooking techniques.

### 25.07.12

- Immediately after waking up, edited and posted a video of me teaching spinning peeling on ExCoox.
- Rested. Took a nap.
- Cooked 애호박전. But mom told me I cooked it wrong.
- Visited Hankook Market to buy grocery for 비빔밥 and 화양적.
- At home, cooked and ate 보쌈.
- Planned to make ExCoox app provide recipes given available ingredients.

### 25.07.13

- Laundered towels and apparels.
- Posted a video about deodeok sengche in the morning then a video about zucchini jeon in the evening on ExCoox.
- Cooked bibimbap. It was a major quest not only for studying cooking but also for recording ExCoox content.
- Ran and strolled at park.
- Cleaned kitchen.

### 25.07.14

- Woke up at 5AM, only 3 hours after falling asleep. I suspect saponin in bellflower roots I ate in bibimbap made me too energetic.
- Spent all day cooking and preparing videos for ExCoox profile. Cooked 육원전 and fried kelp chips.
- Washed laundry.

### 25.07.15

- Started ads on Instagram. After also trying TikTok and YouTube, I decided to focus on Instagram as the primary channel. But then Meta Ads Manager team blocked my account yet again, and Facebook blocked my account yet again. Facebook is frustrating… Used Instagram account to advertise just on Instagram for now, then reached out to premium support in the evening.
- Shopped grocery at Hankook Market. Cooked 불고기 with low effort for dinner. But still recorded a video to use as content for ExCoox profiles.
- Monitored Instagram ads. Followers count exceeded 100 today.

### 25.07.16

- My plan for the next several days is to “move fast”. I want to be good at moving fast. I will do everything I did in the past several days but just faster (e.g. cooking, cleaning…) (except for driving… move fast safely…).
- Showered, washed dishes. Morning went well. I moved fast. But I messed up cooking and ended up wasting hours trying to make it edible again. But I ended up throwing it away anyway. Cleaned bathroom.
- Instagram ad is running quite effectively. I will keep up the hard work focusing on ExCoox brand profile growth until I reach 1K (I am at ~150 now on Instagram) then slow it down so that I can spend time on other work. To slow down, I will 1) post at most just once a day (and at least 3 times a week). I plan to slow down to 2X or even 1X a week in the future. Reached 1K followers.
- Cooked 쌈무 and 무김치.
- Ran for exercise.

### 25.07.17

- Woke up at 7AM due to street cleaning noise, but decided it is a great time to wake up. Ate leftovers from yesterday dinner.
- Departed home to go grocery shopping. Fought with a dangerously driving car who was speeding and cutting in front of cars including mine. Road rage may be a symptom of methylation imbalance. Watch out.
- Visited Costco at opening time. An exclusive time only for Costco Executive Members! Got all the groceries I needed in a short amount of time.
- At home, felt super hungry. Slight headache. Devoured Costco rotisserie chicken. I suspect intense hunger may be due to taking nutrient supplements on empty stomach.
- Posted Ssammu video. It did not perform well.
- Took a nap. Then stayed in bed catching up on industry news and thinking about what to do about ExCoox profiles.

### 25.07.18

- Posted a video of ssammu tasting. I edited it to have faster cuts and more vibrant colors but the video performed worse than other videos. On all platforms. Hmm…
- Visited YMCA, because Jinjoo has been paying for the membership account that covers both of us. But they needed her to confirm. I told her she can call or text them, then she shot back at me, saying she sees that I am financially meticulous. I was confused why I am getting attacked, and nonetheless felt pained for getting attacked, and then found out she thought I was paying and was kicking her off the account. I was stressed and pained for many more hours after that. The first day I suffered such emotional pain this month. I was forgetting what it was like before we broke up. It’s been over a month since we broke up, but she is still as combative, as predisposed to fighting. I am disappointed to see once again that she never understood what kind of person I am. She has a strong notion of what men are like, she expects them to be bad, and she only ever saw a man and not me. I feel like everything ever with her was in vein.
- Watched SSSS SLTH.
- Strolled at park. I feared I am emotionally distressed deeply, and took another dose of methylation supplements to prevent internal collapse.

### 25.07.19

- I felt tired. Even a little bit of headache. Swallowed 4 pills of HN in case migraine is coming. I felt yesterday too. Most importantly, I have been feeling stressed due to Jinjoo and also work and possibly it is not that my body is impacted by those events but rather I feel stressed by those events because my body is unwell.
- ExCoox videos have been not performing well. Ssammu making video yesterday was not very popular, but ssammu tasting video today was less popular. So I made some sandwich and posted a video of it and it was also not very popular… Intended to drag out with less popular videos until Monday bibimbap video, but decided to edit and post Hwa Yang Jeok video and bulgogi video tomorrow. Prepared both videos.
- Mom is visiting her younger sister in Dongtan. Called aunt and we talked about my ExCoox videos as well as breaking up with Jinjoo. Aunt recommends that I try dating a full Korean next time.
- Called dad for the first time in many days. He has been so busy. Now he is assessing acquisition of Hitachi home appliances.
- Tried sharpening knife, but I think it got even more dull.
- Watched SSSS SLTH.

### 25.07.20

- I am still feeling tired. Still a bit of headache. I feel like I might have been struck with a migraine yesterday or today had I been low on methylation nutrient supplements. Took 4 pills.
- Cooked 계란말이.
- Posted 화양적 video on ExCoox. It did not perform that well in the first several hours. Boosted it with $30 advertisements. Also posted Bulgogi video.
- Sharpened knife. I think I successfully made knife sharper today.
- Finished watching San Shi San Sheng Shi Li Tao Hua.
- Exercised muscles slightly then strolled while calling mom.

### 25.07.21

- Had difficulty waking up in the morning. Felt sleepy. But slept it out and I feel like a depressive force (which might have been a migraine if not for nutrient supplements) that was looming over me during the past several days passed.
- Cancelled haircut appointment. Mom insisted that a permed hair must not be cut so often.
- Visited Hankook Market to buy grocery.
- Bibimbap video was very popular. In fact, best scores since spinning peeling, and better in some metrics. Without ads, it reached 5K views, 96 likes, 22 shares, 13 saves.
- Exercised. Ate tonkatsu.
- Started coding ExCoox branch off Bogam repo.

### 25.07.22

- I will spend today and each day in coming weeks making some time energy investments into 1) growing ExCoox brand profile, 2) growing ExCoox app site code, 3) writing Seelog. And of course also homemaking.
- Woke up. Showered. Recorded a video me making BaeCha (Korean pear tea). I plan to thank the thousand followers while posting this video.
- Made an offer to [bogam.com](http://bogam.com/) domain owner to purchase the domain at $300. He is asking for $10K so I am not sure if we will be able to close the gap. He declined.
- Started ads for Bibimbap video. Started at 1160 followers.
- Posted BaeCha video.
- Ran for exercise.
- Started watching Tastefully Yours. It’s been very fun so far!

### 25.07.23

- Recorded cooking 팽이맛살전.
- Folded laundry.
- Napped.
- Called parents.
- Ran for exercise.
- Responded to comments on ExCoox. Invested a lot of effort into writing great responses that build ExCoox character.

### 25.07.24

- Posted a video of me making Gyeranmari. Not satisfying but it is good enough to be published today especially since I did not post any videos yesterday.
- Hiked Stanford Dish.

### 25.07.25

- Obtained 의궤 books containing old Korean palace recipes.
- Mr. Ahn invited me to a dinner tonight in San Jose.
- Posted Massal Jeon video.
- Recorded cooking Saffron Tomato Skewer.
- Had dinner with Former Lawmaker Ahn, his wife, his wife’s brother, and his wife’s brother’s wife, and his acquaintance who is a Korean living in Monterey. I told them I actually had experienced a break-up shortly before meeting them for the first time. They immediately pitched that I meet Lawmaker Ahn’s daughter.

### 25.07.26

- There was a construction going on nearby all day.
- Cooked 제육볶음 but remembered I dislike the dish.
- Read 오리진이 되라 book that Lawmaker Ahn gifted me yesterday.
- Strolled for exercise but I was too tired due to lack of sleep.
- I was worried my followers have low engagement rate in comparison to better food influencers. But I decided not to worry too much about social media followers other than sheer count since I am just trying to gain credibility as I promote AI for Homemakers.

### 25.07.27

- Washed kitchen towels. Cooked bossam. Chose to not record. It was very hot during the day, because I was boiling many things and therefore just had windows open without turning air conditioner on.
- Decided to go on a stroll and called mom but it was too hot outside and decided to return home.
- Planned ExCoox brand growing from 2K now to 10K then 100K then 1M. Up to 2K, ExCoox was “ex cooks”. Now, until 10K, ExCoox is for Expat Cooks. From 10K onward, I will be an expert cook.
- Planned meals for next week. Will go grocery shopping tomorrow.
- Strolled. Edited Jeyook Dupbap video. Tried editing video using Instagram’s Edits app on phone instead of Apple’s FCPX on computer as I normally do. It was a decent experience. Jeyook Dupbap video was very popular.
- Helped mom help dad do homework for his English language class.

### 25.07.28

- Today is another day packed with tasks to do. Goal is to be nimble. Woke up. Showered. Started washing machine with bed linen load.
- I have not been recording methylation nutrient supplement intakes for a week now. Seeing that I am forgetting to do so, I conclude that I did not feel much discomfort from under or over methylation, and I am too busy with other tasks to be recording methylation nutrient supplement intake each day. So I am ending the document. To be revived if I feel the need to in the future.
- Bought grocery at Hankook Marker.
- Rescheduled haircut to August 20, 1PM.
- Jeyook video was quite popular. Perhaps this means people are interested in what others like to eat.
- Called dad during stroll. Briefed him on the ExCoox roadmap plan.
- I was tired after stroll. Posted a video of me washing dishes instead of a cooking video.

### 25.07.29

- I’m quite tired, especially after only eating bad foods I cooked.
- Strolled at park thinking about how to develop the ExCoox site but I was too tired to develop any code today.
- Edited and posted the tteok-galbi video.
- Recorded videos of me cooking anchovy banchan and kong-guksu.
- I was too tired. I skipped exercise and napped. Woke up at night. Ate beef just grilled without any cooking and it tasted better than any dishes I cooked recently.
- There was a big earthquake in Pacific Ocean. Tsunami Warning over entire Hawaii and Tsunami Advisory here in California.

### 25.07.30

- Woke up. Showered. Then headed to Valley Fair mall. Ate lunch at Ramen Nagi. Drank a cup of coffee at Eataly Lavazza. Life is good. I’m happy again.
- Visited Barnes & Nobles and purchased a marketing book called The Copy Book. Visited Cupertino Memorial Park and read the book while calling mom and dad.
- At home, had a breakdown after mom hearing from mom that she thinks ExCoox story is not good since it will be tied back to my ex-girlfriend. But after an hour of breakdown, decided Ex brand is the brand and the story to stick to.
- Edited and posted anchovy banchan video.

### 25.07.31

- Anchovy banchan video is surprisingly doing well.
- Cooked seop san jeok.
- I felt very tired today as well. Decreased dosage to 1 pill.
- Called dad. He is on his way to the airport to fly to Hong Kong then India.
- Developed ExCoox site to publish tomorrow. Not done yet.
- Edited and posted kong guksu video. Performed badly.
- Finished watching Tastefully Yours. It was a pretty good show.
### 25.08.01

- Ate leftover food from yesterday dinner.
- Developed ExCoox site. I am trying to publish it today. After coding all day, I realized that it may be possible to publish the site today, but it will be better if I publish it tomorrow. So I decided to polish the site for one more day and then publish it tomorrow. Doing so also sets up the new cadence of posting a video every other day since I wanted to slow down from one a day to one every other day.
- Worked all day. I feel fantastic. I did not have time to exercise. I ate simply. So I did not have any time to notice if I am unwell in any way. I was focused on work all day.
- For dinner, strolled to Target, purchased a pack of beef top sirloin, and just grilled it as a steak. It was delicious.
- Took a bath. I felt happy and satisfied. Headed to sleep early. 후후.

### 25.08.02

- Strolled at park. Ate simple lunch. Worked on developing [excoox.com](http://excoox.com/) code.
- While cooking dinner, splashed boiling oil and got burn wounds on finger, belly, and toe.
- Finished developing code and edited video introducing [excoox.com](http://excoox.com/) along with Seop San Jeok recipe which appeared on K-DRAMA Tastefully Yours, then published online also with ad. Wow. 10 followers per dollar of ad budget.
- Rushes to post before midnight. Showered. Then stayed up until 3AM manually reviewing and editing the recipes on [excoox.com](http://excoox.com/).

### 25.08.03

- Took a day off from work today. I needed a day off after a streak of packed days. I did not have time to rest in recent days, because I needed to cook and record videos and edit videos and code.
- In the morning, called dad, and started driving to Stanford Shopping Center. Bought Nespresso coffee pods, then ate a Big Mac for lunch. Burn blister popped, and so much liquid flowed out that my shirt got a wet stain in the middle of the belly, so I returned home. I wanted to return home anyway before the day got too hot.
- At home, studied books. Reread 오리진이 되라 and started reading Gramsci, all while taking notes whenever I got any ideas that may be of help to ExCoox.
- Decided to make fish tacos to use up a white fish fillet that Jinjoo had left in the freezer. Called mom while walking to and from Marina and Target for grocery shopping. Cooked fish taco for dinner. It was surprisingly good! White fish fillet is all I needed to make good fish tacos? Wow!
- Showered, then lied down on bed and read comic books. It felt so good to rest that I teared up while relaxing in bed reading comic books.

### 25.08.04

- Woke up. Showered. Healed burn wounds. Washed apparels. Cleaned floor. Then set out to go stroll at park while ideating answers to the storytelling questions I came up for ExCoox yesterday.
- Spent a lot of time, in fact most of working hours today, establishing the story arc for ExCoox. It was a very productive day.
- Edited and posted Uhmuk-Bokki as a BTS Jimin recipe (he is from Busan and Busan is famous for Busan Uhmuk). The video did not perform well.

### 25.08.05

- Posted some ephemeral videos and short permanent comments on Instagram to build story. Ate lunch. Finished absorbing story from yesterday’s ideation session into permanent documents.
- Drove to Hankook Market and purchased ingredients for cooking.
- At home, practiced spherical spiral peeling, but failed even after practicing with 2 tomatoes and 5 apples. Cooked deodeok-gui.
- Wanted to also record cooking 미나리강회, but my hair was way too long for recording. I spent 2 hours trying to make it look presentable. But failed. I was too tired and it was midnight and I had to go to sleep. I ordered chef hat to hide my hair.

### 25.08.06

- Showered. Cut nails. Washed kitchen towels. Renewed junwon.family domain for another year but I plan to move all accounts off that email address in the next year.
- Cooked and recorded 탕평채. Wow. It was delicious. When I was plating it, I felt like it looked like a fine dining dish, and when I tasted it, it tasted like a fine dining dish to me. Wow.
- I had been cooking all day, but it was already 6PM, and I wanted to record minari roll in daylight. But I was so tired. I rested for 15 minutes, ran to supermarket to get a block of beef, cooked hastily. I did finish recording it by 10PM, but I was not able to edit the videos before midnight, largely blocked by rotating the video clips. At 11:30PM, gave up on trying to post the video before end of day, and just went to the kitchen to make some more 탕평채, to use up the ingredients and to feed myself.
- I was not able to make a proper dinner last night, and 탕평채 was done at 6PM, so I had starved for over 24H. And I didn’t have proper second meal until the midnight 탕평채. And I was not able to exercise. Forget exercise. I was not even able to go outside of home other than the hurried visit to the grocery store for the block of meat. Hmm. I need to change things…
- In bed, edited some videos to save tomorrow’s time. Then I tried to sleep, but I struggled to fall asleep. Mind was racing and body was aching.

### 25.08.07

- As expected, woke up feeling super tired. Poured coffee down throat and went out for a stroll. But today is a hot day and it’s noon, so I’ll need to be careful not to be outside for too long. Actually turned around at YMCA because skin was stinging due to strong sunray. Home air conditioner is not strong enough to fight peak heat during Summer. I’m considering visiting Stanford to edit videos. Or nap. I lack sleep.
- Worked a little on desk. Felt very hungry. Ate ramen and yesterday's leftover tang pyeong chae. Ate too hurried and felt like I'd throw up.
- Spent some time catching up on news, then spent basically all afternoon editing and posting minari rolls along with the story of craftsman cooks. The video performed well among followers but not among others.
- I had been stressed and overworked due to trying to release a video basically daily this week, and each video was going to be important videos for storytelling, but I think this schedule has not been very feasible. I need to fit in other work such as programming, and also work outside of company work such as writing Seelog and exercise and so on. I need to spread out marketing campaign schedule. But still keep in mind that product that must be released must be released sooner than later.
- Jinjoo texted me 5.8K words at 2AM, telling me she saw ExCoox. She was angry, and I talked to her until 4AM to calm her down and to make her understand. We are on good terms now. I was glad the conversation happened, since I was worried about having to clarify and explain to her at some point.

### 25.08.08

- I woke up feeling pretty tired but positive. Having spoken to Jinjoo, a difficult conversation that had to take place at some point had taken place and we were also able to resolve very well. I started cooking curry for lunch, to use up the curry block she had left at home and also several ingredients going stale in my fridge. But then she texted me another long text message, backtracking on everything we discussed yesterday, showing concern. Then she claimed she is 50% of my story’s success. What? So is this what it’s all about? Stopped recording cooking curry. Stopped cooking curry. Responded to her that I am very disappointed in receiving the chat. Resolved the issue with her, then told her I wish she will not communicate with me again in the future. She ruined my day. I asked her not to ruin my memories of her so that I don’t become someone who regrets. I don’t want to be someone who regrets.
- Cooked goguma mattang using the Basi technique in Chinese cuisine as demonstrated by chef Jung Ji Sun in Culinary Class Wars. The video did not perform well. But I was satisfied with how the dessert turned out, both taste and the look.

### 25.08.09

- Woke up feeling very sluggish. Had no motivation to do any work. Not only was it the problem of body, but also, all three videos I posted last week did not become very popular, and I felt like I was not prepared enough, nor have I been getting time to prepare, for next phase of work which will involve much more careful storytelling and also lots of programming.
- Spent most of the day just catching up on news. Decided to sleep early near sunset. Had only eaten lunch and not dinner.
- Studied news. For lunch, ate steak. Washed apparels.
- Woke up at midnight. Showered. Cooked food while calling parents. Took methylation nutrient supplements. Went to bed at 3:30AM. At least mental health is feeling better now. I was not able to exercise well in recent days due to the burn wound. As wound heals and I start exercising again, I think mood will improve a lot. Also, try adding more methylation nutrient supplements to each day. 5 was too much so I had reduced to 3 then lately I have been taking only 1 or 2 a day, and I might need to go to 3 or 4 a day.

### 25.08.10

- Started day by planning day. Recently, I have been just listing out tasks to complete each day, then working endlessly. I am reminded of when I did so while living in Bellevue. The solution that worked for me was blocking out hours in each day for areas of work, then bravely moving on from one work area to next even if one was not done. It is needed when balance is lost. In past week, I was unable to eat well or exercise well on several days. Balance is lost. Restore balance.
- Another change I plan to introduce this week is sleeping and waking up earlier in order to utilize morning time. It is peak summer and outdoor activity during day time is not very feasible. Last week, I only had a narrow window in the evening to go outside. Utilize morning better.
- Last week, I suffered burn, and burn wound made it difficult for me to exercise. Exercising or not has significant impact on mood as well. Restore exercise as soon as possible. Wound is not fully healed, so running may not be very feasible, but muscle exercise can still be done.
- Reviewed days. Did homemaking chores. Day is going well, as I had planned!
- Edited and posted the video introducing the fact that UNESCO rejected Korean Palace Cuisine.
- Ran for exercise. On way home, purchased ingredients for pesto pasta. Cooked and ate pesto pasta for dinner.
- Showered. Headed to bed immediately.

### 25.08.11

- Slept well. Perhaps I needed nutrient supplements. And exercises. To sleep well and recover.
- Started day by folding laundry while listening to news podcasts. Even before taking a shower. With a cup of coffee. It was a peaceful way to ramp up for the day.
- Showered. Washed dishes while ideating content strategy.
- Ate pesto pasta for lunch. Realized it was Benu’s 15th anniversary yesterday. Planned to post a post that is not a reel for the first time on ExCoox.
- Drove to Costco, Hankook Market, Mega Mart, H Mart, for grocery shopping. Called parents. Dad is on vacation.
- Ate leftover pesto pasta and kimchi mandu for dinner.
- Ran for exercise.
- Showered.
- Recorded video of cooking 수정과 and also working on laptop on kitchen floor. I plan to use the latter video for UNESCO petition video.

### 25.08.12

- Woke up tired but okay. Showered. Finished making 수정과 then washed dishes.
- Meal prepped. Cooked chicken breasts and washed chopped lettuce for days worth of meals.
- Edited and posted Tang Pyeong Chae video.
- Called parents during dinner.
- Ran for exercise.
- At night, in bed, deleted some obsolete old profiles such as productceo. Renamed excoox to junwonbear.

### 25.08.13

- Ate lunch. It was fast thanks to having prepared yesterday.
- Worked on coding. Developed a video editor tool that rotates videos since rotating videos have taken up significant amounts of time in the past. Tested AI models from Alibaba, Baidu, Tsing Hua for reading uigwe documents. Alibaba model performed the best.
- Ran for exercise while calling parents. Purchased airplane ticket for Korea trip. Will be gone from September 1 to November 28.
- Instagram account is messed up after username change. Meta ad account associated with Instagram account seems to have been deleted in the system or at least disconnected from Instagram account. App crashes when I try to see any past ads, and I also cannot create new ads, or even open ads tool. Tried customer support, but they were unable to help. I will try again tomorrow.

### 25.08.14

- Edited and posted radish kimchi recipe.
- Washed bed linens.
- Deposited cash at Chase bank. Returned Amazon items at Whole Foods.
- Spent a pretty good amount of time coding.
- Read 식객.

### 25.08.15

- Woke up slightly tired but I am doing fine.
- Sold $MSFT shares for cash.
- Cooked spinach moochim and squid bokkeum.
- Made advances on coding nutrition facts.

### 25.08.16

- Woke up at noon. Probably because I exercised muscles for the first time in many days yesterday.
- Worked hard on coding nutrition facts. Did not get very satisfying outcome. Curated some nutrition facts then published feature with spinach moochim video.

### 25.08.17

- Woke up feeling super tired. I did work super hard yesterday. Strolled without shower. Cooked and ate beef radish soup. I need a recovery day, working lightly.
- Rested all day.

### 25.08.18

- After a brief morning routine, started working on the milestone Sujeonggwa post, announcing transition from ExCoox to the UNESCO chapter. Ended up spending all day on it. Sun was setting by time I posted it, so I visited park to run for exercise. I had no energy left after running, so I ended day early. The video performed really well on Instagram.

### 25.08.19

- After morning shower, sat on sofa with a cup of coffee, then spent an hour responding to comments on Instagram.
- Drove to Costco for grocery shopping, especially for latex gloves which I need for washing dishes.
- After returning home, spent hours in bed trying to recover, then dragged tired body to office and worked on coding UNESCO Petition until 3AM.

### 25.08.20

- Worked really hard trying to publish UNESCO Petition before midnight. As soon as waking up and taking morning shower, started coding while eating breakfast, though I only had 1 hour until haircut.
- Got a haircut at K-Nuna Salon for the first time. The sisters are fun people and they cut hair well.
- After returning home, sat at computer, then worked on coding starting 2PM, and finished at 6AM. I really overworked my body today.

### 25.08.21

- Tens of people signed UNESCO petition! Verified emails registered on my database. They will be my customers later on.
- Felt extremely tired. Ate 장국죽 without recording cooking just to feed me 죽.
- Napped. Focused on recovery.
- Started watching Frieren.
- Bathed for the first time since burn wound.

### 25.08.22

- Woke up feeling still tired. In fact, I feel even more tired now that I have enough energy to feel tiredness.
- Washed laundry.
- Responded to comments for hours.

### 25.08.23

- After morning shower, sat at desk and worked on organizing documents.
- Recorded cooking 장국죽.
- Napped.
- After nap, went out for a stroll, and decided to grab a sandwich. Then saw an Indian Pizza restaurant I wanted to eat at several months ago but ex-gf had rejected. Ordered. Waited 15 minutes. Ran home to eat while hot. It was so delicious!
- Planned Korea trip. Chose Yemi culinary school taught by 명인 허이재 who taught 명장 안유성.

### 25.08.24

- Contacted Korea Heritage Service. Posted Jang Guk Juk video.
- Mom registered me to study cooking at Yemi culinary school. I will learn from Master Heo who taught Presidential Master Cook Ahn Yu Seong.
- Responded to comments on Instagram.
- Tried to stroll but felt too tired. Ate pizza at home then rested. Exercised muscles lightly.
- I need to start writing Seelog and Company Story soon.

### 25.08.25

- Had a nightmare about home having rats. I’m scared of anything at home angering my ex during her stay and that leading to her unleashing her anger on me. After waking up, texted her telling her that I will be departing USA on September 1, and return on November 28, and offered that I can stock up any supply at home tomorrow if she sends me a list.
- Folded laundry. Started packing for Korea trip.
- Cooked spicy anchovy banchan.
- Strolled. Napped. Ate dinner.
- Worked on coding.

### 25.08.26

- Visited Costco for grocery shopping.
- Called dad and mom.
- Ran for exercise. Showered.
- Worked on coding.
- Posted photos on private profile. Edited Instagram handle for private profile to junwoff.

### 25.08.27

- Ants attacked again. This time, let me use up all remaining ant baits, then clean up thoroughly, since I need to vacate home soon.
- Took out trash.
- Ran for exercise while calling mom. Aunts are visiting.
- Coded buy guide section with links to buy ingredients.
- Posted deodeok gui. Video performed badly.

### 25.08.28

- Got woken up due to loud noise of trucks unloading items at Target. I had gone to sleep with windows left open, because I felt a little sick with indoor air yesterday, and wanted to try what Jinjoo used to do (sleep with windows left open). Air was nice, but noise was loud.
- Strolled briefly. Showered lightly. Washed laundry.
- Realized cooking school class we had signed up for was not taught by Master Heo, so I asked mom to ask them tomorrow to change class registration.
- Deleted @junwonapp on Twitter, TikTok, Instagram. Saved some posts on Reddit and Threads for history.
- Posted 6 more photos on personal Instagram after posting 6 yesterday. I was going to post even more photos, from Yosemite, but then I suddenly got hit by migraine.
- See record on today’s migraine episode in Fitness Episodes for details. One key takeaway is that I suffered migraine for the first time since I started taking nutrient supplements, and I had been mistakenly taking the wrong nutrient supplements in the past few days, so perhaps this migraine is a hopeful sign that correct nutrient supplement had been working well lately. Napped.
- I had decided to use today to take care of all the tasks I need car for, so, despite migraine, I departed home.
- I saw I had plenty of time until closing time of any of the destinations, so I first visited Marugame for curry udon.
- Visited UPS for notary for identity verification for Meta ads for advertising matters related to politics or social movements. Meta thought I was posting about something political when I posted TPC and UNESCO so in case they stop me again in the future, I got the verification done with Meta in advance.
- Visited Apple Park Visitor Center to buy a pen souvenir for Dongha for 추석 마니또.
- Washed car at an auto wash place called Homestead.
- Visited Hankook Market to buy grocery.
- After returning home, rested in bed.
- Made progress writing Seelog D107C DOPE 영양.

### 25.08.29

- Woke up feeling okay. Live slowly. Enjoy the day and work with ease. Recover.
- Cooked for a long time to record videos to post next week. I will be traveling next week, so it’s good to prepare videos in advance.
- Felt very tired after cooking. Went out for a stroll but did not regain much energy. If anything, it took willpower to go out.
- At home, showered, then headed to bed early.
- Posted Yosemite photos on personal profile. Ex-gf liked Firefall photo. I have been feeling stressed that she will be angry at some little detail I fail to take care of at home before departing USA, since she often exploded over matters I was unable to even notice, so I wondered whether I should text her to list all that I was planning to do and get her confirmation or clarify in advance I tried my own best, but decided not to text her, since detailed communication was tried many times and never worked, and I no longer care anyway. I'm still learning to not care.
- Purchased some items for Korea trip especially cooking tools.

### 25.08.30

- Woke up early for some reason. Saw kitchen was getting invaded by ants again. Cleaned kitchen. Napped.
- After waking up, finished cooking and recording last planned dishes before departing USA.
- Ate heavy lunch with the banchans I made. Strolled briefly in hot temperature outside.
- Had to edit and post a video today, but really did not feel any motivation today. Edited and posted but I was not able to feel satisfied with any songs so I posted without a music and I think the video did not perform well on Instagram.
- Washed dishes. Folded laundry.

### 25.08.31

- Ants are invading deeper into the home despite not finding food (since I cleaned the kitchen.) I’m stressed that ex-gf might unleash wrath on me.
- Washed bed linens. Renewed car registration.
- Packed luggage.
- Dad is departed from Korea to Poland.
- Cleaned home. Cleaned bathroom. Cleaned bedroom. Cleaned kitchen. Cleaned floor multiple times including using hands to get dust out of corners and edges. I am so terrified that Jinjoo will be angry that I had multiple nightmares last week.
### 25.09.01

- Finsihed packing at midnight. Worked before departing USA.
- While I was asleep, I reached 10K followers.
- In the morning, cleaned home to the best of my ability, to avoid wrath of ex-gf who will go ballistic over the smallest details, then left to airport.
- At the airport, passed security check, ate a burger, then finished working on the video I wanted to post today. Posted the video about Wanjatang less than an hour before flight.
- Texted ex-gf briefly about state of home. She bitched at me about the exact complaint I had anticipated (or at least one of the infinitely many predictions I had made in my mind over the past few stressful nights worrying about her picking fights again). But anyways, it didn’t go on for too long. I sent her a short enough message, and after her response, I just responded Thank You. After a second of feeling anger and fear, I just disengaged from her and returned focus to my work.
- I’m waiting for the flight at the gate, and it seems like the Wanjatang video is performing phenomenally well!
- Flight from California to Korea was pleasant. I watched 범인수선전. It is pretty fun so far!

### 25.09.02

- Landed in Korea. After getting connected to internet, provided a compliment to the Korean Air cabin crew as I had promised her. Instagram notified me I gained 100 new followers during the flight.
- In the airport, ate 들기름 막국수. 소금 대신 새우젓을 쓰니 훨씬 맛있구나. 한식 배우니까 알아볼 수 있네. Changed shirt. Washed face. Drank a cup of cold brew.
- Bus was comfortable. I was asleep during the entire ride.
- Mom rented a car in advance for me at my persistent request, and she came to the bus terminal by driving the car, so I was able to drive home.
- As soon as I got home, I showered, then fell on bed. I was too tired to even lift a finger. It was midnight by time I got home. 1AM by time I was in bed (more like on bed since I was lying on top of it disoriented like a doll thrown onto the bed).

### 25.09.03

- Woke up at 6AM. Shivered overnight due to cold weather. Woke up with some headache.
- Mom made breakfast for me. 고등어 구이, 된장찌개 several kimchis.
- Traveled to Damyang Bamboo Forest. Recorded videos for Bogam brand.
- Visited 밤마을 카페. It was good.
- Ate lunch at 강의리 추어탕. It was bad. Ate lunch again at Lotteria. It was much better.
- Visited Lotte Mart to buy cooking tools for the cooking class happening later today.
- Rested at home. Bathed. Rested in bed catching up on diary records.
- Had first cooking lesson at Yemi culinary school from Master Heo. Cooked 제육구이 and 도라지생채. Master Heo encouraged me telling me that I did very well for first class, then declared my current level will get me a fail at the craftsman cook exam. Before class started, she gifted me a Korean Craftsman Cook exam textbook she wrote. I asked for her autograph, but she refused, telling me she will sign later. After class, she wrote “처음 마음 끝까지. 멋진 요리하세요.”
- I felt super tired after returning home. Mom cooked 삼계탕 for me. It was delicious: the most dish I had all day. Today was a great day. Packed. Full productivity. I am happy. I am feeling great and super ready for sleep.

### 25.09.04

- Woke up at sunrise. Showered.
- Drove to Yemi culinary school to pick up bag that mom had left at school yesterday.
- Visited National Museum.
- Ate lunch at Mister Pizza.
- Called dad. He is going to airport to return to Korea. Told him about the story plot I plan to narrate on work profile.
- Edited video for doraji sengche. I started it with a shocking hook, announcing that I am “ending my cooking journey here. . . after reaching 10,000 followers”. Ending journey here in America to begin studying cooking under a master craftsman cook in Korea. Haha. I was worried that it will not be received well.

### 25.09.05

- The video I posted yesterday night is performing very well!
- Drove mom to train station. Dad is flying back to Korea, and they will both go to Samsung Medical Center to get vaccine for 대상포진. After returning home, I took a nap until noon.
- Set up office.
- Worked on social media profiles.
- Studied news then cooking theory.
- Ran for exercise.
- Ate 페리카나 치킨 for dinner.
- Responded to comments on Instagram.

### 25.09.06

- Dad left hotel to go to school to study English for the weekend. Mom is eating breakfast at the hotel with an old friend. Mom will depart Suwon at noon and reach Gwangju at about 3PM. I will go pick her up at the bus terminal.
- Strolled outside before the temperature got too hot. Picked up a cup of caffe latte at Starbucks for the stroll. It was pleasant albeit hot enough to make me sweat.
- Coded for hours. Finished developing features to support multiple profiles. I just need to write the recipes now from the book.
- Drove to bus terminal to pick up mom. Visited the department store there to get Samsonite luggages fixed. Purchased a 유기 놋그릇 plate.
- Mom was hungry. We visited a nearby restaurant and ate 꼬막비빔밥.
- At home, watched 흑백요리사 with mom.

### 25.09.07

- Worked on coding all day. Imported recipes from Master Han's recipe book: Jewels of the Palace. This adds recipes of others for the first time to my site.
- Cooked 무생채 for cooking practice.
- Ran for exercise.
- Edited video about Squid Dupbap. Wrote post explaining significance of Uigwes. It was too late and I was too tired, so I delayed posting to tomorrow, in order to review post in full energy.

### 25.09.08

- Posted Squid Dupbap video.
- Departed home to drive to a butcher store to buy fresh beef.
- Rested at home watching Culinary Class Wars.
- Shopped grocery at Lotte Mart.
- Recorded cooking 육회.
- No time to rest. Showered. Departed to Yemi Culinary School.
- Today, we learned 무생채 and 탕평채. I passed 무생채 but failed 탕평채.
- After returning home, ate 삼계탕, showered.
- Dad came home. I made 육회 for him.

### 25.09.09

- I slept for over 10 hours then woke up near noon.
- We left home to eat out today. Chose Hong Ik Tonkatsu. On way back, stopped by Starbucks for takeaway coffee.
- At Yemi, practiced 비빔밥 today.

### 25.09.10

- Woke up feeling quite tired and feeling worried about not getting a lot of work done recently.
- Helped mom fold laundry. Ate breakfast. Read a book on marketing.
- Booked haircut.
- Edited video about Lotus Roots Jorim.
- At Yemi, practiced 장국죽 and 완자탕.
- At home, ate bossam with dad. He needs to decide whether to keep Poland firm's plan to host Environmental Safety Day, because Russia just sent a military drone to Poland which Poland's NATO fighter jet struck down.

### 25.09.11

- Responded to comments on Instagram.
- Ate breakfast at Lotte Mart Food Court, because mom was very tired and worried about having to save time and energy for packing dad’s luggage as he needs to go to Suwon later today, then he will not be home again for about 2 weeks due to having back-to-back meetings in Suwon and English lessons and a business trip to Poland.
- Worked at Starbucks. Planned out story for the next season and the next 8 episodes. It was a productive session.
- At home, studied news, and recorded cooking Jang Jorim.
- Dad texted inviting mom and me to eat out before he departs the city. I selected the restaurant. After dad got home, we loaded his car with luggage, then I drove him to the restaurant so that I can drive mom back while dad’s driver drives to the restaurant later and drive dad to Suwon. Lei Hou was a great restaurant with authentic Chinese dishes like Dong Po Rou as well as creative fusion dishes like tangerine cream sauce fried shrimps.
- After dad departed and while I was driving home, dad called us and said he left his jacket with his wallet in my car. He was willing to just go to Suwon, but I drove to the Toll Gate to hand him his jacket. After we returned home, I showered, started editing the video to post tomorrow, then fell asleep.

### 25.09.12

- Made progress editing S3E1 video. Changed profile names from @junwonbear to @palacejunwon.
- Ate breakfast at home. Visited Starbucks to grab a cup of coffee for perm time. Visited hair studio for hair cut and perm. Hair designer was an interesting person. 은희 원장 remarked I must have had a stressful moment about 6 months ago. I told her I had a break-up. She told me I suffered a small circular hair loss at the top of my head (size smaller than 10원 coin) once then had hair equal to about 6 months of recovery growth. Wow!
- After hair cut, I returned home. Mom and I were planning to visit Home Plus and Modern House to buy kitchen towels and kitchen curtains. We originally planned to go yesterday, but abandoned plan, because we had to drive to the toll gate to hand dad his jacket. Today, I wanted to finish editing the video before departing, so we postponed the plan. But the video took a long time to edit, because it was an important video (the first episode of a new chapter), so I ended up working until well past dinner time. I was not done with editing video, but I thought it was a good time to take a break, so left home to get dinner with mom.
- We started driving towards a 미역국 restaurant, but there was a traffic jam, so I suggested we go eat at a 샤브샤브 restaurant I saw next to the road on our way. It was a great choice. Shabu Shabu came with lots of rare mushrooms, and I enjoyed the flavor of the mushrooms.
- After returning home, I finished editing the S3E1 video, then posted it. It is a landmark work, but has no food recipe. I liked it. I sent it to dad and he liked it too. I launched ads promoting the video in several markets outside of United States as well. But when I checked next morning, the video had failed to bring in new followers in any of the markets including United States, so I stopped ads.

### 25.09.13

- S3E1 video is getting positive comments from existing followers, but not bringing in new followers. I immediately ended all ads. I will use story posts like this one to grow brand and gain more love from followers, but use food videos to gain new followers.
- People will visit house to assess and mitigate the water leak problem in the bedroom bathroom. I escaped to Starbucks.
- Drive to Home Plus. After returning home, washed face for skincare then rested in bed. Fell asleep.
- Ate Kyochon Chicken for dinner. Watched 한식대첩 with mom. Called dad. Exercised muscles.
- Entered bedroom. Worked on writing Seelog. Finished writing 애플 and 테라피.

### 25.09.14

- Left home to drive to the hanok cafe 호양호림. It was disappointing.
- Drove to 첫새벽 cafe on 무등산 원효사. It was a beautiful place with a beautiful with view of the mountains.
- Visited 원효사. It was a small but serene temple.
- After returning home, I wanted to take a nap, but worked on editing the video about Yook Hoe. It was past midnight by time I finished editing and posted the video.

### 25.09.15

- Woke up feeling super tired.
- Recorded Jeyook meal prep. Meat was spoiled. It smelled ammonia.
- At Yemi, learned and practiced Minari Rolls and Hong Hap Cho.

### 25.09.16

- I want to live today slowly. Ate breakfast at Lotteria, with nutrient supplements, then visited Starbucks to drink a cup of coffee and get a little bit of work done. Rejected all other tasks that must be done outside such as hospital and photo studio.
- At home, edited Jeyook meal prep video. Did not get to finish writing post before departure.
- At Yemi, made Chil Jeol Pan and Oisobaki.

### 25.09.17

- Visited 행정복지센터.
- Visited 피부과. Doctor wanted $1000 per 10 laser treatment sessions for the burn scar discoloration on my belly. I could pay the money, but I was more worried about the inconvenience of having to visit every single week for the next 10 weeks, and the doctor not promising that any effect may materialize even after the treatment sessions.
- Visited Starbucks. Returned home to rest briefly.
- At Yemi, practiced 생선찌개 and 육회. 생선찌개 was daunting, because I had never handled fish before, but it became my first not-unfit dish.

### 25.09.18

- Woke up at 6AM. Departed home at 7AM.
- Drove to 지리산 화엄사. Ate 산채한정식 for breakfast at 예원식당.
- 어머니와 차를 타고 화엄사로 가는 길에 신호등 신호에 맞춰서 길을 건너는 고양이를 보았다.
- Visited 화엄사. Ate 사찰공양음식 for lunch. Purchased a set of red 법복.
- Drove to 뱀사골. 지리산 남쪽에서부터 북쪽까지 가기 위해 차로 고개를 넘었다. 미리 식당 사장님께 전화드려 오늘 석이버섯 먹을 수 있는가 물었는데, 길이 공사 중이라서 공사 인력 점심 시간 끝난 후에 오면 저녁 5시까지 뱀사골에 입장 불가라고 해서 열심히 달렸다. 12시 59분 정확하게 뱀사골 입구에 도착했으나 도로 보수 공사가 1시 시작이라 진입할 수 없었다. 사정을 설명했더니 도로 통제인께서 감사히도 전화로 연락해 차 한대만 들여보낼 수 없는가 공사팀에 연락해주셨고, 공사 중에 쓰러졌던 나무 등을 내가 지나갈 수 있게 30분간 치워주신 후에 내가 지나갈 수 있었다. 그렇게 어렵게 도착한 와운마을 누운골식당은 가치있었다. 이번 한국 여행중에 먹어본 식당 중 제일 맛있었네. 전에 먹어본 석이버섯이 하늘하늘 부드러워서 석이버섯전이 어떤 맛일지 궁금했는데, 부드러운 버섯을 쫄깃한 전이 감싸니 고기 전보다 맛있었고, 보통 식당 요리들은 간이 짠데 산채 나물들이 적당하게 간이 잡혀있어 아주 맛있었다. 물 소리도 시원한 바람도 좋아서 오래 있고 싶었지만 비구름이 몰려오고 있어 보여 한시간 후 출발할 수 밖에 없었다.
- 집에 돌아오자마자 샤워하고 침대 위에 기절하듯 잠들었다.

### 25.09.19

- Woke up feeling pretty tired. Took a pill of Tylenol on top of nutrient supplements. Doubled dosage of methylfolate nutrients from 2 pills a day to 4 pills today.
- Visited a nearby photo studio for profile photo photoshoot for the craftsman cook certification exam. I am satisfied with the photo.
- Edited the video for Jang Jorim. I feared that I was not feeling very excited about it. It felt forced. And recently posted videos have not been doing very well. This video did not do well either. I was stressed.
- Climbed stairs for exercise.
- At midnight, recorded cooking Juk Sun Chae. I was working out of desperation but I was very stressed and tired. I need to revive the successful pace of my brand. Even if the brand is climbing smoothly, I have so much work to do to monetize it with an AI product.

### 25.09.20

- Woke up feeling pretty defeated due to the video yesterday not having performed very well. I need to spend time thinking about a new marketing strategy, but I am too tired and emotionally defeated to do so, so I decided to live peacefully and recover today.
- Started day peacefully with mom. Mom suggested that we watch a drama so that I can relax and recover emotionally. But I was not able to find any dramas that felt fun to watch.
- Stayed home all day today.

### 25.09.21

- I felt depressed all day today.
- Recorded cooking mountain greens namul muchim.
- Strolled outside briefly. But otherwise did not move much.

### 25.09.22

- Edited and posted video about Hwaeomsa temple food. I was worried for days that I'm failing videos repeatedly. This video also did not do that well. But later, it also did not do too bad.
- Practiced 두부젓국찌개 and 생선양념구이 at Yemi.
- After returning home, ate 뿌링클 치킨 then watched 폭군의 셰프 with mom.

### 25.09.23

- Came up with new ideas for ExCoox content such as lesson on not crushing garlic and minari oil.
- Visited Kyobo Books for inspirations.
- At Yemi, practiced 너비아니 and 풋고추전.
- Gifted a pen to Master Heo, purple ink.
- Dad returned home.

### 25.09.24

- Edited and posted garlic video. It became popular. Best score since 30 days ago.
- At Yemi, practiced 잡채 and 표고전.

### 25.09.25

- Rested at home today.
- Watched 폭군의셰프.
- Read 철가방짱.

### 25.09.26

- Visited Lotte Mall. Purchased some shirts.
- Ate dinner at Mao. It was bad.
- Brought home Baskin-Robbins icecream (Shooting Star flavor).

### 25.09.27

- Ate porridge at 본앤본. It was delicious. Seasoned perfectly.
- Visited Home Plus to exchange dad’s shirt. Yesterday, mom received size 95 instead of size 100.
- Visited 신세계 백화점 but exhausted all energy while also unable to buy any products.

### 25.09.28

- Edited and posted a video about Juk Sun Chae. To my surprise, the video became very popular on Instagram.
- Climbed stairs for exercise.

### 25.09.29

- Called 조청 명인 to confirm lesson appointment, but the staff told me system has error and lesson cannot take place today. Postponed lesson to after 추석.
- Strolled outside.
- Finished watching 폭군의 셰프.
- At Yemi, practiced 오징어볶음 and 배추김치.
- On Threads, posted about 폭군의 셰프 original novel. More than doubled my followers on Threads.

### 25.09.30

- Exercised climbing stairs.
- At Yemi, practiced 섭산적 and 두부조림.
### 25.10.01

- Recorded cooking egg flower to use as video for upcoming video to post about Bon Appetit Your Majesty.
- Ate Lotteria hurriedly before driving to Yemi.
- At Yemi, practiced 생선전 and 더덕생채. It was our last class before harvest season vacation. Mom prepared a gift for our teacher, an aged Whiskey, and I wrote her a card: “허이재 선생님께. 선생님과 귀한 인연을 맺고 멋진 요리를 배울 수 있어서 행복합니다. 앞으로도 열심히 배우고 선생님께 배운 것들 처음 마음 그대로 기억할게요. 행복한 한가위 되세요. 2025년 한가위. 준원 올림.”.
- After returning home, ate dinner with 생선전 and 더덕생채. They tasted nice.
- Exercised by climbing stairs.

### 25.10.02

- Woke up at 5AM. I tend to be too energetic when I eat saponin, and I ate deodeok yesterday.
- Realized ex-gf has not wired October rent. Sent her money to notify and remind her. Asked her whether she sent apartment October rent and she confirmed yes.
- After meal, worked in office. Edited then posted the egg flower video along with English translation of the true ending from the original novel for Bon Appetit Your Majesty. The video performed well as I had expected.
- Rested today. Air was bad outside so did not exercise. Instead, stayed home, ate fried chicken, watched K-Pop Demon Hunters with mom, and watched an episode of Chef and My Fridge.
- Worked on writing Seelog D107C DOPE.

### 25.10.03

- Started day by responding to messages from fans.
- Visited 광주 농협 농수산품 종합유통센터 하나로마트 with mom. We shopped grocery.
- Recorded cooking videos: Gujeolpan and Putgochujeon. Mom helped me a lot.

### 25.10.04

- Visited UNIQLO then DAISO for shopping with mom.
- At home, suffered allergy against uncooked carrrots.
- Worked on editing videos about Sanche and Stone Mushroom.
- Dad returned home. We ate gujeolpan mom made.
- Worked on editing videos until 6AM.

### 25.10.05

- Posted Sanche video.
- Drove to 순천.
- Ate 게장 for late lunch.
- Visited 순천만국가정원.
- At home, ate fried chicken and 조기구이 for dinner.

### 25.10.06

- I see I have 6억5550만원 in bank.
- Woke up at 6AM to work on editing video.
- Started driving to 구미 at 1PM. Picked up a cup of coffee at Starbucks, fueled car. On our way to 구미, we chatted and sang songs happily.
- After arriving at Gumi, we tried to visit a store to buy Chuseok gift for family, but all the stores were closed. We visited a small grocery store that was open today, but found no gifts that felt fancy enough.
- Ate dinner with father-side family at 복터진집. It’s been over a decade since my dad’s last visit, but 신순옥 명장님 recognized dad, and it was a very merry evening. I took a photo with her as well. She recommended 로스구이 which she got a patent for. It was delicious. It was my idea to eat at the 복어 restaurant, because I love 일물완식 of 복어. It was great to get together with dad’s side family. I asked 고모 if she had eaten 석이버섯, and she told me the exact same story that my dad told me, about the mountain, grandma harvesting 석이버섯 off the cliff.
- After the dinner, I wanted to eat desserts with family, since I was not able to chat much with cousins and the new niece who sat far from me during the dinner, but family suggested we depart now since 전라도 is far. So I did, and we reached home at midnight.
- At home, dad suggested we order a fried chicken. I was actually craving fried chicken too in the car, so I took the chance and ordered one right away. We ate, we chatted, then I fell asleep.

### 25.10.07

- Watched KDH with dad.
- Visited Parkland and UNIQLO to buy shirts for dad.
- Visited 양벽로스터리 by chance. We were near there and waiting for dinner time, and I just searched a nearby cafe, but the cafe ended up being amazing. Magnificent building. Delicious drinks. Great ambience. We discussed how mom wants to run a hotel near 금오산 one day, and I suggested her to buy 금오산 호텔. But mom and dad told me the hotel had a bad reputation in the past: owner died, leaving family to fight over it, so the hotel was left not maintained well, and teenagers sneaked into it at nights for gang fights, breaking and burning things in it.
- Ate at 백년미가. It was amazing! Every dish in the full course 한정식 was delicious. Staff explained each dish to us, and every single dish was made by the owner herself. Presidents of Korea dined here.
- At home, I suggested we drink whiskey. Dad brought out more expensive ones, but I asked to drink the cheapest one, not only because I will not drink much, but also because I need a baseline to compare future better ones against.
- We watched 냉장고를 부탁해. Korean president appeared in the show.

### 25.10.08

- Visited 양벽로스터리 with mom. Enjoyed the ambience. We sat on the terrace. It was quiet, spacious, and we enjoyed breeze.
- The executive director of culture at Salon reached out to me asking for an interview. I asked her verification questions to check whether the article will be good for me.
- Ate lunch at a small local 김밥 store. It was delicious. I suggested we buy some more for dinner, so mom bought 3 more.
- Dad returned home. I suggested we go to a bookseller or go to a sauna or go on a stroll near home, whichever most helps dad recover. We ordered 보쌈 for dinner.
- Strolled to 아트박스 to buy letter cards for gifts. On way back, bought 마스크팩 at 올리브영.
- Mom went home first, and dad and I strolled along the river before going home. I also climbed stairs for exercise.
- Made advances on writing Seelog.

### 25.10.09

- Posted 백년미가 video.
- Ate Lotteria for lunch.
- Responded to comments and messages on Instagram.
- Napped twice.
- Dad returned home. Climbed stairs together for exercise. Strolled outside.

### 25.10.10

- Drove to 낙원정 for 오리탕. I was annoyed the restaurant is so far, because I was busy. But 오리탕 was delicious so I did not feel angry as soon as I ate it.
- Visited 교보문고 to let mom buy a gift for 동은.
- At home, studied Korean Palace Cuisine and outlined what I want to say during the interview.

### 25.10.11

- Headed to bed at 9PM but woke up at 1AM.
- Wrote a letter for 동하. Mother-side family is meeting today, and we will be exchanging gifts in 마니또. I got assigned to give to 동하. Told him that I am gifting him a pen, because although he was able to find answers in books until now, he is now an adult and nobody in the world knows answers any better than he does, so he has to figure out on his own starting now and record them into books.
- At 3AM, saw a message from the executive editor of Salon news magazine from 2:30AM. Due to news publishing schedule, she needs to interview me today or else the article will be canceled. I suggested we interview immediately then. I was not prepared, but I can identify an opportunity when I see one, and I decided a poorly-done interview would be better than a canceled interview this time.
- Prepared then joined a call with Salon interviewer at 4:30AM in my home kitchen for the interview. I'm not fully satisfied with my performance. I wasn't organized or natural in my opinion. But it's for a written article anyway, and I think I got in all that I wanted to get in. I think I'll be able to get out of the article all that I wanted to get out of it.
- Departed home at 8AM for gathering with mother-side family. Mom drove so that I can sleep. Mom woke me up near the end of the highway so that I can drive the remainder since I am better at driving through busy city streets. Stopped by a convenience store to buy hair wax, then visited a cafe upstairs to fix hair before meeting family.
- Ate lunch with mother-side relatives at a Korean cuisine restaurant.
- After lunch, we visited the royal tomb of King Jeongjo. I took 2 photos which I later posted on Instagram.
- Visited a big bakery cafe nearby. Exchanged gifts.
- Rested at SY CY home in Dongtan.
- Ate dinner at 상해루. Dad came.
- Departed right after dinner. Reached home at midnight.

### 25.10.12

- Stayed home to work.
- Edited and posted a video narrating the story of King Jeongjo and his love for parents. I will push family love as one of the core values of the brand.
- Dad came home. We climbed stairs for exercise.

### 25.10.13

- Showered. Ate lunch. Then entered room to work. Reviewed weekend in diary briefly.
- Edited Gujeolpan video from 2H to 6M. Sent photos to Salon magazine.
- Studied cooking theory. Solved 120 quiz questions.
- Studied cooking at Yemi culinary school. It was the first class with new students. They were so bad.
- After returning home, visited Lotte Mart with mom to buy ingredients then ate dinner with dad.

### 25.10.14

- Registered for Korean Craftsman Cooks theory exam.
- For lunch, searched for 홍어 restaurant, because 홍어 at 백년미가 left am impression. Found a 마늘보쌈 restaurant in 상무지구. It was delicious! Mom and I liked it a lot and will return with dad.
- Registered for events at Hoam and Leeum. Wanted to invite Nadia, so registered for 3 people: mom, her, and me.
- Visited Yang Dong Market to buy a chef jacket. But disliked all the stores there.
- Solved 120 practice quiz questions for Korean Craftsman Cook exam.
- Practiced 재료썰기 and 육원전 at Yemi. I was the only one who finished in time out of 20 students.
- Stayed up until 3AM editing Gujeolpan video.

### 25.10.15

- Worked all day on editing Gujeolpan video. Posted it. Then drove to Yemi to study cooking.
- At Yemi, studied 북어구이 and 겨자채.
- Gujeolpan video is performing very well! Stayed up until 3AM responding to early comments. This will be great for my brand.

### 25.10.16

- Woke up pretty late. Showered. Ate lunch. Gujeolpan video I posted yesterday is performing super well.
- Texted Nadia asking her if she's free and down to hang out and catch up. She said yes. I invited her to come with me to either of the two museum events I'm visiting next week.
- Strolled along 영산강. Exercised by climbing stairs.
- Dad came home then suggested we go to sauna, so I drove us to the place he knows.
- After returning home, ate dinner, then headed to sleep at midnight.

### 25.10.17

- Left home. Got coffee. Fueled car.
- Got a haircut.
- Ate lunch at 백년미가 with mom, dad, and 이경진 아저씨.

### 25.10.18

- 엄마랑 집 근처 리브베 카페에서 식사함.
- 집에서 하루종일 휴식함.

### 25.10.19

- 양벽로스터리 가서 하루종일 실록 107C DOPE 모아나를 작성했다.
- 집에 돌아와서도 식사, 계단 오르기 운동, 샤워 제외하면 실록 작성에 몰두해서 107C DOPE을 완성했다.

### 25.10.20

- Someone reported to me that moejamie who is the hater I picked yesterday to burn is actually already infamous. He gained thousands of followers posting videos in which he punches his girlfriend, and kicks and strangles her dogs. Wow! I am burning him today even more, and will claim tomorrow that we stopped domestic abuse and animal cruelty by locating him and reporting him to the police.
- Studied at 양벽로스터리.
- Practiced cooking 화양적 and 콩나물밥 at Yemi.

### 25.10.21

- Woke up quite tired. Napped again until 2PM.
- Worked on editing Gochujeon video to be about celebrating locating and reporting the villain moejamie.
- At Yemi, practiced 더덕구이 and 지짐누름적. Master Heo offered to teach us another week.
- Edited and posted Gochujeon video. It was about victory against the villain from yesterday.
- Studied for KCC Theory Exam.

### 25.10.22

- Ate 나주곰탕 for breakfast with mom near KCC Theory Exam test center.
- Took KCC Theory Exam with mom. I passed. But it was a really difficult exam.
- Drove up to Dongtan with mom. Mom was in shock that she failed the exam. And by one question too! She studied during the entire time. I helped.
- It was a long drive and I feared I would be late to the art museum event, so I drove in the privilaged lane for buses, then got caught by police.
- Picked up cousin CY, then headed to Hoam Museum. Studied works of Louis Bourgeois. Ate dinner with CY and mom in the car in the parking lot, because the garden was closed. It was fun to picnic in car!
- After dropping off CY at Dongtan, visited CY home for about 30 minutes, then headed to Suwon hotel.

### 25.10.23

- Ate hotel buffet for breakfast with mom. Napped few more hours in room.
- Got coffee at Kim Sungmin Coffee.
- Rode bus to Seoul. Bus ride was very difficult to endure.
- Visited Beut 븟 to buy chef jackets and aprons. They wanted me to make a reservation for the visit, so I was daunted, but it was a friendly experience. I purchased a classic Hidden Snap jacket, a traditional Korean hanbok-like Suksu jacket, a scarf jacket, a white apron, and mom purchased three aprons one of which is a gift for Master Heo.
- On way back, I suggested we ride subway, since bus was too rough. Subway was better.
- Ate Indian curry for dinner at 히말라야 정원. Drank beer at poolside bar in hotel.

### 25.10.24

- Ate hotel buffet for breakfast. Today was delicious!
- Visited Suwon Starfield. Checked out brands searching for inspirations for my own brand. Decided to go with the brand identity I designed in FY2.
- Ate Indian curry for lunch at Agra. It was delicious and pretty.
- Purchased a mic at DJI.
- Checked out brands at AK Suwon.
- After returning to the hotel, mom and I were both super tired. I showered, then tried to work but fell asleep.
- Dad wanted to eat dinner with me, but was unable to get out of company until late. I ordered 페리카나치킨. Dad came home by time it arrived, so we ate together.
- Edited video about chef uniform until midnight. Then posted it.

### 25.10.25

- Checked out of hotel, then ate lunch at 예전.
- Drove to 신원 which is a store that sells kitchen products for professional restaurants. Purchased many white plates for intermediate cooking processes, and three black plates for final presentation.
- Drove to Jeon La.
- At home, fixed my nose skin problem. Shockingly, a nose hair grew out on top of nose skin, implying that it had ingrown, possibly because I cut it too short or otherwise incorrectly few weeks ago. I pulled out that hair, which was easy to do as if it is not rooted, then opaque liquid came out. After that, transparent liquid flowed out slowly on its own for hours. Red swollen nose got better by far by next morning but not yet completely.
- Sat in kitchen with mom. We studied together. Sent dad excerpts about dark factory.
- DJI Mic Mini is good. I will buy DJI Osmo Pocket when a new model comes out later this year.

### 25.10.26

- Wanted to visit Lotte Mart with mom, but it was closed, so we headed to the restaurant we enjoyed. Lunch was delicious.
- Recorded abalone cooking videos. Rested a little bit. Got up again to record cooking videos about Northern Fish and Kongnamul Juk.
- I was dead tired at 2AM in bed. Saw an Instagram push notification that Salon magazine editor tagged me. Saw that an article about me was on Salon magazine front page. Sunday 10AM. Wow! The article was super well-written, filled with details I wanted to share, and very long.

### 25.10.27

- Woke up after getting only 5 hours of sleep in order to drive mom to the test center for her KCC exam. She insisted she can go there by herself, but I insisted I take her there. Dad called on his way back from Suwon. We talked about Salon magazine article. I waited for mom in the cafe downstairs in the test center building. Mom passed the exam!
- Decided to visit Jeonju to celebrate us pasing the KCC theory exam. The restaurant I wanted to eat at (Fine) is closed tomorrow, so we will visit Baekyangsa instead.
- Decided to visit Hoam Museum on Friday to see Lee Ufan's new art works in advance.
- Washed car.
- For lunch, visited Lotte Mart with mom. I ate Lotteria.
- At home, read the Salon article carefully, and sent over a list of typos for the magazine to fix.
- Got LUTs for editing videos.
- Ate dinner with dad. Climbed stairs for exercise. Worked on editing the Bopuragi video.
- Sold MSFT shares. See Finance.

### 25.10.28

- Visited Samsung Store to try Galaxy XR. It was pretty good.
- At home, edited Bopuragi video sharing that I was on Salon magazine.
- Mom and I were both super tired. I fell asleep at about 7PM, then woke up at midnight, and saw mom had gone to sleep as well around the same time. She also woke up at midnight.

### 25.10.29

- The MSFT shares I tried to sell on Monday did not get sold, because the price never reached $535 on Monday and the order got cancelled. Now it is at $545, so I placed an order to sell it at $550.
- I'm in a slump with respect to contents that people will love. I need to roughly double my followers still…
- Ate 광어초밥 for lunch.
- Made music tracks to use for next several videos. Edited and posted Bugeo Guk video along with the story from the epilogue of Bon Appetit Your Majesty.

### 25.10.30

- Registered for KCC cooking exam.
- Departed home to go to Suwon. On our way, mom and I visited Gongju National Museum. The city was small and beautiful, like a mini version of Gyeongju, similar to how Baekje was smaller than Shinla but had nice beautiful artworks.
- Ate 꼬막 in Dongtan.
- At the hotel, visited poolside bar with dad, listened to live music serendipitously.
- Posted about Samsung Chairman eating Korean Fried Chicken making news today.

### 25.10.31

- Ate breakfast at hotel buffet, drank coffee at Kim Sungmin Coffee.
- Edited video about Jeonbok Cho before departing hotel room. Did not post in order to wait until Halloween Day in USA time.
- Before Hoam, packed kimbap, ate lunch at 예전.
- On way to Hoam, visited 신원주방 to buy some more plates for the cooking exam.
- Visited Hoam. Donors get a preview of works by Lee Ufan including a whole new garden next to the lake. Mom and I enjoyed our picnic.
- Returned to Gwangju.
- Ate BHC chicken fot dinner. Watched a documentary about the British royal family.
- Decided that ExCoox next chapter shall set it up as the champion of conservative values who gives up its privileged position for justice.
### 25.11.01

- Mom told me she saw an ad for a Bakery Festa happening in the city, but I was not able to wake up in the morning. In the afternoon, drove to it. The event was very crowded, so we just purchased a set of breads at a booth with no line, then returned home.
- Visited HN Hanaro where mom purchased grocery ingredients so that we can practice cooking for the upcoming exam.
- Worked on editing video about Yetdol Garden until 3AM.

### 25.11.02

- Edited and posted Yetdol Garden video. It was a difficult work, because I was introducing that I come from a rich family. I had to be careful such that it is seen positively and not make audience feel unhappy. I think I did a good job successfully using the post to set me up as a champion of traditional family values.
- Exercised by climbing stairs. Practiced cooking. Felt tired, so went to bed at 8PM.

### 25.11.03

- Posted photos on personal social media: Hawaii, Korea.
- Climbed stairs for exercise.
- Practiced cooking at Yemi culinary school.
- Dad came home. We celebrated his birthday together.
- Sent half of rent to Jinjoo on Chase Zelle. She has again excluded me from email confirmation to home owner for rent payment, so I had forgotten about rent.

### 25.11.04

- Edited and posted the video about Abalone Butter Gui.
- Exercised by climbing apartment stairs.
- At Yemi, practiced bibimbap. Again, finished on time.
- Confirmed eating dinner with Hanh from Salon on Thursday.
- At home, ate dinner, then ate snacks with dad.
- Exercised muscles for the first time in a long time. It was hard.

### 25.11.05

- Felt very tired, possibly due to exercising muscles yesterday.
- Ate sandwich at Subway near Yemi for dinner with mom.
- Visited Yemi early to learn how to sharpen knife. Master Heo’s son taught me.
- As our last class at Yemi, mom and I practiced Jang Guk Juk and Wan Ja Tang.
- Ate friend chicken with dad.
- Reached 50K followers.
- While brushing teeth, gold crown fell off. Ominous…

### 25.11.06

- Made myself a cup of coffee. Then my tooth where the gold crown fell off hurt. I’ll have to get this fixed ASAP.
- Searched for Seoul National University and found one dentist in Gwangju. Visited and got crown fixed. Dentist told me to consider getting a tooth crown for the tooth which lost root canal, and for 좌상3.
- Called 가매 to reserve a lunch for our lunch with Master Heo, but the lady who got my call rudely urged me to just reserve without asking questions. I did not reserve yet. Added bad reviews to the restaurant in maps apps.
- At home, edited then posted geu sauce video.
- Had a dinner with Hanh Nguyen from Salon at 백년미가. Dad joined us.
- Exercised at home.

### 25.11.07

- Visited 백양사 with mom. 단풍 was very pretty. We ate at Cafe Mozza run by a chef who studied at Culinary Institute of America and worked at Four Seasons Seoul. Purchased 참송이버섯 and 홍시 on our way back home.

### 25.11.08

- Recorded cooking porridges.
- After dad returned home, we all went out to eat 마늘보쌈. After dropping off mom, dad and I went to sauna. I suggested to dad to consider switching from his original plan of writing a book to delivering the same stories but through videos.

### 25.11.09

- Woke up at 7AM due to stomachache. Did I eat something wrong yesterday? Or perhaps sauna was visited by an infected person? Alas.
- Worked on company brand posts. Porridge post was quiet successful.
- Surpassed 60K followers.
- Dad had left home early morning, at 5AM, to go play golf. Then he had lunch with the people he played golf with who are people in his company. Then he got very drunk. Yesterday, he had told us he would be home by 2PM so that we can go travel somewhere. I asked mom to reserve us a dinner at 전주 궁 한정식 (henceforth 궁). She did, then I texted dad that we have made the reservation, so we can depart to Jeonju a little after 2PM when he is back home, then check out Jeonju, then eat dinner. He asked if he can be back by 3PM, and it was fine. After 3PM had passed, mom and I got a call from dad. He was completely drunk and unable to speak coherently, and was lost in a neighborhood he is unable to recognize. The driver he called to drive for him, since he was drunk, dropped him off at a different Hyundai apartment in the city. I was about to shower and get ready for Jeonju trip, but mom was very worried, and I had to leave home with her without being able to shower. We also had no idea where that neighborhood was, so using the photos dad sent us as clues, we navigated to him. I drove there, then mom drove my car home, and I drove his car home. I told dad to get a massage on the massage chair, then started getting ready by taking a shower. Mom returned home. I later saw dad had a face mask on, and mom said it was because he wouldn’t stop saying unintelligible sentences. Anyways, we put him in the car, then started driving to Jeonju. Dad was asleep in the car to and from, and still completely drunk during dinner and even after we had returned home. How much did he drink to remain drunk for over 6 hours? I was also worried time to time while he was asleep in the car, because his former boss had died few months ago during sleep after getting too drunk.
- 전주 궁 한정식에서 어머니와 아버지와 식사했다. 전라도에서 가장 궁중요리 한정식을 잘 하는 집. 한복려 선생님 제자께서 운영하심. 식사를 아주 잘 했다. 준원실록 참조.

### 25.11.10

- Woke up at 4AM, possibly because I drank alcohol yesterday night. Decided to spend each day of this week: studying for the craftsman cooking exam, writing Seelog, coding the website in response to reaching the petition goal.
- Posted the Hoam Peacock video thanking 60K followers.
- Visited 백양사 again. Mom drove. Ate pizza at Cafe Mozza by CIA chef for lunch. Mom purchased two pieces of expensive clothes colored using natural traditional methods. I purchased a bottle of 백양사 간장 and a jar of 백양사 조청.
- At home, napped, then studied for Korean craftsman cook cooking exam. Gave myself a random pair of dishes, then practiced coming up with steps in head.

### 25.11.11

- 어머니 제안으로 구르미머무는 카페에 가서 어머니는 요리 공부하시고 나는 구멍난 앞치마 글을 적어올렸다.
- 식자재 마트에 들러서 동태를 사와서 집에서 생선전과 생선찌개를 연습했으나 생선 손질을 전혀 못 했다. 하나도 모르겠네. 큰일났다.
- 조청 만드는 방법을 익혀서 선물로 써먹어야겠다.

### 25.11.12

- Today, I will practice cooking (6 dishes is the target!), edit and post Kongnamul Juk video, and exercise. Aim to also code and write Seelog episodes.
- I failed all cooking practices today.
- Dad came home early. We celebrated mom’s birthday and their marriage anniversary.

### 25.11.13

- After breakfast, departed home with mom to buy grocery.
- At home, cooked all day. Recorded fish jeon (again), baechu kimchi, and baguette neobiani. Practiced 배추김치, 생선전, 화양적.

### 25.11.14

- Practiced 비빔밥, 겨자채.
- Edited and posted Bean Sprout Juk video.
- Few days ago, I asked dad to help me look into how I can buy Galaxy Moohan cheaply so that I can use it for my next stage for work. He told me he told CEO about me and CEO will give me a headset.

### 25.11.15

- Practiced 잡채 and 육원전. Was supposed to be done in under 55M but I finished at 75M.
- Visited 다비치 with mom. Purchased a pair of lenses for Galaxy Moohan. Mom and I also each got a pair of glasses: a purple gold frame for mom and a red gold frame for me.
- Practiced 풋고추전 and 미나리강회.
- Spent a little time coding, not to get anything done yet, but just to get familiar with the codebase again.

### 25.11.16

- My arms, hands, and fingers are too tired to cook, so I spent today memorizing recipes.
- Nadia texted me to tell me she feels recovered from her business trip and is ready to meet. We set schedule to Sunday, so I thought about inviting her to somewhere interesting so that we can take photos and have fun, but dad had prepared upcoming Sunday as the only Sunday during my 3-months trip as a day he can spend with me and mom, so I moved schedule around with Nadia and finally made a plan to have dinner on Wednesday. I lost a lot of energy thinking about this schedule I think. I’ll be so busy until my departure on 28th. I have to meet the former lawmaker on Thursday, then depart on Friday.
- Got an injury during cooking practice. Because we didn’t have 석이버섯, mom suggested I use 목이버섯, but 목이버섯 is very slippery unlike 석이버섯, so knife slipped and I got a cut at the tip of my finger. It hurt, so I was unable to cook anything else today.

### 25.11.17

- Felt very tired and unhappy. Mom suggested we depart home and study recipes at a nearby cafe. I was unable to focus on studying at the cafe.
- Practiced cooking 재료썰기 and 두부조림. Injured finger nail even more.
- In the evening, Nadia texted me telling me she will come out of work at noon on Wednesday, and skip her gym. She thought about what we can do together and wants to go watch a play. I applauded her for thinking up of a very Seoul date idea. She asked me if we can watch a horror play, and I told her I’m not very good with horror shows, but I’ll try. She also suggested a comedy show in that case, but I thought a horror show would be more fun. I searched up 혜화 and found there are a ton of pretty places nearby including one of the palaces of Korea and a park where KDH featured. Also talked about her bad year and my bad year. Chat with her was a good distraction from cooking.
- Dad came home. We visited a 감자탕 restaurant at my suggestion. It was delicious.

### 25.11.18

- I was floored. After days of only studying and practicing cooking, I was completely out of energy. I have been out of energy since days ago… I was unable to even eat any food, because I had no appetite.
- Bought tickets for the play that Nadia wanted to watch with me.
- Practiced 오징어볶음 & 지짐누름적, 잡채 & 북어구이. Passed both times.
- Picked up the red gold glasses I had ordered several days ago.
- I was too tired to pack.

### 25.11.19

- I was too excited and nervous for the exam, and failed to fall asleep until after 3AM.
- Woke up at 7AM. Mom was up early too. We packed for the cooking exam.
- Mom and I visited the exam site early to gain info. We found out every single menu that was tested today before us.
- For our exam, 22 candidates participated including us. We were ordered to cook 생선찌개 & 육원전. Nobody gave up. Nobody failed to finish on time. Nobody got called to be told they’re disqualified.
- I was very nervous, because my 육원전 was made terribly. I expected to be called to be told I’m disqualified, but I survived. I was worried until I got home, though mom tried to soothe me by telling me there’s nothing I can do until the result comes out. But though she acted calm to calm me, she was nervous too, so she forgot to bring her phone after we handed electronic devices to them during exam, so we had to go back as soon as returning home.
- At home, mom and I let go of everything, both collapsed on the floor of the living room, then watched TV until midnight.
- Purchased a wide ink well for my oblique pen and a limited edition Superman ink.
- Dad is returning home tomorrow. He told me he got Galaxy XR for me and will bring it with him tomorrow. He is in Suwon today. I asked him if he is free to have dinner with us. He said yes. I will try to book 가매 tomorrow for our celebration party.

### 25.11.20

- 이제 밀린 할일들 다 하려면 엄청 바쁘다.
- Ordered Samsung Portable Induction Plate. Asked dad to reserve 가매 for tomorrow family dinner. Reserved a haircut for tomorrow.
- Visited 이비인후과 (엔탑) and 치과 (서울). Got flu vaccine shot.
- For some reason, mom was cognitively shaken and on alert today. She worried when we entered a hospital that we might get sickness from other patients, distrusted recommendations of the pharmacist, left a dentist (who was indeed not very trustworthy but she was stuck in the thought about how untrustworthy he was even after we visited a new dentist and returned home). While parking, she even forgot how to use gear in the car. I drove for the rest of the day after that parking incident. What she was going through reminded me of my migraine moments. I told her so. We returned home as soon as possible.
- Napped.
- Dad returned home. With Galaxy Moohan.
- I worked on editing video until late dawn.

### 25.11.21

- Visited hair salon and got a hair perm.
- Posted a video about the civil war in Korean Palace Cuisine between traditionalists and futurists.
- Experienced Galaxy Moohan.
- Dad broke promise to eat dinner with us. I had searched a nice Chinese cuisine restaurant. I was disappointed. Went to sleep.
- Woke up at night. Exercised a little. Did not get anything done productive.

### 25.11.22

- Reserved lunch omakase then drove to 가매. Service was frustrating, but I need the story of visiting Chef Ahn.
- Ate lunch at 가매. We got seats at the counter where we can see and chat with cooks who are preparing food for customers. Ate sushi, tendon, and other Japanese cuisine dishes in a course meal. Met 임현민 조이실장: he worked with 안유성 명장님 for 10 years now, started career at an Izakaya, earned 일식조리기능사 자격증, but has no plans to pursue higher levels. Met and had a chat with 안유성 명장님. 조리기능장 되기 위해 허이재 선생님께 배우셨다고 하시며, 한식으로는 허이재 선생님이 최고라고 하셨다. 흑백요리사 나갈 때도 허이재 선생님한테 트레이닝 다시 받고 가셨다고 말씀해주셨다. 명장님 겸손하시고 착하셔. 베리 굿.
- At home, exercised climbing stairs.
- Dad came home early, a little less than an hour before the sunset. As soon as he got home, I rushed us out of home to 백양사 which was mom’s destination idea, and we got to catch a glimpse of last week of maples under sunset.
- On way back, dad was busy on a call with his staff member who will become the new Head of Samsung Electronics Home Appliances Poland.
- Ate dinner at 마천루. Surprisingly, the bakery mom and I liked at Bakery Festa was on the first floor of the building. The restaurant was on the second floor. Mom bought some breads.
- At home, recorded a ton of cooking videos with mom’s help. Recorded from 10PM to 4AM.

### 25.11.23

- Departed home to go on a family trip to 신안 증도. Dad had visited the island many years ago with his friends and wanted to visit it again. Dad drove. It was not that far. The island was very fun with 갯벌 and 염전. I got lots of nice videos that I can upload for company brand later: after becoming a craftsman cook, I visited salt farm to learn and check the process of making salt and get the best salt. I purchased a vintage salt aged for 20 years. The salt water garden was beautiful: there is this tough red grass which only grows in salt water.
- On our way back, visited a city called 무안 and ate 교촌치킨.
- During dinner, helped dad write a message for Samsung Electronics CEO congratulating him for getting the promotion and thanking him for gifting me (his son) Galaxy Moohan as an encouragement for my entrepreneurial endeavor.
- After dropping off mom at home, dad and I visited sauna. I came up with the idea of the app I will launch and the brand story to go with it. As a craftsman cook, I will have my own cooking philosophy: 보신. But to maximize 보신 impact, I cannot be just cooking for people who can eat my food, I need to spread information. But Korean government which recognized me as a craftsman cook has a rigid view on roles based on how the role is performed. But I think role is about what impact must be made. This is similar to how role of homemakers is not about doing homemaking but rather about getting homemaking done be it with electronics. So to maximize 보신, I want to perform 이도여치: find sicknesses and cure them. This is the way kings got treated in the palace: not just yearly visits to the doctor, but care by doctors and cooks on what he eats every single day and every single moment. That’s Palace Care. That’s the app: Palace Care.
- At home, drank Coca-Cola and Ballantine with dad, while watching 유퀴즈 episode with 나폴리 맛피아 and 에드워드 리.

### 25.11.24

- At midnight, started coding site to celebrate UNESCO petition completion. Wanted to go to sleep at 3AM, but suffered insomnia, so got out of bed at 4AM and started working again. Worked until 5:30AM. Woke up at 10:30AM.
- Visited 다비치 for Galaxy Moohan lenses.
- Ate lunch at 마루요시. 초밥 was very nice.
- Edited video and coded site. Neither is fully done yet. So busy today…
- Dad returned home in time for dinner. We went to eat at 첨단공원국밥본점. I liked it.
- With mom’s help, finished recording all planned videos to be published until end of next month. Finished at 3AM.
- I am worried about not having code ready for petition completion yet it is scheduled to take place tomorrow. But I desperately need to sleep.

### 25.11.25

- Woke up. Checked UNESCO petition. I have less than 24 hours left. Code is not done yet. Must finish. But I also need to pack and depart to Suwon today. Wow. What a busy week!
- Worked on code changes then published.
- Packed. Then took a dinner break. Returned to 마루요시.
- Packed. Departed to Suwon.
- On way to Suwon, tried to work in the car. I drove for the first hour, handed the steering wheel to mom. First, talked to Nadia and we decided to eat spicy mala food for dinner at Nine Dragons. Then I worked on script, but I was unable to finish work let alone get to recording.

### 25.11.26

- Woke up. Worked on editing videos celebrating the completion of UNESCO petition. They were supposed to be done days ago, but I was just so busy this week. Worked hard racing against the clock, then posted them. Had to skip lunch for this. But I also wanted to appear slimmer when meeting Nadia so it’s okay.
- Texted Nadia and asked her whether she would like me to drive her from 마곡 to 혜화 and she said yes if I don't mind. I drove to 마곡.
- Nadia left work early at 2PM, then exercised at the gym for 2 hours, then met me at 5PM after getting dressed.
- To wait for her, I parked my car at a big building right across the street from her home. It was a very big shopping mall! It was called 원그로브. Nadia later told me it opened recently, after bothering her sleep with construction noise for 2 years. At 원그로브, I got coffee at Blue Bottle, then stayed at 교보문고. I feared I’ll be hungry having not had lunch, so I ate a small burger at Burger King.
- Picked up Nadia in front of her home. We enjoyed a date at 혜화. See Nadia record in Contacts for details.
- After dropping her off at her home again, I returned to Suwon.

### 25.11.27

- Went up to hotel breakfast buffet for breakfast with mom. While there, checked results of craftsman cook exam. I PASSED!!! Wow! I got up and hugged mom. Then we checked her results and she passed too!!! I was within the top 5% of the candidates, and mom was in top 0.0%. Texted dad, 허이재 “스승님”, and relatives. Got congratulated. Others texted, but 스승님 called.
- 방에 돌아와 잤다. 오후 1시 일어났다.
- 어머니와 예전식당 가서 된장찌개와 김치찌개로 식사했다.
- 어머니와 수원 스타필드 가서 쇼핑하려 했었는데, 시간이 부족해 차라리 방에 올라가서 휴식했다. 아주 탁월한 선택이었다.
- 나디아한테 컬러그레이딩 보여주면서 오늘은 바빠서 못 보내주고 미국 돌아가서 편집해서 보내주겠다고 하며 미국 놀러오라 초대했다.
- 아버지, 안민석 의원님, 그리고 안민석 의원님 지인들하고 저녁 식사했다. 딱히 영양가는 없는, 안 만났어도 역사에 변화가 없을, 무의미한 만남들이었다. 하나는 피자 오븐 만들어서 팔고, 하나는 그냥 돈 되는건 아무거나 사와서 파는데, 전자는 “제조업” 둘째는 “무역업”한다고 소개하는데, 나랑 겸상할 급들은 아닌 듯 하구만. 안민석 의원도 사람 잡아오는 실력 보니 요즘 버스 타고 다니는 생활이 적당하구만. 그런데 내 회사에 투자를 할 자격이 있다고 스스로와 주변 사람들을 높이 사다니, 잔인하지 않으면 살아남을 수 없는 실리콘밸리의 창업가를 우습게 봤다.

### 25.11.28

- 새벽엔 실록에 나디아와 데이트한 내용을 기록했다.
- 아침엔 일찍 일어나 어머니와 화성행궁에 가서 크래프트맨 쿡 조리복 입고 영상 촬영했다.
- 인천공항으로 가서 쌀국수로 식사했다. 커피 한잔 한 후 어머니와 인사하고 출발했다.
- 비행기에서는 비교적 순탄했다. 옆엔 미국인 백인 모녀가 탔는데 딸이 날씬해서 자리가 편했다. 모녀 중 어머니가 편두통이 생겼다고 해서 승무원 불러다 타일레놀 가져다주라고 했다.
- 비행기에서는 마케팅 책들을 읽으며 팰러스케어 혹은 팰러스큐어라 부르려고 생각 중인 제품을 구상했다.
- Passed San Francisco airport security without a problem. Told immigration officer I studied Korean food, and he asked me about it, not in an interrogative but in a friendly manner. I was surprised he mentioned 오징어볶음 before I did. Chavez, you are a cool guy for a pretty old man!
- Rode an Uber home.
- I expected the crazy ex-gf would have left a crazy letter at home, and as expected, I found one. She printed out pages of how she felt hurt, and made a case for how she did not a single thing wrong and I did everything wrong. She listed out each thing in a bulletpoint such as how I did not turn on the heated blanket and said it was cold although the dial was on my side. What a crazy woman and a crazy letter. Hahaha. I did not bother responding or keeping the letter. I tossed it into the trash can, and will not be responding at all. She also left me a stack of cash that is supposed to be her portion of all remaining months of rent. Very surprising since this home is not very safe. I was unilaterally notified early this month that lender was barging in at a declared time on a declared day for appraisal. Anyways, money seems correct, and I’ll put it in the bank soon.
- Showered. Lied in bed. Fell sleep at noon. Woke up at 5PM.
- Now that I think about it after getting some sleep, it’s very good ex-gf wrote me such letter. I have zero regrets for our break-up. Even our last interaction ever was like that. She is just so aggressive and hostile, completely different from me or people like me.
- I posted a fun image (a grid of Hangul characters and a caption that the first three words you see are what you’ll get in 2026) on Instagram Story which is what all my friends can see, but set up Close Friends filter such that only Nadia can see it. I was wondering if she would keep texting me or no. She did.
- Bought grocery at Target. Cooked dinner. Called parents. Fell asleep.

### 25.11.29

- Woke up at 6:30AM. Unpacked until 7:30AM. Ate breakfast. Finished unpacking. Practiced calligraphy a little bit. Cooked and ate lunch. Showered.
- Downloaded new LUTs. Colorgraded Baegyangsa video.
- Wrote M356 Review.
- Left home for grocery shopping. Uncovered car. Fortunately, it is still in good shape. I was worried, because I distrust Americans. Car wanted me to keep engine on but not drive in order to charge battery, so I waited then only drove to Marina grocery store.
- Edited then posted Baegyangsa video.

### 25.11.30

- Reset laptop computer.
- Ate breakfast. Cooked chicken breast.
- Exercised a little bit then returned to bed.
- After waking up, strolled at the park for exercise, showered, ate dinner.
- Felt tired and sleepy in the evening.
- Woke up at night. Worked on Company documents.

### 25.12.01

- Woke up at 6AM. Measured biometrics with InBody. Made chicken breast salad with quinoa and lettuce. Swallowed nutrient supplements. I am feeling calm and happy. Be this calm and filled with positive energy even during my time in America.
- Edited and posted Fish Jeon video.
- Deposited some cash at Chase bank.

### 25.12.02

- Prepared contents about Chef of Antarctica for Fish Jjigae post.
- Wrote Seelog D108C 성인. Showered. Ate breakfast.
- Edited and posted Fish Jjigae post.
- Visited Costco. Purchased grocery.

### 25.12.03

- Spent most of day sleeping. Other than waking up in the morning to eat breakfast, and waking up in the evening to go on a night stroll, did not do much.

### 25.12.04

- Edited and posted video about Jijim Nureum Jeok.
- Threw out trash. Laundered light clothes.
- Ran for exercise. Purchased grocery items at Whole Foods.

### 25.12.05

- Woke up at dawn. Called parents. Drank coffee. Spent time reading news and ideating nutrition app. I’m feeling relaxed. Today is a good day for brainstorming freely.
- Spent lots of time ideating product and brand story. Called parents. Ran outside for 1 hour.

### 25.12.06

- Yesterday, in retrospect, I was agitated by light, not feeling tired, spending a lot of time on reading. Today, I saw my muscle mass dropped sharply like over 1kg overnight. This in past usually led to migraine. Be careful. Possibly due to too much caffeine. I made coffee from coffee beans for the first time in a long time. Or allergy against the chemicals Americans use for washing carrots?
- Peacefully focused on homemaking tasks today: cut nails, wash dishes, cooked food, laundered bed linens.
- Called parents.

### 25.12.07

- Visited Stanford for Engineering School Centennial celebration event. Stanford Engineering School was founded 100 years ago.
- Walked around Stanford. Then at 2PM, entered Hoover Institution. Met alumni. Event started at 3PM. Sergey Brin the Google Founder, Jennifer Widom the Dean of Stanford Engineering School, and Jon Levin the President of Stanford University were at the event.
- Visited Stanford Shopping Center. Purchased Nespresso coffee capsules.

### 25.12.08

- Lived a slow day. It was peaceful and relaxing. Drank 3 cups of coffee and exercised a lot.

### 25.12.09

- Wrote Seelog D108C 차등.
- Visited Barnes & Noble, Valley Fair, then Ace Hardware and Sprouts Grocery Store.

### 25.12.10

- Edited and posted Jeonju Goong video.
- Ran for exercise.

### 25.12.11

- Started day slowly but healthily. Showered, ate.
- Colored several videos. Took out trash. Washed laundry.
- Got grocery from Target and Paris Baguette. Made and ate a sandwich.
- Texted Nadia. Sent her videos and discussed posting plans.

### 25.12.12

- Posted Yang Nyeom video. Edited Stanford video.
- Visited Stanford to meet Andrew. TAP was closed, so we ate at Palo Alto Zareen’s. It was good to see that Andrew is still the same. He scheduled the dinner late, to 8PM, telling me that even 8PM is much earlier than his normal dinner time, then he was 30 minutes late to show up, telling me he pulled an all-nighter yesterday. Hahaha. He is still chasing space and nothing else. Very admirable to see his focus.

### 25.12.13

- Discovered Mark from Stanford HCI had sent me a text message on LinkedIn many months ago, but I had failed to see it. I need to check LinkedIn more often.
- Folded laundry. Listened to podcasts.
- Ran for exercise. Ate diversely as per AI nutrition guide.
- Felt unwell in the evening. Skin felt cold, as if fever. Then I got struck by an episode of migraine. Swallowed pain killers and rested on bed.
- Felt unwell during sleep overnight.

### 25.12.14

- After waking up, felt unwell. Then I ran to the trash can, checked the lentil beans bag, and found that expiration date was 2 months ago. Oh my god. Threw away the rest of cooked lentil. Fortunately, I did not feel too unwell today.
- Ravi texted me. I asked him for a call to ask him product validation questions.
- Shopped grocery at Hankook Market. Made myself a big pot of 버섯전골 with beef. Did not exercise. Went to sleep early.

### 25.12.15

- Have not been able to talk to parents yesterday, so called them briefly for 안부인사.
- Posted photos on personal social media, especially Nadia video in response to KIS Class of 2015 alumni reunion which will happen this week in Korea and therefore I cannot attend.
- Sao and Geraldine texted me about palacejunwon. I plan to call them to use them for product interviews.
- Strolled in park. Did not have energy to run. Called parents.
- In the evening, visited Cupertino Library to work in a new environment. Called and texted Subin.
- Returned home. Ate dinner. Showered. Then worked in office.

### 25.12.16

- I feel calm and filled with energy. In the morning, came up with a limited set of tasks to tackle today so that I do not work infinitely.
- In the morning, worked in office while robot cleaner cleaned all other rooms. During lunch, made it clean office room.
- While eating lunch, studied competitors: MyFitnessPal and other nutrition apps.
- Bought grocery. Called parents. Felt tired. Rested on sofa listening to podcasts. Strolled toward park. No energy to run. On way to park, Ravi called, because he is free today, so called today instead of tomorrow.
- Edited and posted Seop San Sam video.

### 25.12.17

- I am not sure what happened yesterday, but I felt phenomenally tired starting afternoon yesterday. I was asleep for like 10 hours overnight. I showered and ate lunch but I’m still tired. I’m using massager on sofa. Hmm. Maybe I will live slowly today.
- Did live slowly. Strolled for 2 hours. Showered for an hour too. Just did not try to do anything productive.

### 25.12.18

- Edited and posted Gyeo Ja Chae video.
- Rested in bed reading cartoons.
- Got myself to office to work on Nadia video. I feel lazy, but I have to work on it now so that I can show her tonight, then post tomorrow morning (at which point she will be asleep in Korea).

### 25.12.19

- Woke up. I still feel slow. What is going on this week? InBody says I lost weight and gained muscles, so that’s good. Ate leftover food from yesterday.
- I feel sentimental today. I should write Seelog.
- Strolled. Exercised. Posted Nadia video.

### 25.12.20

- Cut hair and purchased grocery to cook something for Charlotte tomorrow.
- Finished drafting brand story for the rest of this year.
- Posted Salt Farm video.

### 25.12.21

- Today was a busy busy day!
- Worked hard on preparing a post that will hit the peak of my culinary journey: showing that I have become the category leader in Korean Palace Cuisine. Searching on Google for Korean Palace Cuisine chefs who are most famous, top, best, so on, all show my name. With this, I declared that I will open a fine-dining restaurant in Seoul.
- Cooked Seop San Sam. Visited Charlotte for a holiday party at her house. In the living room, she and I sat together on a 2-people sofa during our conversations with guests. I left at midnight.

### 25.12.22

- Wow. I have been so busy lately that I do not have diary records caught up. I will spend today catching up on writing work.
- I napped. Then wanted to go to a library, but just stayed at home. Posted Yeowoobi video. Not very impactful, but it set up a bridge to the pivot that I will post tomorrow.

### 25.12.23

- Woke up at dawn, but decided to stay up to work. I did not work a lot yesterday.
- Finished writing text post to go with Senches video.
- Napped.
- Folded laundry.
- Posted “Sengches” video. Announced my plan to end culinary journey to focus on nutrition app. Fortunately, fans are supportive.
- Worked at Mountain View Library. I was able to focus well there.
- Purchased a Pentel mechanical pencil at Office Depot. I like it!
- Returned home. Ate dinner. Went to sleep.

### 25.12.24

- Storm was harsh overnight. I woke up at 2AM and was unable to return to sleep until 4AM.
- In the morning, visited Trader Joes for grocery shopping.
- During the day, felt tired, unsure about my own product idea. Strolled while calling parents, but returned home pretty soon to shower and nap.
- Napped.
- Posted a video about Oisobaki.

### 25.12.25

- Left home to go stroll at the park, but sudden rain sent me back home. Saw double rainbow, very vividly colored. Decided to start developing the Palace app today.
- 10,785 days since I was born, 171 days since I started being an influencer, I am starting developing Palace app.
- It rained, so I just exercised muscles very slightly at home. Showered. Worked on Christmas post. It was a great recap of the story so far.

### 25.12.26

- Cooked cod jjigae. It was not that good.
- It rained today as well, but I strolled in rain, because I did not want to be stuck at home today too. Called parents. I sense that I am annoyed and tired, possibly due to lack of nutrients, and definitely because I am not confident that I am on top of my work right now.
- Drove to Cupertino Library. But the library was so full that I was not able to find a place to sit. Returned home.
- Felt very tired. Discomfort seeing light. Rested on sofa. It felt good not seeing anything.
- In the evening, I was not able to focus on work anymore. Tried games. It was good. I am wondering if I should take January off. Maybe tell followers that I will get some rest and then come back. That will let me plan out how to take the story.
- Taking time off from day-to-day work was good. Got to work on improving Manglasabang Data Palace. Decided to use MCP with Cursor. AI agents to directly access my Notion documents.

### 25.12.27

- Stayed up until 6AM working on Manglasabang. Woke up at 10AM and resumed working on it.
- Decided to reduce posting on @palacejunwon to just 2 more posts this year: “25.12.28: Last Day in Korea” and “25.12.30: First Day in California”. This will free up time for me to take care of ending this year well and preparing to start next year strong.
- Worked on Manglasabang. It can now perform useful tasks such as reviewing my documents in Notion, fetching me the important news articles from the internet, and interacting with me through emails. I decided to make a small mobile app with Mail Mode and Call Mode to showcase on camera.
- Ran for exercise. Called parents. Visited Trader Joe’s.
- Worked on Manglasabang until late night. Read comics while monitoring AI coders.

### 25.12.28

- Today is the last day I will spend on developing the first version of Manglasabang. It is already useful to me, but polish it enough to be showcased on palacejunwon.
- Strolled at park. Chose 완식 as the topic to focus on in Y30.
- Made a decent lunch. Ate while on a call with parents. Wanted to rest a little after lunch. Took nutrient supplements. Drank coffee then monitored AI coding while resting.
- Discovered that OpenAI ChatGPT and Anthropic Claude do a pretty good job on their own too given access to Notion pages. Hmm. Maybe I will use them more given stability.
- Closed Demeditations document.
- Resting and playing felt so good today. Did not want to work. But did do a little bit of work and posted photos from Gamae.
- Finished developing Manglasabang mobile app with Mail Mode and Call Mode though I may need to polish some details in coming days. For now, pushed to GitHub.

### 25.12.29

- Stayed up until late just reading comics for fun and not doing anything particularly productive. Oh it was so fun. How long has it been since I have not thought about work? I read 라면요리왕. It was fun. But at the end of the comic, the hero leaves his stable job to start his own ramen restaurant. When I closed my eyes to sleep after finishing the comic, I got a vivid image in my mind of the day I left work. I could remember going to the office early to go to my manager’s desk and place my resignation letters. That was years ago. It was such a nice office. What am I doing right now alone at home? Will I succeed. 돈을… 돈을 벌어야한다… During sleep, had a weird fever flash. I felt like acnes were bursting on body skin below neck. Too much Vitamin B recently?
- Woke up. Decided to focus on chores today.
- Cooked and ate lunch.
- Visited Chase bank. Deposited $10K then withdrew $200 in cash for coin laundry machine. I didn’t realize how many coins $200 is. So heavy. So daunting to think about the task of earning money.
- Visited Daiso. Looked for a cleaning brush. Couldn’t find any. It’s hard to live in America. Drove to World Market. Couldn’t find any. Ha…
- Total Wine was next to World Market. I wanted to buy a bottle of wine to celebrate end of year on my own so I visited the store and explored a bunch of aisles: Ice Wine, Red Wine, White Wine, Port Wine, other alcoholic liquors. My final choice was Joseph Phelps Pinot Noir 2022.
- At Safeway, purchased grocery including beef ribeye and cheese to eat with wine.
- At home, cooked, dined, wined, had a good time off work. Let me play well today, then work regularly diligently starting tomorrow.
- Suffered another episode of entire body feeling itchy at night, about an hour into sleep.

### 25.12.30

- Cleaned floor. Paid $2K of rent (due to bank limiting how much I can send money to an account I have never sent money to before).
- Suffered low productivity: low energy, difficulty focusing, bad mood. I suspect wine. Called parents but I was not able to maintain positive energy.
- My olfactory sense has been keen in recent days. This is usually associated with migraine or nutrition imbalance. Be careful in coming days.
- Woke up late at night. Worked on writing Seelog D108C BEYOND. Enjoyed wine and cheese. Finished wine.

### 25.12.31

- Woke up late, at noon. Showered. Drank a cup of coffee and ate a banana.
- Paid rent.
- Migrated to Notion Calendar from Outlook Calendar.
- Ended Profile D99C. Set up Profile D108C.
- Went on a stroll. It was raining, but I did not want to be locked up at home for so many days in a row. While writing Seelog episodes about the start of 엑스쿡스, realized I am feeling blocked on progressing with Company work, because I don’t feel like I have a strong story. Palace app as it stands does not have a heroic story. I need to fix this soon. I thought about antagonizing American shareholder capitalism, represented by the Coupang Korea CEO Harold Rogers who just looks plain evil and will be a great enemy to execute publicly.
- Called parents. Made myself some curry while watching 흑백요리사2.
- Napped.
- At night, wrote Seelog D108C episodes: 유네스코, 예미. Celebrated turn of the year on a call with my parents. I was reading to them the Seelog episodes I had just finished writing when the year transitioned.
### 26.01.31

- My body health is at a very low today. I was already feeling unwell lately, and needed recovery, then I had to work all night yesterday unexpectedly on Palacepedia in order to capitalize on the opportunity opened by OpenClaw and Moltbook. While working sleeplessly, I felt feverish with intense headache, and took painkiller. I woke near sunset with a feeling much close to a migraine.
- Strolled. Called parents. Told them about how Moltbook broke down and how this examples teaches us perils of succeeding too quickly.
- At home, tried to rest, but I was in too much pain and discomfort to fall asleep. Worked lightly at desk, with e-paper and notebook, no computers.

### 26.01.30

- Woke up with a decent level of energy. I am not filled with energy, but I have enough to energy to live a normal productive day today.
- Worked on Palace most of day. Ate dinner. Then during evening shower, came up with idea for Palacepedia: use Moltbook agents to work on an open wiki dedicated to nutritional health of people. Purchased palacepedia.com and started working immediately.
- Moltbook broke down, so I was unable to capitalize on the opportunity, but I got a lot of work done for Palacepedia thanks to this sudden sprint. Called parents. Rested in the morning.

### 26.01.29

- Woke up at middle of night feeling bodily unwell. Stomach felt very unwell. Did I overeat? I am also suspecting pistachio nuts. I have felt unwell in the past after eating lots of pistachio nuts.
- Even after waking up again after sunrise, felt unwell. Decided to live a slow day, mostly taking care of computer chores.
- Downloaded music files. Strolled while listening to music. Mind is unable to focus. After returning home, gave mom a call. She is sick with cold. I ended the call soon to let her get more sleep. I am also feeling slightly feverish: head aches and joints ache.
- Ate dinner. Threw out trash.
- Watched a Netflix show called Influencers.
- Yesterday, heard about OpenClaw that can live on a local machine, call Claude Code on the local machine, and be texted from normal chat apps. So I set it up on my laptop computer today.

### 26.01.28

- Drove to Orinda. Listened to podcasts on my way there, mostly about how to use AI coding agents well.
- At Orinda, had lunch with Mark. See Contacts.
- Hiked Briones. Bear Creek trail. I liked it.
- On my way back home, visited Trader Joe’s for some grocery.
- Ate dinner. Showered. Went to sleep.

### 26.01.27

- Watched Business Proposal.
- Laundered dark clothes.
- Strolled.
- I felt quite unwell bodily today. Did I get not enough sleep?
- I was going to post against Coupang yesterday, but I had too little time after work, so I pushed it to today. Then today, U.S. government in the executive branch and the legislative branch attacked Korea for attacking Coupang, and American citizens are against Korea now. Wow, I’m glad I didn’t post yesterday.
- Finished writing Brand Story FY26 S2 V2.

### 26.01.26

- Woke up at 3AM. I will stay awake until at earliest 10PM today. I also now find coding work rather boring, and want to work on marketing work. It is good that I like to switch around.
- Purchased Midjourney to ideate some aesthetics with images.
- Worked on Brand Story all day.

### 26.01.25

- Worked until sunrise. Added Sentry.
- Finished watching Halo.
- After waking up in the afternoon, got ingredient recommendations from Palace, then shopped grocery at Trader Joe’s. Ate a heavy dinner. Worked on coding after dinner. Went to bed early.

### 26.01.24

- Worked until sunrise. Added PowerSync.
- Watched Halo.
- After waking up in the afternoon, called mom and dad, strolled at park. Laundered bed sheets.

### 26.01.23

- I woke up feeling significantly better emotionally. I think it’s either nutrient supplements I took yesterday for the first time in a while, or drinking wine yesterday and sleeping without concerns.
- After wandering for few days, I have found answers that are, although not satisfying, still good enough for now. First, encode into a tenet that we will not invent. We will only work on problems people are already paying for. That’s the luxury way. So we will eat up MyFitnessPal and Noom. Second, we will earn money as a way to finance our next operation. It is true that food tracking apps market is small. Still, making money in it is the cheapest way for us to fund our next operations, especially in comparison to partnering with any VCs which we do not want to work with. So, we will move ahead with launching Palace as is soon.
- Paid CSC. Recorded car maintenance service details.

### 26.01.22

- Lived a slow day. Read book a little more. Played game a little bit. Watched Halo.
- Cleaned floor. Laundered dark apparels.
- Set up the code repo to let multiple coding agents work on separate features at once.
- Fixed language preference persistence bug.

### 26.01.21

- Woke up only after 3H of sleep.
- Reserved haircut.
- Learned that salmon and beef only last 1 to 2 days and 3 to 5 days at most respectively in the fridge. I have both from 7 days ago. Discarded salmon. Started making Galbi Jjim out of beef right away.
- After preparing Galbi Jjim, slept until afternoon. Woke up to go pick up the car. I’m intentionally living today slowly without thinking much about work.
- Borrowed several books electronically from public libraries.
- Picked up car. Purchased grocery on way back home. Called mom on way back home. Mom suggested fringe ideas to make Palace app better and I noticed the app must be weak at its core to be inviting such fringe feedback. If the core was strong, then customers will be enthusiastic about it even if details are lacking. Damn it. I felt hopeless for the next indefinite hours. Consider me in this state, while eating, while showering, while working on this or another thing, during sleep, until a diary record explicitly says I have regained hope and have returned to path.
- Ate dinner.
- Napped.
- Read Unreasonable Hospitality which is a book about Eleven Madison Park.
- Worked on Seelog. Outlined D109C.

### 26.01.20

- Woke up. Saw a grid of light dots in my vision. I must be too tired. Gotta rest.
- Drove to Tony Brother Auto Shop. Dropped off car for maintenance service.
- Walked to Sunnyvale Downtown. Ate Bo Kho noodle soup at Pho Ever. It was good!
- Called mom. Returned home.
- Worked on Palace. Git commited and pushed “Made the first version of the Palace app”.
- On bed, played Xenoblade 3 game on Nintendo Switch for about 30 minutes. I think I might buy Lenovo Legion Go S with Steam OS.

### 26.01.19

- Woke up at 7AM. Called parents. I think I need to rest a bit today. Worked for 4H in the morning. Then decided to sleep more.
- Woke up at 4PM. Decided to eat out. Visited Subway. Then visited Barnes and Nobles. Then returned home. Showered. Watched Foundation S2 while working on code.
- Worked extremely long hours on code. Finished watching the entire season of Foundation S2. Ended work at 6AM.

### 26.01.18

- Unfortunately, yesterday went TOO well. I stayed up all night. After failing to fall asleep from 3AM to 4:30AM, I gave up and started working on Palace code again, while calling parents since it is a good time in Korea. It is now 7AM. They went to sleep, and I got a cup of coffee to work full force.
- Worked for 7H on coding. Then fell asleep. After waking up in the afternoon, strolled at park, ate dinner.
- Worked for about 5 hours. Ended work early at 10PM. I am too tired. I will shower, then rest in bed watching The Foundation S2.

### 26.01.17

- Woke up in the morning, then decided to sleep again. I was so sleepy yesterday that it felt painful. Woke up at 3AM.
- Today, I will stroll but not run, then exercise muscles at night. On my way back home, I will buy wasabi and cook salmon for dinner.
- From now on, divide 7D across recovery and homemaking, recording and editing for marketing, product and technology, administration and management.
- Worked on code at home. Ate dinner. Exercised muscles.
- I was quite productive today. Happy enough that I found myself humming during night shower. Keep living like this.
- I think what worked well today is “rotation station”. At coding station (desk), I sent off coding agents. Then I moved to exercise station, then exercised. Then I moved to reading station then read an article. Then I returned to coding station. This made it possible for me to get a lot done while also taking care of health. Added Rotation Station to Y30 Campaign.
- Ended work at 1:30AM. Good enough again!

Only skip Exercise on at most 2D out of 7D. 

At least 1 Record

At least 20H Code

At least 2D include Post Edit

### 26.01.16

- Woke up at 9AM. A bit tired, but I think this is a good tiredness that comes from having worked out yesterday. Listened to news, did homemaking chores such as folding laundry.
- I think Palace is now entering polish stage in preparation of private tests. I think I will be able to finish preparing it for private tests this weekend.
- I was so sleepy today. I was not able to open my eyes at desk. Showered, but still could not. Drank 2 cups of coffee, but still could not. Went outside for a stroll and a run, but ran with eyes closed. Returned home, drank another cup of coffee, showered again. I still feel so sleepy. I feel so sleepy that I feel pain. I stayed awake from 9AM to 5PM. I will resist sleep until 10PM no matter how sleepy I am, even if I am super unproductive. Then I will sleep at 10PM or later. Even now as I write this record at 5PM, I can barely keep my eyes open.

### 26.01.15

- Woke up at midnight again after 3.5H of sleep. Just got out of bed to work. I am no longer confident in my own discipline to shield myself from chores and other bad lifestyle habits during the work week. Starting today, start blocking out work hours physically using methods like going to libraries. Since I am very awake right now, just use the 8H of dawn to get today’s work done, then I may use daytime for chores including fitness.
- Updated Product Plan and Technology Plan to support usa_gov_dfa_real_food. Worked on code. Recorded call with Subin about sesame oil. Set up FY26 S2 Sprint Log to better manage Company work.
- Got sleep from 8:30AM to 4:30PM. Ran outside right away to use daylight time, but I was not really able to get my heartrate up since I was too tired from having woken up too recently.
- At home, worked on coding, from 5:30PM to 1:30AM, with dinner and shower included in that time. Started ending work at about 1AM. Healthy enough!

### 26.01.14

- Woke up tired of course because I went to sleep very late. At 8:30AM! Then I woke up at 1:30PM. I drove to Costco for grocery. Returned home. Cooked dinner with full effort. It was delicious. But I fell asleep right after dinner. I was so busy doing nothing today. Nothing got done.

### 26.01.13

- Woke up sleepy. Not just tired. Not just unproductive. But sleepy. I woke up at 2PM, so I was asleep for 12H. Though I showered, then drank coffee, then ate food, then consumed nutrient supplements, then went outside for a bit of a stroll mixed with some light running, I was just unable to wake up. I sat down at desk to work, but I was too sleepy to read anything or think anything. Decided to give up today.
- Mind wandered. I found myself searching for handheld gaming computers, not just for playing games, but also to replace my old broken laptop with a new Windows Linux computer that I can keep for a long time. Did not make a purchase though. I tried to sleep but I was unable to fall asleep. Got up at 4:30AM to write Seelog. I tried thinking about other kinds of tasks too, but Seelog is the task I wanted to do now.

### 26.01.12

- At night, cooked and ate mala tofu using mala xiang guo sauce. It was so spicy. I had to spit out mucus in a rice bowl while eating. I didn’t know I had a bowlful of mucus in my body.
- Got some sleep. Use today for recovery and homemaking chores.
- Got a lot of sleep. Woke up at 2PM. Showered. Drank coffee. Ran dishwasher. Ran laundry machine. Threw away trash. Strolled until sunset. Purchased grocery just for today. Hung up laundry to dry.
- Return to healthy lifestyle starting today.
- During dinner, Subin called. She pitched to me a joint venture idea for luxury sesame oil.
- After dinner, worked on Palace Mobile. Ended work at 2AM to start sleeping early. Will start waking up around or before sunrise eventually.

### 26.01.11

- Woke up at 2AM. Felt unwell from bad mood and caffeine from yesterday dinner. Body health was in a bad state. I was hungry, and tired, but unable to rest or relax or sleep, and unable to think about anything. Unable to speak sentences easily on a call with mom. Wanted to work but was unable. Completely unable.
- Watched 미생. Worked on data models.
- Met Prasad. See Contacts record.
- After returning home, rested. Focused on sleeping.

### 26.01.10

- Worked on code from waking up to dinner.
- 아버지 친구 왕사장한테 초대 받아서 팔로알토에 갔는데, 영어도 한국어도 할 줄 모르고 중국어만 할 줄 아는 사람들이 대부분이라서 3시간 저녁 식사 내내 대화를 할 수가 없었다. 분노에 가득찬 상태로 집에 돌아왔다. 바빠 죽겠는데, 최근 며칠 동안 밤 새 일하는 일이 일상적이었는데, 그렇게까지 열심히 아껴온 시간들을 이렇게 날릴수가 있나. 개자식들.

### 26.01.09

- Closed Marketing Plan document “for now”. I was unable to close it for the entire season. I will return after a month.
- I want to go solo hiking sometime late January after busy work is done so that I can get some plan work done. Start collecting questions to think about during the hike.
- After waking up, drank coffee, ran dishwasher, ran robot mop, ate lunch, strolled. Then drove to Cupertino Library to focus on writing plans before coding tonight.
- At the library, planned product details especially technical details.
- At home, coded until sunrise.

### 26.01.08

- Stayed up all night working. I am suddenly quite productive, after several days of severe sickness. I got a lot of work done coding the Palace app as well as writing the Marketing Plan.
- I feel energetic today for some reason. After working until 8AM, rested until 10AM, slept until 2PM, then visited Trader Joe’s for food, and returned home, and I am still feeling well right now. I wonder if taking supplements well recently boosted health. After lunch, I will stroll for sunlight before resuming work.
- Prasad texted. We will meet on Sunday to catch up over brunch.
- After a late lunch, I was enjoying a cup of coffee, then realized the sun had already gone down behind the mountain. Hurried outside to stroll at least a little bit before darkness. I had 30 minutes to sunset.
- After stroll, showered, then napped.
- Worked in the evening. Got a lot of coding work done. Explored 30 separate aesthetics designs, then made 3 coding agents each develop 6 aesthetics versions for a total of 18 designs on top of the 3 that were designed originally by the 3 coding agents. I will review them tomorrow to choose one aesthetics and move on.

### 26.01.07

- Posted Galaxy Moohan video. It scored badly. Well, what can I do about a failure that already happened? I can only work on the next work.
- I woke up with a flu-like headache. I had headache since yesterday. Did I eat something wrong? Perhaps the egg plant was too old? Or did oven emit carbon monooxide? I felt unwell when oven air reached office room. Or perhaps I am overmethylated due to nutrient supplements? I don’t know. Ate white rice, tomato egg, and mackerel jorim from yesterday. But I feel cold inside, cold in the guts. And I had headache and even sneezed. Hmm…
- Visited Mountain View Library. was unsure whether to since I am feeling slightly unwell, buy decided it will be relaxing to sit down at a quiet place and get writing done. Oh no! I forgot to bring my laptop. I only have 2 phones, a paper notebook, and a pencil and some pens.
- My brain was shut down today. After returning home, I realized not only had I forgotten to bring my laptop with me, and also the music player (I only brought my earphones), I also left a small fire open on stove. Oh my god. I was unable to think about grocery. I was unable to work. Is it the pain killer and illness? Headed to bed.
- Woke up at 10:30PM. Decided to work a little before going back to sleep since I feel much better.

### 26.01.06

- Morning shower. Morning coffee. Morning stroll at the park while planning out how to spend today. It was productive. I’m confident in my plan for today.
- On my way back home, spontaneously detoured to buy some vegetables at Whole Foods. I was able to eat fresh vegetables for lunch instead of delaying until dinner or another day. It was good for productivity.
- Ran dishwasher. Ran robot cleaner. Folded laundry.
- At desk, wrote diary.
- Scheduled car service for Jan 21st which is the earliest they can do. He sounds trustworthy over the phone. Price quote was given upfront as well. I may want to ask for deeper inspection.
- Got Meta Verified badge again by purchasing the most expensive plan they just launched today. Gosh. Capitalists. I feel no remorse in what I will do today: declare a war against them shareholder capitalists.
- Finished preparing text post and short video to post on @palacejunwon tomorrow.

### 26.01.05

- Woke up at 3:30AM. Too tired. Brought a bottle of water and the handheld massaging machine back to bed, then massaged my muscles for 30 minutes.
- Got some more sleep but I was very tired all day today. Decided to rest.
- Ate leftover 갈비찜 for lunch.
- Rested all day. Watched movies: Arrival on Galaxy Moohan, 설국열차 on Galaxy Tab, and some comedy movies on iPhone. Discovered that Tubi is free and has great movies. Has better movies than Netflix indeed. Did not use brain power pretty much all day.
- Ate sweet potatoes and milk for dinner.

### 26.01.04

- I was worried about work. I was unable to sleep. Set up cameras in the kitchen for recording a new video.
- Got some sleep.
- Recorded videos. Recorded videos with Galaxy Moohan. Installed Palace app. I did not code an app yet, so I took the Manglasabang app and changed name and icon to show that a Palace app exists in the video. I did not open the app in the video.
- Rested by taking a stroll although it was raining. Also ran a load of laundry despite rain.
- Ran robot cleaner to clean the floor.
- Finger skin is injured, possibly due to laundry machine. I need to find out why laundry machine is ripping my clothes and now my skin. I inspected the washing machine but I was unable to find it today.
- Recorded making 갈비찜. It was my first time using Le Creuset pot.

### 26.01.03

- I woke up with enough energy, but I know everything I want to do today cannot be done with the total sum of energy I can hold in my body on a given day. What will I focus on…
- Finished cleaning the kitchen although many items were just pushed to elsewhere in home for now. Good enough to move on to recording videos. I can organize elsewhere while recording and posting new videos.
- Fueled car. Purchased grocery. Got Le Creuset pot and Nordic Ware wok.
- I had not eaten anything all day, and it was already dinner time, so instead of cooking, I drove to a nearby Indian pizza restaurant. I ate Tandoori Chicken Pizza. It was delicious.
- Napped.
- Decided to antagonize Coupang and befriend Trader Joe’s in our Brand Story.

### 26.01.02

- Ended FY26 S1.
- Spent 4 hours trying to organize the kitchen to prepare it for video recording for palacejunwon. Failed to finish. After about 2H, productivity dropped to near zero.  I will do the rest tomorrow.
- While organizing kitchen, ran laundry loads: bed sheet and blanket.
- After ending kitchen organization for today, I was very tired and wanted to just eat hastily, but decided to first shower and relax so that I don’t eat hastily. But I decided to just go with century egg curry rice as originally planned during peak tiredness, not only because I was still tired after shower but also because I determined I won’t be too low on nutrition even if I opt for this menu today.
- I am so tired. I will eat dinner, then I will just do following tasks today: plan posts, write Seelog, see if I have the energy to exercise. I may want to nap before doing all that.
- Ate dinner.
- Studied CIA textbook for nutritional cooking.
- Studied 요리왕비룡. I like it. I need to reference it for brand story.

### 26.01.01

- I considered posting on palacejunwon at a pace of one post per 1 or 2 or 3 days and making sure to celebrate end of last year and start of this year, but I decided not to. I am signaling to myself that posting videos is no longer the most important operation this year. Focus on using the brand we made last year in order to sell product and earn revenue.
- In the morning, first showered, then started day with chores. Washed laundry that I was drying in home failed to dry in many days, so I turned on a heater to forcefully evaporate the remaining water. During sorting laundry, found the phone stand (which attaches to the wall) which I had lost a week into returning to America and had been looking for since a month ago, and also a ton of robot mop fabric mops that I was looking for. I think this year is off to a lucky start! A year to get done what I wanted to get done for a long time in the past!
- I think it would be a good tradition for me to use the last days of a year to do things I should have done during the year but have delayed repeatedly (aka painful tasks), then use first few days of the next year to finally do some joyful things I did not spare time for. Having said, I think I will go eat ramen today. I have been thinking about ramen for a few days, because I’ve been reading a comic about ramen. But I did not choose to go during lunch, because Manglasabang AI told me recently that I keep using prime time for unimportant work rather than important work. Ate lunch briefly. Reviewed last year.
- Strolled. Planned next year. Returned home, finished reviewing last month, finished planning this month.
- Decided to rename the current fiscal year to FY26. After FY1, FY2, FY3, it is FY26. This will make sense if and only if I start making money in FY26, so make sure to do so!!!
- Drove to Marufuku Ramen. Ate Hakata Tonkotsu Ramen. It was good.
- Visited Westfield Valley Fair. Checked out Le Creuset cast iron ovens in person. Tried to buy one, but Williams-Sonoma did not have any in stock. Returned home.
- Purchased several cookwares including Le Creuset Chef Oven and Iwatani Portable Butane Gas Stove.
- Finished ending Y29 and starting Y30.
- I feel ready to return to work. Tomorrow, I will spend time making posts.
### 26.02.28

- Ordered a red Caran Dache mechanical pencil.
- Made Ace apply to housings: La Avienda. Meridian is not open to applications.
- Ate lunch.
- Posted on Threads as @palacejunwon that I will not be returning today and cited attack by U.S. and Israel against Iran as the reason.
- Drove to San Francisco North Point to visit Prasad. See notes in Contacts for details.

### 26.02.27

- Finished writing Seelog D108C BEYOND.
- During writing, strolled at park. Returned to park to run.

### 26.02.26

- Phew. I’m quite tired. I got a lot done this week. Let’s pace my life, and push off what I can to next week.
- Showered. Are a light lunch. Rested on sofa then visited the park to sit and think about next plans.
- Reviewed M359.
- Worked on writing Seelog D108C 위키드. It’s been hard to write this episode, because it’s a painful memory. I’m condensed it again and again but it is still at over 2X my own word limit.
- Paid rent. Informed I will notify them my intent to vacate or not by end of next week.

### 26.02.25

- Woke up then started working on Palace Fund.
- Called parents. Explained Palace Fund. Dad likes the idea! I already explained to mom yesterday, and she sounds quite ambivalent. Both will do whatever I tell them I want to do.
- Strolled at the park twice today. Ate lunch. Otherwise worked on Palace Fund all day.
- Formed Palace Fund LLC in the State of California.
- Ended work at midnight. Somewhat.

### 26.02.24

- Woke up at a similar time in the morning as recent days, but I think it would be a good idea for me to go to bed earlier starting today, to wake up nearer to sunrise.
- Showered. Saw that Ace was able to connect to Slack without using OpenClaw. Completely migrated off OpenClaw now. Ace is also connected to Notion.
- Reviewed personal tax filings that Ace had prepared for me. Sent in. This was such a great experience. AI! Both were accepted: USA and CA.
- Made Ace start reviewing my finances from 24.09.22 to 25.12.31.
- While Ace is working, I ate lunch, while calling parents. I told my parents that ACE@MLSB has been super helpful in helping me file my taxes.
- After lunch, drove to Costco, bought grocery. I felt decently energetic. I’m eating well, exercising well, and sleeping well. This is working! Woohoo!
- After returning, ran for exercise at the park. Called mom about how Ace may help her and dad manage money better. As for me, I advised her we should acquire some shares of Anthropic equity.
- After run, showered, wore pajamas, used massager on sofa while drinking a bottle of cold cola and writing diary records on paper and ordering Ace on laptop on the side. This is pleasant and productive!
- Ace reviewed my expenditures over the past 18 months and concluded that my spending is at the lowest possible level. Woohoo!
- Canceled Tidal subscription.
- To Ace Manglasabang, added email channel. Saved Outlook calendars from 2022 to 2025.
- With Ace, came up with a plan to set up Palace Fund Management and Palace Fund I. This is exciting. I was unable to fall asleep at night.

### 26.02.23

- Woke up feeling quiet great. I think the recent lifestyle is working well, be it taking a week-long vacation after about 10 weeks of sprinting, exercising during the day, eating well, and getting enough sleep at night. Let’s keep things this way so that I can live each day productively for weeks and weeks.
- Yesterday, I considered going to Berkshire Hathaway shareholder conference this year, since Mr. Warren Buffet abdicated just last year. This is the start of a new era and possibly one of the last chances to see Mr. Warren Buffet alive. But I don’t think I will. Travel cost will be significant ($1K), and I cannot think of what I will be able to gain by being among a crowd of people who are so different from me: they like to cheer from the sideline whereas I like to be in the game.
- Started day by working on Manglasabang: my data palace. It has been great yesterday helping me take care of financial chores. I am codifying it to be better for long-term use.
- Pushed existing code changes to Palace app code repo to start working on friends-test today.
- Made ACE@MLSB cancel renewal of domains on Cloudflare: bogam.org, excooks.com, palacepedia.org.
- Ran for exercise at the park. The run was more significant than yesterday’s run. Exercised muscles a little too at home. Overall, slightly more exercise than yesterday, on path to ramping up to full exercise routines.
- Ace checked low income housing options for me, but wait time was too long (years). I will ask Ace to search beyond Santa Clara county tomorrow.
- Ace filed applications for Medi-Cal (free healthcare for low-income residents of California) and CalFresh (free money for food for low-income residents of California) for me. Nice! In the past, I heard about how rich people are better at claiming benefits made for poor people, because poor people are too busy to leverage those benefits whereas rich people have lawyers. Ace is like my lawyer now!
- Ace prepared my personal tax filings for last year, but I will review it tomorrow with fresh eyes before sending it to the government.
- Migrated password manager from LastPass to BitWarden.
- Closed Y30 Data Palace document for now. I am satisfied with MANGLASABANG and ACE@MANGLASABANG as they are now. In honor of what Ace was able to get done for me today, I added an episode for it in Junwon Seelog D110C.

### 26.02.22

- Woke up feeling quite tired, possibly due to exercising for the first time in a long time. Showered while thinking about what tasks to get done today.
- Tomorrow, since it’s a weekday and likely not as crowded as today, I will go take care of chores outside of home such as FedEx and Costco. Today, I will take care of chores including financial chores.
- Reviewed visit to the Filoli estate for Seelog.
- Filed a claim for unclaimed asset in State of California: $5K.
- Folded laundry, washed dishes, ate lunch while calling parents.
- Ran for exercise, at the park, pretty lightly, at 135-150 bpm.
- Drove to Stanford Shopping Center. Bought Nespresso coffee capsules.
- Worked inside Stanford Green Library.
- Closed FY26 Palacepedia documents.
- Verified that road toll was paid correctly for the Golden Gate Bridge crossing last week.
- Returned home. Ate dinner. Showered. It was midnight, so decided to end day now.

### 26.02.21

- I felt very sleepy today. Woke up in the morning after a full duration for sleep, then returned to sleep until afternoon.
- Strolled at the park, but felt sleepy again after returning home.
- Announced on Threads that I will return as @palacejunwon next week.
- Closed document for M359 Family Trip.
- Closed last month review.
- Paid Delaware franchise tax.
- Unsubscribed from SF Chronicle and ESPN.
- Exercised lightly.
- Called parents. Decided to end work and sleep at past midnight.

### 26.02.20

- Woke up late morning. I will live today cleaning up home and reviewing last week.
- Dad will be playing golf with Samsung CEO in a few weeks. I want to make something with Galaxy Moohan before then since it was a gift from him, so that dad can talk to him about it. I saw mom moved around things in my kitchen, so it will be hard for me to record perspective cooking with Galaxy Moohan at least until I clean up my kitchen again to make it presentable. I had cleaned it up to make kitchen be presentable at the cost of being great for actual usability, but mom reverted it back to usability.
- Deposited $10K cash in bank.
- Bought milk at Target. Made and drank coffee at home.
- Mom and dad reached Korea safely.
- Drove to Saratoga Library. Instead of focusing on reducing wasted time, moved slowly, staying in car in the parking lot to finish listening to a podcast. At the library, reviewed last week.
- See if I can publish Palace on app stores by midnight tonight.
- I am not back to full speed on work yet. Use this chance to take care of big chores such as doing taxes.
- Caught up on diary records.
- Finished writing plan for M359.
- Returned home when the library closed. On my way back home, called mom. Her wrist injury was in ligament, not bone. She is recovering. Once home, ate dinner.
- After dinner, watched Gilded Age. While watching it, became interested in spending some time helping my parents invest cash. They have been asking for my help for several weeks now, but I had been too busy with my own company work. I am somewhat free this week as I ramp back up to full speed on Company work, and that $50M Pebble Beach house is lingering in front of my eyes: I wish my parents will be comfortable in retirement later on as did the old couple who lived in Filoli.

### 26.02.19

- Storm hit here. It rained loudly outside and I was woken up at 2AM. Decided to stay up and do some review work. Drank a cup of coffee at 3AM. Edited videos so that I can gift them to dad especially from Pebble Beach Pro Am so that he can show them to his friends and colleagues. Edited photos and videos for both mom and dad to take home. Got some sleep.
- Mom has been mentioning In N Out burger since before coming to USA this week, so we ate out at In N Out for brunch.
- Visited Filoli. Mom loved it and so did dad. See Seelog.
- Took mom and dad to Menlo Park Draegers Market. Got some photos of me buying grocery, thinking this may be useful for palacejunwon. Mom wanted the bread cookie sticks with nuts she had at Opus One winery years ago, but I was unable to find them during our rushed visit. When she comes back next month, I will find good cantuccinis for her.
- Returned home so that mom and dad can eat dinner, shower. Then we headed to the airport. Dad remarked I prepared this trip to be full and fun until the last moment. Mom remarked dad has not had such a great time off work for a long time. They liked all the places, but the single best spot was Pebble Beach.
- Returned home alone. Wanted to postpone everything to tomorrow, but I found mom had put the bed sheet in laundry bin with a wet towel, so I had to do laundry today. Called parents to wish them a safe pleasant flight. Showered. Rested.

### 26.02.18

- Visited San Francisco Premium Outlets.
- Mom and I focused on shopping dad’s clothes rather than our own. I did score a nice red shirt, but otherwise only helped dad while declining clothes for myself which I considered neither necessary nor deserved since I have not been able to make money with Palace yet. We got dad shirts, pants, jackets, and shoes.
- Drove around Dublin to show mom and dad the city I almost chose to live in last year. It made me slightly sad to remember coming here with my ex-girlfriend back then, but I was glad to be with family since proximity to family makes it almost trivially easy to overcome any sadness. My mom thought the city is clean but remote.
- Ate dinner at Xiao Fei Yang. I loved it. Brought me back memories of when we lived in China. We used to visit Xiao Fei Yang often for family dinners since I loved their huo guo.
- Upon returning home, fell asleep immediately after shower.

### 26.02.17

- Woke up near noon. Got a ton of sleep which was good for recovery, but was yet not enough for full recovery.
- Ate lunch at home. Mom twisted her wrist, possibly dislocated bone. I was unhappy she did not go to a hospital while she was in Korea despite my advice to do so.
- Visited stores to see home appliances as dad wanted to. Despaired seeing how sales associates do not promote Samsung products.
- Visited Costco for grocery shopping.
- At home, ate dinner, watched ESPN PGA Pro Am. Saw dad and me. At night, spent time decrypting Disney ESPN DRM so that I can gift dad video clips of us on TV.

### 26.02.16

- Woke up slightly before midnight. Checked weather and planned to take parents to Napa Valley tomorrow. Finished making a plan for tomorrow.
- Ate late dinner with mom and dad. Huo Guo.
- Woke up at 7AM. Showered. Ate breakfast at home. Departed home.
- Drove past San Francisco. Drove on Golden Gate Bridge which mom and dad wanted to see. Told them about the stories of LVMH and Hermes. Road to Napa from Sonoma was flooded. Took a small detour. Visited a local home hardware store for bathroom. Dad and mom want to go visit Home Depot tomorrow.
- Visited Domaine Chandon, Restoration Hardware Yountville, Joseph Phelps Winery, CIA Greystone, Gotts Roadside. See Seelog.
- Drove through rain back home.
- Watched PGA Pro-Am on ESPN.

### 26.02.15

- Visited Pebble Beach to watch PGA Pro Am golf tournament. See Seelog D110C for details.
- After returning home, ate lunch that mom had prepared for us. Then collapsed in bed.

### 26.02.14

- Eyes opened at 5AM. Did not feel sleepy enough to fall back asleep, so stayed up writing diary records. Fell asleep at 6AM.
- Alarm clock rang at 7AM. Saw it. But fell asleep again. Woke up at 9AM. Mom and dad were awake but must have let me sleep. Original plan was for all of us to wake up at 7AM and depart home at about 8AM.
- Got coffee at Voyager Craft Coffee. Wait was long, but fortunately, mom liked their coffee a lot! She called it fresh.
- Fueled car at Valero near home.
- Departed to Monterey. Car suggested Santa Cruz route, but I chose Gilroy route since road has wider view and is more straight. Thought it’d be more comfortable for mom and dad. We enjoyed the road. Though there were lots of cars and we were stuck in congestions along the way, we enjoyed conversation in the car.
- On way to Monterey, I was surprised how crowded the road was. We suspected it was due to all following factors taking place at once: weekend, a long weekend due to Monday holiday, Valentines day, Lunar new year. I thought it was odd that there were signs on the road saying “Golf event, get off here”. What golf event?
- At the entrance of 17 mile drive, I saw the sign that says “17 mile drive closed to tourist traffic”. What? I drove up, and said I have lunch reservation at Spanish Bay. Guard did not let me in without showing him the reservation confirmation. Wow! Thank god I had Roy’s booked in advance! So glad I tend to plan well! He let me through. I asked him what’s happening today, and he told me it’s PGA Pro-Am. I told him I don’t know much about golf but it must be a big event, and he looked at me with an incredulous face, and said it’s been their proud signature event for close to 90 years. Wow! We entered the resort premise, and my parents were excited we might see some famous pro golfers today!
- As I predicted, my parents loved Spanish Bay! The peaceful scenery, relaxed guests, beautiful nature.
- Dined at Roy’s. Mom was familiar with Chef Roy Yamaguchi from Turtle Bay Hawaii. Dad was unfamiliar with prix fixe course meal and enjoyed how delicately the flavors were balanced! Course meal had caviar, venison, plus more. A waitress came over with two glasses of wine and asked, “Wine tasting? This is Paysan and this is Sunset. I said, “Okay!” because I thought they brought it over as a complimentary service, so I asked her to hand them both to dad, but I later found she had mistaken tables and brought us glasses that another table had ordered! So dad got to enjoy two free glasses of wine. Hahaha. What a lucky day.
- During lunch, I searched web, asked waiter, and asked front desk reception to learn more about the golf event happening at Pebble Beach this weekend. I learned it’s a truly fantastic opportunity to meet the world’s best golfers. I wanted to buy dad a ticket and send him in, so that dad can see star players in-person. Mom and I are that into golf. In the end, I decided to get two tickets to get me and dad in, since dad will be comfortable only if I’m there to guide him and speak English on his behalf. We will come back tomorrow for Pro-Am Final Round! We were very excited the whole day about going to Pro-Am Final Round tomorrow.
- Strolled along the shore trail at Spanish Bay after lunch. Took many photos.
- Took dad and mom to gift shop which I knew they would enjoy. Mom got dad a fancy blue quilted jacket. At the resortwear store, mom also got me a fancy green quilted jacket to go with dad’s. Hihi. I love it! It’s my new favorite jacket.
- Drove along 17mi drive. Dad loved nature. Stopped at many vista points including Restless Sea and Lone Cypress to take photos.
- We only drove through Carmel. Mom and dad were tired.
- On way back, visited Safeway for bathroom. Also bought sandwich ingredients for tomorrow. Later learned no bags or food will be allowed.
- Visited Gilroy Outlet. Shopped for a long time at Tommy Hilfiger. I also bought a pair of brown chino to wear tomorrow.
- Drove to H Mart. Bought a ton of grocery.
- At home, we had 삼겹살파티. My new portable gas burner, on the floor with paper bag cut open to cover the floor. It felt very fun and festive, we all agreed!
- We ate until past midnight. I suggested we go sleep since I can only sleep for like 3 hours. I wrote diary, so I can only sleep for 2.5 hours now. Hahaha.

### 26.02.13

- Woke up at 3:30AM, about an hour before mom and dad boarded the airplane. Called them to wish them a safe flight.
- Worked on palacefate and palaceapp. Finished adding live feed with recent comments and recent trades on palacefate. Finished speeding up food recognition in palaceapp. Fix worked!
- Worked on coding until the very minute I had to depart home.
- Drove to San Francisco airport to pick up mom and dad. They seemed not tired.
- Drove to Stanford. Mom forgot Stanford has art museums so took mom to Cantor, but only after a super short drive around The Oval since dad was mesmerized even from a distance on our way to Cantor.
- Admired art collections at Cantor, starting with Stanford family items. Viewed Rodin sculptures, telling and showing dad how we can chat about art and artists and examine artworks drom super up close, but Leeum in Korea was guarding their Burghers of Calais so carefully. Stantord has the full size one just lying around outdoors in sun and rain where not only are there no guards but students can also just walk up to, walk around, and even slap with a hand if one wants to, then the museum had not just the final pieces of Burgers of Calais but the smaller and earlier versions leading up to the final pieces. Walked around Rodin sculpture garden. Took many photos.
- Drove to Stanford Shopping Center for dinner but realized dad thought he was going to be shopping for Stanford merchandise products, so turned car and drove to Tresidder Parking Lot. Shopped at Stanford Bookstore as dad wanted. Ate Subway sandwich for dinner as mom wanted.
- Returned home. Dad is busy with receiving calls about sending Samsung contractor workers to finish factory work at SEHA factory. Stuck between powerful people at Samsung split on how visa should have been handled.
- Since it wil rain most days next week, decided to use tomorrow which is a rare sunny day for Pebble Beach.

### 26.02.12

- Suffered migraine. Woke up at 8AM. Noticed vision is shiny blurry along peripheral and then as a whole layer, but did not get a blind spot. Took a pill of Tylenol immediately. See record in Fitness Episodes.
- Measured body weight and body fat ratio so that I can track change over the course of next week during which I will eat a lot during my trip with parents.
- Felt better by 10AM. Decided to wrap up some work today before my parents come tomorrow, go to Ikea to buy blankets and some cups then eat lunch there, get hair cut, then buy grocery at Trader Joe’s.
- Finished palacefate-season-1 code. Published publicly. Set up MLSB-Center to have palacefate-season-2 in development.
- Finished Palace app to just enough to test with mom and dad.
- Got a haircut.
- Drove to Ikea. Purchased pillows and a blanket.
- Washed car.
- Washed duvet cover.
- Ate a big dinner.

### 26.02.11

- After I told mom about how I will be low on cash this month, mom and dad decided to visit me for Lunar New Year this immediate weekend. To rescue me from financial hardship, they will each bring me $10K in cash. And I also suspect a factor that convinced my dad, who otherwise is very busy and cannot visit me here in USA, is that I sounded beaten lately due to the failure of Palacepedia.
- Cleaned home for my parents who will be here soon.

### 26.02.10

- Had a dream about working in the media entertainment in Korea producing idols.
- Woke up at about 8AM, coffee at banana for breakfast, took care of some chores such as starting dishwasher and laundry machine.
- I did not want to do laundry yet, because the laundry room is located outside, but I knew I needed to run a throwaway load now to clean the machine since a technician repaired it last week and probably left the machine very dirty. During the short walk to and back from the laundry room, I felt fresh morning air, and I realized how stuffy my home was: air temperature, lighting, all are not very energizing. So I decided to go work at a library, then come back home for lunch. Considered Santa Clara Central Park Library, Mountain View Library, but chose Saratoga Library. It was a great choice. Great view of the mountain. I got there early, about 30 min before library opened. I worked in the car for a bit, waiting for the library to open, reviewing diary records.
- Worked in the quiet room at the library. Felt nice. Spacious, good natural light, good air. I will try to do writing work and AI coding work here during the day, then review code with monitors at night. What I think will work: mornings at Saratoga Library, afternoons at home and park, evenings at Mountain View Library or Stanford Library since Saratoga Library closes earlier in comparison.
- Caught up on Boshin.
- I am going to need to at least $2K more in cash than what I have in my bank checking account right now, but MSFT is down, so I do not want to sell too many shares yet. Then I will need quite a bit more during the next two months for moving home. Damn it. Ah damn. I also need to pay corporate tax this month! Very low on cash this month. I really wish the $550 MSFT sell order I had placed back late last year had gone through.
- Worked on making AI code a new rate limiting method that will scale more cheaply.
- Returned home. Felt discomfort in throat. To prevent sickness, showered, then napped. I did think about whether to stay up, for productivity as well as to set sleep cycle right, but decided I am still in an emergency recovery phase.
- Missed 4PM alarm clock. Woke up at 5:30PM. Called mom. Did homemaking chores. Ate dinner while watching Gilded Age. Packed backpack better for libraries.
- Worked at desk. Felt very sleepy, but I thought I should at least post the Palacefate post today as my only work (and do the coding needed to put up the site along with it).
- Washed blankets.
- Posted Palacefate as a gentleman thief story.

### 26.02.09

- Woke up at 5AM. Called parents, but had low energy. I told them I do think Palacefate can become big, but I just do not have the energy today to explain it well. Wanted to eat instant ramen. Added a ton of crushed garlic and red pepper powder and ate it with canned sardine. It was great. Well, it felt terrible, but I wanted that today.
- I will live today restfully, focusing on recovery. I will look back so that I can maximally harvest all that I made happen last week. I made a ton of mess while moving last week, so I will clean up the messes. It was my intention: to afford the cost of a big mess if I can move just a little faster last week since timing was important. I will also go see the sea! I will wrap up documents, buy grocery, and post about Palacefate. (Retrospect: Did get to spend this day on recovery, including grocery, but decided to push productive work to the next day including reflective work.)
- I felt a strong desire to rest while sinking deeply into a sofa, though I was already sitting (more like lying) on my sofa at home, so I searched for resorts and resort-like places along the Californian coast, such as Asilomar, on phone. Then I thought about sofas at Santa Clara library, considered going to a library, while lying in my bed just relaxing, then decided to sleep some more.
- The morning nap was strategic. Today was a pretty cold day and I was able to skip the cold morning. Ate a light lunch, then drove to Santa Cruz. Listened to Jamie Dimon episode of Acquired podcast.
- Visited Santa Cruz Whole Foods for bathroom, then bought a pack of muffins and a small carton of milk. Called parents.
- Drove to Cotoni, but lost phone signal and was unable to find Cotoni. Parked car at a random place that looked reasonable, then walked a little to an isolated beach called Sand Hill Bluff. Ate a muffin, called mom, figured out where Cotoni is, drove to Cotoni.
- Parked car at Cotoni. The place looked okay, but the trails seemed to be popular among bikers, not hikers. Ate a muffin at the picnic table, then drove to a nearby beach.
- At the beach, found a bench, right before where sand begins, where I could get a full view of the sea. I could feel the cold sea breeze, see some surfers, watch and hear crashing waves. A couple of girls started a tiny fire on the sand, so I could smell some smoke, which was nice to smell as a rare occasion event. I liked seeing Californian coastal cliffs on both sides to the horizon. No ships. Sea spray. Then fog. Just sat there and did not do anything for about 30 minutes. But I did not feel like the sea was reaching my brain or my heart. I was still too filled with work. But it was a good restful activity! And this ocean is only an hour away from my home!
- Started driving toward home, but I was very sleepy, possibly due to staying in cold for a pretty long time. Parked at Costco in Santa Cruz, slept for about 30 minutes.
- Shopped grocery lightly at Costco, no frozen foods since home is still 30 minutes away.
- It's good that I had taken a short nap in car at Costco right before crossing the Santa Cruz mountain because the road was very wavy. On way home, listened to NFL episode of Acquired podcast. After returning home, showered, ate dinner, got in bed.
- Watched many episodes of the HBO TV show Gilded Age. I liked it a lot. HBO shows are great, so much better than Netflix shows. Gilded Age is edited to be slow and relaxing, without flashing lights, so I like that too about this show. I like the plot about US Gilded Age robber barons and drama about upper-class social scenes.

### 26.02.08

- After coming up with Palacefate idea, worked 22H on coding. I was so tired and sleepy at 2:30PM that I wanted to give up and sleep. I saw Super Bowl LX was going to start at 3:30PM, and I was not going to finish all the work by then anyway. But then I looked up what LX means and learned this year’s Super Bowl is the historic 60th Super Bowl. So I stayed up, paused all other work and started working on the bare minimum to show during a livestream, not to get seen by lots of people during the livestream, but just to get a recording with a third-party audited timestamp to show that I did indeed start history today at this exact time. It was a success. Palacefate correctly predicted the winner of Super Bowl LX.
- Fell asleep. Woke up at night. Considered spending the remaining 3H until midnight to do more work, especially to post about Palacefate, but decided I will rest.

### 26.02.07

- Woke up feeling still lost. I still did not feel like doing anything. I did not want to work on Palacepedia at all anymore.
- Called parents for a pretty long time. It was Sunday and dad had a day off. I went out for a stroll and tried to come up with an idea for how to salvage the work I had done for Palacepedia to gain max out of the work that has already been done, but I was already not very hopeful or enthusiastic about prospects of Palacepedia. Considered a 3D game made by Ace and joined by other AIs that grows as AIs discuss ideas (like an infinitely-growing Minecraft), a wiki that chronicles evil acts of evil people like Elon Musk, then came up with an idea about AIs trading on a stock market that expanded to cover all of prediction markets (against dad’s opinion which was to stay focused on stock market), and the idea became Palacefate.

### 26.02.06

- Made an account on Twitter for Palacepedia. Paid for a month of membership subscription in case it helps posts get seen.
- After waking up, called mom, fueled car, visited park. Checked lease end date, and invited mom to come visit me during the last week of March.
- At home, worked on Palacepedia. I will END this work soon.

### 26.02.05

- Woke up feeling low on energy and motivation. I am low on confidence that Palacepedia will work. Went on a stroll trying to ideate how to save this project.
- Checked mails. There were lots but none useful.
- Came up with tie idea of “proactive” AI.
- Ate well. Focused on recovering energy rather than working hard.
- Washed laundry by hand (and feet) in bath tub, because laundry machine is still broken.

### 26.02.04

- Woke up just an hour before sunset. Ran outside.
- During run, heard New York Times podcast episode on Moltbook. Upon hearing that they have not tried Moltbook, texted reporters offering them to use my laptop setup remotely to try it. Explained who I am and why I am livestreaming Palacepedia (and why they may think they and I are after a common goal).
- Recorded talent hiring problems I experienced for Palacepedia.
- Posted Ace on @palacepedia Instagram. At the risk of losing existing followers due to unrelated video about a controversial topic (AI), I posted about Ace on @palacejunwon Tiktok and YouTube. The video was not very popular.
- Ate a big dinner.
- Worked on livestreaming such that viewers can interact with Ace over live chat on YouTube.

### 26.02.03

- My eyes opened at 5AM, only 3 hours after getting to go to bed. But I decided to stay up and work. I need to work as soon as possible to unblock Andrew. I can rest after he starts working while I’m resting.
- On a negative note, Prasad exited. He said he is unable to spend any time on Paalcepedia this wek. I joined a call with him, and we decided to keep him in our team chat to hide his exit from other team members for team morale, and keep him in the story we tell publicly since I lready announced him having joined us. I guess I will have to be the only person doing technical work in our team. And I’ll have to rewrite the story since I was originally not going to be the one doing all the technical work!
- Dylan joined! We called!
- Mark joined!
- Visited Trader Joe’s for grocery. Called parents and complained to them how NONE of my contacts have the ability and the willingness to get work done AND if anything, I have one of the most able contacts in the world!!! At home, ate lunch, resumed working.
- Dylan left. Ravi has been quiet, so I think he also left silently.
- I felt very very very discouraged by so many people leaving. Not discouraged in the sense of ‘I don’t think I want to do this anymore’ but in the sense of feeling so frustrated, so angry and so agitated. Decided to rest and then work.
- Napped. Woke up. As I opened my eyes, I felt hope waning. Hope is so feeble that it is easily threatened even in a heart like mine. How much weaker would it be in the hearts of others? That’s why it is my job as a leader to never display weakness. Returned to desk. Started working.
- Andrew was the last one. All others have left, because the tasks were too daunting to them, so I put together super simple onboarding tasks for him only, like installing a linux vm, then installing claude code with a single line copy paste from a website, then asking claude code to do everything for him after that. Not a line of code. And I also told him what to tell Claude Code. But he was unable to set up a Linux VM and gave up for the day. Ah… Even if he had finished all the onboarding tasks, the work would have contributed nothing to our effort. And onboarding itself was not being done. Later on, or even during the onboarding failure, he texted me thousands of words on why AIs are philosophically scary and dangerous. I could see that was his interest, not getting anything actually done. Decided to consider him lost, and just did my own work.
- When I had “most” team members giving up, I was losing energy for Palacepedia. But now that I lost ALL team members, I feel more desperate than ever! I had contacted my strongest friends to help me out on this. And I couldn’t find a SINGLE one who didn’t feel daunted by the simple tasks I was suggesting to them. Prasad was one of the more technical people, yet even he didn’t seem to feel confident setting up API servers and databases. These are basic level technical skills! Ah.. I’m so glad I invited them for Palacepedia. When Palace as a legit business is growing and I need to hire, this would have appeared as a critical problem. I was going to use Palacepedia to be seen by consumers, but no, I am now changing focus. Sure, be seen by consumers, but also, be a figure that developers want to work with. My personal network proved useless. I need to grow a new one, and top talents are on the internet aka the world!
- Worked on rewriting the story about how I lost the team. Branded Palacepedia and Ace. Worked on setting up a livestream. Tested livestream. Glad I did, because camera set up and account set up proved difficult. Did not fully succeed yet. Worked after sunrise.

### 26.02.02

- Woke up at 10AM. Perfect. 8H sleep from a good enough time to a good enough time, for the first time in a long time. Keep it up.
- Prasad texted back. He’s joining my Palacepedia project this week! I excitedly invited him to a remote lunch meeting, but he responded he’s busy today and wants to meet tomorrow or the day after. I asked him if he can spare me 30 minutes, no 15 minutes, any time today. Hmm. I guess he is not as IN as I am on this. But good enough. It is just up to me in terms of how I’ll plan out our week so that we can best utilize our capacities, and if he has less capacities, it just means I pull some more weight. But I do need to hop on a call with him to plan out so that I know what “more weight” to pull during his absence. He responded. I’ll call him at 3PM!
- Also texted Ravi to see if he is interested in participating in Palacepedia.
- Texted Michelle to see if she is interested in participating in Palacepedia.
- Ravi called. He is joining! He let me know about his friend Sid, so we invited Sid as well. I’m waiting to hear from him.
- Washed clothes. Ate lunch. Called parents.
- Texted Dylan and Andrew. Texted Sao and James. Andrew is joining! James had personal feelings against me, so I cut him off quickly. Contacted many more. Will record later.
- Had a team meeting for Palacepedia. Ravi did not join and it seems like he is hesitating.
- Posted on Threads. Went to sleep.

### 26.02.01

- Woke up at 5AM.
- As soon as my brain powered up, a spark of an idea struck me. I shall live stream Ace the AI pal create and grow Palacepedia! Called parents. Told them about my new idea.
- Paid rent.
- Wrote plans for Palacepedia. Set up a blank computer and a blank phone for Ace.
- At 9AM, I was too sleepy to focus on anything. Decided to sleep. I am going to maintain my energy at a high level this month, playing a marathon rather than a sprint.
- I tried to rest, but I was unable to fall asleep. Got out of bed at 10AM. Cleaned bedroom bathroom which I will use for Palacepedia live stream room. Showered.
- Claimed account names for palacepedia.
- Wanted to eat out today. Chose to eat ramen. Visited Marufuku Ramen. Returned home. Drank coffee at 3PM to stay awake until at least 9PM now that I missed a morning nap chance.
- I am going to be careful today. I am not going to work excessively. I saw how Moltbook failed. I need to play a marathon, not a sprint. I need to work at a pace at which I can upkeep each day. So today, I am only going to announce as @palacejunwon that I am going to start @palacepedia live stream on Feb 8th.
- Worked on branding Ace Palacepedia. Posted on Threads.
- Wow. I wanted to sleep since 9AM. I felt like my body was at a low low all day today. I was only able to go to bed at 2AM.